Ndidamva koyamba za NoFap pafupifupi chaka chapitacho pa subreddit yosiyana, ndikuganiza idafunsidwa, sikuti ndikofunikira. Ndidayang'ana subreddit ndikuganiza kuti ndiyopatsa chidwi. Nthawi imeneyo ndimaganizira mozama zovutazo. Ndinkachita maliseche mwina kawiri patsiku, ndimakhala wokhumudwa kwambiri, kulephera kuyunivesite, namwali (wazaka 20 btw), osachita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikukhala moyo wopanda pake.
Pomwe ndimatsala pang'ono kugunda batani la "Add Badge" ndinayang'ananso pa ulusi wa askreddit kenanso ndikuwonanso ndemanga yotsatira, inati: "bwanji akuchita izi?", Wina anafunsa, ndipo ndinaganiza "eya, bwanji ukuchita izi? ” kenako ndinawona ndemanga yotsatirayi: "Chifukwa chake ali ndi china choti amve kukhala opambana". Ndinaseka, ndipo zikuwoneka kuti anthu enanso ambiri adachitanso chimodzimodzi, chifukwa ndemangayo idapeza mavoti ambiri. Chifukwa chake ndimaganiza kuti "eya munthuyu mwina akunena zowona, ndikutanthauza amatero kwambiri. zovuta ndizopusa ”.
Tsoka ilo sindinayambire NoFap imeneyo. Chifukwa chake moyo wanga udapitilira. Miyezi ingapo pambuyo pake ndinali kudutsa ku Europe, ndekha popanda, ndipo sindinachite chizolowezi chifukwa nthawi zambiri ndimakhala ku Dorms. Ku Brussels ndinakumana ndi mtsikana wokongola kwambiri (kuvomerezedwa kuti anali ndi zaka pafupifupi 30) waku Thailand. Pambuyo pa tsiku lokha mumzinda ndikubwerera ku hostel ndikamuwona ali m'malo ochezera, akudya ndi kumwa. Amandiitanira chakumwa ndipo timatsanulira botolo la vinyo. Pambuyo pake timapita naye kuchipinda ndikupitilizabe kukhala ndi nthawi yopambana. Nkhani yayitali ndinataya unamwali wanga usiku womwewo. Komabe panali zinthu zofunika kwambiri za 2 zomwe ndimaganizira: 1. Ngakhale masiku asanu kapena atatu osadzisewera maliseche adandiwonetsa momwe zinthu zilili. 2. Zinandivuta kuti ndiziugwira mtima, ndipo mwina ndimaipirabe, chifukwa zimapangitsa atsikana kumva kuti ndi osachita bwino.
Chifukwa chake ndikamabwerera kudziko lakwawo ndimayambiranso zizolowezi zanga zakale, osachita chilichonse. Ndimakhala mumzinda wawukulu ndipo ndimakhala pafupi ndi zenera ndikuyang'ana mumsewu wokhala anthu ambiri. Ndinkakonda kuyang'ana pazenera ili ngati momwe mkaidi amawonekera ngakhale zenera lake. Kuwona nkhope zomwetulira, moyo wotanganidwa, komanso nthawi yodutsa. Usiku wina nditagona, linali Loweruka, ine, monga nthawi zonse, sindinkagona. Pamene ndinali pafupi kukwapula foni yanga ndikuwonera zolaula, ndimamva wina akusekerera. Windo likuwonekera lotseguka ndipo anthu ena akuchokera kapena akupita kuphwando / malo omwera. Ena ngati mawuwo anali atsikana, ndi anyamata ena. Mmodzi wa anyamata amenewo akanakhala ine. Kodi ndimatani omwe ndimachita? Ndinaganiza za makolo anga, momwe chisangalalo cha unyamata wawo chiyenera kukhalira, kusakhazikika komwe ayenera kukhala mwa ine… osakhoza kuchita chilichonse. Chifukwa chake ndidachita zomwe ndimayenera kuchita zaka zapitazo: Ndinalira ngati kamwana kanga komwe ndinali.
Ndipo kenako ndidasankha kuti tsikuli linali tsiku loyamba la moyo wanga watsopano. Ndinadzuka natembenuza kompyuta. Ndinalowa pa NoFap ndikuyika baji yanga. Tsiku lotsatira ndidadzuka m'mawa ndikupanga ma push. Kenako ndinapita ku yunivesite, nditatha izi ndinayamba kumenya nkhondo, kusamba, kupita ku laibulale ndikuphunzira. Masiku oyamba anali osavuta, kwenikweni. Ndinalowa nawo masewera olimbitsa thupi ochokera ku yunivesite yanga yomwe imachitika kawiri pa sabata, ndikupitanso kukwera katatu. Mphamvu zidabwerera mthupi langa ngati ndimamwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo, zinali zopenga kwambiri. Ndinamwetulira dziko lapansi, ndipo dziko limamwetuliranso. Sindikudziwa ngati ndikungoganizira chabe kapena mawonekedwe anga alidi abwino. Ndimamva ngati ndikuthamanga kulikonse m'malo moyenda, ndimafuna kufuula mokweza momwe ndimamvera.
Kenako kunabwera zokhumba. Sindinalolere, sindinakhalepo ndi vuto lililonse, ndipo kuwona ngati ili ndi lingaliro langa loyamba nditha kukhala osachepetsa monga ena pano. Koma nayi nzeru yanga yosavuta yomwe imapangitsa madokotala am'deralo kundida (ndikulakalaka): Osawakakamiza! Apezeni ,amwetulirani, akonde iwo ndi thupi lanu! Kwa ine zinali chizindikiro kuti ndili ndi thupi lathanzi komanso kuti ndikupeza bwino. Muyenera kugwiritsa ntchito mphamvuyi moyenera!
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Zotsatira: Kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga ndimadzikondadi ndekha ndi thupi langa. Ndazindikira tsopano kuti ndife anthu ochuluka motani, komanso momwe zimakhalira zovuta kwa atsikana. Ndiwamisala! Ndine wathanzi, ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndipo ndimayenda. Ndikutanthauza kuti ndilibe chibwenzi kapena moyo wawukulu kwambiri. Chifukwa chake, NoFap sikukupatsani mphamvu zoposa. Chifukwa kulibe zopambana. Izi ndi zenizeni. Dzukani, Moyo ndi ntchito yovuta, tsiku ndi tsiku, kwa moyo wathu wonse. Koma ngati mumasewera masewerawa molondola, mutha kukhala pamwamba.
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