Januware 29, 2013 - Moni, okwatirana! Ndiyenera kuti ndine mwamuna wachizungu waku Europe wochokera ku Bulgaria, 20 yo, 1.70 cm masentimita, 70 kilograms - wathanzi ngati ndinganene, maso ofiira ndi amtambo - osawoneka bwino.
Ndimasewera nthawi ndi nthawi: kumangoyendetsa paki, kumeneko ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi (kukoka, kukankha, kumwa, ndi zina) kenako ndimathamangiranso ndikusakanikirana ndi masekondi 10 (ndamva kuti imalimbikitsa testosterone) panjira kunyumba, ndipo nthawi ndi nthawi ndimapita kukalimbitsa thupi kukakweza (Ndikupeza njinga yatsopano posachedwa, chifukwa chake ndikuganiza zowonjezeranso kusakaniza).
Tsopano ndili chaka chachiwiri ku koleji komwe ndidakumana ndi bwenzi langa lokondedwa. Tili mgulu lomweli tikuphunzira za "Librarian and Informational Science". Tsoka ilo chuma kuno sichili bwino ndipo ndili ndi zochuluka zoti ndiphunzire pamapikisano anga omaliza komanso zinthu zambiri zoti ndichite, kuti ndipeze ntchito yaganyu kotero ndikukhalabe ndi makolo anga: - [, koma ndikukonzekera kusintha kuti tikangomaliza maphunziro. Monga ndimanenera ... Ndine wosweka kwambiri.
Moyo wanga wonse ndakhala ndikusangalatsidwa ndi makompyuta ndi ukadaulo (monga bambo anga) ndipo ndili ngati chithandizo cham'deralo; D - anthu nthawi zambiri amandiimbira foni kuti ndithandizidwe ndi zida zawo kapena upangiri wogula china chatsopano / kukweza, koma Sindinatengepo ndalama zondithandizira pokhapokha ndikafunika kugula gawo latsopano kapena china chake kuti ndikonze kompyuta. Ndipo ndimakonda nyimbo za rap; D (monga mwina mwazindikira kuchokera pa avatar yanga). Zokwanira za ine, tiyeni tichite malonda.
~ ~ Momwe zonse zidayambira ~ ~
Chabwino… Ndakhala ndikumazemba kwa nthawi yayitali momwe ndikukumbukira. Ndikukhulupirira kuti ndinali ndi zaka 12 pomwe ndidazichita koyamba: - [. Panthaŵiyo ndinalibe kompyuta, koma tinkakonda kusinthanitsa matepi amakanema omwe tinajambula kuchokera ku TV usiku kwambiri kapena ena omwe tinagula kuchokera m'sitolo ndi mitundu yonse ya P. Kumverera kunali kwabwino kwambiri kotero kuti ndimakonda kuzichita nthawi zambiri (osatsimikiza ngati tsiku lililonse). Sindinakhale wotayika mgulu, nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi abwenzi abwino ndipo nthawi zonse ndimakhala mnyamata woseketsa. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi atsikana owoneka bwino, nditha kunena kuti chikondi changa choyamba chinandigunda ndili ndi 13, koma nthawi iliyonse ndikatuluka sindimatha kudikirira kuti ndibwerere kunyumba ndikuyamba kuseweretsa maliseche. Zonsezi ndinali ndiubwana wabwino wokhala ndi abwenzi abwino, maphwando komanso zokonda, koma ndimakonda kuseweretsa maliseche kwambiri (kapena wopanda P).
Ndili ndi kompyuta yanga yoyamba yogwiritsa ntchito intaneti ndili ndi zaka 14 ndipo zidangokulirakulira. Ndinali nditakhala kunyumba ndikuzifutukula nthawi zina ngakhale katatu kapena kanayi patsiku ku mitundu yonse ya P: -X. Ndidayamba ndikuwongoka, kenako ma Lesbibi, kenako ma Asiya… ponseponse ndawonapo zambiri. Nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndimakondana ndi pomwe ndinali 3, ndinali ndidali namwali ndipo mwanjira ina ndili pachibwenzi sindinkafuna kuonera zolaula. Ndikutanthauza, ndinkasewera maliseche, koma sizinali choncho nthawi zambiri ndili wosakwatiwa. Kuyambira pomwe adandisiya ndidabwereranso kuzikhalidwe zanga zoyipa za PMO'ing ndipo zoyipa zidangokulirakulira. P, Masewera Pakanema, Sukulu, Magiredi oyipa, Mowa, udzu… ndizo zonse zomwe zinali kuchitika nthawi imeneyo.
Ndikutanthauza kuti, ndinali ndi anzanga, ndimapitabe kumaphwando ndikuchita zachiwerewere, koma sindinali wachikhalidwe ngati momwe ndinalili kale. Ndinkawona zolaula zambiri, mpaka ndinafika poti sindinathe kuzimvetsa ngakhale kumayimbidwe oyipa kwambiri. Iyo inali nthawi yomwe ndinayamba kuda nkhawa kwambiri ndipo ndinapita kwa dokotala wa zamitsempha, yemwe anandiuza kuti chifukwa cha ED wanga chili m'mutu mwanga komanso blah-blah, tonse tamva zamisala nthawi miliyoni.
Wanga libido - wakufa, wofunitsitsa kuthamangitsa atsikana - palibe, malingaliro - palibe, sindingathe kukumbukira nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndinali ndi matabwa am'mawa. Ndidayamba chibwenzi ndi mwana wankhukuyu kuchokera m'kalasi mwanga miyezi 3 yapitayo ndipo tidakondana kwambiri. Amandipatsa zikwangwani kale, koma ndinali wofunitsitsa kuti ndiwawone. Tinagonana patsiku la 30, ndinataya unamwali wanga kwa iye, koma kugonana sikomwe ndimayembekezera. Sindinali 100%, ndinali ngati 70%, kumverera kunali kofooka (ndizomveka, si dzanja langa pambuyo pake) ndipo ndidabwera ngati mphindi 5 😮 Ndikutanthauza wtf. Nthawi yachiwiri, yachitatu komanso yachinayi inali yoyipa kwambiri - kuvutikira kuyimitsa, sikungakhale kovuta kuvala kondomu, akuyenera kundipatsa chanza kuti ndiyibwezeretse. Mtsikana wanga anali wokwiya kwambiri kuposa ine, adaphunzitsa kuti sindimakopeka naye, zomwe sizowona! Ndimamukonda ndipo moona mtima, kuweruza momwe amaganizira ndikuganiza kuti atha kukhala chitsanzo.
Nthawi iliyonse ikadutsa, ndimayang'ana chilichonse chokhudzana ndi ED (ndimaganiza kuti ndimagonana tsiku limodzi kapena awiri: -X) mpaka nditapeza YBOP ndikuthokoza Mulungu kuti ndidachita! Chilichonse chimamveka bwino tsopano… Chifukwa chiyani 20 yoyenera, yowongoka, yolimbitsa thupi ingakhale ndi mavuto a erectile!? Mwayi wake, ndili ndi bwenzi lachikondi komanso lomvetsetsa, choncho ndidatenga mipira yanga ndikumufotokozera chifukwa chomwe ndili mmoyo uno. Anandithandizira ndipo tinayesera!
~ ~ Yesera yanga yoyamba ~ ~
DD kuyambira tsiku loyamba… kulibe moyo wapansi konse ndipo mutu wina waukulu udayamba. Pa tsiku 7 ndinali ndi 20% yamatabwa ammawa! Sindikukumbukira nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndinali ndi nkhuni zammawa, ndinadabwa !!! Tsiku 8 - 30% nkhuni zam'mawa, adrenaline kuthamanga tsiku lonse, malingaliro anga anali abwino kwambiri! (mosiyana ndi kukhumudwa komwe ndinali nako kale) mtima unali kugunda ngati wopenga, ndimamva kuti nditha kutenga dziko lonse lapansi! Tsiku 9 - nkhuni zammawa womwewo, ndinasiya kuiwala mawu anga !!! Nthawi zambiri m'mbuyomu pomwe ndimacheza ngati wina andisokoneza, ndimayiwala nthawi yomweyo zomwe ndimanena, tsopano sindinatero! Tsiku 10 - chabwino, bwenzi langa lapamtima linabwera kudzacheza usiku womwewo kuti tingoonera kanema ndipo timatha kugonana. Sindinayimilire 100%, ndinabweranso mwachangu ndipo kukhumudwa kwamisala kunatha pambuyo pake: -.
~ ~ Tsopano ndili pano ~ ~
Tidapusitsanso Loweruka nalonso, chifukwa chake ndimawona Lamlungu tsiku langa loyamba lopanda PMO. Ndiyamba kutumiza kuchokera pa Tsiku 1. Ndatsimikiza mtima kuti ndichita bwino ndikubwezeretsanso moyo wanga wogonana, ndipo nonse mukuwoneka ngati gulu labwino komanso lochirikiza. Popeza sindingathe kugawana izi ndi wina aliyense, koma bwenzi langa ndinangoona kuti ndikufunika kuti ndilowe nawo nanu ndikulimbana ndi vutoli. Sindidzabwereranso ku zolaula kapena maliseche!
LINK - [H0P3's Journal] Mwamuna Woyera, Zaka 20
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Wachita! Ndachiritsidwa
August 07, 2013
Chabwino, ndiye patha pafupifupi chaka chimodzi kuchokera pomwe ndidayamba, sichoncho? Ndakhala ndisakupita kwakanthawi, inde ndikudziwa, pepani. Ndizakuti… moyo unandigunda kwambiri ndipo ndinalibe nthawi yoganizira zolaula kapena izi. Chifukwa chake sindikuyang'ana mwatsatanetsatane, koma ndiyesetsa kukhala wamfupi momwe ndingathere.
Pambuyo pa PMO, sindinayese kuseweretsa maliseche konse, ngakhale osagonana (mozama, gf yanga idachita misala, koma adakhalabe ndikundithandizira… Sindingayiwale izi)! Palibe chomwe chinathandiza, ndinali wokwiya, wopanikizika nthawi zonse, wokhumudwa nthawi zonse, wamantha pabedi komanso woopa kugonana, ndipo moona mtima ndidaphunzitsa kuti sindidzadzukanso. Kuwonjezera apo, sindikuganiza kuti ndinali ndi chizoloŵezi choonera zolaula, koma mudzi wonsewu ndipo palibe PMO anandithandiza kwambiri. Ndinayamba kupita kwa akatswiri azachipatala (ngakhale opambana mdziko langa) onse akunena kuti ndili bwino ndipo ma testosterone anga ndiabwino, palibe kuwonongeka kwa mitsempha, kulibe magazi, palibe chilichonse, onse adandiuza kuti zonse zili m'mutu mwanga.
Mukudziwa anyamata… aliyense akakuwuzani kuti zonse zili m'mutu mwanu, ndipo zitatha izi muli ndi zaka 20… mumango… mukudziwa, mumasiya… mumayamba kukhulupirira izi. Ndinayamba kumwetulira, ndikukhala wosangalala komanso kuthandizidwa ndi bwenzi langa kunandithandiza kwambiri. Ndimagonana pafupipafupi ndikutanthauza chiwerewere chosayenerera ... Ndangoyang'ana zonse zomwe mukudziwa, tsopano ndimangomuwona ali maliseche, kapena amangondipsompsona, kapena amangogona pafupi ndi ine ndipo ndimakhala wolimba nthawi zonse! Ndili ndi chidaliro, ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ndimangothandiza panyumba, ngakhale anzanga amawona kusintha mwa ine, ndikutanthauza ... zili ngati izi sizinachitike. Libido yanga ikukwiya! Matabwa anga ammawa amabwera ndikudutsa (ndani amapereka zoyipa). Kugonana ndizabwino, chilichonse ndichokoma ndipo ndikulakalaka, mukudziwa? Zolaula sizili bwino ngati kugonana ndipo sindinakhalepo ndi chidwi chowonanso zolaula! Shit, sindimachita maliseche (zovuta ngati gf yanga sikubwera posachedwa, koma ndimangochita nayo). Moyo wanga watembenuka, ndine munthu wokondwa (kapena nyama yogonana tsopano).
Chinyengo ndikudziwa kuti palibe cholakwika ndi inu ndikusiya kuganiza za izo ... osabwera kuno, fufuzani msonkhano! Bwererani mukachira. Za ine, chabwino… ndinali ndi mavuto ena ambiri pamutu panga ndipo ndinangosiya kuganizira za izi (zogonana zimakhala ndi mantha pang'ono nthawi ndi nthawi komanso nthawi yachisangalalo) koma nanenso ndidazigonjetsa. Tsopano ndikupanga nthabwala za izi (ndi zachiwerewere) ndi chinthu chakale basi.
Tithokoze aliyense! Basi… zikomo, sindikadachita popanda gulu.
Uwu ndi gawo langa lomaliza abale anga, ndili nawo ngongole! Kwerani ndipo pitilizani kumenya nkhondo!
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