INITIAL POST
Wawa, ndine Robert, ndine wamwamuna wazaka 20 wazaka za ku Caucasus, odulidwa tsitsi lakuda, maso a buluu, 6'4 ″ ndi 250lbs, wokongola, ndinali ndi Asperger's Syndrome kuyambira ndili ndi mwezi umodzi kuyambira zaka zitatu, ndili namwali, ndine wonyamula zolemera komanso wophunzira wazaka zitatu waku koleji.
Komabe, chizolowezi changa cholaula chidayamba chifukwa chofuna kudziwa poyang'ana zithunzi zamaliseche za azimayi pa Google, ali ndi zaka 9-10. Chifukwa chake, ndidayamba kukhala ndi chizolowezi choyang'ana zithunzizo, kuphatikiza zithunzi za atsikana amaliseche a anime, ngakhale nditapeza zolaula zolimba ku 13-14. Ndagwidwa ndi makolo anga nthawi zambiri, ngakhale ndimachita maliseche kuti ndione zithunzi zamaliseche pafupi nawo. Tsopano ponena za MO, ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche ku 12 ndikupukuta mbolo yanga ndi chopukutira kufikira nditatuluka (Ndabwera pomwe ndimasewera wowongolera masewera apakanema mobwerezabwereza ndikusindikiza mabataniwo, motsutsana ndi crotch yanga isanafike) ndinayamba kupanga Chizoloŵezi chochokapo kuyambira pamenepo, ndipo chizolowezi changa chowonera zolaula chinafika poipa popita zaka, ndiye momwemonso chizolowezi changa chodziseweretsa maliseche (onani kulumikizana kumeneko?). Nthawi zonse ndinkalonjeza kwa makolo anga akandigwiranso ndikuzindikira kuti ndichotsa mbiri yakusakatula kuti ndiganiza kuti sangadziwe kuti ndimayang'ana zolaula, ndipo ndimakhala okhumudwa nthawi zonse akaimirira kumbuyo kwanga ndili kompyuta, ndikundifunsa ngati angawone mbiriyakale ndipo ndiyesa kunama kuti ndituluke, koma ndinali wabodza woipa lol.
Komabe, sindinkadziwa, libido yanga (ndinkangokhalira kuvuta ngakhale ndili mwana lol) inali kuchepa pang'onopang'ono okalamba omwe ndinali nawo, ngakhale ndili ku sekondale, sindinathe ngakhale kudzutsidwa ndikuyang'ana atsikana bulu kapena kukumbatirana atsikana monga momwe ndinkakhalira, pafupifupi miyezi 6 yapitayo, kuti tsiku lina ndinapita kukaonera kanema wosagonana pa ipod yanga (yomwe ndinali nayo pafupifupi zaka 2 zapitazo) ndipo ndinayesa kuthawa, pamene ndazindikira, sindimatha kukhala wolimba modzilimbitsa ndekha ndikuwonera! Sindingachite chilichonse .. Zinandipangitsa kuzindikira, ndinkangokhala ndisanakhale wolimba kwa nthawi yayitali, izi zisanachitike. Zinali zoyipa kwenikweni, zokhumudwitsa ngakhale. Ndinali pa ED!
Ndatenga masiku a 10 (omwe ndi mbiri yabwino kwambiri) komanso zofiira, ndiye ndinapeza kuti L-Arginine amathandiza ndi matenda osokoneza bongo. Zina bwino kuyambira nditayamba kumwa mapiritsi (ndipo ndinatha kupuma pamene ndinali wovuta) koma iwo sanali kuthandiza vutoli, amangoganizira vutoli. Ndinafika poti ndavomereza kuti PMO idzakhala mbali ya moyo wanga ndipo adatha kulimbana ndi maganizo anga oipa komanso osayenerera, omwe ndinapindula mpaka kufika pamtunda.
Ndinalibe maluso oyipa ochezera kapena sindinadzidalire, koma zinali zochepa kwambiri kuposa momwe zimayenera kukhalira. Ndinadabwa kuti ndichifukwa chiyani ndinali wamanyazi, sindinathe / sindinathe kupeza bwenzi (sindinathe kukhala pachibwenzi kwanthawi yayitali, sindinaganize kuti anali "oyenera ine"), chifukwa chomwe ndinali kupsinjika nthawi zambiri, kumatanthauza , bwanji sindinadzikonde, ndinakhala miyezi ina 5 nditatulukira ED, pafupifupi masabata a 8 apitawo, pamapeto pake ndinachita kafukufuku nditazindikiranso kuti sindingathe kuyimilira ngakhale kuyang'ana zolaula osazemba, ndikufuna kuti ndiwone ngati zolaula zimayambitsa ED zomwe ndidaziwona, ndiye ndidapeza YourBrainOnPorn.com, ndikutsimikizira kuti zolaula sizinali vuto lokha, koma maliseche osatha!
Ndipamene sindinakane, ndinalimbana nawo paulendowu, masiku osachepera a 2-3 ndisanafike pomwe ndinayambiranso, ndinakwanitsa kuthana ndi zolaula za 9 masiku awiri (nthawi imodzi inali masiku 9 a PMO aulere), ndipo pamapeto pake zosokoneza bongo Ndinafooka, ndipo nthawi imeneyo ndinayamba kuzindikira kuyamikira kwanga akazi enieni, komanso moyo wamba.
Ndimakhulupiliranso kuti anthu omwe amapanga zolaula, makamaka makanema oonera zolaula, amachita zinthu zoyipa kwambiri kwa ochita nawo masewera awo, zoyipa zonse zoyipazi, zoyipa .. Ndikakumbukira zakale, zizolowezi zanga zimayipa kwenikweni nditangoyamba iPod yanga, ndipo ine ndimatha kuseweretsa maliseche mosavuta ndikuwonera zolaula mwamseri, ngakhale ndidagonana ndi ma BBW ndi ma SSBBW, kugonana kwa amuna kapena akazi okhaokha komanso kuyambitsa makanema ochepera. Sindinakhalepo mu Tranny, gay, kapena kugonana ndi nyama kapena zonyansa zolaula, ngakhale ndidawonapo makanema a ____________. Onse anali oyipa .. Osayang'ananso.
Ndikuwona tsopano momwe moyo wanga unasokonezera masiku anga olaula .. Osatinso. Patha sabata limodzi kuchokera pomwe ndinabwereranso, ndipo ndinadziwa kuti ndiyenera kuchotsa zithunzi zonse zamaliseche zomwe ndinali nazo, ma bookmark onse ndi mbiriyakale yonse, ndisanabwererenso ... Ndipo sindinayang'ane kumbuyo kuyambira pamenepo. M'mbuyomu, (sindinadziwe) ndikakhala kuti sindikuwona zolaula, ndimatha kuyambiranso pang'ono, ngakhale ndimakhala ndikuseweretsa maliseche nthawi zonse (ndimakhala ndikuonera zolaula nthawi imeneyo) Pambuyo pake, ndinali ndikukhulupirira, kuti sindidzawoneranso zolaula, sindichita maliseche, ndikungodikirira kuti ndigone, ndikuchita izi zokha, pachimake.
Tsopano chifukwa cha uthenga wabwino, komanso kamodzinso, ndakhala ndikuyamikira azimayi, komanso anthu wamba, osadzikonda komanso osamala, maluso anga ochezera bwino (ndikundipangitsa kuti ndipitilize luso lawo), mkwiyo, kukhumudwa, nkhaŵa ndi kusungulumwa zidatheratu, ndimagwira bwino ntchito (ndimatha kugwira hoop ya basketball ndi dzanja limodzi ndikathamangira ndikudumphadumpha, chifukwa chakukula kwa testosterone komwe kumadza chifukwa chodziletsa, ndingakhulupirire. Kuyambiranso, nthawi zina ndimatha kukhudza) , kumanga bwino kwa minofu, mawu ndi ozama pang'ono (komanso chifukwa cha testosterone), ndidakulitsa kudzidalira kwanga komanso kudzidalira, chomwe ndichinsinsi chokopa azimayi ndikuchitiridwa bwino ndi iwo komanso anthu wamba lol
Ndikudziwa kuti sindinatuluke m'nkhalango, komabe, ndili kutali ndi zimenezo, ndakhala ndikuwerenga zolemba zambiri zokhudzana ndi kubwezeretsanso / kuchira zolaula kuyambira pano ndi apo, ndipo ndikudziwa kuti zolembazo zimandilimbikitsa kupitiriza. Zikomo chifukwa chokhala ndi nthawi yowerenga izi!
LINK - JOURNAL - Sikudzakhalanso kulimbana ndi nkhawa; zikumbukireni LERO! Masabata a 29+ & kungoyambira!
BY - rcfergie5
YAMBIRANSO - Lowani Chaputala Chatsopano cha Moyo
November 18, 2012
Masiku 50 kutali ndi nyenyezi ina yobiriwira, ndipo ndikufuna kufananiza lero ndi komwe ndinali poyambiranso. Chabwino, kotero panthawiyi, sindinathe kukonzedwa pokhapokha ndikadakhala PMOing, ndipo ngati nditasiya kuthawa, imatha kubwerera. NDINALI PMO'd 3-4 pa tsiku .. Ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri, wodandaula, wamphwayi, wosatetezeka, komanso wochezeka kuposa momwe ndiriri pano. Palibe mtsikana weniweni yemwe akanandidzutsa, ngakhale anali wokongola bwanji, ndinafikira pamenepo chaka chatha. M'malo mwake, chaka chatha ndikukumbukira kuti ndimagwiritsa ntchito imfa kuti ndikhale ndi mbolo yosalala, koma usiku wina ndikuwona kanema yakugonana yaku koleji, sindinathe kutero, palibe chomwe chimandisangalatsa .. O, inde zinali zosokoneza m'maganizo ... Smh. Ndikanatha kusiya PMO nthawi yabwino, koma ndinangosiya masiku 10, ndipo ndimangochita izi chifukwa makolo anga sankafuna kuti ndizionera zinthuzo, kenako ndinabwerera mwezi watha wa Disembala, ndipo ndimatha ndikukhala ndi erection kachiwiri, chifukwa cha L-Arginine, I PMO'd kwa miyezi ina 5.
Kenaka ndinaganiza zoyamba kubwezeretsanso pa April 2012, pamene ndinazindikira kuti atsikana sakanatha kunditembenuza, ndipo ndinalibe chidaliro, ndiye posakhalitsa ndinapeza YBOP, ndipo nditayang'ana mavidiyo pa Youtube, zonsezi zinali zomveka. Ndinali ndi 50 + PMO kubwerera, kenako MO mobwerezabwereza kuyambira pomwe ndinayambiranso, ananditenga kwamuyaya kuti ndigonjetse zolaula, kenako kuseweretsa maliseche sikunali kovuta, zili ngati sindifunikiranso.
Kutumiza mwachangu… Zikuwoneka kuti pakatha masiku 50 aliwonse ndimakhala ndi chidaliro chatsopano. Nditapanga masiku 50 opanda PMO ndidangotembenuka 21, nditapanga masiku 100 ndidaganiza zoyesa moyo wopanda Facebook / Youtube / Foramu masiku 30, ndipo tsopano ndili masiku 150, ndipo ubongo wanga ndiwochulukirapo kutengeka, ngakhale kukhudza mwendo wa atsikana ochepera-kuyerekezera kumandipangitsa kuti ndikhale wolimba lol m'mawa nkhuni zikukulirakulira, ndikukhala ndi chiyembekezo chongopeka kumakhala kosavuta komanso kwachangu. Ndili ndi chizolowezi cholonjera mlendo mmodzi patsiku, kuyang'ana atsikana ndikuwakopa posachedwa kudzangokhalako, ndipo ndikusangalala ndi kugonana kwanga, kuti ndikufuna kugawana nawo dziko lapansi.
Ndidatuluka pansi pamasabata angapo apitawa, ngakhale pambuyo pa magawo a 3 MO masiku asanu ndi anayi apitawo, ndipo ndikufika kumapeto; kuchira kwathunthu. Pakadali pano, zosintha zokha (popanda ngakhale zongopeka) zibwerera, ndipo zosintha zanga zonse, kuphatikiza matabwa ammawa, zidzakhalanso zolimba 100%.
Ndidali namwali, koma chosiyana ndi momwe ndidalili kale, ndikuti ndili nacho mosakaikira konse kuti ndidzatha kugonana, sindidandaula nkomwe ngati mtsikana ali wachiwerewere kapena ayi, chifukwa ndili ndi malingaliro otseguka, ndipo ndimakonda moyo momwe ulili. Ndipo ndikudziwa kuti pali atsikana kunja uko omwe angandifunenso .. Kupatula atsikana enieni komanso moyo wanga wogonana, maloto anga ndikupita kulikonse komwe ndikufuna, kupeza galimoto yanga, kukhala ndekha, kukhala ndi moyo wopindulitsa , amapanga ndalama zambiri, ndipo amatha kupanga bajeti yokwanira yosunga.
Ndikufuna kuyang'ana m'masiku anga azaka za 20 ndikupitilira, ndikudziwa kuti ndidagwiritsa ntchito nthawi yomwe ndimakhala ndi moyo weniweni. Ndimadzikhulupirira tsopano, ndipo aliyense ayenera kuchita zomwezo. Mfundo yobwezeretsanso, ndiyo OSATAYA MTIMA. Ndikuyembekezera ndikupanga chaka chathunthu popanda zolaula, ndiye ndikuchita maliseche.
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