Ndinali wabwinobwino, komanso wopambana pamagawo onse amoyo. Ndinali wotsimikiza, wanzeru, wotsutsa, ndipo ndinalibe vuto lililonse kukopa atsikana kuti andikope. Komabe, pankhani ya kugonana, ndinali wolephera kwambiri. Sindinadziwepo chilichonse, ndipo ndinkachita mantha ndi mwayi wina uliwonse wogonana poopa kuti ungadzakhale vuto lalikulu ngati ambiri m'mbuyomu. Ndinkaganiza kuti ndifa namwali. Sindinaganize kuti ndidzakhala ndi chizolowezi chogonana. Nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti ubongo wanga unali wolimba kwambiri kuti ungatsegulidwe ndi mwana uyu, mofanana ndi momwe amuna ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha amatha kungoyatsidwa ndi tambala, ndipo sangayamikire kugonana ndi mkazi. Sindinadziwe kuti chibwana chomwe ndimaganiza kuti chinali cholimba mkati mwanga, chinali chifukwa chongoonera zolaula. Zinali gehena zodzipangira ndekha.
Ndisanayambe kukuwuzani za njira yayitali komanso yovuta yochokera ku gehena… Ndikufuna nditenge nthawi ndikuthokoza kuti ndapeza chidziwitso chodabwitsa ichi. Kukhumudwa ndi YourBrainOnPorn kwakhala Mulungu wathunthu, ndipo ndikumverera kuti ndadalitsika chifukwa chodziwitsidwa izi nthawi imeneyi m'moyo wanga. Ngakhale ndatha zaka zingapo chifukwa cha mliri wakupha womwe umadziwika kuti zolaula, ndili wokondwa kudziwa zowona za zolaula ndili mwana - ndili ndi zaka 20 tsopano. Ndipo ngakhale zolaula zinali zitawononga zaka zanga zaunyamata ndipo ndikadakonda kuti sindiyenera kuzolowereredwa konse… .Kodi ndinganenenji kupatula, mochedwa kuposa kale?
Tiyeni tiyambire pomwe zonse zidayambira - Middle School - M'zaka zanga za Middle School, ndikukumbukira kukhala wophunzira wabwino kwambiri. Manja pansi, wophunzira wanzeru kwambiri, waluso komanso wolimbikitsa m'kalasi mwanga. Osati kuti ndikhale wonyada, koma ndinali wophunzira wanzeru kwambiri pansi. Ndimayesa mayeso kumanzere ndi kumanja, kupeza ma 100 pazantchito zanga zonse osachita khama. Ndipo pomwe panali ntchito zina zomwe zimafuna kuyesetsa kwina - ndimachita zoposa pamenepo, nthawi zambiri ndimayesetsa kuwonjezerapo zina kuti ndipeze ngongole zowonjezera. Panalidi china chosiyana ndi ine, ndipo sindinali ngati ana ena.
Osandilakwitsa, ndinali wachinyamata wanu, ndinali mnyamata wamwamuna, wokonda zinthu za anyamata, ndipo koposa zonse - atsikana.
Panali kusiyana kwakukulu pakati pa ine ndi anzanga - sindinayang'ane zolaula. Ndimakumbukira azimayi angapo anzanga omwe ndimaphunzira nawo amafunsa anyamatawo kuti amadziona zolaula nthawi zingati. Ndinayankha kuti sindinachitepo, ndipo ndinachita mantha kuti ndichinthu chachilendo.
Ndikadakhala kuti ndikadangodziwa zoyipa zosawerengeka zomwe khalidweli likuwoneka ngati "labwinobwino" likadakhala nalo panjira…
Tsoka ilo kwa ine, ndimagwera mumsampha wa kuseweretsa maliseche nthawi zonse. Poyamba anali ma nudes abwinobwino - maliseche okoma koma abwinobwino a ma blondes okongola okhala ndi mawere okongola komanso ziboda zooneka bwino. Koma posakhalitsa, ndikadakumana ndi tsiku losangalatsalo…
Ndidakumana ndi imodzi mwamabuku a Playboy ndipo ndidayamba kuzolowera nthawi yomweyo. Ndiye kuti, adalumikizidwa ndi malingaliro achikazi. Nkhaniyi inali ndi anthu osiyanasiyana munthawi zosiyanasiyana zogonana. Koma pazifukwa zina ndidachita chidwi ndi gawo lokhudza dominatrix. Kuwerenga ndime zonena za momwe adakwapulira wina mawonekedwe ndikumuwotcha ndimayendedwe owotchera ng'ombe zidandisangalatsa pazifukwa zina zachilendo. Ndikayang'ana m'mbuyo tsopano, mwina ndinali nditatengeka kwambiri ndi zongopeka izi popanda chifukwa china chomwe chinali chachilendo kwambiri.
Zochitika izi muukalamba wanga zimanditsogolera kunjira yolumikizidwa ndi ukazi. Kuyambira pamenepo, zonse zomwe ndimakafufuza pa intaneti zingakhale zolaula zokhala ndi mitu yolamulira ya akazi komanso kuchititsidwa manyazi kwa amuna. Zithunzi zomwe ndidazipeza sizinali zofananira ndi zomwe ndidaziwona kale, ndipo ndidayamba kukhala wokonda kwambiri kutengera zomwe ndidadzipangira tokha. Nthawi zambiri, zimakhala zithunzi kapena makanema omwe ndimayang'ana. Nthawi zambiri, ndimasanthula nkhani zolaula zomwe zidali ndi mituyi, ndikungochotsa zongopeka m'maganizo mwanga, popanda chidwi chenicheni.
Mosadabwitsa, lingaliro lachiwerewere silimandichitanso. Pofika nthawi yanga kusukulu yasekondale, malingaliro azimayi anali gawo lamkati mwa psyche yanga. Zinakhala ngati kuti ndayamba kukhala ndi miyoyo iwiri yosiyana, moyo wabwinobwino momwe ndimakhalira ochezeka komanso kucheza ndi anthu azaka zanga ngati mwana wasekondale wabwinobwino, ndi winayo, komwe ndimabwera kunyumba kudzachita maliseche ndikuganiza za zithunzi zodwaladwala komanso zosokoneza. Zinthu zomwe ndimalakalaka zinali zosagwirizana kwathunthu ndi yemwe ndinali kunja kwa likulu lodziseweretsa maliseche - mwana wodalirika, wochezeka, wokonda kucheza yemwe amakonda kusewera masewera ndikupita kokasangalala.
Sipanatenge nthawi kuti kuseweretsa maliseche pazithunzi zosokoneza ngati izi kundigwere…
Mlandu ndi mfundo, tsiku loyamba la sekondale.
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Ngakhale ndakhala pano kutsogolo kwa kompyuta yanga ndikulankhula ndi anzanga ndikutenga nawo ntchito ina yakusukulu, ndili ndi zonse ZERO kufuna kubwereranso ku kutsika kwa PMO konse.
Momwe ndimaziwonera, ndikubwerera kwa PMO ndikadakhala ngati wokonda heroine kubwerera ku mankhwala omwe adamubweretsera mphindi zochepa kutaya moyo wake. Zimanditsutsa m'maganizo mwanga momwe anthu ena pamsonkhanowu (makamaka achikondi) akupangira ulusi wonse wamasamba ambiri wolimbikitsa kuti PMO azikhala "pang'ono."
Mwa njira Zachikondi, mudanenanso kuti simunawonepo aliyense pano yemwe wadutsa masiku 30… Ndili ndi zaka 70, kodi mukunena chiyani za izi?
Ndiloleni ndikuuzeni chinthu chimodzi chomwe mwina simungamvetse nonse anyamata - Tonse tili pano chifukwa izi zidawononga miyoyo yathu. Ndipo kuyesera kudyetsa vutoli mwa PMOing "pang'ono" ndikusewera ndi moto - m'njira yomwe Mudzawotchedwe.
Ndife ozolowera, monganso ma junkies osiyanasiyana omwe mudawawona m'misewu. Sitingakhale osowa pokhala ndikupempha chakudya kuti tikhale ndi moyo, koma tasintha moyo wathu chifukwa cha zomwe timakonda. Tawonongeka miyoyo yathu, tikukumana ndi nkhawa zoperewera, komanso tavutika ndi kukhumudwa koopsa komwe kumatilepheretsa kugwira ntchito pagulu. Zikumveka bwino? Izi ndi zomwe ambiri omwe amamwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo amakumana nawo pomwe moyo wawo wonse ungakhale chifukwa chotsatira izi. Sitikusiyana mosiyana!
Ubongo wa aliyense ndi wired kuti uzolowere kuchita zinthu zosiyanasiyana. Anzanga ambiri sangapite tsiku osasuta udzu. Zachidziwikire, ndimasangalala ndikamverera ndikakhala pamwambamwamba, koma sindikulakalaka. Ndapanga mankhwala a cocaine kangapo. Kodi ndinkasangalala nazo? Inde ndinatero. Kodi ndinayamba kuzolowera? Osati ngakhale pang'ono. Kugonana ndiko komwe kudawonongeka kwambiri.
Sitili osiyana ndi ena onse omwe amamwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo komweko - kusiyana kokha ndikusankha kwathu mankhwala.
Kukhala ndi "nsonga zochepa apa ndi apo" kumabweretsa kubwereranso. Kodi mukufunadi kubwereranso pambuyo polimbana milungu ingapo kapena miyezi? Ine sindimatero ayi. Zitakhala ngati wankhonya akumenya mnzake pambuyo pa mnzake, kungochoka pamasewera ampikisano… Kodi sichingakhale chonyazitsa chachikulu? - kuthandizidwa kunkhondo mukakhala kuti mwapuma pang'ono kuti mupambane
Uku si kuyesera kwanga koyambiranso. Ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi chiwanda ichi kuyambira pakati pa Januware. Koma pamapeto pake, nditha kunena kuti ndayamba kuyilamulira. Sindikugwiritsanso ntchito blocker intaneti. Ndikudziwa kuti kusagwiritsa ntchito blocker, kumapangitsa zolaula komanso zolaula pokhapokha. Koma ndafika poti ndimadziwa bwino. Ndikudziwa kuti ndikatsika mseuwu, ndidzakhala mzukwa wamunthu yemwe ndinali. Sindidzakhala munthu wabwinobwino, wathanzi monga momwe ndiliri lero.
Sindingathe kulingalira zomwe zidzachitike ndikayamba kubwereranso, chifukwa uwu unali moyo waomwe ndimakonda kukhala PMO osati kalekale. Ndinali chipolopolo chamwamuna, ndimachita mantha ndikamawona mtsikana wokongola pafupi ndi ine pagulu. Ndinadziwa kuti ndinalibe nkhawa iliyonse - maulendo angapo omwe ndidayambitsa zokambiranazo, zidayenda bwino, ndipo ndidamaliza kuyankhula nawo kwa milungu ingapo. Koma pamapeto pake, sizifikitsa kulikonse, chifukwa nyani kumbuyo kwake kuti akhale namwali wosadziwa zambiri pamapeto pake zimandipangitsa kuti ndizidziwononga ndekha ndikulepheretsa maubwenzi abwino kukula ndi akazi okongola modabwitsa awa. Zosachita kunena, chifukwa chopewa PMO, sindine namwali. Iyi siyikhala nkhani yomwe yandisowetsanso nkhawa. Potsirizira pake yasamaliridwa.
Komanso, m'masiku ovuta kwambiri, sindinkagwira ntchito monga wophunzira kapena wantchito. Sindingafike nthawi pachilichonse - kaya ndi kalasi kapena ntchito. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala amene ndimasokoneza kalasi lonse poyenda mochedwa. Osatinso pano. Sindinachedwe kulowa mkalasi kapena kusungitsa nthawi kuyambira pomwe ndinayambiranso ntchito. Sindinathe kuyang'ana kwambiri ntchito yoposa mphindi zochepa. Ndinali wozengereza mopitirira muyeso - ndimatha kusiya ntchitoyi mpaka mphindi yomaliza, ndiyipereke mochedwa, kapena osapereka konse. Ndidatsala pang'ono kulephera chifukwa cha zizolowezi izi.
Osatinso - ndimakondadi ntchito yanga yasukulu masiku ano. Pamene anzanga omwe ndimagona nawo akugona chifukwa chofuna kupewa ntchito yakusukulu mpata uliwonse womwe angakhale nawo, ine ndikuwerenga buku mwakhama kapena kuchita maphunziro ena. Ndazindikira kuti kupewa PMO kwandipangitsa kukhala ndi mphamvu zambiri kuposa ena omwe ali pafupi nane. Nthawi yokha yomwe ndidakumana ndi izi ndinali pasukulu yasekondale - ndisanafike pozembera mopweteketsa mtima poizoni wamisala yomwe ndi zolaula. Ndikuganiza kuti ndafikira zaka zatsopano zagolide. Ndimasangalala ndikudabwa zomwe sindinakumanepo nazo kuyambira ndili mwana / wachinyamata ndisanatengere izi.
Pankhani ya atsikana - ndimadzidalira kuposa kale. Kunena zowona, ndinali wotsimikiza kwambiri nthawi yonseyi. Ndinalibe vuto kubwera kwa msungwana wokongola modabwitsa pagulu, kucheza naye modabwitsa, ndikupeza nambala yake. Koma monga ndidanenera kale, maumboni / ma foni awa samangopita kulikonse chifukwa chazovuta zanga zokhudzana ndi kugonana. Sindinakhale ndi vuto locheza ndi atsikana angapo kumakalabu usiku, koma nkhawa yayikulu imawoneka modabwitsa ikafika nthawi yoti ndimutengere kunyumba. Ngakhale ndinali ndi nthawi yodabwitsa yodziwana ndi msungwana wokongola uyu, ndikukhala naye zamatsenga usiku, china chake mkati mwanga chimachita mantha kubwerera kwawo.
Tsopano ndi zomvetsa chisoni bwanji? Kodi sichimodzi mwazinthu zomvetsa chisoni kwambiri zomwe mudamvapo pankhani yamisala.
Zolaula zimakupha -
- zamaganizidwe - kukupangitsani mantha kapena kugonana, kukupangitsani kuti muope nthawiyo chifukwa chodandaula
- mwathupi - kumakulepheretsani kuti mukhale ndi mphamvu zokwanira zogonana
Chowonongera kwambiri kudzimva kwa amuna kuposa kulephera kugonana? Sindingaganize chilichonse.
Kukumana kwanga komaliza kunali masabata angapo apitawa. Ndinakumana ndi mtsikana, ndinapita kwawo ndipo sindinakhale ndi vuto lililonse kuti ndikhale wolimba. Anandipatsa pakamwa, tinasamba limodzi, ndipo adandiyankhulanso pambuyo pake. Sindinakhalepo ndi vuto nthawi imodzi kuti ndikhale wolimba. Inde, sindinkagonana, koma ndikutsimikiza kuti ndikadakhala motalika kuposa nthawi yanga yoyamba.
Ndilibe malo aliwonse okhala ndi nkhawa zambiri monga momwe ndimakhalira ndikayamba kukambirana ndi atsikana. Ndinapita ku bala ndi anzanga angapo usiku watha. Malo omwera mowa anali atamwalira, kunalibe aliyense pambali pa anzanga kumeneko. Palibe, kupatula atsikana okongola a 3. Zinangonditengera masekondi ochepa kuti ndiyambe kucheza ndikukhala patebulo lawo. Ndinkasangalala kwambiri kuwadziwa, ndipo sindinangoganiza zogwiritsa ntchito mabowo awo. Inde, yemwe ndimakopeka naye kwambiri anali ndi chibwenzi. Koma izi sizinandilepheretse kusangalala naye ndikumudziwa mzindawo ndi atatuwo.
Lero, ndidamaliza kulankhula ndi mtsikana wokongola modabwitsa. Ndidazindikira chilankhulo chake komanso kuti amayenda pafupi ndi ine kuposa masiku onse. Poyamikiridwa, adadabwa kuti ndidalunjika. Mapeto ake ndikuyenda mozungulira naye paulendo wotsala wa Museum, ndipo takonzekera kukumana mawa usiku.
Sikuti ndikungodziwa kuti ndili ndi chidaliro chambiri kuposa kale, koma sindikudziwononganso ndikafuna kupititsa patsogolo izi / maubale. Zimamveka ngati ndine munthu watsopano. Zimakhala ngati ndili ndi chidwi chenicheni, chakuya modabwitsa ndi kukongola kwake kochokera mkati mwanga.
Ndikumva kuwawa pang'ono ndikulemba izi. Pakuti ndikudziwa momwe ulendowu udandivutitsira kuti ndikafike kumalo komwe ndili lero. Zomwe ndalimbana nazo, kuchuluka kwa zomwe ndinapereka ndikuphonya, zimangondipangitsa kuti ndiyamikire moyo wanga kuyambira pano mpaka pano.
Kuyamikirana kwanga kwachilengedwe kumakhala kwamphamvu kuposa kale. Kungodabwitsika ndi kukongola kwa dzuwa, mitengo, mbalame zimandisangalatsa tonse mkati. Zimandipatsa chifukwa china chothana ndi izi. Ndikudziwa kuti kubwerera njira yakuda yomwe ndidayendamo kale kudzandichotsera chisangalalo cha moyo komanso kukongola kokundizungulira.
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(choyambitsa chenjezo) Nditakhala pamwamba padziko lonse lapansi tsiku lapitalo, ndinganene kuti ndidamenya pang'ono.
Usiku udayamba ndikukumana ndi abwenzi angapo usiku umodzi mtawuniyi. Tidayamba ndi kachasu pang'ono kosakaniza koka (koloko, osati mankhwala). Kenako timadutsa malo angapo mozungulira. Sindinganene motsimikiza kuti tidalumikizana kangati, ndikuganiza mwina mwina pafupifupi 2-3.
Chotsatira changa chinali kupita kwa hule. Anali wansangala kwambiri ndinapita ndinalowa. Kuyika kondomu kunali kovuta pang'ono chifukwa sindinavutike nthawi yomweyo. Kenako, sindinapeze erection pomwe amandipatsa handjob.
Nditangokhala pachifuwa panga pabulu wake atayang'ana kwa ine, ndikuyamba kuyankhula zonyansa ndinatha kulimba. Anayamba kuvula tambala wanga kuti andikonzekeretse zogonana zenizeni. Koma atasokoneza tambala wanga kwa kanthawi kochepa, ndinabwera.
Adadabwa kuti ndidangokhala kwakanthawi kochepa chonchi. Momwemonso inenso ndinakhumudwa. Ndidamuwuza kuti sindinadziwe zogonana pachiyambi pomwe.
Anandifunsa kuchuluka kwa chamba chomwe ndimasuta ndisanabwere kudzamuwona. Ndidati sindimadziwa kuchuluka kwake, koma anali malo ochepa. Anati ndiye mtima wamavuto, chifukwa chomwe sindinakhalitse. Chifukwa cha chamba. Anati sindiyenera kusuta musanagonane.
Ndamva kuchokera kwa anzawo angapo achikazi pazomwe adakumana nazo ndi anyamata omwe sanathe kuzimva chifukwa chosuta chamba. Sindinaganize kuti izi zikhala choncho ndi ine nthawi ino, chifukwa sindinasute kwambiri kuyambira pomwepo.
Kumbali inayi, ndikasuta fodya wochuluka kwambiri, ndimakhala wowopsa kwambiri - SEX ndiye chinthu chokhacho chomwe chimakhala m'maganizo mwanga, ndipo ndimayamba kuwona zodzidzimutsa zokha. Zonse zomwe zilipo panthawiyi zimakhala zokhudzana ndi chilakolako chogonana.
Mwinanso kusuta pang'ono kumayambitsa kusokonekera kwa erectile, pomwe kusuta LOTI kumapangitsa kuwonjezeka kwakukulu kwa libido ndikuwonjezera kusintha? Mwina ndizosiyana ndi aliyense. Aliyense ali ndi chidziwitso kapena chidziwitso chachikulu pa izi?
Popeza ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri, sindinkafuna kumaliza usiku ndikumva kuwawa. Hule adandilangiza kuti ndibwerere kukamuwona usiku womwewo, nditachotsa chamba ndikuyamba kumwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Ndinkadziwa kuti sinditha kuyika mapiritsi a buluu posachedwa, koma ndimafuna kuyesanso mwayi wanga.
Ndinamaliza kumamuyendera. Kachiwiri kuzungulira, zinali zosavuta kwa ine kuvuta.
Ndidakwanitsa kuchita zogonana bwino naye, ngakhale ndidataya erection kangapo pakukumana. Pofika nthawi yomwe ndimakhala, ndimangomugwirabe pafupipafupi. Sindinabwere polowera, motero adandimaliza ndikukhala pachifuwa panga, ndi bulu wawo kwa ine, ndikugwira tambala wanga ndi dzanja lake. Kuwona bulu wake pankhope panga kumawoneka kuti kwanditembenukira kwambiri.
Pazonsezi, izi zinali zopweteka kwa ine. Zimakhala zosiyana kwambiri ndikumverera padziko lapansi tsiku limodzi lisanachitike.
Zimandipangitsa kumva kuti zonse zomwe ndakhala ndikudutsamo kuyambira mkatikati mwa Januware sizinaphule kanthu, chifukwa ndimavutikabe kukhala wolimba pambuyo pa nthawi yonseyi.
Ndikuganiza mozama za viagra ndi mapiritsi ena panthawiyi.
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Yakhala pansi posachedwa chifukwa cha zomwe ndinakumana nazo kale sizinandivute kuyimana pogonana.
Ndimangokhala pakhomo pantchito zina zapakhomo zomwe ndakhala ndikuzengereza mpaka nthawi ino.
Ndidalumpha ndi msungwana yemwe adandipatsa mutu masabata angapo apitawa. Popanda kuyankhula chilichonse chogonana, ndimamva kuyimba mtima ndikungomuwona nkhope yake ndikulankhula naye.
Mwinanso ndikufunika kulumikizidwa kwakanthawi kuti mtsikana nditembenuke.
Mwinanso china chomwe sindinayimirire paulendo wanga wa hule chinali nkhawa yomwe idadza chifukwa chosadziwika naye.
Kodi inu mukuganiza chiyani?
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Ndinadzuka ola limodzi ndi theka m'mbuyomu kuposa momwe ndimafunira. Ndinabwerera kukagona. Sindinali wokangalika monga ndinali tsiku lina.
Zonsezi zidasinthika nditatsamira pabedi ndikusumphira akusamba kozizira. Chisankho chachikulu. Zinkandipangitsa kumva kuti ndili ndi moyo m'mawa. Pambuyo pake, ndinamva ngati ndikhala ndi mphamvu zodzitengera dziko lapansi.
Nditatenga kanthawi pang'ono kukonzekera, ndidayamba kupita kukalasi. Chinthu chachilendo kwambiri chidachitika ndikupita kukalasi. - Ndinayamba kusangalala ndikakhala panja. Chilichonse chinali cha dzuwa komanso chokongola. Zowoneka modabwitsa zidandipangitsa kukhala ndichisangalalo chachikulu kuti ndili moyo ndikupuma. Kumverera kunatha nthawi yonse yomwe ndinali panja.
Kenako pamapeto pake ndinabwera mkalasi. Ndidazindikira kuti anthu ambiri anali ngati zombie - samatha kugwira ntchito osamwa khofi wolimba. Osati ine, shawa lozizira limandidzutsa kutulo kwanga, ndipo mawonekedwe abwino akunja adangondipatsa mphamvu zowonjezera. Sindinkafuna khofi kuti ndizigwira ntchito ngati anthu ambiri, inali chabe bonasi yowonjezera.
Ndikusuzumira m'chipindacho ndidazindikira kuti m'modzi mwa anzanga abwino anali akugona mkalasi. Anali ndi nthawi yovuta kwambiri kutsegula maso ake ndipo mutu wake unali wopindika ndikutsika. Nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndidakumana ndi izi, ndipamene ndinali wokonda kwambiri mankhwala osokoneza bongo a PMO, PMO-ing mwina nthawi 3 patsiku pafupipafupi. Ganizirani izi, mkuluyu adati adawonera zolaula zambiri. Inde, kuchokera pazomwe ndakumana nazo, chomwe chimayambitsa kuchepa kwa mphamvu pakati pa anyamata achichepere masiku ano sikutanthauza kusachita masewera olimbitsa thupi kapena zakudya zoyenera (ngakhale zili ndi gawo lalikulu), ndikuwonera zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche pafupipafupi. Ndinadziwa chomwe chinali vuto nditangoyang'ana chipinda.
Pulofesa wathu adabwezeretsa mayeso athu. Ndidangopeza 70, yomwe inali yocheperako kuposa momwe ndimaganizira, popeza ndimazidziwa bwino. Nditatha kuyesa mayeso, ndidazindikira kuti masamu sanaphatikizane bwino. Aliyense atatuluka mkalasi, ndidaganiza zofunsa pulofesayo chifukwa chomwe amapumira kwambiri mbali zina. Atapendanso mayeso, pulofesayo adavomereza kuti amawerengera masamu molakwika. Pambuyo pokonza zolondola, adawerenganso mayeso, ndipo ndidapeza 90. Ndikadakhala kuti ndili muubongo wanga wopangidwa ndi PMO, mwina sindikadabwera kwa pulofesa, ndikadangotenga 70, ndipo adakhala wokhumudwa pang'ono tsiku lonse. Inde, kusiya PMO kumathandizanso kuti muphunzire bwino 
Nditafika kunyumba, pamapeto pake ndinalimbikitsidwa kupanga chakudya changa. Ndangoyamba kupanga chakudya changa pafupifupi masabata awiri apitawo, ndipo zimandipangitsa kumva ngati mwamuna weniweni. Mphamvu yakukwaniritsa yomwe mumapeza mukatha kudya nokha, chakudya chokoma ndichodabwitsa kwambiri. Ichi chinali chakudya changa chokha tsikulo, popeza pano ndikuyesera IF - kusala kwakanthawi. (Ndilemba zambiri pambuyo pake)
Uwo anali theka loyamba la tsikulo, ndipo zinali zodabwitsa kwambiri. Ndinkamva ngati zodabwitsa monga momwe ndimachitira pa Tsiku 70.
Koma chisangalalo chachikulu chachisangalalo ndi chisangalalo zonse zidafalikira kuyambira pano. Ndinafika pakompyuta yanga ndipo ndimakhala tsiku lonse ndili pamalo ochezera. Ndazindikira kuti zolaula zam'mbuyomu zidasinthidwa ndi masamba azibwenzi mwezi watha.
Mosakayikira, malo ochezera zibwenzi siowopsa chifukwa samasintha ubongo kapena kutulutsa zovuta zilizonse zamaganizidwe zochokera kwa PMO. Koma, alidi owononga nthawi. M'miyezi iwiri yapitayi kuyambira pomwe sindinachokere ku PMO, ndimatha kukumbukira masiku ambiri pomwe sindimachita chilichonse koma kusakatula masamba tsiku lonse ndikuyankhula ndi atsikana osiyanasiyana.
Ndikudziwa kuvomereza kuti ndili ndi vuto. Tsopano ndachitapo kanthu koyamba povomera. Ndipo ndikulolera kuti ndichepetse kwathunthu.
Kodi anthu inu mukupangira chani kuti ikhale nthawi yabwino yochepetsera zochitika zanga pa tsamba la zibwenzi?
tsiku 79
Ndadzuka m'mawa uno dzuwa likuwala pa ine. Ndinayang'ana pakompyuta yakuda, ndipo ndinawona chithunzi cha abs wanga. Adandikumbutsa za zovuta zanga komanso chifukwa chomwe ndikuchitira izi. Ndimagwira ntchito mwamphamvu m'masiku angapo apitawa, ndipo ndizosangalatsa kuiwona ikulipira.
Ndakhala ndikusala Kudya Kosasunthika kwamasiku angapo apitawa, ndipo ndikuwona zotsatira - ndimawoneka wolimba kuposa onse.
Dzuwa likuwalira pa ine, ndimadzimva wamoyo kuposa momwe ndidakhalira ndi chinthu choyambirira m'mawa. Ndinayamba kumva kupangana mwamphamvu.
Ndinali patchuthi panthawiyi ndikukonzekera kupita pa basi yolowera komwe kunali kupita pagombe. Msungwana wokongola adakhala pafupi ndi ine ndikuyamba kukopana pang'ono. Ali mkati moyandikana ndi ine, kwa nthawi yoyamba kukumbukira kwakumbuyo, ndidayamba kukumana ndi miyala yolimba nditangokhala ndikulankhula naye. Zinali zokumana nazo zabwino, ndikuwonetsa kuti ndinali pa njira yoyenera.
Nditabwerera kunyumba, ndinakumana ndi abale ndi abwenzi omwe sindinawaonepo zaka zambiri. Ndinazindikira kuti ndinali womasuka kwambiri kukhala nawo kusiyana ndi nthawi yomaliza yomwe tinakumana. Zokambirana zakugwira zimayenda mosavuta, ndipo kunalibe nkhawa kapena nkhawa zomwe ndidakumana nazo kale. Palibe zovuta zamtundu uliwonse. Ndimamva kuti ndilipo kwathunthu komanso "munthawiyo."
Ndinakumana nawo pachakudya chamadzulo chokoma - Chinali chakudya changa choyamba cha tsikulo kuyambira pomwe ndinali Kusala Kosalekeza, ndipo chinali chokoma mwamtheradi. Ndinali ndi chisangalalo chapadera chomwe sindinamvepo pakukumana ndi abwenzi apabanja zaka zonse za 5 + zapitazo zomwe ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi PMO. Ena mwa iwo adazindikiranso izi, ndipo adayamika momwe ndimawonekera tsopano.
Pambuyo pa chakudya, ndinamaliza kumapita kunyumba. Ali mnjira, ndinakumana ndi Museum Museum. Ndidayenera kupita. Ndinkadziwa kuti iyi inali nthawi yabwino kuti ndione kutalika komwe ndakhala ndikuyenda paulendo wanga wonse. Ndinkadziwa kuti palibe mwayi woti kupita ku nyumba yosungiramo zinthu zakalezi kuyambiranso kubwereranso kutali ndikuwona kuwonongeka kwa PMO kudandibweretsera moyo wanga wonse.
Kuyendera Museum Museum kunali chisankho chabwino. Ndidakwanitsa kudziwa kuchuluka kwa ubongo wanga womwe udasinthiranso ku zogonana zenizeni nthawi yonseyi. Mwamwayi, ndinayendera pakadali pano m'moyo wanga, patadutsa miyezi iwiri nditayambiranso. Ndikudziwa bwino kuti ndikadapita kukaona malo osungirako zinthu zakale ndili mkati mwa utsi wamaubongo wa PMO, zikadapangitsa PMO-binge nditabwerera kunyumba. Koma tsoka, izi sizinachitike.
Ndidayenda uku ndikuzindikira. Ndimatha kumverera kukopeka kwinakwake kwa achichepere ena amuna osambira zakale. Ndinkatha kuwona ndi maso awo komanso kuti onse anali okopeka ndi zithunzi zowoneka ngati zachiwerewerezi. Maso awo anali akuwala ndi kusilira. Ndimamva kuti ndine wosiyana ndi iwo. Ndinaona zowonetsera zonse zachiwerewere, ndipo sindinaziwone mosiyana ndi malo ena aliwonse azithunzi.
Kenako ndinalowa mchipinda cha Femdom. Ichi chinali chibwana chomwe chimatengera malingaliro anga ambiri panthawi yomwe ndinali ndi vuto la PMO. 99% ya malingaliro, zithunzi ndi zithunzi zomwe ndidachita maliseche zokhudzana ndi Femdom mwanjira ina, mawonekedwe kapena mawonekedwe. Koma tsopano, ndikulowa mchipinda, sizinandichitire kalikonse. Ndinali wosokonezeka kwambiri kuti mwana uyu adadya bwanji mphamvu zanga zogonana komanso zamaganizidwe. Ndinayang'ana mawonedwe onse, ndikuganiza ndekha - Izi zonse ndizopusa, ndili wokondwa kuti gawo ili la moyo wanga latsalira, sindidzabwereranso.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti kuchezera malo osungiramo zinthu zakale izi ndichimodzi mwazinthu zofunikira kwambiri pakukonzanso kwa ine pano. Zinandisonyeza kuti kugonana kwanga sikukugwiritsidwanso ntchito ndi mwana uyu yemwe adatenga nthawi yanga yambiri komanso mphamvu. Zinandiwonetsanso kuti sindikutsegulidwanso ndi zolimbikitsa zogonana zomwe ndi zolaula - kaya ndi zithunzi, magazini kapena kanema.
Ndili ndi chidaliro, ndinapita kukacheza hule. Adayamba kundipatsa mkamwa. Mutu wake ukugwedezeka ndikutsika tambala wanga akumva bwino kwambiri, ndipo ndinamaliza kudutsa mphindi zochepa. Ndimamva kukhala ngati wamanyazi ndikugonjetsedwa kuti PE yanga imandilandira bwino.
Ndinapita kunyumba ndili ndi malingaliro awiri osagwirizana -
- Lingaliro labwino lomwe ndakwaniritsa kuti sindimayang'anidwanso ndi zolaula zodzionetsera, ndikuti sindiyenso kutembenukiridwa ndi kutengeka komwe kumandikhudza kwambiri kugonana kwanga ndi mphamvu m'masiku anga a PMO.
- Zinagonjetseka pang'ono pang'onopang'ono kuti PE yanga idandipangitsa kuti ndizichita masewera olimbitsa thupi kwa mphindi zochepa.
tsiku 90
Tsopano popeza ndakhala ndikugonana bwino pa Tsiku 90 - zomwe sindinkaganiza kuti zingatheke kale.
Chinthu chokha chomwe chikuyimira njira yokwaniritsira zonse zomwe ndimalota kwambiri ndikusintha malingaliro anga kukhala zenizeni ndikuwonongeka kwa intaneti.
Ndasiya PMO (chizolowezi chowononga kwambiri chomwe ndidakhalapo nacho) komanso kugwiritsa ntchito kanema wawayilesi komanso malonda.
Kuwongolera momwe ndimagwirira ntchito pakompyuta ndikuwongolera kusakatula konse kwa intaneti ndiye malire omaliza opita ku ufulu.
tsiku 91
Masiku a 91 mkati, tambala wanga amawoneka wamkulu kuposa kale. Chachikulu kuposa momwe ndingakumbukire ndicho.
Sabata yapitayi, ndagonana ndi atsikana a 3 mndandanda.
Mtsikana 1 - Lachisanu masana.
Mtsikana 2 - Lachisanu masana - Lamlungu usiku
Mtsikana 3 - Lamlungu usiku - Lolemba m'mawa
Zomwe zatsopano zikunena ndizowona - mukamapewa PMO, ndipo mukamagonana ndi akazi enieni, dick wanu amakula kwambiri.
tsiku 92
Monga inu, ndinali ndi chidani chomwe chidanditengera zaka za moyo wanga. Zinawononga zomwe ndimachita kusekondale, komanso kundiletsa ine kulumikizana ndi akazi ambiri okongola, odabwitsa omwe amafuna kuyanjana ndi ine.
Mwamwayi moyo wanga ndiwosiyana tsopano. Mu ola limodzi, ndikukumana ndi msungwana yemwe ndimakhala naye kumapeto kwa sabata yonse, yemwe ndimaganiza zopanga bwenzi langa.
Pankhani ya fetus wanga -
Ndinachita manyazi kwambiri.
Zinali bwanji kuti ndikanatha kuyambitsidwa ndi chinthu chamdima komanso chopotoka?
Nchiyani chinali cholakwika ndi ine kuti sindingathe kuyambitsidwa ndi kugonana kwanthawi zonse?
Kodi ndinali nditasunthika kotheratu pamutu kuti kuwona kwa mkazi wamaliseche wokongola atagona pafupi kuti asachite chilichonse kuti andiyatse? Nchifukwa chiyani sindinathe kukonzekera ndi mkazi ngakhale nditayesetsa kwambiri, komabe ndikhoza kumangokhalira kumangokhalira kuonera zolaula?
Awa anali mafunso onse omwe amakhala ndimakumbukira nthawi zonse ndikamalephera kugona ndi mkazi. Njira yolephera yogonana idapangitsa kuti pakhale zamanyazi komanso zopanda pake. Ndinakulitsa kudzikana ndekha chifukwa cholephera kugona ndi mkazi.
Zidandidabwitsa. Ndinali wabwinobwino, komanso wopambana m'mbali zonse za moyo. Ndinali ndi chidaliro, anzeru, othandizira, ndipo ndinalibe vuto kupeza atsikana kuti andikope. Komabe, pankhani ya kugonana, ndinali wolephera. Sindinadziwepo chilichonse, ndipo ndinawopa mwayi wowonjezera uliwonse woganiza kuti mwina ungadzathetse vuto ngati kale.
Monga ndanenera kale, ndimaganiza kuti ndifa ngati namwali. Sindinaganize kuti ndidzakhala ndi chizolowezi chogonana. Nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti ubongo wanga unali wolimba kwambiri kuti ungatsegulidwe ndi ana awa, mofanana ndi momwe amuna ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha amatha kungoyatsidwa ndi tambala, ndipo sangathe kuyanjana ndi mkazi. Sindinadziwe kuti chibwana chomwe ndimaganiza kuti chinali cholimba mkati mwanga, chinali chifukwa chongoonera zolaula. Zinali gehena zodzipangira ndekha.
Mwamwayi, ndakwanitsa kugonana ndi atsikana osiyanasiyana a 3 kumapeto kwa sabata ino. Kugonana komaliza kukhala kosangalatsa kwambiri. Ndinadabwa komanso kupumula kuti ndinatha kugona nthawi yayitali. Kugonana kwatsopano kumeneku kwandilitsa chidaliro changa chakugonana, ndipo kwachotsa kukayikira kulikonse komwe ndidakhala nako pankhani yokhudza kuyambiranso kuyambiranso..
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