Ndidayamba ndi zolaula nditayamba kugwiritsa ntchito kompyuta, makamaka mwina 14-15.
Zonse zidayamba 6-7 miyezi yapitayo (kodi zakhala choncho kwanthawi yayitali?) Nditazindikira china chake. Kusukulu yapakati ndimakonda kupita kwambiri. Ndinkawachitira onse zomwezo ndipo pachifukwa ichi ndidafunidwa pakati pa atsikana kusukulu yathu.
Anzanganu adandiuza kuti ndimakonda zachifundo ndipo adandifunsa chinsinsi changa. Ngakhale ndili ku sekondale ndikakhala ndi vuto lodziseweretsa maliseche ndi zolaula, atsikana adandipatsa mawonekedwe. Koma mpaka ku sekondale zonse zinali zokhudza sukulu, kotero sindinalole aliyense kulowa mu njira imeneyo. Sindinalole aliyense kutseka.
Mwadzidzidzi ndinazindikira kuti ndikutaya anzanga ndipo ndinali ndi anzanga apamtima angapo. Komanso kukhala ndi vuto kulumikizana ndi anthu atsopano, kukhala ndi nkhawa yoyandikira ndikuyanjana ndi atsikana owoneka bwino. Ndimakhala "bwenzi" la atsikana, ngati mukudziwa zomwe ndikutanthauza. Sukulu yanga inayamba kutsika ndipo chidwi changa ndi kukumbukira kwanga kunayamba kuchepa. Ndimamva kutopa nthawi yayitali ngakhale ndikadapanda kuchita kalikonse.
Kenako ndinayamba kuyika chithunzicho palimodzi, ndikuwona chithunzi chachikulu ndikuchiyang'ana ndichisangalalo, ndikutsegula nsagwada. Apo panali, moyo wanga wonse pa tsamba la intaneti ndikufotokozera zizindikiro za kuseweretsa maliseche pafupipafupi, komanso zovuta zoyipa zolaula. Ndinadabwa, ndinali wokwiya komanso wokhumudwa - kuti ndinene mofatsa. Kodi china chake chomwe chimamveka bwino chitha bwanji kukhala ndi zoyipa zotere? Kodi adachita kafukufuku wawo moyenera? Ndizomwe ndimadzifunsa. Mwamuna, ndikuyang'ana mmbuyo tsopano, tinene kuti ndinalibe chidziwitso cha zomwe ndimadzifunsa.
Zinafika poti ndimazichita kawiri patsiku ndipo nthawi zonse ndimakonda zolaula, pomwe ndidali mwana zinali zongogwiritsa ntchito malingaliro. Ndiye, mafupipafupi anali ocheperako, ngakhale ndimakhala ndi chilakolako chogonana kwambiri. Ndinazichita ndisanatuluke chifukwa anthu amati simukufuna kuyenda munthawi zonse, zomwe zimakupangitsani kukhala osowa ndipo atsikana samakonda izi. Pa nthawi yomwe zinali zomveka…
Nditawona vuto langa, ndidayamba kufunafuna mayankho. Kufufuza za Google ndi mizere ngati: "kupewa maliseche, testosterone yambiri mukamachita maliseche, mavuto amiseche, maliseche komanso zolaula" ndi zina zotero. Ndidaphunzira zonse zomwe ndikadatha, kuyambira maphunziro enieni mpaka zoyeserera zanga. Madera ambiri madokotala amati kuseweretsa maliseche ndi kwabwino ndipo kumachepetsa mwayi wokhala ndi khansa ya prostate.
Pamisonkhano anthu anali kutsutsa ena kuti apewe maliseche kwakanthawi. Anthu nthawi zonse ankachita nthabwala kuti: "Ndikadakhala ndi ma boners 24/7. Sindingathe kugona. Ndikadakhala ndikulota usiku uliwonse ”… ndipo ndidayamba kudziwona ndekha m'mawu amenewo. Ndine woipa chonchi? Kupanga zifukwa zoti ndichokere?
Chabwino ndidayamba vuto langa "" Sabata, kuti ndiyambire, "ndidaganiza motere. Masiku oyamba anali gehena 'sindinama. Zinali molunjika ku maloto anga oyipa kwambiri. Koma mwadzidzidzi ndinazindikira kusintha kwanga komanso kudzidalira. Ndinayamba kulankhula zambiri, kunena nthabwala zambiri ndikukhala omasuka pakhungu langa. Ndiye zonse zinatha, monga kudzuka. Sindinadziwe kuti ndinali ndadzuka molawirira kwambiri.
Njira yoti ndiyambe kuchira idayamba kutuluka. Nthawi yotsatira ndidakwanitsa milungu iwiri, koma nthawi iliyonse ndimatha, kupsinjika kwamaganizoko kudakulirako. Kenako ndinadziuza kuti: “Masiku 31. Umenewo ndi mwezi wathunthu. Mukachita izi motalika, zikuwonetsa kuti simumakonda zolaula ndipo ndiye amene mumayang'anira. "
Wokopa ine adabwerera, wodzaza ndi mphamvu komanso wowopsa ngati gehena, osati "boner 24/7" horny, koma "Ndine wokonzeka kulamulira dziko". Ndinagwira ntchito molimbika, kuphunzira bwino, ndinadzidalira ndikutaya kukayika konse komwe ndinali nako.
Chilichonse chinali bwino mpaka tsiku langa lokonzedwa. Masiku 31 anali atatha… ndiye tsopano chiyani? Ndinagwiritsanso ntchito zolaula masiku angapo otsatira. Koma tsopano pakuziwona, ndimafunikira masiku amenewo kuti ndikhale bwino. Pambuyo pa masiku 4 ndidayamba kuchokera ku 0. Koma zidawoneka ngati ndikuyambilira kopanda malire.
Nthawi ino masiku analibe kanthu. Linali tsiku 40 kapena kotero kuti ndidadzuka pa desiki yanga ndikumva mphamvu yosaneneka, kuchuluka kwa testosterone kuthamanga kunaponya mitsempha yanga, kuwongolera komwe ndinali nako tsopano mthupi langa.
Masiku angapo apitawo ndinayang'ana zolaula patatha milungu 10 yopanda kanthu, palibe chithunzi chimodzi. Ndigwira mawu ndemanga zanga zina:
Zinali ngati kukumana ndi bwenzi lakale, koma mukuzindikira kuti mwapatukana ndipo simusangalalanso kukhala limodzi… ndipo simukufuna kukumananso. Ndinawona zomwe ndidaziwona pambuyo pa masabata a 10 ndipo sindinachite chidwi.
Komwe Ndili Pano:
Masiku 87 osachita maliseche. Chidaliro pamlingo watsopano. Zilibe kanthu kuti ndinu ndani kapena kuti mumawoneka bwanji — nditha kukuyang'ana m'maso ndikumvetsera zomwe ukunena. Ndimakhala womasuka ndikakhala pagulu la atsikana osati anyamata. Ndimapita ku masewera olimbitsa thupi pafupipafupi, ndimavala kukula ndi nyonga. Gawo labwino kwambiri ndiloti, sindikumva kufunika kokhala ndi wina m'moyo wanga. Ndimasangalala nazo momwe ndingathere ndipo zikuwoneka kuti zikuwachititsa atsikanawo misala.
Sindingakhale ndi dongosolo lodziseweretsa maliseche. Sindikumva ngati ndikufunika kuseweretsa maliseche, ngakhale nditakhala wovuta kapena ndikapanikizika. Sindimakonda zolakwika, ndipo ndikudziwa kuti thupi langa limatha kudzisamalira lokha (maloto onyentchera). k Kukhala ndikumasulidwa kwakanthawi kumandipanikiza, ndipo ichi ndi chimodzi mwazifukwa zomwe ndalephera pa dongosolo langa lamasiku 31.
Malangizo:
Ndikubwerezanso kuyankha kwanga kwina: "Ndingakusiyeni bwanji aakazi?"
Ingotenga kompyuta yanu, ndikuyang'ana chophimba kuchokera mbali imodzi. Mukuwona chiyani? Mbali ya chinsalu. Palibe kanthu uko, palibe kuseri kwake. Ndizoyandikira kwambiri kwa azimayi omwe ali pazenera. Mukazindikira izi, ndipo ndikutanthauza kuti mukumvetsetsa zomwe ndikutanthauza, mudzatuluka m'maganizo okonda akazi. "
miyezi 4
Zakhala pafupifupi gawo limodzi mwa magawo atatu a chaka kwa ine: Palibe maliseche, Palibe zolaula. Ndikulakalaka ndikadanena kuti ukuyenda bwino, koma sikunatero. Monga chizolowezi chilichonse m'moyo, zimatenga nthawi yambiri kukonza zinthu kuposa kuphwanya zinthu.
Anyamata, ndizovomerezeka, ndine 100% wotsimikiza kuti sindilowereranso zolaula komanso maliseche. Ndingadziwe bwanji? Ndine wokonda koma sindikuwona kuti ndikufunika kuseweretsa maliseche ndipo zolaula zimawoneka ngati zabodza komanso zabodza. Sindikuletsa zolaula zilizonse kapena chilichonse, chifukwa zimandipangitsa kukhala ndi chidwi chofuna kuthyola khoma. Zimangokhala ngati kuchita zoyipa: zikadakhala kuti ndi kanema, sindimatha maola ambiri ndikuwonera. Izi zati, nthawi zonse pamakhala mwayi woti titha kupanikizika ndi kupsinjika, ndife anthu pambuyo pake. Nditha kutsegula tabu ina pompano ndikupita kumalo oonera zolaula ndikumaliza zovuta zanga. Osati mwayi. Ndatha gawo limenelo…
Zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndiganizire zolembanso, kwa ine, zinali zoseketsa: kuti sindimatha kukumbukira chifukwa cha moyo wanga vidiyo yolaula yomwe ndidachita maliseche komaliza. Zinangondiwonetsa momwe ndakulira kuchokera pazonsezi. Momwe ubongo wanga udakonzera momwe uliri mkati mwake.
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