Chabwino, choyamba, iyi si akaunti yanga yanthawi zonse. . (adaganiza zochotsa kusadziwika)
Sindinakonze zolemba, chifukwa zambiri zomwe ndakumana nazo zidafotokozedwapo kale pazotumiza zina. Komabe, ndikuganiza kuti anthu ammudzi amayenera kuchita izi ndipo posachedwa ndidangokhala ndi zisonyezo zomwe ndimafuna kuziwerenga ndikuwona ngati m'deralo mukumva zomwezi. Ndidzafika pambuyo pake. Ine ndichita zonse zomwe ndingathe kusintha malingaliro anga mu fomu yopepuka.
Ndine 21 tsopano komanso katswiri ku koleji, ndimaphunzira zamagetsi zamagetsi ngati mukufuna. Ndakhala ndikujambula kuyambira Jr. High ndikuganiza. Ine mwina (sindingakumbukire ndendende) ndinadziimba mlandu chifukwa chazifukwa zachipembedzo (Katolika pano…. Pambuyo ndikangozindikira kuti mwina zipembedzo zinali zina ndi "malamulo" awo), ndipo ndikuganiza kuti zomwezo ndizowonera zolaula. Ndikuganiza kuti zinali chifukwa chakukula kwanga kwachipembedzo komwe kunandichititsa kuyesa ndikuthana ndi vuto langa. Pachifukwa chimenecho, ndimangowonera zolaula zolaula ndipo ndimayesa kuchepetsa maliseche anga ku 2-3 kangapo sabata sabata (masabata ena ambiri palibe). Komabe ndimapezabe kuti nofap ndiosintha kwambiri moyo.
Ndinkadziwa kuti ndiyenera kusintha pomwe ndimayenera kuyamba kumachita ngati momwe ndimakhalira msungwana pa nthawi yodziseweretsa maliseche kuti zindithandizire kuyenda mwachangu (ngati sindinachite zolaula.) Kungoganiza kuti msungwana sanali wokwanira, chifukwa chake ndinayenera kunamizira anali msungwana yemwe amandisokonekera kwinaku ndikuseweretsa maliseche. Ichi ndi chinthu chomwe ndimachiona kuti chimakhala cholakwika…. Mwamwayi ndinapeza zaka 10 zitatha 2-3.
Ndikhala ndikulemba zina mwa zomwe ndachita kale ndisanachitike. Poyamba:
Ndimakonda kukhala wosungulumwa. Zovuta kundipangitsa kuti ndizimvera zakukhosi kwa wina aliyense ... zovuta kuti 'mukonde' aliyense. Nthawi zina ndimakhala kusekondale komanso ku koleji koma ndidalibe bwenzi. Izi zinali makamaka chifukwa chosandipeza. Ndinali waulesi kwambiri ndipo ndimatha kugona toni. Komabe ndidakwanitsabe kukhala katswiri komanso wophunzira.
Pambuyo: Pambuyo pa milungu itatu ndinamva ngati panali kusintha kwakukulu. Tamva bwino kwambiri. Panthawi imeneyi ndinasankha kuti izi ndizopindulitsa ndipo ndidaganiza zopita nazo zonse. Ndinagonana kangapo pachiyambipo. Koma ndidazindikira, ndimakhala ndi loto lonyowa kamodzi masabata atatu kumayambiriro (nthawi ina 3 kawiri pa sabata.) Koma idapitilirabe pakati pa maloto onyowa ndipo tsopano zakhala ngati miyezi iwiri mwina. Ndazindikira mphamvu zambiri, ndimatha kugona pang'ono komanso osatopa ngati kale. Nthawi zambiri ndimakonda kupuma ndikaweruka kusukulu komanso nthawi yopuma. Sindinachite izi semester. Ndikuganiza kuti ndawerenga za munthu yemwe ali ndi vuto lotupa? Ine mwachisawawa ndinabwera ndi kubwera kuzungulira chizindikiro cha 90 tsiku. Ndidawona gulu lazinthu zazing'onoting'ono zikugwirizana ndi zolemba zina ngati, ndidasiya kuyang'ana pansi ndikamayenda. Mayendedwe anga akhala bwino. Kuthana ndi chizolowezichi kunandithandizanso kuwunika zina zomwe ndimaganiza paumoyo wanga. Ndidayamba kudya bwino ndipo ndidachitadi mankhwala a caffeine detox nthawi yachilimwe! Anasiya kumwa sodas ndi tiyi tsiku lililonse. Awa analinso othandizira akulu amagetsi omwe ndikukulimbikitsani kuti muyesere.
Nofap adandithandizanso kukhala ndi zowonjezereka ... ndikumverera kuti ndizitha kuyang'ana bwino, zomwe zimanditsogolera kuti ndiyimitse Adderall / focalin kuti ndiyesedwe (pakadali pano, tiziwona fainayi ikadzabwera!)
Anasankha kufotokoza zambiri pazowunikira. Zakhala kusintha kwa DRAMATIC. Ndizodabwitsa kuti mumatha kulamulira pambuyo pa nofap. Sindingathe kukhala kupyola ola limodzi ndi theka m'mbuyomo. Ndipo nthawi zina ndimapezeka ndikusakatula. Mukadzipereka kuti muchepetse nofap, mumayang'aniranso chifukwa msungwana aliyense amene mumamuwona pa sukulu (kapena TV / intaneti) sangathenso kukhala "mafuta" okhudzana ndi maliseche. Mukukhala omasuka kwambiri omwe simukusakira kukankha kwotsatira kwa dopamine.
Maloto anga opindulitsa anakula ndipo ndinakumbukira maloto ambiri. Ndili ndi "mfundo yovutitsa" yolimbayi kwa zaka zambiri yomwe ndimayandikira khosi langa komanso msampha wamanja. Kupsinjika kulikonse kungayambitse. Modabwitsa, izo zapita! Ndimakonda kukhala ndi anthu ambiri… .nditha kuwonetsera banja langa ndi abwenzi chikondi chomwe amayenera kutanthauza. Imeneyi ndi yotalikilapo kale kotero ndionjezanso mapindu ena pammanga kapena mafunso.
Ndafika pamfundo yanga yomaliza. Posachedwa, ndakumana ndi zinthu zomwe sindinakumanepo nazo kale. Zinayamba nditatha kukoka bwino komanso kutenga mayeso awiri olimba kubwerera kumbuyo. Sindinamve bwino za mayesedwewo ndipo ndinali ndi malingaliro ambiri omwe sindinakhalepo nawo kale. Chodziwika kwambiri chinali chakuti ndinayamba kulakalaka kwawo kwanthawi yoyamba ndipo ndimangofuna kukhala ndi banja langa! Zodabwitsa kwambiri kwa ine…. Ndipo tsopano iwo akumverera abwera ndi kupita. Masiku ena ndili bwino koma masiku ena ndimakhala ndimataya mtima, koma mwina ndi malingaliro atsopano omwe ndiyenera kuphunzira kuthana nawo. Ndakhala ndachitali kwa nthawi yayitali, ndizokwanira pano, chonde omasuka kufunsa mafunso anga.
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