Nkhani yanga ... Ndili mwana ndidagwiritsidwa ntchito kangapo konse ndikuwonetsedwa zolaula ndili ndi zaka 10. Nthawi ikamapita, ndimangophunzira kubisala bwino ndikudzipatula ndekha ndikamachita manyazi ndikudzimva kuti ndine wolakwa tsiku lililonse. Ndinagwidwa, kamodzi ndi amayi anga, komanso kamodzi ndi bambo anga .. ..koma anali ndi zaka 13. Ndinalankhula kwanthawi yayitali za izi, koma lingaliro lomwe ine ndinalongosola ndiloti sindidzagwidwe konse. Kukula m'tawuni yolemera, aliyense anali ndi buku la Mac lolembedwa ndi Middle School. Ndinaphunzira momwe ndingasewerere makolo anga zomwe akufuna kumva pomwe zonse zomwe ndimasamala sizikupeza kachilombo kena komwe kangandigwire.
Ndinadalitsika ndi malingaliro odabwitsa ndipo sindinayesetse konse ku High School. Zomwe ndimakonda kuchita kusukulu, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kupita kunyumba ndikuwonera zolaula kwa maola 3, kukagona pa 9pm, kudzuka kuti ndikhale bwino, kubwereza. Ndinanamizira kuti ndimagwira ntchito molimbika, bwanji? Chifukwa chake ndimatha kusiya ndekha ndikuchita "homuweki" kwa maola angapo. Zinafika poti ndinapeza akaunti ya Netflix kuti ndingowonera zolaula zomwe zinali zenizeni. Ndidadzipereka kuti ndizichita maphunziro ovuta a Senior Year of High School, zomwe zimandipangitsa kuti ndizikhala mpaka 2 koloko nthawi zina kuti ndikonzekere.
Zinafika poti ndinanena kuti ndikwanira ndipo ndinagwiritsa ntchito chisankho choyambirira ku koleji yachikhristu kuti ndiyesetse kusiya. Ndinaganiza, chabwino ndizosaloledwa kuchita izi pamenepo, ndiyimitsa. Chinachitika ndi chiyani? Ndinayamba kubisala, ngakhale kupeza njira zochitira pamene mnzanga amene ndimagona naye anali mchipinda! Sanakayikire kalikonse! Komabe, chizolowezi ichi chidandidya mpaka pomwe ndimapeza ma Cs m'makalasi a masamu… ..mutu womwe udakhazikika pamoyo wanga mpaka pamenepo ndikadakhala woyamba kukhala 1% padziko lapansi masamu. Ndinatenga ma multivariate calculus ku High School ndikukhala ndi A +, omaliza kwambiri mwa ophunzira apamwamba ku High School yanga (50% a kalasi yanga adapita ku masukulu a IVY ligi)
Chinachitika ndi chiyani? Ndinasiya sukulu kwa semester chifukwa sindinathe kumvetsetsa. (Adaziimba mlandu wakukhala mchipatala kwa sabata imodzi) adangosowa kusukulu…. Ndidadziwa kuti zomwe ndidasankha kukoleji sizinali bwino ndipo ndidasamukira ku yunivesite yaboma.
Pakadali pano, ndidawauza bambo anga zonse ndipo ndidatha kupeza upangiri. Ndinawona kuti izi sizinali zokwanira. Ndinayamba kucheza ndi kagulu kakang'ono kutchalitchi kwanga ndipo ndinapeza wowalimbikitsa yemwe nditha kumuuza zonse. Izi zinathandiza pang'ono, komabe sindinali wokonzeka kusiya chizolowezi chowononga ichi. Kuthamangira mpaka kugwa komaliza. Ndinapempha thandizo kutchalitchi changa chatsopano. Ndinayamba kukumana sabata iliyonse ndi anyamata awiri kuti tikambirane za moyo ndikuwunika malembo.
Kuzungulira nthawi imeneyi, mnzanga wapamtima wandiuza za NoFap. Fuulirani kwa inu omwe mumapanga mabaji tsiku ndi tsiku! Ndinaliko. Kenako mzanga wafika lero 21, ndinali nazo zokwanira, ndimati nditha. Tiyenera kukhala titatumizirana mameseji kapena kuyimbirana tsiku ndi tsiku kuti tizingoyang'ana pa NoFap. Ndinayang'ana zolaula kangapo, koma anakana kusefera. Mukamangolimbitsa, kumakhala kosavuta. Tsopano, ndili pamasabata atatu a noporn! Mukayesera kuchita izi nokha, mulephera. Pezani othandizira, omwe angakutsimikizireni, aliyense amene angakukondeni mokwanira kuti musakhumudwe, koma khalani pomwepo pamene mukuvutika kufika lero 7.
Sindikuyang'ana kumbuyo, ndinali ndi tsiku langa loyamba m'zaka 3 sabata yapitayo (onani positi yanga kuti mumve zambiri) ndipo nditha kunena moona mtima kuti atsikana enieni ali bwino kwambiri 🙂 Amalankhula nanu, akufuna kudziwa za inu, ali Ndimakusangalatsani, ndipo khalani ndi mitima yosamala kwambiri. Osakhazikika pa intaneti, moyo umakhala wabwino kwambiri mukazindikira kuti sichinthu chachikulu kuyankhula ndi msungwana wokongola pafupi nanu.
Kufikira tsiku 90 ndi chiyambi chabe, tsopano, ino ndi nthawi yoti ndikwaniritse chilichonse chomwe ndakhala ndikuwononga pafupi ndi kompyuta yanga. Ndimakumana ndi anyamata awiriwa kutchalitchi kwathu ndipo ndalimbitsa mgwirizano wanga ndi bwenzi langa la NoFap. Malingaliro anga m'moyo kale anali odzikonda, kodi zimanditengera kuti? Tsopano lingaliro langa ndi kukonda Mulungu, Kondani Ena, kenako Dzikondeni Nokha. Nditha kuyamba kumva kuwala kumapeto kwa ngalandeyo, ndikulumikizana ndi ine pakusuntha gawo limodzi pafupi tsiku lililonse. Ndimakhulupirira inu Fapstronaut!
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