Zaka 21 - Masiku 90: Moyo wamagulu wabwerera, anthu amandilemekeza

Choyamba nkhani yambuyo mwachangu. Maliseche kuyambira ndili mwana wazaka 12. Zinayamba ngati ndinawona CD yolaula ya makolo anga. Kuyambira pamenepo zidatuluka m'manja. Ndili ndi zaka 20 sindinayanjane nawo, ndinali PMOing kangapo 5 patsiku ndipo maphunziro anga anali shit. Tsiku lina ndinawona kulumikizana kwa YBOP ndipo ndinadziwa vuto linali: zolaula zidalanda. Mukuwona, zolaula zalandiridwa kwambiri pakati pathu, kuti zakhala zachilendo osati kuonera zolaula. Zakhala zikugwirizana ndi umuna komanso ukalamba kuyambira pomwe amuna onse omwe akutha msinkhu tsopano akuwonera zolaula. Ndinaganiza kuti chifukwa cha kuchuluka kwa libido komwe ndimayang'ana zolaula zambiri. Tsopano ndikudziwa kuti ndinali kulakwitsa. Ndinali chidakwa. Moyo wanga pachikhalidwe udasokonekera. Sindinatuluke ndipo sindinayanjane ndi akazi.

Masiku oyamba ochepa amakhala ovuta mwanjira zawo. Mumakhala wowopsa tsiku lililonse mpaka mumakafika pafupifupi masabata a 2 (panthawiyi ndimakhala bwino, ndimamva ngati ndili ndi dziko). Ndikulakalaka kumverera pambuyo pa masabata a 2 kukhala kwamuyaya, zomwe zimamveka zodabwitsa. Ndikumva kudandaula pang'ono tsopano koma mochulukirapo. Kenako mzere wathyathyathya unayamba. Gawo ili laulendo wanu limayamwa kwambiri. Pomaliza mufika pamlingo womwe mukuwona kuti ukutha kuwongolera.

Mosakayikira, ngati mutasiya kusakatula masamba olaula kwa maola ambiri patsiku, mudzakhala ndi nthawi yambiri yopuma. Nawu mndandanda wazomwe ndidachita ndi nthawi yanga yopuma:

-Sukulu, chinthu choyamba chomwe 'ndidakonza' anali magiredi anga kusukulu ya med. Kuchokera pa 53% mpaka 73%. Inde ana, kuphunzira mayeso anu kumagwira ntchito.

-Ndinayamba kusewera piyano, ndidayimilira ndili ndi zaka 14 ndipo sindidachitenso kanthu mpaka pano. Ndidatsala pang'ono kugwa pambuyo pa miyezi ya 2 kapena kupitilira apo. Ndiponso, zizolowezi zimapanga bwino. Mwina ndimalingalira zam'tsogolo, chifukwa ndikudziwa kuti sindingathe kuchita ndekha tsopano.

-Kuwerenga. Izi zimatsegula dziko latsopano kwa aliyense. Pali zambiri zoti muphunzire m'mabuku. Pakadali pano ndikuwerenga Gatsby wamkulu komanso buku la mphete zisanu za Miyamoto Musashi (ndimalimbikitsa aliyense amene amachita masewera a karati).

Zazikulu zolemetsa. Njira yabwino yopumulirako ndi kuzizira ndi bros. Ndidachitapo kale karati kale, chifukwa chake ndikhulupilira kuti izi zindipangira kareka wabwino.

-Kupanga. Ndimadzipangira ndekha mafuta ochokera ku maapulo. Shit ndimunthu wabwino.

Kukhala phunziro loyesa sayansi. Ndi momwe ndimapezera ndalama zanga.

-Kupanga. Zovuta kuyambiranso ndipo zimasangalatsa kwambiri. Ndimayamwerabe izi koma tsiku lina ndidzapanga chidutswa changa cha mbendera / chovala.

-Kusiya moyo wanga wabwerera. Ndinayambanso kupita kunja kwa nyumba yanga.

Pamaso pa NoFap ndinali namwali wosapsa mtima yemwe analibe chiyanjano chilichonse chachikazi. Pomwe ndimakhala kuno, ndidacheza ndi atsikana a 2, ndiye kusintha kwakukulu. Ndidakhalanso ndi mayi wina, komabe namwali. Izi zonse ndizodabwitsa, chifukwa ndimakumbukirabe za akazi. Nthawi zambiri anthu amandiuza kuti ndine wokongola komanso kuti atsikana ena amakhaladi ndi ine. Sindikungotenga zikwangwani. Izi sizimandivutitsa kwambiri. Moyo ndiwodabwitsa kwambiri kuti tisadere nkhawa zazing'onozing'ono.

Ndipo mwina chinthu chabwino kwambiri chomwe chasintha kwa ine. Anthu amayamba kundilemekeza. Ndikulankhula za alendo, anzanga komanso anzanga. Ndakhala mmodzi wa ochita masewera olimbitsa thupi tsopano ndipo anthu amasangalatsidwa ndi zomwe ndimakweza (Ndazolowera kukhala munthu wowonda kwambiri kulikonse komwe ndikupita, uku ndikumverera kwatsopano). Anzanga akuyang'ana kwa ine, chifukwa ndakhala wolimba mtima kwambiri pankhani ya akazi ndi chilichonse. Abambo anga (mr. Okweza-phiri-Everest-pussy-ine-ndinakwera-Everest-wopanda-zingwe-ndi-oxygen) amanyadira kuti pamapeto pake ndinayamba kulamulira moyo wanga ndipo ndayamba kuyamika zomwe ndakwanitsa. Kalata yaying'ono, samayamika aliyense, ngati akunena kuti ndinu abwino ndiye kuti ndinu abwino. Amadziwa kuti china chake chachitika. Maphunziro anga ndi okwera kuposa anzanga kusukulu (osati imodzi yabwino kwambiri, koma adzakhala tsiku limodzi), ndipo amasangalatsidwa ndi nzeru zanga. Uku ndikumverera kwachilendo kwatsopano. Sindinakhalepo ndi izi kale, ndinali munthu wamba.

Mukandifunsa tsopano ngati ndachiritsidwa, nditha kuyankha kuti ayi. Ndinagonjetsa MO masiku 90, komabe ndikulakalaka P tsiku ndi tsiku. Pakati pa masiku anga a 90 ndimayang'anabe zolaula nthawi ndi nthawi, sindinathe. Gawo langa lotsatira lidzakhala lopanda zolaula.

Inu anyamata ndinu gulu labwino kwambiri, labwino kwambiri. Ndikudziwa kuti moyo wanga ungakhale woipa kwambiri ndikadapanda kumva za inu anyamata. Ichi ndi chimodzi mwazinthu zovuta kwambiri zomwe ndidachitapo, ndikudziwa sindikadatha kuzichita popanda inu anyamata. Zikomo.

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