[Age 21, lipoti la chaka chimodzi] Sindinatumize mu blog yanga kwa nthawi yayitali, ndakhala wotanganidwa kwambiri ndi moyo wamba ndikupita patsogolo ndikumwa.
Kulakalaka zolaula zogonana zatha, ndakhala wopanda izi kwanthawi yayitali, sindimakumbukira zambiri. Gawo lina la ine limadabwa kuti ndichifukwa chiyani ndidazolowera kale. Zimamveka ngati anali munthu wina amene amakhala maola ambiri tsiku lililonse akuonera zithunzi zolaula komanso makanema.
Ndine wotsimikiza 100% kuti zolaula zogonana ndizongokhala chabe, ubongo wokha womwe umayambitsidwa chifukwa chofananira (kuwoneka kwachikazi kwa amuna kapena akazi okhaokha) mantha ndi nkhawa (sizowongoka, ayi ayi!) Ndi mantha (zowona kuti mkazi wopitilira kukhala ndi mbolo). Izi zonse zimaphatikizana muubongo wowonera ndikukhazikitsa kuphulika kwa dopamine, chifukwa chake, ndikulemba pamutu wa wowonera ngati kumadzutsa.
Zake zosavuta kuti zizolowere pa izo. Gawo lovuta likuchoka. Ndizosavuta pamalingaliro: Ingoti "osaganizira" za izo kapena kuyang'ana pa izo. Zikumveka zosavuta, koma ndizovuta kwambiri mukamagwiritsa ntchito nthawi yonse yomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito.
Zapita bwino tsopano. Ndinganene kuti 98% yazodzutsa zomwe ndinali nazo zatsala pang'ono kutha. Zomwe zatsala ndi gawo laling'ono lomwe nditha kuthana nalo pafupi mphindi. Sikanthu.
HOCD ndiyosavuta kuthana nayo tsopano. Ndikutsimikiza kuti zinali zogwirizana ndi zolaula zomwe ndimaziwona. Kaya zinali kapena ayi, sindimalipiranso. Ndimangosiya kuziganizira, kapena kuziseka ndikumapitiliza kuchita chilichonse chomwe ndikuchita. Izi zikuwoneka kuti zikugwira ntchito.
Ndili ndi zifukwa zambiri zopangira ndekha tsopano, ndikufuna ntchito. Basketball ikuyenda bwino. Ndimayenda mozungulira anzanga ambiri tsopano. Mphamvu zowonjezera ndi testosterone zomwe ndimapeza ndikamasiya zimandisandutsa makina azamasewera! Ndakhalanso wolimbanirana kwambiri ndikumasuka; nkhawa zamagulu zatha kwambiri; Nkhani zokwiya zomwe ndinali nazo kale ndizabwino. Sindingathe kuuluka mosavuta.
Ponseponse, moyo ndiwowoneka bwino pakadali pano, sindinathe kumaliza milungu isanu ndi itatu ndikudziletsa, koma chaka chatha chomaliza cha "kulephera" kwakhala kopindulitsa kuposa momwe ndimaganizira, ndachira kwambiri ndipo ndine munthu wina. Mwanjira yabwino!
Ndikuganiza kuti zolaula zambiri zimawona kuyambiranso ngati kulephera kwathunthu, kutha kwa ntchito yomwe adayika, koma zowona sichoncho. Kubwereranso kumakuphunzitsani kukana mtsogolo. Amakuphunzitsani kuti mphindi zochepa ndi kanema kapena zithunzi sizothandiza.
Patatha miyezi yambiri
Lero limasunga milungu inayi PMO yaulere, kupatula gawo lalifupi, losagonana ndi chibwenzi changa chomwe chidapangitsa mkokomo umodzi kapena ziwiri. Ngati zili choncho, magawanowa adandionetsa kuti chidwi changa pa mbolo yanga chakula bwino, ndimatha kumva kuyenda kulikonse, mayendedwe aliwonse, matupi athu amangophatikizika ndipo anali angwiro komanso zamatsenga .. Koma ndidaziyimitsa chifukwa ndidayamba zolaula kachiwiri. Ndaganiza zopitanso milungu isanu ndi umodzi kuti ndikachite zogonana kenako ndikuwona zomwe zimachitika, ngakhale ndikuganiza kuti ndidzakhala bwino. (Ndinakondweretsanso kuthekera kwanga kuti ndidziyimitse, sindinakwanitse kutero! Ndipo ndizovuta zinali .. m'njira zambiri kuposa imodzi!)
ED ali bwino kwambiri, koma wakhala akuchira pang'onopang'ono zaka ziwiri zapitazi, komanso ndimakhala womasuka kwambiri ndi mayi wanga wokongola, amadziwa vuto langa ndi zolaula ndipo amandithandizira kwathunthu, adatero kuyambira tsiku loyamba kuti ngati ED andigunda amamvetsetsa kuti sanali iye kapena vuto langa kapena chilichonse.
Kupatula apo, mwachilengedwe, kupewa zolaula kuchokera ku ED, NDIMAKHULUPIRIRA ndikukhulupirira kuti kukhala bwino ndi mnzako kumathandizanso, ndikudziwa anthu omwe samakonda zolaula omwe amavutika kupeza zovuta poyesa kugonana ndi munthu wina kwa nthawi yoyamba, sindikuganiza kuti muyenera kumuuza mnzanu zakumwa kwanu kapena china chilichonse, koma kungotenga zinthu pang'onopang'ono ndikumamatira kuzolumikizana kwa sabata limodzi kapena awiri mutakumana ndi lingaliro labwino kwambiri. Zomwe zimakhala ngati mumalumikizana limodzi ndikamanena zogonana matupi anu amangophatikizika mwachilengedwe, osakhala ndi nkhawa kapena nkhawa, mapulani ake abwino basi!
Zaka ziwiri zapitazo ndimaganiza kuti sindikudziwa kuti ndingasangalale kwambiri ngati izi, kapena momwe ine ndi mnzanga timawatchulira "snuggles" Akumwetulira koma tsopano ndazindikira kuti malingaliro ndi kulumikizana komwe ndimakhala ndikakhala ndikunyamula bwenzi langa m'manja mwanga sikungagonjetsedwe ndimamva bwino ndikamapita nthawi zambiri popanda zolaula. Anthu ena amakumbatirana atagonana, koma kukumbatirana kale ndi njira yabwino kwambiri yosangalalira ndi bwenzi.
Chifukwa chake zinthu zikuyenda bwino kwambiri pakadali pano, ndikuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi mphindi khumi ndi zisanu tsiku lililonse osalephera, makamaka ndikumangoyenda ndi zolemera zomwe zaponyedwamo. Anthu ena atha kunena kuti sikokwanira, koma ndikuganiza, mphindi khumi ndi zisanu tsiku lililonse Njira yabwino kuposa ola limodzi kapena masiku awiri pa sabata ku masewera olimbitsa thupi.
Ndataya thupi, ndapeza minofu, khungu langa ndilabwino, mphete zakuda zomwe zili pansi panga zatha, ndine wolimba mtima, wamphamvu, wachangu komanso koposa zonse .. Wosangalala! Kumwetulira
Ndikumwanso madzi ambiri tsopano, sindikudziwa chifukwa chake, koma zimandipangitsa kukhala wosangalala komanso ndibwinoko kuposa zakumwa zamasewera zomwe ndimamwa kale, popeza pali nthawi yodziwika bwino yobwera ndi iwo shuga atatha.
Tili ndi madzi, chifukwa chake simungadzichitire zabwino ngati simukusunga madziwo mokwanira!
Ndikuganiza ndiyeneranso kufotokoza zovuta zina zomwe ndakumana nazo m'masiku angapo apitawa:
(Malangizo kapena upangiri uliwonse ungalandiridwe bwino!)
- Ziwombankhanga zimachitika ndikayesa kugona, ndikupeza njira zopewa izi pogwiritsa ntchito njira kuchokera ku yourbrainonporn, koma nthawi zina ndimakhala ndikumangika pomwe zolaula zakale zimabwera m'mutu mwanga. Osati zabwino, koma akhala milungu inayi yokha, ndipo ndimakhala ndikudzinamiza ngati ndimaganiza kuti zolakalaka sizingakwere nthawi ndi nthawi. Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi ziyima posachedwa.
- Amayi ali paliponse !! Sindinazindikire izi ndikamazolowera zolaula, kapena mwina ndidatero, koma sindinasamale chifukwa analibe ma boobs apulasitiki. Izi zikupangitsa zinthu kukhala zovuta ndipo zikutsutsana ndi zoyesayesa zanga zokhala bwenzi labwino. Ie ndidakhala m'basi tsiku lina ndipo mtsikana adabwera ndikukhala pafupi nane, anali atavala top yomwe idasiyidwa pang'ono ndikungodumpha mukudziwa chiyani .. Ndine wokondwa kuti ndinali ndi bagpack pamiyendo yanga! Ndiyenera kuti ndimawoneka wopusa ndikutsika basi ndili ndi chikwama changa chonyamulidwa pamwamba pa crotch yanga! Kumwetulira
Amayi ena amakonda kwambiri zogonana. Ndikumva ngati woyipa ndikawona mtsikana wina ndikumupeza wokongola, zimandikwiyitsa koma ndikuganiza kuti ndikungofunika kuvomereza izi. Ndikudziwa kuti sindidzabera, zonsezi ndizofunika, sichoncho? Ndine 21 ndipo sindinasulidwepo kugonana milungu inayi .. Ndiyenera kudzipatsa tchuthi ndikuganiza, komabe ndizokhumudwitsa. Tikukhulupirira kuti ndikamakhala ndi moyo wosangalala komanso wokondana ndi chibwenzi changa, zokhumba za akazi ena zimatha kwakanthawi. Ndiyenera kutsimikiza kuti ndikumamatira kuzikhalidwe zolumikizana.
- Mwayi wotuluka m'nyumba masana ndi ochepa. Ndakhala ndikusagwira ntchito kwa miyezi ingapo ndipo ndimakhala masiku anga ndikuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kapena kuwonera TV. Ndilibe ndalama yochitira zambiri kupatula kupita kukacheza kunyumba ya anzanga, koma ndili ndi mnzanga m'modzi yekha yemwe sagwira ntchito pakadali pano ndiye ndiyesa kucheza naye tsiku lonse. Ndimawona chibwenzi changa pafupifupi masiku 4 pasabata, chifukwa chake ndikakhala naye palibe mwayi woti ndibwererenso! Osati zolaula, osachepera.
Kuthamanga komanso kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndi njira yanga yokhayo yotuluka mnyumbamo. Ndikangopeza ntchito, zinthu zidzakhala zosavuta.
Mbiri yake yambiri ili munkhaniyi
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