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Hei anyamata kwakhala kanthawi kuyambira pomwe ndidatumiza china chake apa, chifukwa chake ndidazindikira kuti lero ndi tsiku labwino kutero. Ngati zikumbukiro zanga zimanditumikira bwino, ndiye lero ndi nthawi yachiwiri yomwe ndakhala masiku 90 ndisanachite zolaula. Pakhala pali mautali akutali apa ndi apo koma nthawi zonse amaphatikizira kuzembera panjira. Nthawi ino komabe, sindikuganiza kuti ndidzakhala ndi nkhawa iliyonse monga ndidachitira masiku 90wa mosiyana kwambiri ndi kale. Ndikufotokozera.

Tiyeni tiyambe ndikukhazikitsanso chaka chatha:

Chifukwa chake ndimawerenga zambiri pa YBOP ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndimayamba ulendo wanga watsopanowu. Mwachibadwa ndinkangokhalira kulakwitsa ndipo sindinathe kufika masiku 67 kapena apo ndisanayambenso kuseweretsa maliseche. Kuusa moyo. Sindingathe kupsinjika mokwanira kuti munthu sayenera kubwerera ku maliseche. Ndizopanda pake. Posakhalitsa (Patatha masiku opitilira 100) ndidabwereranso ku zolaula ndikuyamba kuyambiranso. Masiku 50 kapena apo angatsatidwe ndi kubwereranso kotsatiridwa ndikutalika kwina kwina. Nthawi zambiri ndimadziuza ndekha ndi bwenzi langa kuti ndatha nthawi ino, ndikungoyereranso. Ndidapita patsogolo panjira ngakhale:

- Ndinasiya kuseweretsa maliseche (Kuchepetsa zolaula.)

- Ndasiya kufunikira kubwera patsamba lino.

-Ndinakumana ndi mtsikana wamkulu kwambiri kuposa onse ndipo ndinayamba chibwenzi naye kwambiri.

- Ndinayamba kutenga maphunziro mozama

- Ndidayamba kuyesa kuwunika anzanga ndikubwezeretsanso mphamvu zowonongera zoyipa.

- Ndinatenga zosangalatsa zatsopano m'mabasi ndi kusewera gitala.

Ndipo tsopano chaka chino…

Zomwe ndapanga mosiyanasiyana nthawi ino ndichinthu chomwe chinali chowonekera, komabe, sindingathe kuzichita. Ndinachotseratu zokopa. Ndachotsa azimayi onse pakompyuta yanga. Sindikukhulupirira momwe sindinawonepo machitidwe anga kale, koma moona mtima ndimamva ngati ndikupanga nthawi yonse chaka chatha. Kwenikweni, ngati mukusiya china chake, musadzinyenge nokha! Chifukwa chake zazing'onozi zasintha zonse kwa ine ndipo sindinakhalepo ndi zolimbikitsa zambiri nthawi ino konse.

Chifukwa chake tiyeni tichite mndandanda wazosintha nthawi ino:

- Kugonana ndi bwenzi langa kumakhala kovuta nthawi zonse. Ndikulumbirira amayamba kundigonana komanso amandigonana, ndipo zimapitilira thupi.

- Ndidamaliza nyimbo yanga yoyamba yomwe ndidalemba mabass ndi magitala. Ndi mwana wanga ngakhale ayi, palibe amene angamve chisoni.

- Ndilowa nawo gulu posachedwa, ndipo tikuyenera kuyamba kusewera nthawi yopuma ya Khrisimasi.

- Ndinapanga anzanga ambiri atsopano omwe sindingathe kudikira kuti ndikhale nawo paubwenzi. Ndili ndi chidwi ndi anthu ena tsopano, ndipo ndimakhala wosangalala ndikamamvera nkhani zamoyo. Sindinasamalepo kale. Sindimenyanso akavalo akufa chifukwa chakuti ngati wina alibe mayendedwe ofanana ndi anga, ndimawasiya. Sindikuchezanso kwambiri ndi anzanga akale omwe adalimbikitsanso zizolowezi zanga zoipa. Ngati ndichita, ndiye kuti tikuchita zinthu zina kusiyapo kusewera masewera apakanema kwa maola ambiri.

- Ndikulakalaka kukhala ndi abwenzi achikazi… Ichi ndichachikulu chifukwa ndikumva moona mtima tsopano kuti ndikufuna kuwasamalira tsopano. Sindikufuna kugonana nawo ngakhale kuti ndi okongola. Ndizovuta, bwenzi langa nthawi zonse amandiuza kuti anyamata ndi atsikana atha kukhala abwenzi, koma sindinaganize kuti ndizotheka kuti ndisafune kugonana ndi atsikana. Tsopano ndikudzichepetsa.

- Ndili pafupifupi chaka chimodzi ndikukongola komwe ndidayamba chibwenzi chaka chatha, ndipo chikondi chathu chimangokhala bwino. Ndikumva kuti zikukulirakulira mchaka chachiwiri ngakhale.

- Ndiponso, azimayi… ndimawamva mosiyana nawo. Ndikumva ngati ndikufuna kupanga ubale nawo. Ndikufunabe kugonana ndi ena mwa iwo, koma awa ndi omwe sindikuwadziwa mpaka pano. Ndikumva ngati omwe ndikuwadziwa, sindikufuna kugona nawo momwe ndimafunira kuwasamalira. Kuphatikiza apo ndatengedwa choncho…

Chomaliza chomwe ndikufuna kunena ndikuti mukayambiranso, mwina muyenera kuyambiranso kauntala… Zimayamwa koma kusiya, ngakhale nthawi zina kumakhala kofatsa, kumawoneka kuti kwayamba ndi ine. Kusinthaku kudabweranso kwanthawi yayitali, nkhawa idadutsa padenga, zoyeserera zochepa zidalipo, zokopa zamasewera a vidoe komanso kusewera pa intaneti kunali kwamphamvu kwambiri! Nthawi zonse ndimamva kuti kupita patsogolo ndikowonjezera ndipo ndikuvomereza, koma sizikutanthauza kuti simudzachokeranso monga momwe zinalili ndi ine. Kwina mozungulira tsiku 75 ndipamene ndidayambiranso kukhala pamwamba pamasewera anga, ndipo bwenzi langa nawonso lidachita nawo izi. China chomwe chinathandiza chinali kuyambitsa mulu wa khobidi. Chimodzi patsiku lililonse pansi pa kama wanga chinandilimbikitsa kupitiliza, ndipo pambuyo pa masiku 30, ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito emeralds. Patapita kanthawi chibwenzi changa chidandizindikira ndikunditsimikizira kuti sindifunikiranso kuwunjika ngati ndikadakhala kuti ndachita zolaula. Ndikuganiza kuti ndinali. www.reuniting.info/content/90-days-yet-again

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[Tsiku 15] Kuyambira lero, ndakhala milungu iwiri ndisanachite zolaula. Kuphatikiza apo, sindinachite maliseche sabata limodzi. Ndimangodzuka ola la XNUMX koloko m'mawa uliwonse, ndipo ndimamva bwino. Pakadali pano, zokopa zimawoneka ngati zikubwera ndikudutsa kotero ndiyenerabe kusamala ndi zomwe ndikuwona. Kuphatikiza apo, ndiyenera kuyesetsa kuti ndisawone chilichonse chomwe chingayambitse zokopa monga zomwe zimaponyedwa mwazithunzi zolaula pa Google. Ndingopewe kusaka kwazithunzi za Google palimodzi. Ndimawona kuti ndimayamba kuyang'ana zifanizo mosagwirizana ndi chifuniro changa ndikapita pa Google.

Ndizosangalatsa kuzindikira izi:

Ndasangalala ndi nyimbo lero yomwe sindinakhale nayo kwanthawi yayitali. Kuthamangako kunali kovuta.

Sindimawasowa anzanga pomwe kale, ndimangofunika kuwaona.

Sindine wokwiya… Komabe, ndimakonda Dir En Grey pakadali pano!

(Poganizira mozama, uku kudali bata bata chisanachitike mphepo yamkuntho. Ndikuganiza kuti ndipamene mzere woyambira unayamba kotero sindinali wokonda zolaula kapena maliseche. Komanso, panthawiyo ndinali ndi chidwi chofuna kuyang'ana pazithunzi za Google kwambiri mwachisawawa nthawi yonseyi ndikudziwa kuti chilichonse chitha kutuluka ndikusokoneza malingaliro anga. Sindimadziwa pakadali pano zomwe zikubwera mtsogolo: kuchotsa.)

[Tsiku 16] ndinadzuka ndili wotopa, ndipo sindinkafuna kuchita chilichonse. Pambuyo pake, ndinayamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi. nyimboyi imaloweza pamtima kwathunthu, koma gawo lomaliza ndiyovuta kwambiri. Ndizokwiyitsa kwambiri kuti zimangowonjezereka kuposa momwe ndidapitilira kulowa, ndipo nthawi ina ndidatsala pang'ono kuphwanya mutu wanga pansi. Komabe, ndazindikira kuti ndidaphunzira zina mwazinthu mwachangu kwambiri, ndipo nthawi ina ndimadzimva kuti sindinachite bwino ngati ndikuthamangira kapena china chake. Izi zinali zosangalatsa tsiku langa lonse. Pambuyo pa maola awiri ndikulingalira mochita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ndimafuna kuchita zinthu zina. Zinthu Zosapindulitsa. Ndiyamba kumva kuti intaneti ili ndi china chake kwa ine chomwe ndichofunika kwambiri. Ndipo zowonadi nthawi zina ndimapeza zosangalatsa zabwino, koma nthawi zambiri ndimathera nthawi yochuluka kufunafuna kena kake kopezadi. Ndikapeza china chake pa intaneti chomwe ndimawona kuti ndi chamtengo wapatali, chimakhala chosakhalitsa. Sizofanana ngakhale kusewera mabasi anga sikundipatsa phindu, kutsimikiza mtima kwanga kupita patsogolo ndikofooka pakali pano. Cholinga changa chitha kugwiritsanso ntchito ntchito, koma kusinkhasinkha ndikotopetsa. Mwinanso ndidzasinkhasinkha nyimbo. Osati ngati ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri zoti ndichite zina zambiri.

Sindikukhulupirira (Mnzanga) adati "Ndinadziwa kuti sungaleke kuwonera zolaula." Zimandipweteka kwambiri, koma zikuwoneka kuti sanandikonde kwambiri. Zonsezi ndizomwe ndimaganiza za ine, ndipo sindikufunikira kukhala bwenzi lake.

(Wowonjezedwa pambuyo pake: Kuwerenga moseketsa tsiku limodzi nditatuluka pabedi ndichisangalalo tsiku la 56 kuti ndiyambe tsiku langa. Kuphunzira nyimboyi kunakhala kosavuta chifukwa ndimakhala kutali ndi PMO, ndipo tsopano ndaloweza pamtima. kusewera pa intaneti pafupifupi momwe ndimakhalira, koma ndikufunabe kudula ena. =] Tsiku lomwelo linali limodzi mwamasiku ambiri osasangalatsa. Kwa bwenzi langa, nthawi zonse amakhala akumenyedwa, koma ndikutsimikiza Sindikutanthauza chilichonse cha izi. Mwinanso ndidzalankhulanso naye. Sindikudziwabe. Ndizotheka kuti panthawi yosiya kuti chilichonse chomwe si PMO chitha kuwoneka ngati munga m'manja mwanu. Ngakhale abwenzi omwe amaseka nanu monga momwe amachitira. akhala akuchita nthawi zonse.)

[Tsiku 28] Yesu Khristu! Ndikumva kupsa mtima kwambiri chifukwa cha maloto omwe ndimalota. Moona mtima, ndimakondwera kupita kukagona chifukwa pali mwayi kuti ndidzakhala ndi maloto ena okhudzana ndi zolaula. Ndiye bwanji ndikupeza zovuta? Mu malotowa ndikulandila zogonana pakamwa kwambiri, koma sindimafikira pachimake! Kodi ndikulota bwanji ndikulota maloto owuma?!? Sindikumvetsa chifukwa chake, koma maloto oyamba omwe ndimakonza kuti ndiwonjezere. Ndinapitilizabe kukulira mpaka zosokoneza mwadzidzidzi zitayamba kusokoneza ine ndi wamkazi, ndipo ndi momwe malotowo adathera. Chachiwiri chimatha chimodzimodzi ndi anthu omwe akutanganidwa ndikugonana!

[Tsiku 37] Chabwino dzulo ndinadzuka nditakhala ndi maloto anga oyamba! Sindikusangalala nazo konse. Zidachitika mwachangu kwambiri, ndipo zinali chabe zolaula zakumbuyo. Zowonongeka zochepa chabe, ndipo zinandigwedeza ubongo wanga mofanana ndi mavidiyo 3 pamphindi. Kuphatikiza apo, zimangokhala pafupifupi masekondi atatu kenako ndidadzuka ndikukwiya ndikunyowa pang'ono. Ndimamva ngati kuti ndayambiranso, ndipo padali ngakhale wothamangitsa kutsagana ndikumverera. Ndinayenera kupewa anime ndi china chilichonse chomwe chimakhala chogonana tsiku lonse. Izi sizosangalatsa nthawi zina.

Lero linali lodabwitsa ngakhale zili ngati kuti ndimangoyenda pakati pa 6 ndi 2 pamiyeso yamalingaliro. Ndinkamva zoyankhula zoyipa kwambiri kwa (Mtsikana) kumuuza za chibwenzi chake nthawi iliyonse yomwe wapeza. Ndimamva ngati kuti wina akundinyamula ndikundipanda mobwerezabwereza. Ndikudabwa ngati ndikadalankhula naye ngati sanali mtsikana.

[Tsiku?] Nkhani yanu yosangalatsa kwambiri yobwererera?

Sindikudziwa za wina aliyense, koma ndikudziwa nditayamba izi, ndimakhala ndikudzidalira chifukwa pamapeto pake ndidapeza gwero la zovuta zanga. Zomwe ndimayenera kuchita tsopano ndikukonzekera bwino? Mofulumira kubwerera koyamba kubwerera ...

Ndili ndi nthawi ziwiri zomwe zimandisangalatsa. Loyamba ndi pamene ndinalota kuti ndinali pachibwenzi ndi chimodzi mwazomwe ndimakonda zolaula. Ndikutanthauza kuti ndinamva kuti ndimamkonda m'maloto anga. Tidali ndi nyumba, zithunzi, ndipo panali chomangira pamenepo. Mwachibadwa nditadzuka tsiku lomwelo, ndinamuonanso. O_O Zinayamba ndi ine kuyang'ana makanema ake pa YouTube, kenako amasamukira ku chubu china.

Nthawi yachiwiri yomwe ndimakumbukira inali pomwe ndimakhala bwino mpaka pomwe ndidapeza cd yopanda kanthu. O_O Pokhala ndi chidwi monga momwe ine ndiliri, ndinadabwa kuti "Kodi chingakhale chiyani pa CD iyi?" Zina zonse ndi zosokoneza lol!

[Tsiku 35] Kuyambira lero, ndimamva ngati ndikumva nditangobwerera kumene. Nditatha kukonza. Nditatha kudziimba mlandu ndikuchita manyazi koyambirira, ndidamva kuti ndatsitsimutsidwa. Ndikudandaula ngati zili bwino kumva ngati ndakonzekera pomwe sindingakumbukire kuti ndayambiranso. Ndimasangalala kuti tsopano ndimatha kumvetsera nyimbo chifukwa chongofuna kusangalala m'malo momvera chifukwa ndimamva chisoni. Ndalankhula ndi mzanga lero, ndipo sanasekane kwambiri pafoni. Ndimadzimva woseketsa komanso wopepuka, ndipo ndizodabwitsa chifukwa dzulo dzulo ndimamva ngati ndagundidwa ndi galimoto. Pendulum ikadali isintha ndikuganiza.

[Tsiku 42] Oo lero ndikumva bwino ndikuwoneka ngati wowopsa. Dzulo ndimakhala ndimavuto ambiri kusewera bass, ndipo moona mtima ndinali nditatopa. Zinakhala bwino ngakhale chifukwa ndimaonera makanema tsiku lonse ndi banja. Linali tsiku labwino palimodzi chifukwa cha izo. Lero ndimamva bwino kuti nditha kupanga manga yanga. Ndimakonda malingaliro awa amoyo. Ngakhale kukhumudwa kwanga kuli ndi phindu kwa ine tsopano chifukwa ndili ndi chiyembekezo komanso chikhulupiriro kuti nthawi zabwino ndizotheka. Ndikumva ngati ndili pano ndipo ndikupezeka kwathunthu. Ndikufuna kupitiliza ndikwaniritse kuthekera kwanga konse. Mulungu wanga ndayiwala zakukula kwanga kolimba. Dzulo ndinapitirira malire anga omwe ndimapiringa ndipo minofu yanga imakhala yopweteka ngakhale!

[Tsiku 45] Mutu mutu mutu mutu !!! Kupanikizika kwambiri pamutu panga. Nthawi zambiri ndimayesetsa kulimbana ndikumwa tulo tsiku lililonse, koma mwina thupi langa limafunikira izi pompano. Mphamvu zochepa lero, koma ndikumva kuti ndikhozabe kupitiriza ndipo ndidzakhala bwino posachedwa.

Ndangotenga mayeso a typology a Human-Metrics ndikulandanso zomwezo! ENTJ kapena Field marshal. Zili kutali kwambiri ndi zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito kuti ndibwerere mu 2008. Ndimagwiritsa ntchito Counsellor yemwe ndi INFJ, koma zinthu zasintha tsopano. Ndikudabwa ngati kusuta kumakhudzana ndi zotsatira zake. Ndikamaganizira momwe zotsatira zasinthira, zikuwoneka kuti ndayamba kukhumudwa komanso kumvetsetsa. Ndimakonda kucheza ndi anthu komanso kucheza nawo, ndipo ndimakonda kudalira zifukwa zomveka osati momwe ndingamvere. Koma pamapeto pake, ndimatha kusintha nthawi zonse, ndipo nditha kukhala aliyense amene ndikufuna kukhala.

[Tsiku 51] Izi zikuwoneka mopepuka ndipo sizoseketsa, koma mwina ndikungoti ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri. Nditha kudutsa ma seti anga akale pomwe m'mbuyomu, ndimavutika ndi kuchuluka kwanga. Ndinagona maola 5, ndikumwa khofi, ndipo ndidakali bwino. Ndizodabwitsa kwenikweni. Azimayi amandipatsabe agulugufe, koma ndiyenera kunena kuti ndakhala wolimba mtima komanso ndikudzidalira. Ndikuganiza kuti ndikuyamba kuzindikira chifukwa chake ndimakonda chitsulo, ndipo ndikuganiza chifukwa ndi nyimbo yokhayo yomwe ingafanane ndimphamvu zanga. Mwinamwake zinandilimbikitsa kwambiri monga momwe ntchito yogwirira ntchito ikuchitira tsopano. Ndikhala ndimacheza ndi (msungwana) lero, chifukwa chake ndikutsimikiza kuti padzakhala china choti ndidzanene mtsogolo. Amangokonda kundikumbutsa zoti ali ndi chibwenzi, koma nditani? Ndimamukonda.

[Pambuyo pake tsopano nditha kunena kuti zonse zomwe ndidamva zosiya kusiya maliseche ndi zolaula ndizowona! Liwu langa limamveka lamphamvu ndipo ndinali womasuka. Atsikana kubwera ndikulankhula ndi ine sizimawoneka ngati zotheka pazaka zanga, koma zokwanira, ndinayandikana ndi atsikana awiri okongola! Mosakayikira, zoyankhulana zinali zabwino.

[Tsiku 52] Kotero dzulo ndinali ndi maloto anga achiwiri onyowa kuyambira pa June 5th, ndipo zinali zoyenera bwanji poganizira kuti ndimaganizira za (msungwana) asanagone. Ndikulingalira kuti zikuyenda bwino kuyambira kale pomwe ndimangolota maloto okhudzana ndi zolaula. Zotsatira zake, ndinkangokhala wotopa tsiku lonse. Ndimamva kutopa kwambiri komanso kutopa tsiku lonse. Ziyenera kukhala zotsatira zoyipa zomwe adanenazo, koma ngati ndi choncho ndiye kuti ndibwino kuvomereza. Ndikulingalira kuti ndiyenera kungokhala ndikumverera uku mpaka kudutse.

[Tsiku 55] Ndakhala ndikumenya nkhondo iyi ya "Quit Porn" kuyambira Novembala 2008, ndipo izi zidatha zaka 4 ndikulowerera. Ndayesa zoyesera zambiri, ndipo pomwe ndidaphunzira ndikukula kuchokera kuzonsezi, ndakumana ndi zolephera zambiri. Sindikumva kuwawa chifukwa cha zomwe ndakulira, ndipo ndichofunikira kuzindikira. Kutalika kwambiri komwe sindinakhalepo ndi zolaula kuli pafupi miyezi itatu, ndipo ndikutha kutsimikizira zonse zomwe anthu pano akuti. Zili ngati tsiku limodzi mutadzuka ndipo wina watembenukira padziko lapansi. Mwadzidzidzi ndimavina masitima ndikumwetulira atsikana omwe sindikuwadziwa, ndipo zonse ndi zachilengedwe. Kuchita maliseche kunali kodabwitsa mozungulira mwezi wachitatu. Nayi gawo losangalatsa: olimba ndi BAM! Kubwereranso…

Chiyambireni kupeza tsambali, ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito yabwino kwambiri. Sindimaganiziranso zolaula. Ngati zili choncho, ndimangodandaula za kuseweretsa maliseche ndikuganiza za atsikana omwe ndikufuna kukhala nawo. Ndikuganiza kuti anyamata nonse ndinu akatswiri pakupeza gawo lomwe likusowa maliseche. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala wouma mtima poletsa maliseche, ngakhale ndimadziwa kuti ndimakonda.

Lero kuli kutha kwa sabata lachisanu ndi chitatu kwa ine, ndipo ndikumva bwino kwambiri, koma ndikumangokhalira kukomoka chifukwa cha maloto anga omaliza omwe anali 4 masiku apitawo. (Damn Chaser)

Ndikumva kuti chidaliro changa chabwerera kuchokera kumaloto omaliza omwe ndidakhala nawo masiku 4 apitawa. Ndikayang'ana m'mbuyomu pazakale zanga, zikuwoneka kuti maloto awiriwa ndi milungu iwiri isanachitike. Zitha kukhala zotetezeka kunena kuti lotsatira lidzakhala sabata limodzi kuyambira Lachiwiri likubwerali, koma ndikukhulupirira kuti silipwetekanso ngati ili. Sindinganene zambiri chifukwa chake zimapweteka kwambiri mpaka pansi pa mbolo yanga, koma mwina chifukwa cha kutayikira komwe kumatseka nsonga. Zingakhale zomveka kuwona momwe ndimaganiziranso za (msungwana) ndisanagone. Mwinanso chifukwa chongoyerekeza, panali kutayikira kapena china chake.

Munjira yamalingaliro, nditha kunena kuti amapanga tanthauzo kwambiri tsopano kuposa kale. Pomwe ndimakonda kukopana ndi mtsikana wochokera ku Indonesia online, ndidakonzekera nthawi yonse yomwe zidapangitsa kuti zikhale zovuta kudziwa momwe zimalozera m'khosi mwanga. Monga kunyengedwa kuti mulankhule pa mpeni! Nditha kukhala ndi chisangalalo chongoganiza zokhala ndi mkazi, ndipo tsopano chitha kukhala china chake chomwe ndiyenera kuphunzira kuti chizilamulira. Maloto anga akukhala osakhazikika ndipo kwenikweni pamlingo uwu, loto langa lonyowa litha kubwera posachedwa Lachiwiri. Zingakhale zomveka kuti chifukwa kuyambira nthawi yomaliza ndinalota mpaka maloto anga oyamba anali milungu yoposa 5, ndipo loto lonyowa lachiwiri lidabwera masabata a 2 zitachitika izi.

Ndimadana nazo kuzindikira kuti panali zovuta pambuyo pakulota kwamvula komwe kumatanthauza masiku a 4-5 azikhalidwe zosiyanasiyana monga, kuda nkhawa, kukhumudwa, kusowa chiyembekezo, kusinthasintha, kulakalaka, kudzidalira, kusimidwa, kulakalaka, ndipo lero kumabweretsa kutopa Ndikukhulupirira kuti amene akuthamangitsayo ayima. Ndicho cholinga changa chachikulu pakuchira, kuchotsa omwe akuthamangitsa.

[Tsiku 56] Ndi malo osiyana kwambiri omwe ndili pano poyerekeza ndi komwe ndinali masiku angapo apitawo. Zili ngati kugona pa bwato lomwe linayamba ku gehena (kuyenda pamoto, inde) ndikudzuka kumwamba. Kwambiri sabata yatha ndimakhala wopanda chiyembekezo, ndipo ndimaganiza kuti zonse zikungokhala kungotaya nthawi, koma lero zangokhala ... wow.

Ndikupita kumakanema ndi banja langa. Kumva komwe ndili nako kungafanane ndi kuja kwa rockstar. Ponena za rockstar, ndikuganiza kuti ndithana ndi bass pa dontho D. Ndikungodziwa nyimbo imodzi koma pano ndikutsimikiza kuti chilichonse chomwe ndikusewera chikumveka bwino.

Zosangalatsa zosavuta ndizodabwitsa, ndipo chosangalatsa ndichakuti sindikufuna kuchita zinthu zomwe ndimadalira monga kusewera masewera apakanema kwa maola = P.

Usiku watha inali nthawi yoyamba m'masiku angapo nditamwetulira mayi anga kuchokera pansi pamtima osamva kuti "Siyani izi tsopano," kapena "Ndimamwetulira chifukwa chiyani?" Nthawi zonse amakhala munthu wabwino kwa ine ndipo tsopano ndikutha kuyamika pambuyo poti nthawi yayitali chonchi.

Kumverera ndikodabwitsa. Ndikuyamba kuyankhula ndi mzanga pa msn kwinaku ndikucheza ndi msungwana yemwe ndidakumana naye posachedwa. Chidaliro chinali pomwepo, ndipo adatinso momwe ndidalili wotsimikiza. Ndidawonetsa chidwi changa mwa iye osadandaula kuti abwezera kapena ayi, ndipo zidali zosangalatsa zanga. Pomaliza, zonse zomwe amanditumizira zinali mitima ndi misozi komanso mitima yambiri. Ndipo nzanga? Chabwino sitinagawana kuseka koteroko kwazaka zambiri. Ndidasokonekera nthawi zina, ndipo tinkangolankhula za atsikana komanso momwe timawakondera.

[Tsiku 57] Ndachita kafukufuku wanga pazolowera komanso kutulutsa mawu, ndipo ndatenga mayeso amiyeso ya anthu mobwerezabwereza (Ndikosavuta kugwiritsa ntchito LOL), koma ndasokonezeka tsopano. Mu 2008 pomwe ndidayamba kuyesaku, ndimapeza zotsatira zambiri zomwe zimati "Ndiwe Woyambitsa!"

Koma tsopano zonse zomwe ndimapeza ndi "Extrovert," ndipo ndichotsatira chodabwitsa kwambiri. Zachidziwikire kuti chilengedwe vs Kukula kumatha kugwira ntchito mukamayang'ana zomwe aliyense amakonda kuchita, koma kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba izi sindinachite zolaula ndimadzidalira pang'ono pang'ono.

[Tsiku 58] Lero ndi tsiku lachitatu motsatizana pomwe kunalibe kusinkhasinkha, ndipo zonse zidayamba tsiku la 56! Ndiwo masabata 8! Mwina ndiyembekezere kuti ndiwone, koma pakadali pano, ndikumva bwino.

Ndikumva kutenthedwa koma osafunikira kuseweretsa maliseche, zimangomva ngati pali moyo wina kumeneko womwe kunalibe kale. Dzulo usiku zithunzi zolaula zinayamba ndipo malingaliro anga anasunthira mwachangu ngati kuti sindinakumbukire zina zonse. Kudziyendetsa nokha! Lol sindinayambe ndavutika ndi ED ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimakhala ndi ma boners pafupi ndi atsikana ena omwe ndimadziwa, koma zolaula zimandithandizira kwambiri. Kusinthasintha kwanga kumalumikizana ndi zingwe za anthu ndikuwasiya ataponyedwa. Dzulo Ndinajambula chithunzi cha mwana wamkazi wa T. Hawk yemwe ndidapitilizabe naye mpaka usiku.

Tsopano, vuto lalikulu ndikuti panalibe cholimbana ndi gawo laubongo lomwe kale linkalakalaka zolaula (limbic inali?) Zinali zosangalatsa kukoka mizereyo momwe ndingathere. Ndinayesanso masewera akale omenyera omwe ndimakonda kusewera, ndipo sindinatope ndikatopa ndikasewera, ndinayamba kujambula. Chomaliza chomwe ndikufuna kutchula ndichoti ndikufuna kukomana ndi akazi pano, koma sindikufuna kungogonana nawo. Ndikumva kuti ndingathe kuwayenerera kukhala ndi mwayi woyamba ndisanaganize zogonana nawo. Koma amuna, akazi ndiamphamvu kwambiri… Ndikosavuta kutaya malingaliro mukangomva kununkhira kwawo ndikusamba kwa thupi. Sekani

[Tsiku 60] Maganizo amakwanitsa masiku ano. Sindikudziwa zambiri za ED, koma sindinakhalepo ndi boners ndisanalankhule ndi mtsikana pafoni. Ndili wokondwa. =] Patha pafupifupi masabata 2+ kuchokera pomwe ndinawona mbolo yanga itakhazikika, kotero ndimayenera kuyeza ndikuyang'ana mwamantha. Ndimamva ngati m'modzi mwa anthu omwe amalambira dzuwa likamatuluka ndikupuma mwaulemerero wake.

[Tsiku 62] Dzulo linali lodabwitsa. Banja langa lidalumikizananso patapita nthawi yayitali mlongo wanga atabwera kuchokera ku Florida, ndipo kudali kuphulika. Sindinasangalalepo kucheza ndi banja nthawi zambiri. Nthawi zonse ndimafuna kukhala ndekha ndikuchita zanga, koma osati dzulo. M'modzi mwa azichemwali anga nthawi zambiri amakhala moyo wachisangalalo (makamaka akakhala ataledzera!), Koma dzulo amayenera kuti adzagawane nane. =]

Ndidakopana kwambiri ndi (msungwana), ndipo ndidamuitanira kuti akacheze nawo mawa. Ndikukhulupirira avomera kupita chifukwa ndi wamanyazi kwambiri ndi zochitika pagulu. Sindikumva bwino ngakhale chifukwa ali ndi vuto ndi chibwenzi chake, ndipo ndimamukonda kwambiri kotero ndimamvetsera kuti alankhule za iye. Komabe, ndimadana ndikumumva akunena za munthu wina, makamaka akamamupezerera komanso kumamuchitira zopanda pake. Ndidamuuza kuti sindikufuna kukhala munthu yemwe amaliranso za munthu wina. Ndikuganiza kuti ngati muli ndi chinthu chabwino patsogolo panu, muyenera kugwiritsa ntchito mwayiwo m'malo modandaula za bwenzi lachinyengo.

Asanayambe kunena za izi, tinali ndi nkhani yabwino yokhudza moyo ndi maloto. Tikukhulupirira akuvomera kukhala ndi ine, ndikumutaya munthu amene amadana naye. Ndikudziwa kuti zitha kuoneka ngati zolakwika, koma ndimamukonda ndipo amamuchitira zoipa.

(pambuyo pake) Chifukwa chake lero kuphulika kwina kwachikhulupiriro kunjira yolakwika. Nthawi zina kusinthasintha kwamalingaliro kumeneku kumandipangitsa kudziona kuti ndine wosayenera kucheza ndi anthu, ndipo sindingadabwe ngati awononga mwayi uliwonse waubwenzi. Ndizotheka kuti chifukwa chake ndi chifukwa (mtsikana) wakana mwayi wanga kuti ndichezenso, koma wazichita kangapo ndipo sizinandivutepo kale. Ndimasangalala kumuthamangitsa (akakhala kuti aliko).

Ndimadana ndikuthamangira anthu nthawi ngati izi. Ndikungofunika kukhala ndekha ndipo palibe amene akumvetsa. Ndinagwiritsanso ntchito ngati wopenga lero, ndipo ndimangokhalira kugunda nthawi ndi nthawi, komabe ndimamvabe kuti ndikulimbana ndi nkhanza. Zimayamwa kukanidwa, koma ndikuganiza kuti ndikhoza kupita patsogolo. Ndikuganiza kuti nditha kukumana ndi munthu wina ndikumva zomwezo. Ndine wotsimikiza kuti sindimadziwa kuti ndidzakumana ndi msungwana uyu pomwe ndimaganizira za wakale. Pambuyo pa chaka chokonda msungwana wachinyamata, ndikuganiza kuti ndiyenera kudzichitira zabwino ndikungopita. Ndikumva ngati ndikumwa ndipo ndimadana ndi zakumwa zoledzeretsa.

(Pambuyo pake) Nditacheza ndi mzanga, ndimamva bwino kwambiri. Ndakhumudwitsidwa pang'ono ndimakhalidwe anga. Nkhani yabwino ndiyakuti, ndili ndi mnzanga kuti ayese milungu iwiri palibe PMO, ndipo andifunsa zomwe awona. Ndili wokondwa.

[Tsiku 62] Sabata ino inali yodzaza ndi nkhawa komanso kusinthasintha kwa malingaliro, ndipo tsopano ndatopa kwambiri. Pakadali pano nditha kunena moona mtima kuti zolaula sizimandikhudzanso, ndipo kuseweretsa maliseche momwemonso. Chokhacho chomwe ndinganene ndikuti ndimakhalabe ndi malingaliro osasangalatsa komwe ndimafunikira kukhala ndekha kwa aliyense, koma sindikufunanso kudzudzula PMO. Sindikudziwa ngati matendawa atulukiranso.

Lero ndinapita ku dziwe ndipo panali mtsikana m'modzi yekha yemwe amayang'ana pafupi msinkhu wanga, ndipo monga momwe amayembekezera: INSTABONER !!! Iye anali atangogona pa thaulo lake akugubuduzika ndikuwona zomwe zinali kuchitika kumunsi. Ndikadalankhula naye, koma anali ndi anyamata 5 omwe anali naye. Komabe, linali tsiku lopambana ndi banja langa komwe ndidaphunzira kusambira ndikugwira mpweya wanga m'madzi. (Mtsikana) anali otanganidwa kwambiri kuti apite nane, koma sindisamala zambiri. Chinthuchi ndikuti, patsiku langa labwino, atha kundikana zonse zomwe akufuna ndipo nditha kuthamangitsabe chifukwa ndichisangalalo changa. Komabe, patsiku lomwe ndimakhala ndimomwe ndimasinthira, sizingagwire ntchito. Ndipo masiku amenewo, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi sikundipangitsa kuti ndizimva bwino. Mwinamwake posachedwa kwambiri kuti ndinene, koma ndikuganiza kuti vutoli likhoza kukhala kwinakwake popeza sindisamala za PMO.

[Tsiku 65] Pakhala masiku angapo ndikubwezeretsanso komwe ndimakhala wosangalala komanso wosangalala ngati ndimakhala ndi zipsinjo m'thupi lonse kapena china chake, koma pali masiku omwe ndimangolira ndikulira kwa anthu kuti andisiye ndekha. Zakhala zikusokoneza chinthu ichi choyambiranso, koma ndikumamatira ndikuwona komwe zimanditengera. Ndikutanthauza mpaka pano, ndimamva ngati ndasintha kwambiri. Tiyeni tichite mndandanda wamasiku 60+ (Sindikudziwa tsiku lomwe ndakhala pano)

Ndimakhala ndi ulemu ndekha, ndipo ndidzadziyimira ndekha pomwe ndisanakhale chete ndikungodandaula pambuyo pake.

Sindikufuna kugonana ndi mtsikana aliyense. Ndikufuna kulumikizidwa tsopano. M'mbuyomu, umunthu wanga umangokhala "Kugonana !."

Sindikondwerera ndi zinthu zopanda pake monga kusewera masewera apavidiyo kapena kukhala pa intaneti tsiku lonse popanda chifukwa.

Thupi langa limasokonekera kwambiri! Ndiyenera kukhala ectomorph, koma tsopano ndikuyang'ana penapake pakati pa ectomorph ndi mesomorph.

Mawu anga amakhala omasuka, ndipo amachokera pamunsi mozungulira m'mimba mwanga. Isanakhale pamtunda ndipo inkamveka mwamantha.

Ndikufuna kupatsa anthu phindu, m'malo modandaula ndi zomwe anthu ena akusowa. Sindimadzikonda kwambiri.

Nyimbo zimamveka zabwino kwa ine pompano. Ndinaumvera kudzera zitini zotsika mtengo, ndipo ndinalibe mpweya wachiwiri.

Ndikutha kuganiza kwanthawi yayitali tsopano. Ndakhazikitsa kale tsiku langa lamasiku 90, ndipo silimandiopsa konse. Sindimachita mantha. Palibe katswiri nthawi yomweyo, zinthu zimachitika.

Ndikulingalira ndizo zonse zomwe ndinganene pakadali pano. Tikukhulupirira kuti onse azichita bwino kwambiri, koma lero ndi masabata a 2 kuyambira maloto anga omaliza. Malinga ndi zomwe ndapeza, akhala akutalikirana milungu iwiri, chifukwa chake ndiyenera kukonza ma bedi owonjezera. Ndiyeneranso kukonzekera omwe angandithamangitse.

[Tsiku 66] Lero ndidadzuka ndipo ndimangodziwa kuti lero ndi limodzi mwa masiku apamwamba kwambiri. Zili ngati ndadutsa zigwa kwa masiku 4-5, kenako mphamvu imabweranso. thupi langa ndi lodabwitsa chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti pakatha milungu iwiri, ndikhala ndikulota. Izi sizinali choncho sabata ino, chifukwa chake ndidaganiza lero linali tsiku labwino kuyesa omwe akuthamangitsa. Ndinaganiza kuti linali tsiku labwino, ndipo ngati sindingachite izi monga chitonthozo changa. Chifukwa chake ndidachita maliseche, ndipo idatha pafupifupi mphindi ziwiri (Osakonzekera Olimpiki).

Ndikanati ndiziweruza mwachilengedwe, lero ndidadzuka ndimphamvu komanso 7.5. Tsopano nditatha kuseweretsa maliseche, panali zovuta zomwe zinali zovuta, koma zidadutsa pafupifupi mphindi 10 kapena apo. Pambuyo pake, malingaliro anga anali akadali ku 7.5 ndipo sindinatope kapena chilichonse. Ndinayamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi mwamphamvu, ndipo ndinayamba kuphunzira nyimbo yatsopano pamabasi anga. Zinali ngati palibe chomwe chidachitika mwathupi. Komabe, ndinakumananso ndi maola 2 nditatha kuseweretsa maliseche, choncho ndinaganiza zowona ngati ingakhale maminiti 2 ngati nthawi yotsiriza. Zachidziwikire, zinali 2 mphindi mosabisa. >.> Pambuyo pake, ndimakhala wokhutira ndipo ndimamva ngati ndapatsa zida zanga masewera olimbitsa thupi. Ndinayamba kuwodzera posakhalitsa, koma ndinadzuka kuti ndipitirize ndi ntchito zanga. Tsopano nditha kunena kuti malingaliro anga ali 6.5 tsopano nditatha gawo lachiwiri lolakwika… sindimva kuwawa kapena china chilichonse. Ndikadatopa pang'ono, ndipo ndikungofuna kugona ndikuwonera TV kapena china chake. Sindikulakalaka kuonera zolaula kapena kuchita china chilichonse chosangalatsa, koma ndikudziwa kuti ndiyenera kupewa zina. Ndikufuna ku. Pakadali pano, ndinganene kuti wothamangayo akudya fumbi langa. Komabe, sindikudziwa kuti zingatenge nthawi yayitali bwanji kuti ndimve, chifukwa chake mawa ndikadandaula ndikupanga nthabwala zonyansa.

Sindikuganiza kuti ndibwezeretsanso maliseche. Mphindi ziwirizi sizikukwaniritsa kwenikweni. Ndikuwona kuti anthu ogonana nthawi zonse amabwereranso, ndiye tanthauzo lake ndikulingalira za izi. Ndimakonda kungozolowera. Ndikusowa kale kumverera kwachisangalalo chogonana chomwe chakhala m'masabata awiri apitawa. Zodabwitsa momwe zimagwirira ntchito. =]

(Tsiku lotsatira) Wow, mwina ndili bwino tsopano. Ndangodzuka, ndipo sindikumva kuti akuthamangitsabe… * _ *

(Patatha masiku angapo) mwina sindinadziyese ndekha. Ndikumva ngati wowotcha pompano, koma palibe erection. Izi mwina zikutanthauza kuti si "zenizeni" libido. Ndikulakalaka masewera apakanema tsopano.

Komabe, masiku awiri apitawa ndakhala wokongola zipatso, ndipo lero ndadzuka ndikuchita zomwe ndidakonzekera kuchita kuyambira usiku watha. Ndidajambula chithunzi chabwino kwambiri, ndipo ndidakondwera nacho. Ndikuganiza kuti pali ena osatekeseka.

[Tsiku 90] Pambuyo pake, ndakwaniritsa cholinga changa cha masiku 90 opanda zolaula. Zikuwoneka kuti zakhala motalika kwambiri kuyambira gawo lomaliza, koma mwina ndi chifukwa chakuti zambiri zachitika m'masiku a 90.

Pongoyambira, kutambasula komaliza kunali kovuta kwambiri kwa ine kuyambira tsiku 69 mpaka pano chifukwa tsiku la 69 ndidasankha kuseweretsa maliseche. Ndipamene zonse zidasokonekera. Kutsatira gawoli la MO kunali zotsatira zoyipa zomwe zinali zosakhululuka, kuphatikiza zolakalaka, ndipo pamapeto pake maliseche ambiri. Ndinkangodziuza kuti ndisiya nthawi imodzi, koma zinali zovuta kwambiri chifukwa nthawi iliyonse ndikachita maliseche, ndimalota usiku womwewo kapena posachedwa. Zimakhala zovuta kuti mupewe mukakhala ndi maloto onyowa pomwe mudasankha kusiya. Izi zidachitika katatu, ndipo loto lachitatu lonyowa linali zolaula zomwe zinali zamanyazi kwambiri. Sindikukhulupirira kuti gawo lina lamaganizidwe anga linali litasokonekera pambuyo pa nthawi yonseyi. Pambuyo pake, ndidatha kusiya kwathunthu, koma milungu iwiri ikutsatirayi yakhala yovuta kwambiri pakulakalaka. Masiku ena awiri adzakhala masabata a 2 post post orgasm kotero tiwona pamenepo.

Ndinkayembekezera moona mtima kuti patadutsa masiku 90 sindingathenso kulakalaka zolaula, ndipo ngakhale zitangokhala zotsata, zimandichotsabe chidaliro changa. Sindikudzitsimikizira ndekha ndikusiya tsopano. Kwa nthawi yoyamba munthawi yamasiku awa 90, zikanakhala zosavuta kuti ndiziwonera zolaula tsopano. Komabe, ndikupeza bwino ndikulekanitsa zilakolako zanga zogonana ndi dziko langa lonse. Ndikulingalira amachitcha kuti kusintha kosunthira. M'mbuyomu, sindinkaganiza zosintha (Kusintha kotani!)

Sizoipa zonse ngakhale. Kusinthasintha kwatha, ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimakhala wosangalala nthawi zambiri. Kamodzi mumwezi wabuluu ndimamva kukhumudwa posadziwa zomwe ndichite ndi moyo wanga, koma nthawi zambiri sizikhala zoposa ola limodzi. Ndimayankhula ndi anthu mosavuta kuposa kale ndipo sindikumvanso ululu mumtima mwanga.

M'malo mwake, pamakhala zodabwitsa zina pomwe chifuwa changa chimamveka ngati chikupuma. (Mukudziwa momwe mumamverera mukamadzipaka Vicks Vaporub mthupi lanu?) Ndizodabwitsadi.

Masiku ano, ndikufuna nthawi yanga ndekha. Ndizosiyana kwambiri ngakhale miyezi 3 yapitayo momwe ndimasangalalira ndi nthawi yokha. Ndimakonda anthu komanso kucheza ndi anzanga, koma osati mopitirira muyeso. Ndimasangalala kukhala ndi anzanga kuposa kale. Kuwerenga, kujambula, kumvera nyimbo, kusewera nyimbo, ndikuwonera makanema omwe ndimakonda ndi zinthu zomwe ndimakonda kuchita kachiwiri. Ndisanayambe kusowa kampani chifukwa ndimasungulumwa, koma ndikamayandikira anthu ndimakhala wosasangalala. Yeez ..

Ndalimbikitsanso kusagwirizana pazokonda kwambiri monga masewera. Sindingathe kusewera masewerawa ngati kale ndipo ndimatha kumva kuti ubongo wanga ukufuulira kuti ndisiye kusewera! Ndipamene ndimapita kukachita zina moyenera. Zachilendo kwambiri.

Kwa aliyense amene amawerenga izi ndikuyambiranso, ndine wokondwa. Ndimalemba izi ndikulira m'maso mwanga chifukwa sindimaganizira kwambiri zakutali komwe ndidachokera. Ndikukufunirani zabwino zonse, koma kuuma mtima, kupirira, kulimba mtima, komanso zofunkha zakugonjetsa!

[Tsiku 174]

Ndikhoza kunena moona mtima kuti zolaula ndizovuta ndi maubwenzi masiku ano. Kulumikizana ndi bwenzi langa kunatenga mwezi wopitilira mwezi, koma nthawi imathamanga kwambiri chifukwa ndimasangalala nayo nthawi yonseyi. Zinthu zazing'ono: Kugwirana manja, kutenga Sunday Strolls, kumuyang'ana m'maso mwake, kumpsompsona pamphumi pake ndikungomugwira mtsikana sikundidutse konse m'malingaliro mwanga ngati kosangalatsa kale. Mukamasewera maliseche tsiku lililonse kaya mukuonera zolaula kapena mulibe, mumasiya kusiya luso lanu lachibadwa lolumikizana ndi amuna kapena akazi anzanu. Ndine wotsimikiza za 100% za izi tsopano. Ndisanapite masiku 100 ndikukayikirabe zakusiya zolaula, koma tsopano sizingadutse ngati ntchito yayikulu. Ndi nthabwala kwathunthu. Anthu ena amafunikira nthawi yochulukirapo kuposa ena, ndipo ngati wina abwereranso ndiye kuti nthawi ndiyambiri. Khazikani mtima pansi.

Ponena za kugonana. Sindikufuna kulankhula za izo chifukwa zinali ndi chibwenzi changa chomwe ndimamukonda kwambiri. Ndinali kufunsa ngati ndiyenera kugonana naye kapena kudikira pang'ono. Chifukwa chokha chomwe ndidavomerezera ndichifukwa ndidazindikira kuti nayenso amafuna kudikira chifukwa amandiganizira. Mwachibadwa ndinazitenga pang'onopang'ono, ndipo tinali titagwirana kwa nthawi yayitali tisanasankhe kuchita. Ndikulakalaka kuti aliyense pano asakhale ndi mwayi wogonana bwino, komanso kusinthana pakati pa anthu awiri omwe amasamalirana. Tidapitilizabe kukumbatirana titamaliza. (Nthawi zonse ziwiri) Sindingakhale wosangalala kuposa nthawi yanga yoyamba, ndipo uwu ndiudindo wanga womaliza. Chodabwitsa ndichakuti, sindinatulutse mphindi 2 monga momwe ndinapangira miyezi 2 yapitayo kudzera maliseche. (Limenelo linali tsiku la 69 loyesera koyamba kuyambiranso.) Palibe amene akuthamangitsabe, ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ndichifukwa chakuchenjera komwe tidachita titagonana. Ndikumva bwino pakadali pano, ndatopa pang'ono mthupi.

Khalani oleza mtima, ndipo ndikulandirani moni.

[Sinthani miyezi yambiri]

Hei anyamata kwakhala kanthawi kuyambira pomwe ndidatumiza china chake apa, chifukwa chake ndidazindikira kuti lero ndi tsiku labwino kutero.

Ngati zikumbukiro zanga zimanditumikira bwino, ndiye lero ndi nthawi yachiwiri yomwe ndakhala masiku 90 ndisanachite zolaula. Pakhala pali mautali akutali apa ndi apo koma nthawi zonse amaphatikizira kuzembera panjira. Nthawi ino komabe, sindikuganiza kuti ndidzakhala ndi nkhawa iliyonse monga ndidachitira masiku 90wa mosiyana kwambiri ndi kale. Ndikufotokozera.

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