Zaka 21 - Kuyambira ndi zolaula, zovuta ndi kugonana

Oct 13 (tsiku 22)

Ndili ndi zaka 21 ndipo ndakhala ndikuyang'ana zolaula pazowonjezera mphamvu kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 12. Sindinganene kuti ndakhala ndikudziyesa kuti ndimakonda zolaula, zomwe ndikudziwa mwina ndizochepa, koma sindikudziwa ngati ndidakakamizidwa kuti ndiziziwonera mwina monga ena . Ngakhale ndimafuna zachilendo komanso zochulukirapo kuti ndikhale wosangalala ndikupitilizabe 'kuthamanga'.

Ndikulingalira kuti zonsezi zidayamba ndili ndi zaka 8 kapena 9. Sindinayang'ane zolaula ndikuzichita maliseche, koma ndikukumbukira ndikupeza buku kunyumba lonena za chikondi komanso kugonana. Sizinali zolaula zambiri monga zophunzitsira, ndikuganiza. Koma panali zithunzi za akazi amaliseche ndipo ngakhale kuti mwina sindinali 'horny' ndinkachita chidwi ndi zithunzizi. Zinali chimodzimodzi pomwe ndidapita ndikukakhala kunyumba ya abambo anga (makolo anga adasudzulana ndili mwana). Ankakonda kukhala ndi imodzi mwa makalendala azithunzi zolaula nthawi yomweyo (Mukudziwa, mtundu womwe amalonda amakonda kufalitsa) ndipo ndimayiyang'ana, ndikusangalatsidwa. Pausinkhu umenewo ndinathandizidwanso bwino ndi Baywatch komanso ziwonetsero zamtundu wakugonana usiku. Tikaganiza za izi ndinali ndi zinthu zingapo zomwe zimakhudza ubongo wanga msinkhuwo ...

Ndili pafupi 11 kapena kotero ndidapeza maliseche. Kudziwona kuti kukhutitsidwa pompopompo kunali m'manja mwa dzanja langa kunali kovomerezeka. Ndinkakonda kuseweretsa maliseche mpaka nditafika pamitundu ina. Chabwino, ngati inu mungathe kuzitcha izo. Ndikutanthauza, palibe chomwe chinatuluka pa nthawiyo ndipo chinandisokoneza pang'ono. Sindikudziwa kuti zingasokoneze bwanji pamapeto pake .. Panthaŵiyo, ndimangofunika kulimbikitsidwa kwakuthupi ndi zonyengana zopanda pake. Koma ndidayamba kuyang'ana zovala zamkati m'mabuku ndipo ngati ndapeza a munkapezeka kunyumba kwathu, ndimayang'ana kuti ndiyende nawo mwamtendere kupita kuchimbudzi ndi iyo (ndimayenera kugawana chipinda chogona).

Kuyambira pamenepo mpaka ine ndinali pafupi 13 ndizo zonse zomwe ndinali nazo. Pofika nthawi imeneyi ndidali kupsompsona atsikana kumavina aku sukulu ndipo izi zidandisangalatsa. Njira ya 'up tuck' yobisala idaphunzira ndikuphunzira bwino kwambiri liwiro la ninja. Panali pa nthawi imeneyi ngakhale kuti ndimapeza zolaula pa intaneti. Tidangoyimba choncho ndidakali ndi zithunzi ndipo mwina chithunzi chosamveka cha 20 chachiwiri. Pa tchuthi cha kusukulu nthawi zina ndimakhala kuti ndimadzuka mochedwa ndikumawononga maola ambiri ndikulemba nyimbo za 2 mphindi. Koma izi sizinali zachilendo.

Ndipo ndi momwe zinakhalira mpaka ndinali 16. Munthawi imeneyi moyo wanga wachuma unalowa pansi. Sindikuyimba mlandu pa zolaula, koma 'anzanga' omwe ndinali nawo nthawi imeneyo komanso kuti mwina ndinali wonenepa. Nthawi zonse zinkandivuta kucheza ndi anthu komanso kucheza nawo. Ndidali wokhazikika mtima, wodekha ndipo mwina ndikadakhala ndi phokoso kumadenga a nkhawa zakudziko. Ngakhale ndinali ndi anzanga, ine ndinali wosungulumwa. Ndiyeneranso kutchula kuti ndinapita kusukulu ya anyamata onse ku sekondale (ichi ndichinthu chomwe sindingavomerezane nacho). Mayanjano abwino kwambiri omwe ndidakumana nawo ndi abwenzi a abale anga atabwera. Ndipo ndinayamba kucheza nawo kusukulu. Zinali zabwino kwambiri ndipo zinali chonchi mpaka nditatsala pang'ono kufika pa 17. Kuyambira nthawi ino, ndakhala ndikuvutika kupeza anzanga.

Munthawi yomwe yatchulidwa pamwambapa (pamene ndinali pafupi 16 nthawi ina) "ndidadalitsidwa" ndi intaneti. Ndikuganiza kuti inali 256k yokha koma chinali chinthu chomwe chikanandisintha. Popeza ndinali wosungulumwa kwambiri, ndinali ndi nthawi yambiri ndekha kumapeto kwa sabata komanso tchuthi cha kusukulu ndipo ndimapatsa zonse PlayStation yanga ndi kompyuta yanga kuti ndikhale ndi moyo. Ndinkasewera kwambiri mavidiyo ndipo popeza moyo wanga unasokonekera, ndinapeza chitonthozo World wa Zankhondo. Zikuwoneka zomvetsa chisoni komanso zachisoni kwa ine tsopano, koma ndizomwe zidachitika. Ndipo ndi moyo watsopanowu, moyo wanga wogonana unali zolaula pa intaneti. Ngati sindimathamangitsa zimbalangondo, ndimakhala ndikuthamangitsa zanga. Zinandipitilizabe, zimandisangalatsa. Mwina zidandisungabe wamoyo ...

Ndinayamba kudziwa bwino kutsitsa tinthu tating'ono tating'ono ndikupanga nawo mndandanda wazosewerera mwachangu komanso moyenera. Banja siliyenera kudziwa. Ndinakwanitsa kuyika manja anga pakakanema kakang'ono kakanema konse. Ndinkasewera masewera apakompyuta ambiri ndi m'modzi mwa abale a abale anga. Amabweretsa kompyuta yake mozungulira ndipo amakhala ndi masewera a LAN ndipo akatuluka kamodzi ndikapeza stash yake. Anali ndi intaneti yapaintaneti ndipo mwachionekere anali kupeza ndalama za (makolo) ake. Chifukwa chake ndimatengera gulu ndikukhala bwino kwakanthawi kochepa.

M'chaka changa chomaliza kusukulu yasekondale, zolaula pa intaneti zinali njira zanga zochepetsera kupsinjika, kusungulumwa, chisoni komanso nkhawa zambiri. Koma ndinayamba kupeza zabwino m'moyo wanga wachikhalidwe, ndinakumana ndi anthu atsopano kusukulu ndipo ndimacheza nawo kumapeto kwa sabata (sitinali pafupi kwambiri, ndinali patali pang'ono) ndipo ndinayamba kucheza ndi m'bale ndi abwenzi ake ambiri, ndimamwa nawo nthawi ndi nthawi. Chifukwa chake ndimayang'ana zolaula pang'ono panthawiyi ndipo ndimalimbikitsidwapo ndi atsikana ena, koma sindinagonanepo.

Nthawi zambiri ndili ndi 18 zolaula zanga zinali zabwino kwambiri, ndimasewera maliseche usiku wonse kugona kapena zolaula pakompyuta. Koma kwa ine, chinthu chachikulu chomwe chingandichitikire ndili ndi zaka 18 ndikuti ndataya 'V Plates' yanga. Sizinali zabwino zondichitikira, ndinali woledzera kwambiri ndipo ndimangopeza theka (pafupifupi 75%) ndipo sindinabwere. Izi zinali zokhumudwitsa kwambiri popeza ndidagwidwa ndi zibwenzi zambiri zogonana ndi msungwana uyu (analibe mbiri yabwino kwambiri ... pang'ono mwa slut) ndikutaya unamwali wanga kwa iye mwina zidandipweteka kwambiri. Ndikuganiza kuti izi zidandikhudza pang'ono, koma osati pambuyo pake m'moyo. Sindinakhalepo ndi malingaliro osamalitsa a kugonana. Kuyambira pano, ndikuganiza kuti ndimadzimva kuti sindiyenera kukhala wopanda nkhawa nazo. Kuyambira pomwe ndidakumana nazo koyamba, ndidali ndipo ndidatenthedwa. Lol zitatha izi, sindikuganiza kuti ndingakhale Casanova aliyense.

Komabe, panthawiyo izi sizinandichotsere kugonana konse; Ndinali ndi kulawa ndipo ndinkafuna zambiri. Vuto linali lakuti ndinkafuna kwambiri. Onani, palibe chilichonse chokhudza achiwerewere mopitirira muyeso, woledzera wazaka 18 yemwe ali ndi lingaliro lolakwika pakufuna kwa atsikana kugonana (chifukwa cha zolaula) kapena momwe angachitire, osamupatsa iye mu mbale ya siliva, yemwe akuyesera zovuta zake kuti apeze. Kunali kupha. Ndinawomberedwa pafupipafupi komanso molimba, zidapangitsa manyazi Lamlungu m'mawa ndi mbiri yabwino.

Chifukwa chake, mwachilengedwe, ndimangogwiritsa ntchito zolaula kuti zonse zizikhala bwino. Izi zidapangidwa kukhala zosavuta. Zochitika zanga zonse zolaula zidakonzedwa bwino nditasamuka kunyumba. Ndinasamukira m'chipinda chokhala ndi intaneti chothamanga kwambiri ndipo ndinali ndi laputopu yatsopano yonyezimira. Palibe nthawi ina iliyonse m'moyo wanga yomwe ndimakhala ndikugaya mpaka 3 tsiku. Ndinkachita mantha ngati gehena ndipo ndinapeza zolaula zoyera. Ndinkakhala ndi ufulu wolamulira chisangalalo changa chopanda tanthauzo. Zinkamveka bwino.

Izi zidasintha kwa miyezi pafupifupi 6 pomwe ndidayamba kutuluka ndi chibwenzi changa choyamba. Anali mnzake wa mnzake ndipo ndinakwanitsa kuti ndisamayanjane naye (Ndipite ine! Lol). Ndinamufunsa patatha milungu ingapo kuti ndimamudziwa ndikupsompsona kangapo. Zinali zokongola kwenikweni kubwera kuganizira za izi. Komabe nthawi yoyamba yomwe tinagonana inali yopenga kwambiri. Izi zitha kukhala chifukwa chakuledzera pang'ono, kusuta theka lolowa ndikuyesera LSD panthawiyo. Ndikulumbira ndinali wokondwa kwambiri kuti mtima wanga udzaphulika m'chifuwa mwanga. Ndi chifukwa cha izi pomwe ndimaganiza kuti ndibwino kuti tisiyire ndikungodzikumbatira. Chifukwa chake, sindinabwerebe koma munthawiyo sindinali ndi nkhawa kwambiri panthawiyo.

Nthawi yonseyi ndimapita ndi mtsikana uyu tinali ndi zikhalidwe zabwino nthawi zonse. Tidachita mwina kawiri pa sabata kapena apo. Panali mwezi kumayambiriro kumene ndinali ndimavuto a erectile, ndikuganiza izi zinali makamaka chifukwa ndinali wamanjenje. Ine ndinali mwina wosakonzeka nthawi imeneyo koma ndikuwonetseratu pang'ono ndinali bwino kupita. Ndinakhala momasuka ndi iye ndipo ndikuganiza iyi ndi nthawi yokhayo pomwe zonse zimangogwira momwe zimayenera kukhalira. Koma monga ndanenera kuti idatenga miyezi ya 6. Ndidalimbana nawo ndipo kuyang'ana kwatsopano kunayenera kukwatulidwa.

Ndinagonana ndi mtsikana wina posakhalitsa. Ndinachoka pankhope yanga pa tequila ndipo zonse zinkayenda bwino. Ndinazindikira kuti ndinali ndi mowa wambiri pafupifupi 8 mowa wa whiskey usanakhazikike paubwenzi wanga woyamba, sizinachitike nthawi yonse yomwe ndidadutsa malirewo koma ndidazindikira kachitidwe. Chifukwa chake ndimawona kuti ndizosangalatsa kuti adandiphwanya ndikundisamalira pambuyo pa usiku pa tequila. Zachilendo chabe mwina?

Komabe, panali malo ena owuma pambuyo pake. Izi zidachitika kwa chaka cholimba. Ndipo kudzaza utupu womwe zidapanga, panali kukhulupirika zakale. Zolaula ndiye zidakhala gawo lokhazikika m'masiku anga. Ndinkapukuta kamodzi ndisanakagone usiku uliwonse. Inali chizolowezi. Imatha kudzaza nthawi yopanda kanthu; ndikadakhala ndi tsiku loyipa kuntchito zidandibwezera. Awo anali malingaliro anga abwino osankha. Chinanso chomwe ndinganene, ndili 17 ndidayamba kusuta. Ndinayamba kusuta ndudu ndipo ndinayamba kusuta fodya. Nthawi iliyonse ndikafika pabedi lalitali, linali usiku wabwino kwa zolaula.

Pamapeto pa malo ouma awa… Chabwino mwina ndibwino kuti ndiyitane chilala .. Ndakhala nthawi yayitali ndikuthamangitsa mzukwa, mwamalankhulidwe. Ndinapachikidwa kwathunthu pa mtsikana yemwe sindinakhale naye. Izi zidandiyimitsa kuti ndisokoneze wina aliyense kwakanthawi. Sindinapeze zomwe ndimafuna ndiye ndinamupewa ndikuyesera kupitiliza. Patatha miyezi ingapo izi, ndidayamba kuwona msungwana yemwe ndimamudziwa ndikondana kwakanthawi. Chifukwa chake ndinali wokonda kukhala ndi iye. Koma zinali zosiyana pang'ono mbali yake. Adasokonekera ndi chibwenzi chake ndipo ndimamupangitsa kuti akhalenso bwino.

Kupatula, sindinatero. Ndinali naye pomwe ndinazindikira vuto langa la ED. Ngakhale nditaledzera, nditakwera kapena wofatsa ngati woweruza sizimatha kufika pa chipata choyambira. Tinatha kugonana (mtundu wa) kawiri kwa mwezi umodzi kapena iwiri. Ndinangoyendetsa theka ndikulowetsa mwachangu momwe ndingathere ndikung'ung'udza ngati misala kuti ndipitirizebe. Sindinathe konse kubwera. Imangotsika pakadutsa mphindi pafupifupi 5 ndikukhala kopanda moyo. Zachabe.

Mopanda kunena, popeza sindingathe kumusangalatsa, adapeza mwamuna weniweni yemwe angathe. Ndimafuna kuthyola mphuno yake chifukwa cha nsanje. Ndiye kuchokera kunja kwa wamkulu. Ndiyenera kunena kuti chinthu chokhacho chomwe chimandisungitsa ine ndi mtsikana uyu (kupatula nthawi iliyonse yomwe anali kutuluka, ndimakonda kukhala naye) chinali chakuti ndinakhala wokongola ndi manja anga. Lol zikukhalira zabwino izi ndizabwino kuposa ineyo!

Ndidali pang'ono pang'ono kumverera kwakanthawi. Ndinkawona ngati vuto langa zalephera. Ndimamva kuti ndalephera monga munthu. Ndinkadziona ngati wopanda ntchito, manyazi komanso manyazi. Ndipo kuti amugone ndikugonana ndi munthu wina chifukwa sindimatha kuchita, anali mchere pachilondacho. Idakhala kwakanthawi kwakanthawi, komabe zimapwetekabe. Koma mwayi kwa ine ndinali ndi anzanga, banja, mowa; mphika ndi zolaula kuti mudzaze zopanda pake. Ndinkayesetsa kuti ndisatengeke ndi izi, ndinayamba kugwira ntchito kosinthana usiku, kumwa kwambiri kumapeto kwa sabata, kusuta fodya nthawi zina komanso kuseweretsa maliseche nthawi zambiri. Ndinkawonera zolaula kamodzi patsiku, nthawi zambiri kukagona ndikaweruka kuntchito.

Pa nthawi imeneyi ndinali woyamwa osiyanasiyana. Tsamba langa lokhazikika lidadzaza chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna. Ndipo kenako ena. Ndikadakhala ndi makanema osiyanasiyana a 5-7 osiyanasiyana ndikutsegula ndikuwonera kwa ola limodzi. Ndidalemba mitundu yosiyanasiyana ya zolaula, achinyamata mpaka milf, zoyera, zakuda, zachisangalalo, chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna panthawiyo. Sindinakhalepo wopusa kwambiri. Ngati panali anthu opitilira mmodzi ndimangopeza kuti ndizosadabwitsa komanso zolakwika ndipo sizinthu zanga. Ndimangofunika zatsopano za wina aliyense nthawi iliyonse. Ndipo zili bwino kunena kuti ndimawerengetsa njira yanga yopanda mphamvu kuposa momwe ndimafunikira ndipo ndinali wankhaza kwambiri kuti mwina ndimangochita kamodzi patsiku.

Sizinali za 5 kapena 6 miyezi yomwe ndidapeza mwayi woyesanso. Ndinkalimba mtima kuti zonse zikhala bwino. Ndidatsimikiza kuti sindikufuna kugona ndi mtsikana womaliza pazifukwa zina kapena ndidasowa kwambiri kapena ndimakhala ndi nkhawa ndikuti ndikakhala phee ndikusonkhanitsa, zonse zikhala bwino.

Ndinali wokongola komanso wopanda pake koma ndinali nditakula pang'ono kuyambira zaka zam'nyengo zamanyazi ndipo sindinapanikizike chifukwa sindimayembekezera kuti ndingakhale ndi mtsikana uyu. Ndinakumana naye kamodzi mwachidule masabata angapo asanafike usiku uno mchipinda chodzaza ndi ma blondes (osanama), koma tsitsi lake lakuda ndi maso abuluu zimawonekera bwino kuposa china chilichonse. Anali wokongola. Chifukwa chake, zitatha izi, ndikulankhula naye kwakanthawi ndikuzindikira kuti anali mwana wankhuku yabwino, yabwino, sindinawone ikubwera. Ndinadzipeza ndili pabedi ndi iye, ndikupanga kuti ndimalankhula ngati wopambana. Chilichonse chinkayenda bwino tinali kumamvana wina ndi mzake pansi, kumpsompsona paliponse koma kwambiri zomwe ndidapeza zidalibe gawo. Ndidaphwanya. Ndidayimitsa zomwe ndimachita, ndidanong'oneza khutu kuti sindingathe kuchita ndipo ndikupepesa. Valani zovala zina ndikutuluka panja. Ndinachotsa mnzanga kutali ndi mnzake ndipo ndinamukokera kunja ndi ine. Ndidamuuza zomwe zidachitika. Ndinkasuta unyolo ndipo ndimamva ngati kugwa pansi ndikulira. Ananenanso kuti zinali bwino ndipo zimachitika kwa aliyense nthawi ndi nthawi ndipo tonse tonse timapita kukawonana ndi adotolo.

Eya, ngakhale titayamba kuyika mtsikana uyu ndipo ndinayamba kuonana. Timawonana pafupifupi tsiku lililonse ndipo timayesetsa kugonana nthawi zambiri. Ndidagonana ndi amuna angapo kangapo, koma ndinali wokonda kwambiri momwe ndingathere. Izi zidayamba kupenga popeza ndinali ndi chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna. Kwa nthawi yayitali sindinabwere. Ine ndimakhoza kupita wopanda manyazi kwa kanthawi pang'ono kapena osangozimitsa.

Pambuyo pakupita miyezi ya 3 amayenera kusuntha mtawuni pafupi 300km, koma amabwerera m'miyezi ingapo kuti tidzakhalanso palimodzi. Timayesetsa kuwona wina ndi mnzake momwe tingathere, zomwe nthawi zambiri zimakhala kwa masiku angapo masabata aliwonse a 3-4. Kulekanitsa uku ndikovuta pachibwenzi chathu ndipo timayesetsa kugwiritsa ntchito nthawi yathu yonse pamodzi, tikapeza. Ndakhala ndikukumana ndi zovuta zogonana nthawi yonseyi ndipo ndimangobwera kumene akandipatsa ntchito ndipo sindimamuuza kuti azikhala wodekha. Pambuyo patapita kanthawi izi ndidakhumudwitsidwa ndipo ndidapita kwa dotolo wina wazaka za 60 chaka chimodzi ndipo ndidamuuza kuti ndili ndi ED ndili ndi 21. Anandifunsa za kuchuluka kwa momwe ndimamwa pomwe sindimatha kukhala chilili ndi zonsezo. Kenako adangonditumizira mapiritsi achitsanzo a 2 a Viagra ndi cholembera bokosi la 4 ina.

Ndidakondwera kwambiri pamene bwenzi langa lidatsika kudzandiona. Ndidamuuza zomwe adotolo adalamula ndipo nditatha vinyo wina, tidasamukira kuchipinda. Palibe chovuta kunena kuti sindinapite osavomerezeka. Zinachitika pamene ndinayenera kupumira kaye kwa mphindi pafupifupi 5 koma ndinali nditabweranso pomwe tidabweramo. Zinali zodabwitsa! Komabe, ndinali ndi vuto. Apanso, sindinathe kubwera. Ngakhale ndi ntchito yayitali yamanja, palibe chomwe chidachitika. Kupatula, mbolo yanga idali yowawa m'mawa. Ndinkakonda kugwiritsa ntchito mapiritsi ena nthawi zingapo ndinamuwona ndipo ndimatha kugwiritsa ntchito bwino maulendo angapo. Mulungu, zinali zodabwitsa. Ndimamva chimodzimodzi zomwe ndimasowa nthawi yonseyo. Kwa nthawi yoyamba pazaka zopitilira 2 ndidabwera pa nthawi yogonana. Ndinkadziona ngati munthu wosangalala kwambiri kuposa aliyense. Adandigoneka pambuyo pake ndipo ndidagona ndi mutu wake pachifuwa changa ndipo ndidangoyang'anitsitsa pamalo osungirako ndikumwetulira kwakukulu kwambiri. Ndinali wokondwa.

Koma mosalephera, mapiritsiwo anatha. Ndinali komwe anali kundichezera ndipo ndinali nditamwa mapiritsi anga atatu omaliza usiku womwewo ndipo tinayamba kucheza. Sindinkaganiza ngakhale za mapilitsi, sindinkadandaula ndi momwe ndimagwirira, ndimangopanga zomwe ndimachita kale ndimapiritsiwo. Zinafika polowera ndipo sizikulowa. Ndidazilimbitsa ndikukhala zomwe ndikanatha, koma zimangodumphama ndikangokankha. Adafunsa chomwe chidavuta ndipo ndidatinso kuti ndilibenso mapiritsi. Chilichonse chomwe chimandipangira chinagwera pansi ndikuyaka malawi nthawi yomweyo. Zinali zochulukira. Monga kupatsa mwana maswiti ndiye kumachotsa kwa iye atangoluma kamodzi. Ndidagwa, ndikufunsa chifukwa chake gehena ndiyenera kulipira kuti ndizitha kugona ndi bwenzi langa. "Ndine 21 chifukwa chachangu!" Palibe chomwe chidawoneka ngati chabwino. Nditabwerako kunyumba ndinayamba kugonja, monga ndinakhala ndikudzifunsa kalekale ndikudabwa kuti gahena yandilakwira chiyani. Kodi ndinali gay? Kodi ndidang'ambika ndi nkhawa? Kodi ndinali wotopa kwambiri pazogonana zanga zakale ?? Mndandandandandawo ndi pomwe ndidavutikira mpaka pano. Ndinkakhala chonchi kwa kanthawi ndipo ndimangomva kusowa, kenako kumva kuwawa, komanso kuwawa, kenako kuzimiririka.

Ndidapanga malingaliro anga kuti ndikangobwerera kwa dotolo ndikamamwa mapiritsi ochulukirapo. Zinkawoneka ngati zomveka; popeza sindimagonana tsiku ndi tsiku (ndimakhala ndikuseweretsa maliseche m'malo mwake) bwanji osangolipira ndalama ndikusangalala? Zinanditengera foni yanga ndikuyang'ana nambala ya foni ya dokotala ndisanayankhe funso langa. "Chifukwa ndimangofuna kukhala wabwinobwino" "Chifukwa sindikufuna kuti zachilengedwe zikhale zovuta chonchi." Ndinagona pabedi usiku ndili ndi pepala langa lakuchimbudzi pambali panga, chinsalu pamaso ndi dzanja langa kwathunthu cholimba mbolo ndikuyang'ana ndikuganiza "Tsopano, bwanji gehena sukundichitira izi ndikamakhala ndi mtsikana weniweni?"

Masabata angapo apitawa I Googled "osagwirizana ndi vuto lochepa" ndipo ndidapita patsamba loyamba pamndandanda ndikuwerenga za ED zomwe zidapangitsa kuti azichita zachiwerewere. Nkutembenuka pang'ono pang'ono kumbuyo kwanga. Ndasanthula mozungulira Google pang'ono ndikuwerenga za yourbrainonporn.com. Sindinapite kwa iwo poyamba. Sindikudziwa chifukwa chake, ndikuganiza kuti ndinali wamanyazi chabe (ndipo mwina ndikukana). Koma ndinapita kumeneko, kenako ndinayamba kuwerenga. Ndakhala ndikuwerenga bwino, ndipo ndidaganiza zowonera zowonetsera zonse za ED. Zonse zinali zomveka kwa ine. Kenako ndidawerenga Zonsezi pamenepo ndi Nkhani Zobwezeretsa ndipo ndidatsimikiza. Chifukwa chake ndakhala ndikudikirira pano, ndikuwerenga nkhani zanu zonse ndikudandaula kuti ndiyenera kuyimba. Chabwino ndi izi. Pepani kwanthawi yayitali, sindinadziwe choti ndiyambire, ndipo sindinadziwe kuti ndimalize.

Ndakhala ndikudutsa ndikuzungulira kuyambira pomwe ndinayambiranso kuyambiranso, koma palibe chomwe ndingachite, ndilingafanane ndi momwe PMO-ED yandipangitsira ine pazaka zapitazi za 3.

Sikuti masiku a 22 palibe PMO. Ndimamva bwino lero.

Oct 25

Masabata a 5 mawa. Ndikhala woonamtima; Ndine wodabwitsidwa kwambiri ndi izi. Koma ndili ndi cholinga, ndimapitiliza kutero ndipo ndikufuna kupitiliza kutero!

Ndikumva ngati kuti ndalemba buku labwino kwambiri. Sindinakhalepo ndi malingaliro ofuna kuonera zolaula, koma ndamva kufunika kochoka. Izi zimachitika makamaka ndikadzuka ndi nkhuni, ndikamangokhalira kupanga mwamwayi koma kumverera kwakhala kwakukulu kwambiri ndikakhala ndi bwenzi langa.

Sindimadzuka m'mawa uliwonse ndimatabwa am'mawa koma ndinganene kuti ndi mwayi wa 50 / 50 kuti ndidzatero. Nthawi zina ndimadzuka mwachisawawa usiku ndi m'modzi, koma sizachilendo. Ndikufuna kutulutsa kamodzi ndisanagone koma mwina ndi chifukwa chakulimbikitsidwa kwambiri kuti ndigonepo m'malo moduka. Masoka anga m'mawa amakhala osiyanasiyana mwamphamvu, nthawi zina amakhala theka, nthawi zina ndimadzuka ndimalo a kampu pa duvet yanga. Ine sindikuganiza kuti ali ochulukirapo kapena ocheperako kuposa momwe anali kale PMO, koma ndikumva bwino kukhala nawo.

Ndimakhala ndi matabwa masiku onse, koma nthawi zambiri ndimakhala pansi osachita chilichonse ndipo malingaliro anga amangolota tsiku limodzi. Osati kwenikweni chilichonse chofuna kutero. Ndikulandira zambiri kuposa kale, zomwe ndikuganiza kuti zikulonjeza. Koma zimakhala zosasangalatsa wina akakugwirani mosamala.

Monga momwe mungawerenge mu bulogu langa lapitalo, ine ndi bwenzi langa timasiyana ndipo sitingakhale ndi wina ndi mnzake momwe tikanakondera. Timakonda kucheza pamakina pa Skype, omwe ndi abwino kwambiri koma amatha kuyesa. Vuto loyang'ana koma lopanda chidwi lidakhala lokhumudwitsa masabata angapo apitawa. Timasunga ma call okongola PC koma sindikufuna kuthandiza koma kuti ndimve momwe ndimvera naye. Komabe, nditatha kusaonana wina ndi mzake kuyambira nditangoyamba kuyambiranso, ndiyenera kupita kukakhala naye masiku 3 kumapeto kwa sabata. Zinali zabwino kwambiri! Momwe tidakumbatirana koyamba nditafika ndidamva bwino. Kukhudza kwakuthupi komwe ndimakhala ndikulakalaka pafupifupi kunandipangitsa kuti ndisungunuke, ndipo ngati sichoncho, kumpsompsona kunatero.

Tinali pabedi usiku woyamba ndipo tinali otetezeka kunena kuti kukana kuchita zosamveka kunali kopanda pake. Makamaka ndikakhala ndi chimwemwe (kapena chabwino, kudabwa ...) ndinali wolimba mwamphamvu ndipo ndinali wokonzeka kupita! Ndinali wokondwa kwambiri ndipo ndinali wofunitsitsa kusangalala nawo. Chifukwa chake, tidagonana. Koma sindinkafuna kuchita chiwerewere ndipo nditakumbukira zina mwa karezza zinthu ndi pang'ono kudziletsa ndidangozitenga pang'onopang'ono ndikungosangalala ndi nthawi yomwe tidali limodzi. Ndinaganiza zosewera bwino ndikutulutsa pafupifupi 5 mphindi kapena. Ndinali kumva bwino kwambiri. Ngakhale ndimafuna kupitiliza mpaka nditakonzekera, zinaoneka ngati zanzeru kusewera bwino.

Usiku wachiwiri womwe ndinali naye, tinayesanso. Koma pazifukwa zina sindikwanitsa. Tidamwa pang'ono, koma sindidamwa. Ine ndinali ndimaganizo mkati mwake ndipo ndimatha kumva china chake kumeneko, koma sizinachitike. Ndidadzuka ndi nkhuni m'mawa mwake. Mwinanso ndimakhala ndikuganiza izi usiku wathawu ndipo mwina ubongo wanga sunasinthidwe kwathunthu ndipo ndikadali wachabe. Koma osachepera amadziwa momwe zimafunikira ndipo libido yanga inali pamagetsi apamwamba sabata iliyonse (patatha milungu ingapo kuti imwalira, izi zinali zabwino kwambiri) kotero ndikuwona kusintha.

Sindinachiritsidwe mokwanira koma ndikuwona kupita patsogolo ndipo izi zimandisangalatsa. Ndidalowa sabata yomwe sindimayembekezera kuyankhidwa kuchokera kwa mbolo yanga, koma ndidadabwa usiku woyamba. Ndili ndi mafunso ngati:

Kodi ndizotheka kuti ubongo wanga unkangolowerera zinthu zatsopano usiku woyamba?

Kodi zomwe ndikadachita usiku woyamba zidakanditsutsa kachiwiri ngakhale sindinachite?

Ive wayamba kuwona zithunzi zolaula posachedwa. Osati zolaula, koma pa malonda komanso Facebook. Kodi izi zingasokoneze kuchira kwanga? (Ndimayesetsa kuwapewa, koma ndimawazindikira)

Kodi mowa ungakhale utatenga gawo lalikulu mu ED yanga ngakhale ndinali ndi maanja angapo Lachisanu ndipo sindinamwe nawo Loweruka?

Kodi pali zina zomwe ndingachite kuti ndithandizire kuchira? (monga masewera olimbitsa thupi pansi kapena pang'ono chabe Cardio, ndi zina)

11-03

Patha masiku 44 kuyambira pomwe ndidayambiranso kuyambiranso ndi 5 kuyambira pomwe ndidayambiranso. Kotero, amenewo ndi masiku 39 opanda PMO, ndiye ndimayang'ana zolaula ndipo ndimayenda mozungulira ndikumbukira.

Momwe ndimakhalira, ndimaganizo komanso thupi. Ndakhala ndikupenga sabata ino kuyerekeza ndi momwe ndidamvera sabata yatha, ndisanayambenso. Lamlungu m'mawa (m'mawa nditayambiranso kusowa) ndimakhala ngati sindimva bwino, ndikuvomera kuti ndinali ndi vuto, koma pambali pake ndinakhumudwa kwambiri ndikukhumudwa chifukwa chongotaya ndikulola kugonjera kukhumudwa komwe ndimamva panthawi imeneyo. Ndinkamvanso kuti nditha kutaya mtima chifukwa zimawoneka ngati kuti ndasiya nthawi yonseyi ndikuchita zonse zomwe ndidapanga poyambiranso. Koma chinthu ndichakuti, chomwe chidandidetsa nkhawa kwambiri ndidali wamantha ngati gehena yomwe sidzatha kudzichiritsa yanga. Ndinasangalalanso kwambiri, makamaka ndikapeza zomwe ndimayang'ana usiku watha. Chilimbikitso chongotenga pang'onopang'ono ndikuyesa kumasula zovuta zomwe zimapangitsa izi kukhala zolimbikitsa!

Chotsani fayilo, mbiri yakale, pitirizani. Ndichinthu chomwe ndachita kangapo. Ndikutsimikiza kuti nthawi yanga yomaliza ndiyenera "kuphimba mayendedwe anga".

Tsiku lonselo linali lopanda pake, ndinali ndi malingaliro onsewa ndikuwona zomwe ndimaziwona zikuyenda pamutu panga. (Mwachidziwitso, zomwe ndidawona, zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndiyambirenso zinali zochepa kwambiri. Chifukwa chake .. zofewa.) Ndinali ndi Lamlungu laulesi, palibe chomwe chidachitika. Zomwe ndimatha kuchita ndikuyesera kuti ndisiye malingaliro anga. Matendawa sanandithandizire, choncho ndimakhala madzulo ndi madzulo ndikungosewera masewera apakompyuta. Kukhutitsidwa pang'ono ndi mkwiyo womwe amandibweretsera zinandithandiziranso.

Lolemba silinali loipa kwambiri. Ndinali wochedwa pang'ono komanso wosinza kumapeto kwa sabata koma ndinakwanitsa maphunziro anga ok bwino ndipo ndinakwanitsa kumaliza zinthu zina. Ndinkakonda kudya pang'ono pang'ono ndikumwa mphamvu, koma ndikuganiza kuti andithandizadi. Ndidakhala wosavuta usiku womwewo ndikupewa zokopa zilizonse zomwe ndimakumana nazo. Pulogalamu yawayilesi yakanema yomwe ili ndi azimayi osavala pamwamba idabwera, m'modzi mwa awa ku Roma wakale, nditangowona mabere ndidatuluka mchipinda. Ndimamvera zonena zamatsenga kujambula pa YBOP ndisanagone, zomwe zidandithandiza kupumula kwambiri.

Lachiwiri linali lofanana ndi Lolemba pankhani ya kugona ndipo ndinali kupeza zithunzi za zinthu kuchokera mkubwereranso kumayang'ana pang'onopang'ono. Ndidapitiliza ndipo ndidatha kuchita zodabwitsa mukamayankhulana masana (Ndakhala ndimakhala woipa pazowunikira pantchito ndi zina,, ndikuganiza kuti ndimakonda kulephera kwa 90%, kotero izi zinali zowonekadi) ndinali wolakwa, anali ndi zabwino kucheza komanso kuyankhula momveka bwino komanso molimba mtima. Ndipo adapeza mawonekedwe omwe ndimafuna (Pa maphunziro a tsamba, osati ntchito, komabe abwino). Ndidafika kunyumba mozungulira 3: 15, ndinayang'ana zinthu pa intaneti kenako ndikugona pakama panga. Maola a 3! Ndikuganiza kuti ndidatopa. Ndidapeza ntchito zina zapanyumba ndipo ndimatha kugona nthawi zonse.

Lachitatu ndi lero zinali zofanana kwambiri. Ndinali watcheru komanso wogalamuka ndipo ndimatha masiku komanso madzulo popanda vuto lililonse. Kupatula kung'anima kosamveka bwino kwa matondo, m'mawa ndi zosankha mosasunthika pano ndi apo ndakhala ndili pamzere wosalala kuyambira Lachiwiri. Izi sizimandigawanitsa kwambiri monga momwe ndakhalapo kale ndikumenya "zosowa koma zomwe sindingathe" kumverera zolakalaka.

Ndine wokondwa kuti ndadutsa pamilandu yoyamba ija, kulakalaka komanso kukhumudwa masiku oyamba atabwereranso. Ndigwiritse ntchito kukumbukira izi ndikuziwonjezera pamndandanda wa "Bwanji osatero" kuti mubwererenso. Chinthu chimodzi chomwe ndimachedwa kuchita koma pamapeto pake ndinachita usiku uno ndikuuza bwenzi langa kuti ndibwereranso. Ndinali wamanyazi komanso wamanyazi, koma sanandivutitse kapena chilichonse. Amadziwa kuti chinthu ichi ndi chovuta. Amangofuna kudziwa zomwe zandipangitsa kuti ndizichita komanso tanthauzo lake. Chifukwa chake ndidamuuza zomwe zidachitika ndikuti ndikupitiliza ndikuyambiranso. Anaseka pazomwe zidachitikazo, zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndizisangalala ndikuseka nazo, nazonso (chimodzi mwazifukwa zomwe ndimamukondera mtsikanayo).

Chifukwa chake izi zindibweretsa pano. Ndaganiza zowunikiranso momwe ndimayambiranso kutalika kwa nthawi yayitali, kuwonekera pazomwe zimayambitsa komanso nthawi yoyambira kuyambitsa ma O.

Poyamba ndidaganiza zotsegulanso masabata a 8-10, nthawi yanu yongoyerekeza nthawi yakuchira, sichoncho? Izi "zitha" kuyambiranso pakati pa 16 ndi 30 Novembala (lol). Popeza kubwereranso kwanga ndi zolemba zina za kupita patsogolo ndi zina zambiri zasonkhanitsidwa, ndaganiza zopitiliza kuyambiranso mpaka Chaka Chatsopano. Izi zitha kupangitsa nthawi yonse kuyambiranso masiku a 101 ndi masiku 63 a PMO olimba kwaulere. Nditha kuyamba kuyambitsa ma O achilengedwe ndi bwenzi langa mu Disembala kwakanthawi. Zonsezi ndizokhudzana ndi kupita patsogolo ndi ED komanso momwe ndimamvera ndikachira kwanga nthawi imeneyo.

Pakadali pano, ndiyambitsa zomwe ndaphunzira pakadali pano. Izi zikuphatikiza:

- Pewani zithunzi zolaula pang'ono kulikonse, momwe ndingathere. Facebook, makatalogu, TV, kulikonse.

- Ndikufuna kupewa kudziyika ndekha pamavuto amisala. Palibe udzu, mowa pang'ono (pang'ono patchuthi) ndipo palibe ma combos!

- Pewani kukondoweza kulikonse kwa penile. Osangoganizira zolaula kapena zina, osasewera ndi matabwa am'mawa, osayeretsanso, gwirani kawiri!

- Yesetsani kuti musakhale wosamvera pa Skype. Kukambirana pavidiyo - Chabwino. Kukambirana pavidiyo yamaliseche - Zolaula.

- Chokani pa PC. Ngakhale ndasiya PMO ndipo ndakhala ndikumacheza kwambiri ndikukhala wolimbikira, ndimapezeka pa intaneti kapena pa PC kwambiri kuti ndikhale wathanzi.

- Lembani nthawi yopuma ndi zinthu zopindulitsa. Izi zitha kukhala chilichonse kuchokera ku homuweki, zolimbitsa thupi (zofunika kwambiri), ntchito zapakhomo, kucheza mpaka kungopita.

- Kuyanjana kwachikazi kwapadziko lonse. Izi ndi za nthawi yomwe ndimakhala ndi bwenzi langa. Ndikuganiza kuti zingakhale zothandiza kwambiri kuchita zinthu zolumikizana (https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/the-lazy-way-to-stay-in-love) ndikungokonzanso ubongo wanga kuti ukhale womvera kwambiri zomwe ndikufuna kuti ukhale. Komanso, ndikufuna kukhala ndi atsikana ambiri pagulu. Mtundu woyeserera momwe timalumikizirana poyerekeza ndi momwe ndidakhazikitsira.

- Nthawi zonse yogona. Chabwino, ndiye kuti izi zitha kukhala chinthu chosagwirizana chonse, koma ndiyenera kuchita bwino ndi nthawi yomwe sindinagwiritse ntchito ndisanagone ndisanagone.

Mafunso ochepa chabe:

Kodi pali chilichonse chomwe ndiyenera kuwonjezera pamndandanda wanga wamaphunziro? Malingaliro aliwonse?

Ndikudabwa kuti kubwereranso kwanga kungakhudze bwanji ED yanga. Kodi ndiyambirenso kukhala PMO mpaka kumapeto kwa Januware?

Ponena za kukhazikitsidwa kwa O ndi kugonana kwabwino, kodi lingaliro langa kuyamba Chaka Chatsopano chisanachitike?

Kodi ndiyenera kusiya zonse za O mpaka ndikayambiranso kapena ndiyenera kupita nazo pamene zonse zikuwoneka kuti zikuyenda bwino?

11-05

Patha sabata kuchokera pomwe ndinabwereranso ndipo ndimawona kuti zotsatira zake zatsika kwambiri ndipo ngakhale ndili ndi vuto losungulumwa ndimamva bwino. Ndakhala ndikupewa kuwona zamaliseche komanso zogonana ndikuletsa zopeka. Zopeka ndichinthu chovuta kwambiri kuzibisa chifukwa nthawi zina zimangochitika koma ndikuphunzira kuziletsa.

Ndimatha kumva kutengeka komwe kunalipo asanabwererenso, chifukwa chake ndikhulupilira kuti zonse ziyambiranso ngakhale zitabwereranso pang'ono. Sindikumva mphamvu zakugonana pakadali pano, koma sizipezeka konse. Itanani 2/10.

Ndinapita kumaphwando angapo usiku watha ndipo ndinali ndimabwedza a 10 pafupifupi maola pafupifupi 5. Ndinali woledzera pang'ono koma ndinali ndi phokoso usiku wonse. Ndinadzipeza ndekha kukhala otukwana kuposa momwe ndimakhalira, ngakhale ndisanamwe. Ndinkasungabe zolimba zolimba ndi anthu ambiri. Zomwe nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndizovuta.

Pamndandanda womwe ndidapanga koyambirira sabata ino ndazindikira kuti ndikufuna kulumikizana kwambiri ndi azimayi pagulu lofanizira pang'ono pakadali pano ndisanayambirenso. Ndisanayambirenso ndikuganiza kuti ndimadziyesa ndekha kuti ndikakamizidwe kutenga atsikana omwe ndinalankhula nawo ndikupanga zokambirana zabwino, kuwapangitsa kukhala ndi ine. Zinapangitsa kuti zikhale zovuta chifukwa nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndikapanikizika zomwe zimandipangitsa kukhala wamanjenje komanso wamanyazi. Sindingaganizire choti ndinene kapena momwe ndinganenere ndipo thupi langa liziwonetsa nkhawa zanga. Izi zitha kupangitsa atsikana kukhala opanda chidwi ndi ine, popeza ndinali wopanda pake pamacheza komanso mopepuka. Ndidayesa kuthetsa vutoli ndi mowa koma ndidangokhala chete. Komanso zosafunika. Izi zidachitika kaya ndinali pachibwenzi kapena ayi. Ngakhale sindinayese kuwanyamula, ndikuganiza kuti mosazindikira ndimayesayesa ndikudzipangitsa kukhala wosayembekezeka.

Dzulo usiku zinali zosiyana ngakhale. Ndinalibe vuto lililonse ndipo ndinkangolola kukambirana. Ndidadzilimbitsa mtima komanso momwe si atsikana okha komanso anyamata omwe amalankhula nane nawonso anali osiyana kwambiri ndi kale. Ndinkasangalala kucheza ndi anthu. Sindinakhalepo moyo wachipani kapena chilichonse, koma ndimangokhala ndi anthu omwe sindinawaonepo kwakanthawi ndipo ndidakumana ndi anthu atsopano, osangalatsa. Chimodzi chomwe ndidazindikira (ngakhale ndikutsimikiza kuti bwenzi langa silimakonda) ndikuti atsikana anali ndi chidwi ndi ine kuposa kale. Ndinkacheza nawo bwino, ndimakumana nawo kwambiri, ndikumwetulira komanso kuseweretsa pang'ono. Sindinabwezeretse kukopana, koma ndinakopeka nazo ndipo ndimangosangalala ndikukambirana.

Chifukwa chake, ndine wokondwa ndimomwe zinthu zikuyendera. Ndikufunikirabe kufika pofika polemba nthambi. Kutuluka kwambiri munthawi yanga yaulere kuti ndikawone abwenzi komanso zomwe ayi. Ndichinthu chomwe ndikuyembekezera, koma dziwani kuti ndichita khama kuti ndichite, ngakhale zikuwoneka kuti zasintha.

Ndili pafupi theka loti ndiyambirenso kuyambiranso ndipo ndikuyembekezera mwachidwi kuwona zomwe zidzachitike mu theka lotsatira, koma ndikuyesera kuti ndikhale ndi chiyembekezo.

Dis 03

Chifukwa chake Lachitatu ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito yoyambiranso masabata a 10. Munthawi imeneyi ndakhala ndi 2 O's, wina mpaka P ndi wina wa kegels (ndimamupezabe wodabwitsa ..). Cholinga changa choyambiranso chinali masabata a 10 ndipo ngakhale ndakhala ndi O'd kawiri, ndimakondwera kukhala komwe ndili pano. Ngakhale zikadakhala zabwino kukhala ndi mayendedwe oyera ndikunena "masabata 10 palibe PMO !!" O anga andiphunzitsa zambiri.

Patha sabata kuyambira chochitika changa cha kegelgasm ndipo chakhala sabata losangalatsa. Ndakhala ndikukwera ndi kutsika kwambiri ndi libido, theka la tsiku lake lakufa, theka lina likukwiya. Ndakhala ndikufunafuna O, kutuluka komanso kutuluka bwino sabata yonseyi. Kuthamangitsa mwina? Ndakhala ndikulakalaka kuyang'ana P, koma osati kugonana. Sindikufuna kuwonera anthu ena akugonana, ndikuwoneka kuti ndikungofuna kuwona anapiye amaliseche. Ndakhala wabwino ngakhale sindinayang'ane kalikonse. Ndayika tsamba losatsegula pa intaneti pafoni yanga ndipo nthawi yokhayo yomwe ndidawona zolaula zili kutali ndikumayesa kuyeserera kwake. Ndikugwiritsa ntchito "Safe Browser" ya Android. Ndangopeza kumene pamsika ndipo imagwira ntchito bwino. Ngakhale sizolakwa…

Ndinapita kwa 50th bambo a mnzake usiku watha ndipo ndinatsitsimutsidwa chifukwa chake ndikuyambiranso. Ndinali komweko ndi gulu la okwatirana (atsikana onse) ndi m'modzi mwa iwo, ndimagonana nawo ndipo ndimakhala ndi mavuto a ED. Izi zonse zidachitika pafupifupi chaka chapitacho ndipo ndinali nditaiwala za zonse zomwe adachita. Komabe, tinali kuchita monga takhala tikukhalira, ndipo titamwa maanja usiku womwe tinakhala limodzi tinaleredwa. Palibe chilichonse chokhudza ED wanga panthawiyi kapena china chilichonse, nkhani yoseketsa yokhudza kuyesetsa kwanga kuti ndipeze chimbudzi. Koma zinandipangitsa kukumbukira mavuto omwe ndinali nawo ndili ndi msungwana uyu komanso momwe zinalili zochititsa manyazi kuti ndinakhala ndi ED. Ndikuganiza kuti zotsitsimutsa ndizomwe ndimafunikira. Ndikuthamangitsidwa konse sabata ino ndikukhumba kwa O etc chinali chinthu chabwino kuti ndizisunga.

Chifukwa chake zonse, ndili ndi:

Kukhumba kwa O

Mukufuna kuwona atsikana amaliseche

Ndinapeza malo ofooka (intaneti yanga)

Malingaliro olamulidwa bwino 😀

libido mmwamba ndi pansi, koma madzulo kunja

Zochitika m'mawa (Palibe pamenepo kapena 100%)

Ndinalota maloto anga oyamba (sindikukumbukira loto koma umboni udalipo)

Zimamveka ngati chilichonse chikuyamba kufika momwe ziyenera kukhalira, komabe ndili ndi nthawi yoti ndipite kuti chilichonse chiziwoneke ngati "chachizolowezi". Chinthu chachikulu chomwe ndikufunika kuyesa ndi ED wanga, ndicho chifukwa choyambiranso ndi chinthu chomwe ndikufuna kwambiri kukonza.

Dis 23

Jan 7

Ndili ndi nkhani yabwino! Sindinakhalitse kunyumba nditayendera chibwenzi changa patchuthi. Ndinali kumeneko usiku wa Khrisimasi mpaka pa 6 Januware. Pakapita nthawi ndimagonana katatu (zikadakhala zochulukirapo koma adamupatsa 'Masiku Amayi') ndipo ndinali ndi zokumana nazo zingapo.

Ena ED. Ndiyenera kunena kuti sindinachiritsidwe kwathunthu popeza panali ED komanso zowunikira zinagwiritsidwa ntchito kutengera zomwe zimawoneka ngati 60% erection kwathunthu.

Kuda nkhawa. Ndidakhala ndi ena masiku angapo oyambilira omwe ndidakhala ndi iye, koma izi zidachoka pomwe ndimakhala ndi iye nthawi yambiri. Ndikuganiza kuti ndimangofunika kupumula ndikusiya nkhawa pang'ono popeza ndakhala ndikulakalaka nditakhala komweko kwa nthawi yayitali ndipo ndimada nkhawa ndi ED.

Kumverera: Zinali pang'ono ... Chabwino, zambiri mbali yayitali. Ndabwera mwachangu kwambiri zomwe zinali zokhumudwitsa, komabe ndibwino kuposa ED.

Kusintha kowoneka bwino nthawi zonse. Pofika usiku wanga watha kumeneko sindinasowe kukakamiza kulikonse kuti ndikhale wovuta. Zinali zabwino ndipo sindikuganiza kuti amayembekezera. Ndinangochita zomwe ndimafuna kuchita ndipo sindinabwerere kapena kuchita manyazi konse ndipo zonse zinkayenda bwino.

Tinalinso ndi mavuto ena ochepa. Mowa umawoneka ngati ukugwira nawo gawo la ED koma ndimangomwa nthawi imodzi pomwe timayesa koma ndidakhala ndi ED ndikudziyang'ana ndekha ndikukhumudwitsidwa. Ndikutsimikiza kuti inali theka lakumwa, nkhawa theka ngakhale inali nthawi yoyamba yomwe tinayesa titagonananso ndipo mwina ndikadadziyesa ndekha pang'ono. Komanso, ndimangofunika kulimbikitsidwa mwamaulendo kangapo chifukwa chofewa ndikuyesera kuti mbolo yanga ilowe mwa iye. Panalibe vuto loyambilira ndikumangirira (kunachitika mwachilengedwe ndikungopsompsona ndi zina zambiri) koma ndikuganiza kuti ndinataya chifukwa chokhumudwa… Sindikudziwa chomwe chidachitika, koma panali vuto la mafuta pang'ono ndipo sindinathe ulowetseni. Kusewera pang'ono kunathetsa vutoli kamodzi kokha, koma ndinakhumudwitsidwa ndikupita kopanda pake ndikusowa dzanja.

Zonsezi, sindidandaula za komwe ndikupeza bwino. Ndakhala ndisakuyambiranso kwa masiku 110 (ndikuganiza) koma ndakhala ndikubwereranso apa ndi apo. Ndinadabwitsidwa ndi momwe zinthu zinayendera pamene kubwereranso kwanga kunachuluka kwambiri pamene zimayandikira pamene ndimamuwona. Monga, yanga yaposachedwa kwambiri inali pa 23rd chifukwa chake izi zitha kukhala chifukwa cha zovuta zina, koma sindikudziwa kuchuluka kwake.

Ndakhala ndi 4 nthawi ndi iye ndipo ndakhala ndi MO'd kamodzi kuchokera kubwerera (palibe zolaula kapena zozizwitsa). Sindikuganiza kuti ndidzayambiranso mpaka nditayambiranso, koma ndikudabwa kuti nthawi zonse maliseche angathandize pa vuto la PE. Malingaliro aliwonse? Mwanjira iliyonse, sindigwiritsa ntchito zolaula konse.

Mwa lingaliro langa lokha, ndikuganiza kuti ndidzakhala bwino ndipo chinthu chabwino kwambiri kwa ine mwina ndikungolumikizana kwambiri ndi bwenzi langa komanso zogonana zenizeni. Kuyambira tsopano sindikhala ndi zolinga zogonana kapena zoyembekezera zanga, ndikungofuna kupumula ndikusangalala.

Ndizabwino kukhala ndi kusintha kowonekera. Ndikukhulupirira kuti yasanduka nthunzi posachedwa, koma ndimupatsa nthawi yonse yomwe ikuyenera kutero. Kupanikizika za izi kumangowonjezera. Amakhala wokondeka komanso wothandizira pantchito yonseyi. Ngakhale nditakhala wotsika kwambiri, adakhalapo kudzandithandiza. Tikukhulupirira kuti ndidzamuonanso posachedwa. Kukhala naye limodzi komanso kukhala ndiubwenzi wolumikizanawo kwakanthawi kwakadakhala kothandiza kuti ndipulumuke. 

Ndipitirizabe kuseweretsa maliseche ngakhale, chifukwa ndimakonda momwe ndimamvera tsiku ndi tsiku popanda izi.

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