Zoyera. Pambuyo masiku 64 kulowa mu mzerewu komanso pafupifupi zaka 1.5 za PornFree ndi NoFap zikulimbana, nditha kunena kuti ndiyambiranso. Ndipo ndikuuzeni, izi ndizodabwitsa, zachilendo, zokongola komanso zowopsa nthawi yomweyo.
Dziko lotseguka. Ichi chingwe chinali kale chingwe chotsiriza (ie. Sindidzabwerenanso), ndinadziwa kuti kuyambira pa chiyambi. Zovuta zanga pamapeto pake zimathetsedwa.
Koma kuyambiranso, ndikuti ndi chinthu champhamvu bwanji. Ndine wogonana modabwitsa ndipo pokhapokha pokhapokha ndidazindikira momwe ndiriri wolunjika kwambiri.
Zaka zonse zomwe ndimayang'ana zolaula, ndimadziwa izi. Koma ndinali OCD 'zokhudzana ndi kugonana kwanga. Awiri omwe ndi zonse zomwe ndidakhala nazo kuyambira ndili mwana komanso zaka 22 zoyambirira za moyo wanga sizinali zophweka.
Koma paulendo wonsewu womwe unayamba kuzungulira 1.5 zaka zapitazo, ndidaphunzira kuvomereza zonse zomwe ndili. Zofooka. Zipsera. Mantha. Zoperewera.
Komanso zinthu zazikulu zonse. Wamphamvu. Wamphamvu ndi waluntha. Ophunzitsidwa. Kutsimikiza.
Ndinkaopa kuti ndinali autistic (makamaka pa asperger gawo la sipekitiramu) kwa nthawi yayitali. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala wosiyana ndipo ndimafuna mayankho. Tsopano zikuwoneka kuti ndili ndi luso lapadera, zomwe zimapangitsa nzeru kwambiri mukamayang'ana unyamata wanga. Nthawizonse samamvetsedwa. Sindinapezepo malo anga mpaka nditapeza tanthauzo la kukhala ndi mphatso komanso momwe zimakhudzira ana aang'ono, makamaka mukapanda kuyesedwa ali aang'ono (zomwe makolo anga sanasankhepo). (Osati kuti pali cholakwika chilichonse kukhala ndi autistic, koma zinthu zina sizinandigwirizane kwathunthu motero sindinakhutitsidwe ndi 'chizindikiro' kapena 'yankho'.)
Ndamenyera zaka zoposa 1.5 kuti ndithane ndi kuthana ndi ziwanda zanga ndipo ndakwanitsa.
Sindibwerera zolaula. Kapena zinthu zina zonse zomwe ndimakonda kubisa kusakhazikika kwanga nazo.
Pali kuwala kumapeto kwa mumphangayo ndipo mwina muli pafupi kuposa momwe mukuganizira. Ndaphunzira kuti kukula si kophweka konse. Kuti pali zovuta zambiri zomwe muyenera kukumana nazo kuti mukhale wamkulu komanso wolimba. Ndi kuti pali anthu ambiri omwe safika mpaka pamenepo, chifukwa amawopa kwambiri kuthana ndi mavuto awo.
Nonse anyamata inu omwe mumachezera mitundu iyi yamagulu kuti mutukuke. Mumayenera kuchita ndi mavuto anu ndikukhala amuna ndi akazi a ukoma. Kukhala bwino osati zanu zokha, koma banja lanu, abwenzi, mdera lanu ndi zomwe, dziko.
Ndatsala pang'ono kusiya gawo ili. Ndibwerezabwereza nthawi ndi nthawi kuti ndikhale ndi nthawi komanso kupereka chithandizo, koma ndatha pano. Ndine PornFree.
Kuti ndimalize nkhaniyi ndi mawu, ine, ndikusankha zolemba za Theodore Roosevelt zomwe zimagwiritsidwa ntchito kwambiri pano kwa ife omwe timavutika ndikukhala anthu abwino.
Si wonyoza yemwe amawerengera. Si munthuyo amene akunena kuti munthu wamphamvuyo wapunthwa. Mbiri ndiyamunthu yemwe anali m'bwalomo, nkhope yake idadzaza ndi fumbi, thukuta, ndi magazi, yemwe amayesetsa molimba mtima, yemwe amalakwitsa kuperewera komanso kufupikiranso, chifukwa palibe kuyesayesa kopanda cholakwika kapena cholephera. Ndi munthu yemwe amayesetsa kuchita izi, yemwe amadziwa chidwi chachikulu komanso amadziwa kudzipereka kwakukulu, yemwe amadzipereka pazifukwa zoyenera, yemwe pamapeto pake, amadziwa pamapeto pake kupambana kwakupambana kwakukulu. Ndipo, ndani wamkulu, ngati alephera, amalephera ngakhale kulimba mtima kwambiri, kuti malo ake asadzakhale konse ndi mizimu yozizira komanso yankhanza yomwe sidziwa kupambana kapena kugonjetsedwa.
Theodore Roosevelt
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