Ndine wamwamuna wazaka 22 ndipo ndinayamba kuonera zolaula ndili ndi zaka 12 kapena 13. Ndili mwana, ndinkakonda kuonera zolaula ndikuchita maliseche kangapo patsiku, tsiku lililonse. Nditakula (kusekondale) ndimangoyang'ana zolaula kuti ndizichita maliseche, osatinso zina. Anataya unamwali wanga pamene ndinali 17 ndipo sindinakhalepo ndi vuto ndi ED.
Anali pachibwenzi ndi msungwana kuyambira 19 mpaka 20 ndipo patangopita chaka chimodzi adathetsa banja langa ndikupitiliza. Chifukwa chake ndili pano, wosungulumwa, wamantha, ndikuganiza kuti ndinali wopanda pake ndipo palibe amene angafune ine. "Hei, makolo anga ukwati sunakhalitse, bwenzi langa linandisiya, mwina izi sizanga ine." Chifukwa chake ndidayamba kuwonera zolaula nthawi zonse ndikumwa kwambiri. Kupitiliza kupita kumaphwando ndikuyesa kucheza ndi atsikana otentha kwambiri, mpaka mukudziwa chiyani, ED adangowonekera mwadzidzidzi. Simungathe kuzipulumutsa kuti ndipulumutse moyo wanga wachinyamata.
Miyezi ingapo imadutsa ndipo ndinakumana ndi mtsikana ndipo ndinakhala naye pachibwenzi kwakanthawi ndipo kuyambira tsiku lathu loyamba ndimadziwa kuti mtsikanayo ndi "ameneyo." Ndinagonana naye bwino kwakanthawi mpaka atathetsa chibwenzi, choncho ndinabwereranso ku zolaula. Ndinayesetsa kuyanjana ndi atsikana ndipo ED wanga adabweranso. Chifukwa chake masiku 126 apitawo ndidapeza NoFap ndipo ndidaganiza zowombera. Chifukwa chake patha pafupifupi chaka chimodzi kuchokera pamene "yemwe" ndidakhala pachibwenzi ndipo timakumana nthawi zina ndikumacheza koma osangokhala abwenzi mpaka usiku umodzi ataganiza zobweranso. Nkhani yayitali, ndinatha kugonana naye bwino pafupifupi tsiku la 80 kapena apo. Tsopano tabwerera limodzi, tili pachibwenzi, timakhala limodzi ndikukambirana zogula malo atsopano limodzi. Amandimaliza m'njira iliyonse ndipo palibe mtsikana yemwe angafanane ndipo ndakhalapo, ndikhulupirireni. Timagonana kamodzi patsiku kapena kupitilira apo ndipo ndilibe vuto konse.
Pafupi pang'ono: Ndinawonera kanema Don Jon usiku watha ndipo sizinandipangitse konse. Zinandipangitsa kuzindikira kuti zolaula ndizonyansa ndipo ine ndi gf tinagonana kangapo filimuyo itatha ndipo timalumikizana kwambiri ndikumva bwino kwambiri padziko lapansi kuti zolaula kapena maliseche sizingafanane nazo.
Kwa aliyense amene sakhulupirira NoFap sangakuchiritseni ED kapena kukuthandizani kuti mukhale bwino, ndinu wopusa. Pepani, koma osadzilimbitsa nokha ndikungozisiya ndikukhulupirira.
Ndikadatha kulemba zambiri koma ndimangofuna kuphimba zofunikira: Ndimakondana ndipo tambala wanga amagwira ntchito, mwachangu, osati mwachisoni.
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