tsiku 3
Sindinadziwe kuti ndinali wokonda zolaula mpaka nditapeza tsamba ili. (Maganizo anga anali ngati amunthu wina aliyense: zochuluka sizokwanira). Ndili pachibwenzi miyezi iwiri yapitayo, msungwana wamkulu, wokoma, wotentha, ndi chilichonse chomwe ndingafune. Apa vuto limayamba….
Ndikuganiza kuti inali nthawi yachitatu kapena yachinayi titakumana, iye "adanenanso" zogonana… Nthawi imeneyo ndinali ndimankhwala othetsa ululu ambiri, ndipo kugonana chinali chinthu chomaliza m'maganizo mwanga, kotero ... manyazi momwe ndinaliri, ine adamuwuza za izi ... Malingaliro miliyoni adathamangira m'mutu mwanga: "Aahhh ndawombera, ndiziuza abwenzi ake ndi zina ..." Koma ndidadabwitsidwa kuti, adangoti: "Chabwino ndamva," ndipo tidagona limodzi tikungokondana. .
Tsopano mwamsanga sabata:
Ndinakhala kutali ndi opha ululu (anali gehena kwa ine) kwa sabata, ndikudziuza ndekha, "Tsopano ndi nthawi." Koma… molunjika ku zogonana… sindinathe kuvutikira ngakhale nditayesetsa motani… ndinayamba kupanga “pang'ono”, koma tikangovala maliseche, tinkapumira ... ndinalibe chikhumbo chogonana. Chifukwa chake, ndidayimba mlandu kuti ndinali wamanjenje…
Pambuyo pake ndinayesanso sabata limodzi pambuyo pake, chimodzimodzi. (Ayi, sananditayebe.) Kenako ndinapita kwa dokotala, ndikundipatsa Viagra ndi mapiritsi ena. Chifukwa chake pamapeto pake ndimaganiza, tsopano ndichita! Ndinatenga piritsi limodzi, ndikuyamba "kupita" kwa ilo. Zinagwira, inde !! pomaliza !! … Koma .. sindinasangalale nazo ndipo sindinatenge nthawi ... choncho ndinayamba kuganizira za zolaula .. ndipo "zidandigwira" (sindidumphe nkhani zonsezi ... koma aliyense amene akuwerengabe nditha kufotokoza / kumvetsetsa zomwe zikuchitika tsopano)
Pakadali pano:
Ndikugwiritsa ntchito intaneti ndikupunthwa pa ulalo womwe umati: "Ubongo wanu pa zolaula". “Ichi ndi chiyani?” Ndinaganiza, ndikuyamba kuwerenga. Mphindi 10 pambuyo pake zonse zinali zomveka, ndinali ndi "zisonyezo" ZONSE ndipo ndimatha "kugwedezeka" mwamphamvu poyang'ana zolaula, koma osafuna kugonana kwenikweni. Mwina zidayamba pafupifupi chaka chapitacho, ndimagonana ndi mtsikana (ONS), koma sizinatenge "mwala" mwamphamvu… ndipo adafunsa za izi, ndipo ndidati ndimangokhala wamanjenje kapena china, nkhani yofananayo komanso yosiyana atsikana, koma zotsatira zomwezo… ..
Koma panthawi imodzimodziyo, "zizolowezi" zanga zolaula zidakwera padenga, ndimatha kugwiritsa ntchito maola ambiri patsiku ndikumanga makanema ochulukirapo.
Chifukwa chake .. tsopano ndili pano… pakadali pano ndili tsiku langa 3 loti ndisamawonere zolaula ... ndinachotsa makanema anga onse… ndinachotsa zikhomo zanga zamasamba ndi zina zotero… sindinakhalepo ndi mwayi wolandila hard drive kwaulere.
Zizindikiro zanga:
Zimamveka ngati kusiya kusuta. Sindimachita manyazi mwanjira iliyonse… koma nthawi zina, "zithunzi" zosadziwika zimayang'ana m'mafilimu azolaula m'maganizo mwanga, ndipo zimamveka ngati thupi langa likufuula: "chitani!" Ndine wokhumudwa kwambiri, wotaya chilakolako cha chakudya .. Ndizovuta kuti ndigone, maso anga amatayika nthawi zina. Ndikudabwa ngati bwenzi langa likhala pafupi ndikabwerera mwakale. Ndizopweteka kwambiri.
Koma ndidafika patali .. ndikumva kuwawa uku, sindisiya kuti ziwonongeke! Ndikudziwa kuti ndili ndiulendo wautali kwambiri .. koma ndazichita kale ndikusuta…
Sindinafotokozerebe bwenzi langa. tangokhala limodzi miyezi iwiri yokha, ndipo zikuwoneka ngati cholemetsa chomutengera. Ndikudziwa kuti ndikakumana ndi mavuto popewa kugonana. (Tsiku lina adadandaula kuti sindinamugwire.) Nthawi idzanena. Zikumveka kuti ndimadzikonda kwambiri, koma ndichisankho chomwe ndiyenera kupanga, kukonza moyo wanga chifukwa ili silili vuto lobwerezabwereza. (Kugonana ndibwino kuposa kukhala payekha.Ndine wachichepere (22). Atsikana ena amabwera. Ndikudziwa kuti zikhala zopweteka ngati anditaya, koma zidandipangitsa kuzindikira vuto langa. Ndikukhulupirira kuti nditha kuchoka kwa munthu wabwinayu.
Iyi ndi "kalata yotseguka" kwa ine, yomwe ndikuyembekeza ndikhoza kubwerera ndikukawerenga masabata angapo kuchokera pano. (Pepani chifukwa cha Chingerezi choyipa)
tsiku 7
Ndinali nditaphika mabodza amitundu yonse kuti ndipewe kugonana ... koma tsiku lachisanu, nditawerenga mayankho onse kangapo. Ndidakumana ndi bwenzi langa za izi.
Munthu… Ndikuganiza kuti chinali chinthu chovuta kwambiri chomwe ndidachitapo. Ndinayamba kumuuza pang'onopang'ono za izi. Momwe china chake "chinali cholakwika" ndi ine. Liwu langa linayamba kusweka ndipo ndinatsala pang'ono kuyamba kulira. Ndinkadziona kuti ndine wonyansidwa kwambiri, koma kenako ndinamva mawu achikondi amene sanandiuzepo akuti: “Osadandaula. Zikhala bwino. Tithana nawo limodzi limodzi. ”
Damn Ndikumkonda mkazi uyu.
tsiku 8
Zolakalaka zanga zatsika kwambiri. Nditadzuka lero ndidayamba kukwatirana ndi gf yanga, ndipo chodabwitsa kuti wina adadzukanso nati 'moni' ndipo adakhala olimba kwa mphindi 2 osasamala. (Sanali "mtengo wam'mawa." Izi zinali zoyambirira.)
Zinkawoneka zachilendo kwa ine. Ndikudziwa kuti ndili kutali kwambiri ndi kuchiritsidwa, koma pamene ndimayang'ana zolaula ngakhale nditayang'ana kutali ndi chinsalu cha sekondi ya 5, kumangidwe kumatha.
Komanso tikamasewera, ndimamva ngati "china chake chikuchitika" Koma zimangokhala ngati kuyesa kuyambitsa galimoto yopanda mafuta. Mwina pali kuunika kumapeto kwa mumphangayo.
tsiku 22
Ndipafupifupi 3am komwe ndili pano, ndakhala ndikudwala chimfine m'masiku omaliza (inde pali chinthu choterocho.) Chifukwa chake ndinali ndi mavuto ambiri ogona posachedwa, koma ndalandira maantibayotiki kuchokera kwa dokotala wanga ndipo ndili panjira yochira . Ndikulakalaka pakadakhala mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Mwina mtsogolomo…
Ndakhala ndikuganiza kwambiri posachedwa pankhani yosiya zolaula ndipo kotero ... Nayi malingaliro anga pa moyo wanga ndi zolaula:
Pamene ndinali pafupi 11 bambo anga anabwera kunyumba kunyumba yakale pc kuntchito kuti ndisunge. Sindinayang'ane kwenikweni ndi ma PC (ndinali ndi masewera osewera, ndi chiyaninso china chomwe mnyamata angachifunikire?) Kotero ndinayika m'chipinda changa ndikupeza kuti ndikhoza kuikweza ndi masewera a pc ndi mp3s (Glorious WIN95 Days). Hmm ma PC ndi okongola kwambiri.
Nditapita kwa mzanga yemwe anali wamkulu chaka chimodzi kuposa ine, ndinamuuza za pc yanga yatsopano. "Ah chabwino ndi iwe," adatero, "Mukufuna kuwona china chake pc yanga?" CD imodzi yopsereza pambuyo pake ndidafika kunyumba ndikuiwonjezera pa pc yanga. Hmm… ma PC ndiabwino!
Ndiye zidayamba, kenako ndidayamba kupita kumapwando a lan ndikupeza anyamata ena akugawana makanema. Pomaliza, makanema atsopano mulaibulale yanga! Zinapitilira choncho mpaka ndinali 14-15 ndipo pamapeto pake ndimapeza mwayi wabandaneti. "Oo, pali masamba ambiri okhudzana ndi zolaula pa intaneti."
Tsopano ndikaganiza za izi, sindinkasamala kwenikweni za atsikana azaka zanga nthawi imeneyo. Iwo samawoneka ngati "okhwima". Ndinkasokonekera ndi ena koma sindinkafuna kuchita.
Ndili ndi zaka 18, ndinagonana koyamba. Ndikuganiza kuti ndidayankhula ndi mtsikanayo mwina kwa mphindi 5. (Sindinadziwe dzina lake.) Atanena kuti "ali njira yonse", ndidathamangira ku 7-11 yapafupi kuti ndikatenge makondomu monga ndinali ndi The Reaper akundithamangitsa. Ndipo potsiriza anayenera kuchita chikalatacho. Pambuyo pake malingaliro anga anali, "Hmm ... sizinamveke mosiyana kwambiri ndi maliseche, ndipo zimafunikira gehena yantchito yambiri! Meeh ndimamatira ku zolaula, osadandaula ndi chibwenzi. ”
Ndinagonana ndi atsikana osiyanasiyana pambuyo pake, koma sindinagonepo ndi mtsikana yemweyo. Koma laibulale yanga yolaula inayamba kukula monga misala pamene ndinali 20. Izi zimandipangitsa kuti ndipereke lero.
Sikuti kungosiya zolaula kumangokhala ndi moyo wathanzi, komanso kumachepetsanso "mawonekedwe" anga azimayi ambiri. Ndakhala ndikulemekeza azimayi, koma ndimangowachita nawo chidwi ngati akuwoneka mwanjira inayake.
Ndakhalanso ndi "fetish", kuphatikizapo zolaula / zolaula. Sindikuganiza kuti ambiri mwa omwe amaonera izi ali ndi nkhani zogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, kuphatikizapo ine. Ndidapunthwa pa izo mwangozi, ndipo zimawoneka zosangalatsa chifukwa cha kugonana kumatako. Komabe ngati panali mnyamata yemwe ankachita nawo zinali zonyansa kwa ine. Koma ndikuvomereza kuti ndawonera makanema achisangalalo. Nditayamba kuchira, ndidatelera ndikuwonera zachiwerewere .. koma nthawi ino zinali zosiyana, ndidanyansidwa nazo ndipo ndidangoyang'ana chithunzi chodikirira cha mkazi wamaliseche osachita chilichonse. Chifukwa chake (kwa ine) ndikuganiza kuti zolaula zogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha zinali "zophunzirira", chifukwa sindinatope nawo makanema "wamba". Koma ngati mupitiliza kuonera, ndizachilengedwe kuti muzolowere.
tsiku 29
Ndangodutsa Tsiku 29, komanso "ndidazembera" panthawiyi. Koma m'malingaliro mwanga sindikuganiza kuti wabwerera ku Tsiku 0.
Masabata a 8 (masiku 8 opanda zolaula)
Chifukwa chake ... masabata asanu ndi atatu mukuchira, ndikukwera ndi kutsika (pun yomwe idafunidwa - mwina idagwiritsidwapo ntchito kamodzi miliyoni pano). Ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula, komabe ndimangolekerera tsiku limodzi sabata. Ndimamva ngati ndili mwana pa Khrisimasi nthawi iliyonse yomwe tsikuli lidabwera. Koma pa malingaliro abwino.
Masiku angapo apitawa ndidalimbikitsa kuyesa kugonana ndi bwenzi langa, ndipo tidapitilira. Zinagwira ntchito ndithu ... koma ndimafunikira kulimbikitsidwa nthawi zonse kuti ndikhale ndi erection… ndipo ndimayenera kugwiritsa ntchito malingaliro anga kuti ndikwanitse kubwera.
Koma madzulo a tsiku lomwelo, ndidayamba kudzimva kuti ndili mumtima ndipo tidayamba kugonana. Ndinali wovuta nthawi zonse, ndipo nditatha mphindi 4, ndinabwera molimbika, chifukwa chodzutsidwa ndi bwenzi langa. Palibe PMO zithunzi pamutu panga kapena chilichonse. Ndinayenera kudziletsa kuti ndisakuwa ... palibe nthabwala!
Kotero tsopano ndikutha kubwera kuchokera ku zongopeka zogonana ndikusangalala nazo… Zambiri! Komabe pali ena a ED omwe alipo. Kotero tsopano ndikudula PMO kwathunthu. Ndasankha mphatso yomwe ndingadzigulire ndekha ngati ndingathe kupita milungu isanu ndi itatu mulimonse, motero kugonana kokhazikika ndi foni yatsopano ndizolimbikitsa kwambiri pakali pano.
Sinthani: Nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti ndili ndi "kubangula" libido ndipo ndimafunikira kugonana 2-3 nthawi patsiku chifukwa cha chizolowezi cha PMO. Komabe ndidazindikira kuti kamodzi patsiku ndizokwanira kwa ine.
masabata 26
Ndine ED wopanda. Kugonana tsopano ndichisangalalo chenicheni. (Kupatula malo ena "otsogola")
Koma ndikumva kuti ndili ndi libido yotsika kwambiri. Zachidziwikire kuti ndimatha kugonana kawiri patsiku. Koma bwenzi langa ndiye amayamba kugonana 2% ya nthawiyo. Akayamba kundigwira, ndimamva magazi anga atatupa ndikufuna kuchita zogonana. Koma ngati timangocheza ndi ena ... sindimaganizira zogonana.
Ndimavutikabe pang'ono ndikuchedwa kutuluka. Nthawi zina zimapita pambuyo pa 4-5 min. Nthawi zina ndimayenera "kuzikakamiza" posinkhasinkha za akazi ena. (Amayi enieni omwe ali).
Ndipo chinthu china .. Ndachita maliseche dzulo…. palibe zolaula, zopeka pang'ono. Sindikukumbukira nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndidazichita (popanda zolaula). Damn… zinali zosasangalatsa, komanso zosayerekezereka ndi kugonana.
by Phobos
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