Monga tittle akuti ndachita, ndakwanitsa kukhala oyera masiku 90. Komabe ndiyenera kunena kuti m'masiku 90 ano ndakhala ndikugonana ndi gf wanga pafupipafupi.
Tsopano ndikufuna kugawana nanu malingaliro anga. Chasintha ndi chiyani chasintha? Aight ndiye, nazi:
1. KUSINTHA NDIPONSO ZABWINO ZABWINO - linali vuto lalikulu kwa ine. Kukula kwa zolaula kwandipangitsa kukhumudwa nthawi zonse. Sindinkafuna kupita kunja, kapena kulankhula ndi aliyense (makamaka ndi amuna). Ndakhala ndikumwa mankhwala opatsirana pogonana, kuyendera kuchepa ndi akatswiri azamisala. Kupititsa patsogolo kunali kwakanthawi kochepa, sikudalira kwenikweni.
Izi zasintha, kwambiri. Nditha kuyankhula ndi aliyense, zowona zomwe zimachitika, koma zimachitika pafupipafupi kuposa kale. Kusintha kwazinthu kumakhala kocheperako chifukwa kulibe reaso kuwonekera (popeza sindimasanthula kapena kuwunika chilichonse nthawi zonse). Ndimakhala "wosangalala" ndi moyo wanga.
2. ED NDI SEX DRIVE - ndizovuta kunena moona mtima. My ED yachiritsidwa, koma mbali inayo ndilibe zovuta zomwe ndimafuna kuti ndibwezere. Nthawi zambiri, ndikakhala pafupi ndi gf yanga, kaya ndikung'ung'udza, kupsompsona, kapena chiyani, ngakhale kutambasula manja - zimandipangitsa kuti ndikhale wolimba mtima ndipo ndimakonzekera mwachangu. Komabe, si mtundu wa erection womwe ndimakhala nawo HOCD isanayambe. Ndikutanthauza, ndinkakonda kupeza nthawi iliyonse ndikawona msungwana wotentha, kapena ndimangoganiza za nkhuku yotentha m'mutu mwanga. Tsopano ndiyenera kukhala pafupi ndi gf yanga kuti ndikonzekere, sindingathe kuyambitsa malingaliro (osafulumira ngati kale ndipo sindinayesere chifukwa chomwe sindinkafuna "kuwunika "Zinthu). Komabe, ndichinthu china, sichoncho?
3. ZOSAVUTA NDIPONSO ZABODZA - kwenikweni zolaula zanga zidandithandiza kuzindikira izi. Kwa nthawi yayitali ndakhala ndikusowa malingaliro ena. Ndizachidziwikire kuti sindingakonde aliyense, komanso kuti ndimadziwa tanthauzo la chikondi. Ndikudziwa momwe zimamvekera, koma ndikhulupirireni, pali kusiyana kwakukulu. Ndimakumbukira nthawi zomwe sindinathe kusokonezedwa ndi "chisamaliro". Monga kunalibe chomwe chingandichititse chidwi chenicheni. Ndikukumbukira pomwe agogo anga aakazi anali kudwaladi ndipo banja langa lonse linali ngati "Ndikukhulupirira akhala bwino" kapena "Sindikudziwa zomwe ndichite popanda iye" pomwe ndimakhala ngati "sindiku… sindikumva … Chilichonse ”kapena" Bwanji sizimandikwiyitsa nkomwe? ". Tsopano ndikhoza kungomva bwino. Ndikudziwa nthawi yomwe ndimakonda komanso ndikudziwa kuti ndimasamala. Komanso ndimasamalira komanso kukonda gf yanga komanso banja langa mwamphamvu kwambiri. Zokwanira za izi zamphwayi, tiyeni tipite patsogolo 
4. KULIMA KWAULERE - Ndine wotsimikiza kwambiri za ine ndekha kuposa kale. "Palibenso mr Nice guy" hah. Zachisoni izi zidandipangitsa kuti ndikangane ndi anthu ena ndikumaliza anzanga ena.
5. KUSINTHA MISONKHANO - ndiye gawo lovuta kwambiri. Ngakhale ndinasiya kuonera zolaula zosiyanasiyana kuti nditsimikizire, nthawi zina zimakhala zovuta kuti ndisayang'ane zinthu m'malingaliro mwanu. Ndimayesetsa momwe ndingathere ndikuwona kusintha. Komabe ndikudziwa kuti masiku 90 awa sali okwanira kuti ndichiritsidwe kwathunthu. Heck, yemwe akudziwa ngati ndidzachiritsidwadi. Ponena za tsopano, sizoyipa.
Ndifunseni mafunso ngati mukufuna ndipo ndiyesetsa kuwayankha posachedwa. Zabwino zonse anyamata!
LINK - Malingaliro anga atatha masiku a 90 opanda PMO. HOCD, ED ndi kukhumudwa.
By syndaren
December 19, 2013
Cholemba choyambirira (ndi cholemba) - Tsopano ndi ayi.
February 02, 2013,
Ndakhala ndikuwerenga tsambali kwakanthawi, ndipo ndikufuna kugawana nanu nkhani anyamata. Ndili ndi zaka 22 ndipo ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi OCD kuyambira marichi 2012.
Zonsezi zinayamba pomwe msungwana yemwe ndimamufuna kwambiri, adanditaya. Kunena zowona, adathawa pabedi panga pomwe tidali pafupi kugonana, (popanda mawu ofotokozera). Ndinavutika maganizo komanso kuganizira kwambiri za iye. Kupitilira kumutumizira uthenga, ndikumufunsa kuti andiuze chomwe chalakwika, ndalakwitsa chiyani? Kodi adzandipezanso chibwenzi mobwerezabwereza. Anandinyenga kwa miyezi, pomaliza ndikundiuza kuti sizingagwire ntchito.
Ndinayamba kuonera zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche mokakamiza. Ndinkakonda kuthera maola ambiri pazinthu zamtundu uliwonse zomwe ndimapeza. Koma pang'onopang'ono, tsiku ndi tsiku, zidayamba kukhala zotopetsa. Ndidayamba kucheza ndi makanema pazakugonana. Zinanditembenuza kwanthawi yayitali koma ndinatopa nazo patapita kanthawi. Ndinkadana kwambiri ndi akazi nthawi imeneyo, anali amuna okhaokha kwa ine, sankafuna kukhala ndi malingaliro akuya kwa iwo.
Kenako, mwadzidzidzi tsiku lina, ndili pa intaneti pa omegle amuna ena ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha adayamba kundinena zoyipa. Zinkawoneka zolakwika koma ngati zosiyana, kotero ndimakhala ngati "heck, tiwone momwe zimakhalira, ndimacheza wamba". Ndipo eya, sikunali kungocheza mwachisawawa, osatinso kwa ine. Ndinayamba kudziimba mlandu, ndimangoganizira za "ndichifukwa chiyani ndachita izi? Kodi ndimafuna? Mwina adandisiya chifukwa zinthu zina sizinandiyendere bwino ”.
Zinakhala choncho kwa miyezi yambiri kapena zochepa 3-4. Zovuta za mantha, ED ndi zina. Nthawi ina pomwe amayi anga adandiona nditagona pabedi langa ndikuyang'ana padenga. Adandifunsa molakwika, ndipo ndidayamba kuchita mantha. Kumverera ngati zoyipa.
Ndinayamba kuyendera dokotala wazamisala komanso wamisala. Zinathandiza pang'ono. Matendawa adandithandizira kumvetsetsa zinthu zomwe HOCD ndizovuta kwambiri. Pakadali pano ndidakumana ndi bwenzi langa pano lomwe ndimamukonda.
Nthawi zina ndimakhala ndi mantha, koma zimakhala zosavuta ngati mukudziwa kuti wina amakukondani komanso amakukondani. Ndikufuna kuyamba moyo watsopano. Dzulo inali nthawi yomaliza pamene PMO'd. Pepani chifukwa chachingerezi changa cholemala, sindine wokamba wamba. Ndikufunireni mwayi.
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