Ndaphonya masiku anga 90 Opambana, ndiye nali tsiku la 100! Sindikokera izi. Awa anali malo anga pomwe ndidayamba ulendowu: kuwonongeka kwa PMO. Izi ndi zomwe zidachitika kuyambira pamenepo:
- Ndinapezanso mwayi wogonana (mwachitsanzo, dzukani popanda kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kapena / kapena dzanja langa)
- Ndinayambiranso kusangalala kugonana ndi kwenikweni akazi
- Ndakhala ndikugonana kawiri ndi akazi enieni, onse azaka zoyambirira za makumi atatu (Ndine 23), ndipo ndidagonana bwino kwambiri ndi m'modzi wa iwo.
- Ndamera ndevu. Kawiri.
- Ndili ndi mphamvu, malingaliro komanso testosterone-drive kuti ndichite zambiri: kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kumaliza buku lanthano lomwe ndimalemba, kuthandizira abambo anga ntchito zomanga panyumba pake, ndi zina zambiri.
- Ndapeza ntchito m'gawo (ndi dziko!) Zomwe zimandisangalatsa.
- Ndapanga bwenzi labwino kwambiri, chifukwa chodzidalira.
- Chofunika koposa zonse, ndimamva kukhala wokhwima, wokhoza komanso wodziyang'anira ndekha. Ndikuphunzira kuthana ndi zolimbikitsa zina (kumwa, makamaka) kutengera kupambana ndi nofap. Ndikumva Galamukani.
* Ayi, sanali pachibale chozama, chamalingaliro, chosintha moyo. Koma anali kukwaniritsa mwa njira yawoyake, ngakhale ndi kwakanthawi. Ndipo ndizosangalatsa kwambiri.
Sizimathera apa. Cholinga chake sichikusowa moyo wanga wonse. Poganizira za zinthu zomwe zimandifotokozera, ndikufuna kupita pa siteji (makamaka ngati chithunzi chachikulu / r / zolaula) komwe ndinganene Sindikutha, monga Sindisuta or Ndilibe mitu iwiri. Ndi gawo lofunikira chabe kwa ine, palibe vuto lalikulu, palibe kulimbana kwakukulu. Zomwe ndimachita (kapena kupitilira apo, simutero). Pakhoza kukhala kuti mudzabwereranso (munthu, pambuyo pa zonse), koma wina ayenera kutsata.
Khalani olimba, abale ndi alongo. Msewuwo ndi wautali, koma zabwino zake zimakhala zambiri.
KULUMIKIZANA - Masiku a 100 a NoFap
by charliesaver
PEZANI
Chodzikanira: zotsatirazi sizoyambitsa zotsutsana ndi zolaula (ngakhale kuti zolaula ndizovuta kuchita), koma kuwunika momwe zolaula zimakhudzira lingaliro la munthu pazogonana, zogonana, komanso zokopa. Popeza ndizomvera kwambiri, sizasayansi konse - ngakhale ndikhulupilira kuti zitsimikizira zomwe anthu wamba azikhalidwe zaku Western omwe amagwiritsa ntchito zolaula.
Ndinayamba kuyang'ana zolaula ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi khumi, zomwe masiku ano zingakhale zovuta - mwina ndikadaziwonera kale ngati ndinali mwana mdziko lamasiku ano. M'malo mwake, kubwerera m'mbuyo, njira yanga yonse yopezera inali pafupifupi twee poyerekeza ndi zomwe zidachitika masiku ano. Ndinali pasukulu yanyamata yokwanira anyamata kumwera kwa England, ndipo malingaliro amakhazikitsidwe pazogonana anali okana kukhalako. Popeza kutukuka kwakukula kwa anyamata azaka zakubadwa ndi zokulirapo, kukana kumeneku kumalire ndi nthabwala. Komabe, sukuluyo imangokhala ngati wothandizirana ndi gulu lokhala ndi zikhulupiriro ndi malingaliro omwewo: zokambirana zomveka, zokhudzana ndi kugonana ndizabodza, komanso kuti kugonana kwa ana kuyenera kukanidwa kwathunthu. Chifukwa chake, m'malo mophunzitsidwa za momwe timamvera komanso zolimbikitsa zomwe tikukumana nazo - komanso malo awo otchuka, malo abwino muzochitika zaumunthu - tidasiyidwa ndi zida zathu zokha, kuti tidzifufuze mwachinsinsi, mothandizidwa ndi Wild West wakufa intaneti yoyambirira ya 2000s.
Mphekesera zamasamba zimafalikira, masamba omwe angakupangitseni kumva bwino, masamba omwe ali ndi zithunzi za azimayi amaliseche omwe ali ndi ziphuphu zazikulu. Panali imodzi makamaka - Bikini69, ndikuganiza idatchedwa, tsopano yopanda ntchito - yomwe inali yotchuka kwambiri. Chifukwa chake masana ena, pomwe aliyense ankasewera masewera ndipo ndimadwala, ndidalowa mchipinda cha IT, ndikuwotcha Internet Explorer, ndikuyamba ulendo wanga wolaula.
Zithunzi za Bikini69 zinali zoyipa pamiyeso iliyonse: makamaka inali ndi zithunzi za mtundu umodzi m'magulu osiyanasiyana ovula, makamaka atatuluka. Komabe, zonsezi zinali zatsopano kwa ine, ndipo ndinapeza zithunzizo zikudzutsa kwambiri: adakhudzidwa ndikulimbikitsidwa ndikumverera komwe ndimakhala ndikukumana nako, komwe sindinavomereze. Zachidziwikire kuti ndimadziwa kuti anali malingaliro azakugonana - izi ndizodziwikiratu, ndipo sindinali wopusa - koma zinali pafupifupi zonse zomwe ndimadziwa. Komanso, kudziwa za makina oyambira kukonzanso ndi kubereka sizinandithandizire kumvetsetsa izi.
Pofika zaka khumi ndi ziwiri, zolaula zanga zinali zitakula. Tsopano ndinali ndi chithunzi cha azimayi omwe ali ndi mawere okokomeza kwambiri - ndipo sindikutanthauza "ziphuphu zazikulu" zokha, koma zipolopolo zomwe zinali ngati udder. Poyang'ana m'mbuyo, ambiri ayenera kuti anali ma photoshops, kapena zithunzi za azimayi omwe ali ndi vuto la gigantomastia, ngakhale ochepa anali amitundu omwe adapita kutali modabwitsa kuti amadzala mabere amadzimadzi, ndikudzisandutsa zomwe, makamaka, Western malingaliro olakwika a khumi ndi awiri a zomwe zili "zosangalatsa" (mwachitsanzo, zomwe auzidwa kuti ndi 'achigololo').
Zinali pafupifupi nthawi imeneyi kuti ndayamba kuseweretsa maliseche. Koma zomwe zikadakhala kuti zikuwonetsa kuvuta kwa zikhumbo zanga zatsopano zidakhala zoyipa - ndikadumpha masewera (popanga zifukwa zopanda pake), ndikumagundidwa mkalasi yopanda kanthu ndi PC, ndikuchita maliseche pazithunzi izi zophatikizika kwambiri zachikazi. Apa ndipomwe zidayambira: kulumikizana kwanga kwachiwerewere ndi zopanda pake. Zomwe ndimachita, zomwe zimawoneka zowongoka nthawiyo, zinali kuyika maziko a zomwe zikubwera.
Ndidasintha sukulu ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi zitatu, kumaliza maphunziro ku sukulu yayikulu ya anyamata onse. Apa, malingaliro a kukhazikitsidwa (koma osati kwa aphunzitsi) okhudzana ndi kugonana kwa ana nawonso amakana. Kukana kumeneku kunatanthauza kuti kufufuza kwathu zakugonana kunakhudzidwa kwambiri ndi zinthu zitatu zokha: anzathu, anyamata achikulire, komanso malingaliro athu olakwika.
Zinayamba milungu ingapo kuyambira nthawi yoyambira, pomwe anzanga ndi ine tinali tikupezabe mapazi athu m'malo athu atsopanowa: azaka khumi ndi zitatu amanjenje akuyesera kukondana wina ndi mnzake komanso anyamata achikulire. Usiku wina tisanapite kukagona, mnyamatayo mchaka chapitacho adayenda mozungulira holo yomwe tinkachita homuweki, nati apita kukaonera zolaula mdzenje lake, ndikulandilidwa kuti agwirizane naye.
Mphindi zisanu pambuyo pake, pafupifupi khumi ndi awiri a ife tidagundidwa pamalo opanikizika, ogwirira ntchito, magetsi ndikuzimitsa. Apanso, kanemayo anali wowoneka bwino, wolongosoka. Zinthu zolaula zolaula, palibe chilichonse chosangalatsa kapena chowonjezera.
Koma kunali kovuta.
Pokhala sukulu yogonera komweko, chidziwitso chidazungulira mwachangu. Posakhalitsa ine ndi enawo tidathamangira ma proxies, ma tunnel a VPN ndi njira zina zopewera zosefera pasukuluyi osadziwika, komanso kugawana mafayilo, kusefukira kwa P2P ndikufunika kokhala ndi hard drive yanu. Zithunzi zolaula zonse zidatsegulidwa kwa ife munthawi yochepa, yonse yomwe imafikirika kuposa momwe inali kusukulu yanga yakale. Apa, inali chikhalidwe. Aliyense anali kuziwona. Mwana m'modzi adakhala ndi zida zapamwamba za 100, zomwe 2004 sizinali zopanda pake (ndi 2009 anali nayo pamwamba pa terabyte, kuphatikizapo zinthu zomwe mwina zikadakhala kuti zikadakhala m'ndende ngati zitapezeka).
Zomwe zinali zolaula - zochuluka zake zidapangitsa atsikana anga okonda mopitirira muyeso kuwoneka osalakwa. Zinali mozungulira nthawi iyi pamene ndinazindikira mawu ndi malingaliro monga tit fucking, facials, anal mikanda, BDSM, nkhope fucking, bukkake ndi manyazi.
Ndipo ndinasilira zonsezo.
Pambuyo pake, patatha miyezi yochepa, ndidapeza kanema wansangala wokhudza mayi woyembekezera kwambiri (mwakuya oyembekezera mwina amamufotokozera zabwinoko) - ndipo ndidaziwona kuti ndizabwino. Pambuyo pake ndinayamba kukhala ndi chizolowezi: Ndimayang'ana zolaula ndikuchita maliseche kamodzi patsiku: kawiri, nthawi zina katatu kapena kanayi. Ndimawonera zolaula zambiri zapakati, zosakanikirana ndi kugwiranagwirana, kumenyera nkhope, bukkake, ndi makanema otchedwa 'BBW'. Ndinali khumi ndi zitatu.
Izi, ndizosiyana chimodzi kapena ziwiri, zimayenera kukhala zolemba zanga zolaula zaka zikubwerazi. Ndikukula zaka zanga zaunyamata, ndimayang'ana makanema ochulukirachulukira, nthawi zambiri ndimakhala wochulukirapo komanso wopanda tanthauzo m'chilengedwe, kuthera maola ambiri ndikuwonetsa zotsatira zosaka ndi masamba a 'tube', ndikufunafuna kanema wotsatira womwe 'umakhala' inu. Ngakhale ndidaphunzira zamakhalidwe osokoneza bongo mu Biology, sindinawone zizindikilozo mwa ine. Sindinawone momwe kubwerezabwereza kosatha kwa Zolaula- Maliseche-Orgasm kumakhudza kugonana kwanga komanso malingaliro anga.
Kodi machitidwe a PMO awa atalikiratu bwanji kuchokera ku kugonana kwenikweni? Tiyeni tiwone momwe zolaula zimasiyanirana. Kawirikawiri zolaula zimayendetsa izi: Mtsikana ali yekha m'nyumba, mnyamata amabwera, amamuyamwa pang'ono (mwina amamugwedeza), amagonana mosagonana m'malo osiyanasiyana (kusunga matupi awo patali momwe angathere, kuti wowonera azitha kuwona kulowa), kenako nkubwera nkhope yake. Ndichoncho.
Zina zolaula zolaula zimasiyana kwambiri. Makanema ambiri ali ndi gawo limodzi la thupi la mkaziyo monga malo awo owongoka - bulu wake, mabere, mafuta, kapena mimba (ngati zolaula) - amazitenga, kusewera zokondweretsa amuna. Mabere amakhala ndi maliseche pakati pawo, ndipo pamapeto pake amabwera. Abulu amafufuzidwa ndikutambasulidwa ndi zinthu zakugonana (kapena maliseche okha), ndipo pamapeto pake amabweranso. Pakamwa ndi cholowa mmalo mwa nyini, ndipo nthawi zambiri amatenga utsi wonse, kapena amatengeka pafupifupi. Nkhope, zotseguka m'mimba ndi mimba zimatsalira zitaphimbidwa.
Nthawi zina thupi la mkazi lenilenilo limakhala nthawi yayitali - komanso, m'malo mochita zogonana, zosangalatsa zamwamuna zimasewera on izo. Tengani bukkake - mawonekedwe owoneka bwino a zolaula - pomwe gulu la amuna limasinthana ndi akazi, kenako aliyense amabweranso. Palibe kulowerera. Palibe kuyanjana. Amangokhala amaliseche pa akazi achikazi, ndi lingaliro or kucheza ndi kugonana ndi kugonana zimayimira, kenako nkubwera. Wowonera izi mosakaikira zowonjezera: mochotsedwa kawiri kuchokera pakugonana.
Komabe mwina owonera zolaula onse ndiopambana kawiri konse, chifukwa monga tawonera, zolaula sizoyimira kugonana. Zolaula, mwanjira ina, ndi chiwonetsero cha kugonana, chinyengo cha kupanga chikondi, ndipo izi ndi zomwe owonera amadziseweretsa maliseche, osati machitidwe wamba ogonana.
Ndipo pali mbali yokhudza kuseweretsa maliseche ya PMO. Pokha palokha, kuseweretsa maliseche sikoyipa - koma kuphatikiza ndi zolaula, kumapereka mphotho yosangalatsa yochokera pakukopa kwonyenga: njira yomwe imatha kukhala chizolowezi, osatchulanso zomwe zimawononga kugonana kwenikweni (monga, zomwe zimachitika mogwirizana ndi munthu wina).
Ndinadzionera ndekha izi. Tisanalowe m'nkhani yanga, tiyeni tione njira zina zomwe zolaula zimakhudzira kugonana ndi munthu wina.
Choyamba, kupeza chisangalalo kuchokera ku zovuta za (zabodza) kungatanthauze kuti, pakapita kanthawi, mutha kutha okha amapeza chisangalalo kudzera munjira izi. Mwachidule, ngati mumakonda kwambiri zolaula, imatha kukhala njira yokhayo yomwe mungadzukitsire, kuyimitsa, kapena kubwera konse. Kutaya kuthekera kwakudzuka kwenikweni, kukhudzana ndi thupi lenileni laumunthu ndiimodzi mwamavuto akulu kwambiri omwe munthu akhoza kukumana nawo, mwa lingaliro langa - ndipo monga tionere, ndidakumana ndi tsoka lopita pamseuwo.
Mavutowa samangokhala kwa inu nokha. Flipside yakusowa chidwi pakugonana kwenikweni ndikuti moyo wogonana wa mnzanu wawonongeka (ngati muli nawo, ndiye). Pamlingo wochepa kwambiri, PMO atha kukupangitsani kuti nanunso muziyang'ana pa zosangalatsa zanu zokha, kuyang'ana kwambiri kusewera zinthu zosangalatsa kwa mnzanu m'malo mochita zogonana. Kugonana koyenera ndikugawana, kudya, osati kudzisangalatsa ndi thupi la munthu wina.
Mbali inayi ndikuti mutha kumaliza kufunsa zinthu kuchokera kwa anzanu zomwe, kwa iwo, ndizosangalatsa mokayikitsa komanso zoyipa kwambiri komanso zosasangalatsa (kutengera zokonda zanu, kumene - pomwe anthu ena amasangalala kukhala ndi mbolo kukhosi kwawo molimba ndipo nkhope zawo zidawombedwa, ambiri satero). Osanenapo za kudzidalira komwe anthu ena adzakumana nako, akadzazindikira kuti okondedwa wawo sangadzutse ndi iwo okha, ndipo m'malo mwake amafuna kuti makanema azakugonana akwaniritsidwe.
Ndipo pali zovuta zopitilira muyeso, zamafilosofi ndi kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula, zomwe zimasiyana munthu ndi mnzake, koma kwenikweni zimabweranso mpaka izi: Kodi kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kumawonetsera bwanji vuto lakunja? Kodi ndichizolowezi chogwiritsa ntchito njira / zotsatira za malingaliro / mavuto okhudzana ndi amuna / akazi ndi mavuto osiyana ndi amuna kapena akazi kapena njira ina iliyonse yovuta kufotokozera, komabe yosawoneka bwino kapena yovuta? Ndipo chifukwa chake, ndi choncho m'maganizo osavomerezeka kuti anthu ena azichita nawo PMO pafupipafupi? M'dera lathu, lomwe limachiritsa zovuta zamaganizidwe ndikuwatcha kuti "zoyambitsa zachilengedwe" komanso "kusamvana kwamankhwala" ndikukana chilichonse chikhalidwe or chikhalidwe zoyambitsa, kuwunika kwa nkhaniyi sikungakhale kukubwera.
Chifukwa chake, nthawi yolongosola mavutowa ndi chitsanzo. Pofika zaka khumi ndi zisanu, ndidayamba chibwenzi ndi mtsikana wotchedwa Clara. Pakadali pano ndakhala ndikuyang'ana zolaula kwazaka zisanu, komanso PMOing kwa atatu. Chinthu choyamba chimene chinandigunda chinali kusiyana kwenikweni kwa kugonana ndi munthu wina - kunali kununkhiza, madzi, zozizwitsa, zozizwitsa zatsopano - mwachidule, miyeso yambiri yogonana kwenikweni poyerekeza ndi zolaula.
Komabe ndinali wokwiya. Ndinakwiya ndi Clara chifukwa chosayamwa tambala wanga, komanso osandilola kuti ndimukankhire pakhosi pake. Osandilola kuti ndimufikire. Ndidamufunsa mobwerezabwereza, ndipo nthawi iliyonse amawoneka opweteka, ndipo amakana.
Potsirizira pake kukwiya kumeneku kunasandulika mkwiyo. Nthawi zina ndimatha kutaya erection, kapena ndimalephera kuyisunga. Tidagonana, koma zitha kukhala zolaula zomwe zingandipangitse chisangalalo chachikulu: ndi zolaula, sindingakhale ndi vuto ndikumangika kwanga. Ndi zolaula, ndimatha kuchita chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna kwa mkazi - mosadukiza, inde. Zinafika poti ndimayembekezera zolaula zanga kuposa momwe ndimagonera ndi Clara - chifukwa samandilola kuchita zofuna zanga pa iye, ndipo nthawi zambiri kuposa momwe ndimakhalira wofewa, kapena ngakhale wopanda chidwi.
Tsiku lina adapeza zolaula pa laputopu yanga. Anakhumudwa kwambiri. Nthawi zonse amakhala osatetezeka chifukwa cha kulemera kwake komanso mawonekedwe ake (monga momwe amaphunzitsira azimayi achichepere pachikhalidwe chathu) ndipo izi zimawabweretsa onse pamwamba. Pamwamba pa izi, adakwiya kwambiri ndikuti sanali okwanira kundikwaniritsa, kapena kundidzutsa. Ankaona ngati ndamupandukira.
Sindinamvepo ngati wopanda pake m'moyo wanga. Koma ndinatani? Ndinapitiliza kuonera zolaula. Chizolowezi ichi cha PMO pokhala chisangalalo changa chachikulu - kwambiri kuposa kugonana komweko - adakhala nane muubwenzi wanga wotsatira. Nthawi ino, zinthu zinafika poipa. Poyambirira, ndinali ndi gehena imodzi yovuta kupeza erection. Miyezi ingapo idadutsa ndisanachite zogonana moyenera - ndipo ndi mulungu, sizinali zolakwika ndi bwenzi langa. Izi zidamupweteka kwambiri, koma ndikuthokoza ndikulemekeza kosatha, adandipirira. Ngakhale ndimatha kuzimva, kugonana kwathu sikunali kodabwitsa. Ndimamupempha kuti achite zinthu - ndipo pomwe adandilora kamodzi kuti ndimufikire, sanali wokonda nkhope zoyipa zomwe ndimafuna kumupatsa, motero mkwiyo udayambiranso.
Ndipo gehena, ndinali khumi ndi zisanu ndi zinayi. Ndikadakhala kuti ndimachita chilichonse pofika pano. Ndidali ndi ngongole zambiri kuposa zomwe ndidamupatsa. Ndikadakhala bwino kwa iye. Amayenera kukhala bwino. Chomwechonso Clara.
Pambuyo pake tinathetsa banja. Ndinabwereranso kuzungulira kwa PMO, ndikuwawonabe zithunzi zosatha za kugonana.
Moyo unandimenya kumaso tsiku lina ndili ndi zaka makumi awiri ndi ziwiri. Ndinali ndikuchezera usiku ndi okwatirana, m'modzi mwa iwo anali ndi mnzake wakale waku States kuti adzacheze. Anali msungwana wokongola waku America, stunner weniweni. Usiku utapitirira, mikangano yamanyazi idayamba, mpaka tidamaliza kupsompsona, kenako ndikupereka zifukwa kwa ena.
Tafika ku hostel yomwe iye amakhala, ndipo tidaganiza zofunikira kusamba. Amakhala wokonda chilichonse, ndipo ine ndimamufunadi (gawo la ine adatero, mulimonse). Koma panali zina zomwe sizinali bwino.
Kwa moyo wanga, sindinathe kuzimva.
Komanso, ndinamva adaopsezedwa ndimkhalidwe. Msungwana wamaliseche uyu, madzi otentha akuyenderera thupi lake lokongola, sinali galimoto yokhayo yolakalaka zokhumba zanga. Anali munthu, yemwe samafuna chisangalalo chokhudzana ndi maliseche. Amafuna chisangalalo, kuchokera pakugonana kwa matupi athu awiri.
Ndipo ine mwamisala komanso mwathupi sindinathe kuwapatsa iye.
Pamene ndimayenda ndikubwerera kunyumba, ndili wokwiya komanso wokwiya inemwini tsopano, zonse zinawonekera. Ndakhala ndikudziyesa ndekha kuti sindingathe kugonana kwenikweni. Ndinali wachichepere, wamwamuna wamagazi ofiyira - koma sindinakhale ndi mkazi weniweni. Zaka zoposa khumi ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula zidandichititsa. Zidasokoneza libido yanga, lingaliro langa loti 'achigololo' anali chiyani, ngakhale kugonana komweko kudali kotani.
Usiku umenewo, ndinalumbira kuti sindidzaonanso zolaula.
Ndidapita pa intaneti, kuti ndikawone ngati ena akumanapo ndi zoterezi. Iwo anali. ambiri anthu anali. Zonsezi zinali, kusewera mobwerezabwereza: abwenzi omwe amadana nawo, njira zopezera zabwino zomwe pamapeto pake zidathetsa kugonana kwenikweni, kulephera kwathunthu kuzimva, kugonana konse. Panali magulu othandizira pa intaneti, anyamata ndi atsikana omwe amapatsana malangizo othandizira kuthana ndi chizolowezi, pobwezeretsa miyoyo yathu yogonana. Anyamata ena, onga ine, omwe anali olimba kwambiri pakuwonera zolaula koma samatha kuzimilira panthawi yogonana kwenikweni, adalimbikitsa kupewa kuseweretsa maliseche komanso zolaula, kapena kuchepetsa momwe mumazipangira kangapo. Panthawi yolemba, panali patadutsa chaka kuchokera pomwe ndasintha zonse, ndipo ndili m'njira yoti ndiyambirenso zachiwerewere - Nditha kudzutsidwa ndi azimayi enieni, ndipo ndimagonana nawo bwino, osagwirizana Kusunga chakukhosi kapena kuwona kufunika kochita zolaula kumawasunthira. Kukukhala bwino.
Ndizoseketsa, ndikamati "kukonzanso", monga "kutenganso zogonana" - sizomwe zili choncho ayi. Sindinakhalepo ndi kugonana koyenera, koyenera kuti ndibwezereni poyamba; mpaka chaka chapitacho, zolaula ndizomwe ndimakonda kwambiri pa zachiwerewere, njira zanga zopezera chisangalalo, monga momwe ziliri ndi anyamata ndi atsikana ambiri (ngakhale makamaka amuna) omwe amakhala kumayiko akumadzulo, makamaka m'malo othamanga kwambiri intaneti.
Mwanjira ina, ndikupeza kugonana kwanga koyamba.
Ndipo ndi ulendo wokongola bwanji.
Nov., 2016
Zaka ziwiri zapitazo ndinkakwera ndege. Ndinagonjetsa zolaula zanga ndipo ndinali ndi zodabwitsa. Pomaliza ndinali munthu wabwinobwino, ndikusangalala ndi chibwenzi monga chilengedwe chimafunira. Sipadzakhalanso PIED, sipadzakhalanso nkhawa, sindidzakhalanso wopanda pake. Sipadzakhalanso manyazi pomwe sindinathe kuyimitsa. Zonsezi zinali m'mbuyomu. Atapita.
Ndinasamukira ku dziko lina ndipo ndinakumana ndi mkazi wodabwitsa. Kulumikizana kwathu kunali kopambana: zabwino zomwe ndidakumana nazo. Kukwaniritsa modabwitsa, kuphatikiza pamlingo wauzimu. Ndinali Homo sapiens, kuchita zochitika za kupembedza komwe moyo wonse (kapena moyo wambiri, osachepera) umadya. Zithunzi zolaula zikuwoneka bwanji! Ndimalingaliro ang'onoang'ono ndi olemekezeka, bwanji zochepa, zosaganizira ndi zabodza!
Mpaka tsiku lina ndinayang'ana mavidiyo azimayi okhala ndi zazikulu zamtundu wa butts. Zili bwino, Ndinadziuza ndekha. Iwo abvala! Izi si zolaula kwenikweni. Mulimonsemo, zinali choncho zosiyana kuchokera ku zokonda zanga zakale, sizingakhudze ubongo wanga m'njira zoyipa zomwezo. Dziko lomwe ndimakhala tsopano (kontinentiyo yonse) ili ndimalingaliro osiyana kwambiri pazosangalatsa poyerekeza ndi Kumadzulo, ndipo ndapeza (mwina mwa kukongoletsa, kapena chifukwa ndizomwe ndapeza zokongola ndipo ndimangodziwa) kuti ndichinthu changa. Zowona zinali zosiyana (kapena kotero ine ndinaganiza) zinapangitsa izo kukhala zabwino, mu malingaliro anga.
Kotero ine ndinapitiriza ubale wanga, koma ndinayamba kuyang'ana mavidiyo awa nawonso. Pasanapite nthawi ndinabwerera kumbuyo kwa PMO. Izi si zolaula! Ndimadziuza ndekha, pamene ndimasuta ndikukhala ndi ola limodzi ndikuwonera makanema apa intaneti.
Miyezi inayamba kupita. Sindinawone nkhuni zamitengo. Ndizosiyana! Ndinkangobwereza ndekha, ngakhale nditayamba kuwonera makanema momwe zamaliseche zimakhudzidwira, ndiyeno makanema omwe angawerengedwe ngati zolaula ngakhale ndi tanthauzo lodziletsa kwambiri.
Nkhani yayitali yaitali, ine ndi chibwenzi changa tinapuma. Ubale wathu unali wovuta kwa miyezi yowerengeka, ndipo mosakayikira chizoloŵezi changa chophatikiza zithunzi zolaula chinali ndi chochita ndi icho. Tonse tinasankha kutenga nthawi kuti tidzakhale chinthu chabwino kwambiri.
Dzulo, ndinakumana ndi wina wamkulu paulendo wa ntchito, ndipo chinthu chimodzi chinatsogoleredwa. Inu mukhoza kulingalira zomwe zinachitika. Zaka zonsezi zinali zopanda phindu. Ndinali wachinyamata yemwe anali wodandaula, yemwe anali ndi chiwindi, wodetsedwa, nthawi zochepa misozi. Anakhala pamenepo pakati pa miyendo yanga, wamphongo ndi wakufa, pamene ine ndinkayesera kukonzekera izo mwa kumuchitira zinthu zina. Kuzungulira kozolowereka kwa malingaliro kunabweranso. Nkhawa, manyazi, ukali; ndemanga yowonjezera yomwe inangopangitsa chirichonse kukhala choipa kwambiri.
Sindinamvepo wopanda pake m'moyo wanga.
Pafupifupi theka la chaka ndakwanitsa kusintha zonse zomwe ndimagwira molimbika. Ndabwerera pansi pa phiri, ndikuyang'ana pamwambowu, monga m'masiku akale oyipa. Ubale wanga, chidaliro changa, kudzidalira kwanga - zonse zidatayidwa. Chifukwa chake musapange kulakwitsa kwanga. Musatengeke ndi lingaliro labodza la chitetezo! Zizolowezi zathu ndizobisalira, ndipo amachita chilichonse chomwe angathe kuti abwererenso m'maganizo mwathu.
Nthawi yomweyo, ndi Tsiku langa loyamba 1.
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