Zaka 23 - Zogwiritsidwa ntchito zolaula, nkhawa zamagulu

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NDI - Champion

June 16, 2012

Moni nonse, ndine Ngwazi.

Ndine ngwazi. Monga inu, aliyense pa bolodi iyi ndi kwina kulikonse. Kodi mumazindikira kuti ndinu chimaliziro cha mwazi wamazana ndi mazana a anthu omwe adagonjetsa nkhondo, njala, matenda, nkhondo, kuponderezana ndi masoka. Tengani kamphindi kuti muzindikire izi. Nthawi zambiri makolo athu akale adayimilira pabwalo lankhondo ndipo amatuluka opambana, mobwerezabwereza. Akadapanda kutero, sibwenzi tili pano. Okhazikika komanso anzeru zokhazokha ndi omwe adzapulumuke, adzakhala ndi ana ndipo ndi okhawo omwe ali olimba kwambiri komanso anzeru kwambiri omwe adzapulumuke ndi zina zotero… Ndipo tsopano we ali pano!

Ife tiri ndi magazi a akatswiri akuthamanga kupyola mu mitsempha yathu! Titha kuchita chirichonse!

Adani a anthu asintha. Ambiri aife sitikutsutsidwa pankhondo kapena njala. Masiku ano adani ndi achinyengo kwambiri. Ndipo imodzi mwazo ndizokonda zolaula. Koma ndikukhulupirira kuti, monga zovuta zonse m'mbuyomu, tithana nazo izi.

Nkhondo yanga inayamba pamene ine ndiyenera kuti ndinali zaka 12 kapena apo. Monga wina aliyense ndinapeza zithunzi zonyansa. Kwa anthu ambiri izi zikanakhala zopanda phindu koma ndikukumbukira ndikumenya nthawi 5 patsiku, ngakhale m'masiku anga oyambirira a zolaula. Vuto lenileni linayambika pamene ndili ndi kompyuta yanu pakhomo langa ndikumasula dzina langa lachinsinsi pa tsamba lolaula ndili ndi zaka 16-17. Ndinapindula mokwanira. Komabe, vuto langa linali lotheka. Kuyesa nthawi ya mtengo ndipo panali mavidiyo ambiri okondweretsa. Koma zinthu zinaipiraipira pamene ndinapeza malo osindikizira omasuka.

Ndili ndi zaka 20 ndidakhala ndekha. Zaka zapitazo ndisanakhale ndi zolaula. Chilakolako changa choyamba, chomwe ndikukumbukira, chinali cha kumatako. Ndiye mwina ndinali ndi ena angapo. Nthawi ina ndinayamba kukwera nkhope, zomwe zidapitilira kulamulidwa ndi akazi ndipo zidayamba kukhala zolaula. China chake chomwe ndidapunthwa zaka zingapo m'mbuyomu ndikundisangalatsa munjira ina yopotoka komabe ndimanyansidwa. Kunyansidwa ndi manyazi zinali zazikulu kuposa chisangalalo panthawiyo. Tsopano ndizo zonse zomwe ndimayang'ana.

Izi zimapangitsa kuti ndikhale ndi nkhawa zambiri, ndikudzimva ngati chonyansa. Zimathandizanso kuti ndisakhale wosatetezeka pokhudzana ndi kugonana kwanga, ndinayamba kudzifunsa ngati ndikugonana. Ndinali wosasangalala kwambiri.

[CHENJEZO: Gawo lotsatila likhoza kukhala ndi ZOKHUDZA)

Koma nkhaniyi siyiyimira pamenepo. Madzulo ena ndidadutsa chigawo cha magetsi ofiira ndikamachoka kunyumba yabwenzi. Kungoyang'ana. Koma mukuganiza kuti sizinayime pamenepo. Mayi wina anandilola ndipo anayamba kulankhula nane. Ndidamupeza akutentha kwambiri koma china chake chidandipangitsa kuti ndimufunse ngati ali ndi vuto. Adati ayi, kenako adafunsa ngati ndizomwe ndimakonda. Ndinayankha kuti ayi, kenako adandikokera ndikutseka makatani. Timayamba kumvana ndikukondana. Timakhala kwakanthawi kenako amandiuza kuti ndiyenera kuchoka.

Masabata otsatira, mwinamwake miyezi, malingaliro a usiku umenewo amakhalabe mwamsanga m'maganizo mwanga. Ndimakumbukiranso za mawonekedwe a thupi lake, mmero wake ndi mawu ake.

Usiku wina, ndimakhala ndi chidwi chopita kukamuyendera. Amandikoka nthawi yomweyo ndipo timayambiranso kumenyananso. Dzanja langa limalowa mchipinda chake kenako ndikumva. Amandiyang'ana koma ndimamuuza kuti sindisamala. Amandiuza kuti ndivule ndipo amandipatsa chibwibwi. Timatha maola angapo tikucheza ndikupanga zokambirana. Ndikachoka amapempha nambala yanga ya foni, koma sindimamupatsanso, ndimaopa kuti aliyense angadziwe.

[Kutha kwa Mwina N'kuyambitsa Chigawo]

Sindinawuzepo aliyense wa izi.

Ndimatha miyezi yambiri ndikunyansidwa, mantha, kusokonezeka, ndikukana. Ndipo nkhawa zanga za m'mabanja zokhudzana ndi kugonana zimakula kwambiri. Pamapeto pake ndimagonana ndi atsikana kachiwiri. Koma ndili ndi vuto lofikira pachimake. Ndili ndi kukayikira kuti zimakhudzana ndi maliseche anga. Ndipo pomaliza pakufufuza Google za izo, ndimapunthwa pa YBOP. Zikomo Zonse!

Ndiyamba kuyambiranso mwezi wa October wa 2011. Ndimabwereranso kangapo koma pamapeto pake ndikukhulupirira kuti ndayambiranso ubongo wanga. Mwalamulo sindilinso PM, koma kwenikweni ndili ndi P ndikumwa mowa mwauchidakwa milungu iwiri iliyonse mpaka 2 kapena kupitilira apo. Nthawi iliyonse ndikadzimva kuti ndine shit, pambuyo pa 3 mpaka masabata a 2 ndimakhala wolimba mtima, kenako ndimayambiranso. Ndimadziuza kuti ndizovomerezeka kapena zochepa.

Masabata angapo apitawa ndidakwanitsa zaka 23. Izi zidandipangitsa kulingalira pazinthu zambiri m'moyo wanga, P pokhala m'modzi wawo. Ndikuganiza zoumiradi. Ndidayika chizindikiro cha masiku 100. "Osadzakhalanso" ndiye cholinga chachikulu, koma pakuchita sizimandigwirira ntchito. Ndikufuna china choti ndichite, china chake. Ndipo ndikakwaniritsa cholingacho ndimatha kukhazikitsa chatsopano, chokulirapo.

Ndinali m'masabata 2-3 osadziletsa panthawiyo, koma ndinaganiza zoyamba tsiku loyamba. Ndili pa tsiku 19 pakadali pano, kuphatikiza milungu ija ya 2-3. Chifukwa chake ndatsuka masiku 33-40 tsopano. Kutalika kwambiri komwe ndidapitako kunali mwezi wa 1, zomwe zimamveka bwino. Ndikumvako bwino tsopano. Ndimasangalala kukhala wotukuka, kucheza komanso kucheza. Ndikumva bwino za ine, chidaliro changa chafika kale. Momwe ndimakhudzira mkazi ndimisala, momwe amandiyang'ana, kumwetulira kwa ine, kuyankhula nane. Ndipo momwe amandikhudzira ndizopenga. Chilichonse ndichabwino, mukudziwa, mwachizolowezi, zonse zomwe mudamva kale.

Sindichititsa manyazi ndi zomwe ndidachita, mwina ndidzauza ena mwa anthu omwe ali pafupi ndi ine posachedwa, mwina gawo lawo.

Ndikumva kutayika, chifukwa cha maola onse otayika, kutaya mphamvu, kutaya ubale, kutaya mwayi komanso kuthekera kosakwaniritsidwa. Koma ndikuzindikiranso kuti munthu aliyense ayenera kuyenda m'njira yake. Sindikadakhala bambo yemwe ndili lero ngati sizinali zovuta zonse zomwe ndidakumana nazo. Ndipo zimapanganso chizolowezi changa cha P. Dzulo ndimatha kulingalira za zotsatira zabwino za zizolowezi zanga za P ndili mwana. Mwinanso ndikadakhala kuti ndimachita nawo zinthu zowopsa, zoyipa, zopita ku (nother) njira yakuda. Kumbali inayi ndikadatha ndidachita zinthu zina zabwino. Ndani akudziwa kwenikweni.

Zomwe ndikudziwa ndikuti, kuli kutsogolo kokha kuchokera pano. Ndine wotsimikiza komanso wotsimikiza. Ndine wotsimikiza mopanda kukayika kuti ndikhoza kuzichita. Ndipo ngati ndingathe, tonse titha.

Ndikufuna kusunga zolemba pano. Chifukwa ndakhala ndikudziŵa zolembalemba ndizachiritso ndipo zimathandizira ndondomekoyi. Komanso iyi ndi gawo lotseguka pokhudzana ndi vuto langa lonse.

Tiyeni tichite izi!

 

Kubwerera Kuulendo - Masiku 71

August 7th, 2012

Chifukwa chake ndibwerera kuchokera kuulendo wanga wamasabata asanu wopita ku Vietnam. Zinali… Epic. Zinthu zanthano. Latsiku langa lachiwiri kubwerera, ndipo lero ndidayamba kumva kuyenda pang'ono ndikudwala (kosiyana ndikudwala kunyumba).

Zinthu zambiri zidachitika. Ndimamva moona mtima ngati munthu wina. Kapena molondola, ndimamva ngati bambo tsopano, mosiyana ndi mnyamata. Ndikumva kuti malingaliro anga ndi umunthu wanga zasintha. Kusintha. Makamaka chifukwa cha nthawi yayitali yomwe ndakhala wopanda PM tsopano. Makamaka chifukwa chaulendo.

Pali zambiri zomwe ndikufuna kugawana nanu anyamata. Ndigawika magawo awiri kuti zinthu zizitha kuyendetsedwa ndi wolemba komanso owerenga ;)

Choyamba, ndipo izi ndizoseketsa, Zolaula ndi Kubwezeretsanso zidadutsa malingaliro anga kwambiri, pang'ono kwambiri. Pamenepo pomwe nthawi zomwe sizimadutsa m'maganizo mwanga nthawi imodzi, mwina milungu ingapo. Ine ndinakhala ngati ndayiwala za izo. Sindinkafotokozanso chilichonse ndikayambiranso. Icho chinakhala chosakhala vuto. China chake chomwe sichipezeka kwenikweni. Zotsatira zake ndikuti zabwino zonse zakubwezeretsa (kudzidalira, libido, kucheza ndi ochezeka, ndi zina zambiri) zidasiya kukhala zotsatira zamakhalidwe osankhidwa. Adayamba kukhala gawo la moyo wanga, dzina langa. Sindinali wodzidalira chifukwa ndinasiya PM, m'malo mwake ndinali wotsimikiza chifukwa ine am wotsimikiza. Ndi zomwe ndili.

Ndamva za maakaunti pomwe anyamata omwe akhala akuyambiranso kwa nthawi yayitali asiya kuwona zabwino zake. Monga ngati izi zimangokhala chinthu chakanthawi chifukwa thupi limachoka, pambuyo pake zabwino zonse zimatha ndipo munthu amabwerera komwe anali kale.

Ndikuganiza zomwe zimachitika kwenikweni, ndikuti zotsatira zake zimakhala zachilendo. Timayamba kuwatenga mopepuka munjira ina. Timakhala iwo. Kodi anthu olimba mtima amazindikira "Hmm, ndili ndi chidaliro lero"? Kapenanso anthu omwe ali ndi libido yayikulu amaima ndikuganiza "WTF, ndili ndi chidwi ndi akazi lero". Ayi sichoncho, ndi gawo chabe la omwe ali, ndizabwinobwino kwa iwo, samaganiza chilichonse.

Izi ndizofunikira kuti ndikhale ndi lingaliro labwino. Nthawi ina PMO ndikuchira kuyenera kusiya kukhala tsiku ndi tsiku m'miyoyo yathu. Tiyenera kusiya kudziphatika ndi zolaula. Tiyenera kusiya kudziwona tokha ndife osokoneza bongo. Sizomwe tili. Ndi vuto chabe lomwe linakula pakapita nthawi. Tiyenera kuzilankhula. Ndipo pitirizani. Monga mavuto ena onse. Sindikugwirizana ndi lingaliro ili kuti kuledzera ndi matenda a moyo wonse. Kupanga vuto ngati limenelo siwabwino m'malingaliro mwanga. Zimadziwononga zokha, ndizokhumudwitsa ndipo pamapeto pake zimadzikwaniritsa.

Chifukwa chake upangiri wanga, ndipo awa ndiamene anyamata omwe adayika patali pakati pa zolaula ndi iwo eni, ndikupitilizabe ndi moyo wanu nthawi ina. Nthawi imeneyo ikadzafika mudzadziwa. Kulimbana ndi chilakolakocho sikudzakhalanso kulimbana ndi tsiku ndi tsiku. Osayesa dala kukankhira vutolo kutali. Izi sizikupita patsogolo, ndikupondereza, ndikuthawa ndikubisala. Mukudziwa kuti nthawi yafika yoti mudzione kuti simukuganiza zavutoli, chifukwa choti inu ndi malingaliro anu mumakhala otanganidwa kwambiri ndi zinthu zonse zabwino m'moyo. Kukumana ndi anthu, kusangalala, kukhala panja, kusangalala ndi dzuwa ndi mpweya, kuchita zomwe mumakonda kuchita. Nthawiyo ikafika, musawope kungozisiya.

 

KULUMIKIZANA NDI POST - Moyo Ndi Wabwino

Janurary 5, 2012

Ndinali kuyembekezera izi: Tsiku limene ndingathe kuona moona mtima kuti ndimapeza bwino nkhani ya Succes. Tsiku limenelo ndilo, chaka cha 1, miyezi 2 ndipo ambiri amabwereranso pambuyo pozindikira YBOP.

Pomwe ndakhala pano ndikudabwa kuti ndiyenera kulemba za chiyani. Nditha kukuwuzani za nthawi yanga yovuta kwambiri. Nditha kukuwuzani za tsiku lomwe ndimadutsa dera lofiira ndipo mayi wina adandiitanira. Adandiyatsa. Zambiri. Amandikonda. Tinapsompsona. Kenako adandiuza kuti ndipite.

Patatha milungu ingapo ndinabwerera. Tinayamba kusokonekera ndipo dzanja langa litalowa m'kati mwake ndinamva china chake chosayembekezereka. Komabe gawo lina la ine limadziwa kale ndipo silinandiletse kubwerera. Kupitiliza kumuuza kuti sindinadandaule ndikumulola kuti andiyamwitse. Nditha kukuwuzani za nthawi yanga yosangalala kwambiri. Monga pomwe ndidakumana ndi msungwana wokongola uyu wochokera ku New Zealand pomwe ndimapita ku Vietnam. Anali ndi tsitsi lakuda, lopindika, khungu lagolide komanso kumwetulira kokoma kwambiri. Ndimasangalala kwambiri ndikaganiza za iye. Tinagawana zakumwa. Anali kutsuka chigongono changa panga. Amandikonda. Ndinkamukonda. Usikuwo unapitilira ndipo tidayenda limodzi mtawoni. Nthawi ina ndinamufunsa za tattoo yake. Anandiuza kuti zinali zokumbukira abambo ake omwe adamwalira miyezi isanu ndi umodzi isanachitike. Tinakambirana za mabanja ndi otayika. Kenako adamwetulira nanena kuti sanauzensopo mlendo za tattoo yake kale. Tidamaliziranso muofesi yathu kenako zidangochitika. M'chipinda chogona chonse. Ndipo ngakhale zinali zopanda pake ndimamva kena kake. Kwa nthawi yoyamba mibadwo. Kulira m'mimba mwanga. Ndikulakalaka m'chifuwa kuti ndimukakamize mpaka mitima yathu isungunuke limodzi. Zinandisangalatsa. Kenako tinagona m'manja mwawo. Tsiku lotsatira ndinkafuna kumutenga pa njinga yanga yamoto ndikupita naye limodzi kupaki yakomweko. Koma amayenera kukwera ndege yake. Ndinapitiliza kumuganizira kwanthawi yayitali. Ndipo m'njira yodabwitsa ndidakondwera nazo. Zowawa.
 
Nditha kukuwuzani za miyezi ingapo pambuyo pake. Ndinakumana ndi mtsikana wokongola wokhala ndi tsitsi lalitali, lakuda, zopepuka kwambiri ndikumwetulira kowala. Posakhalitsa tinayamba chibwenzi ndipo timachita zomwe anthu amachita akakhala pachibwenzi. Timagonana kachiwiri, ndipo nthawi yachiwiri sindinatenge umuna. Tsopano adayamba kuganiza kuti ndi iyeyo, ndimamuwona kupweteka m'maso mwake. Ndipo sindinathe kupirira. Ndinaulula zonse. Akadakhala kuti wachokapo nthawi yomweyo ndikadamvetsetsa. Gawo la ine limayembekezera mwina. M'malo mwake adandisisita kumutu ndikundiuza kuti zili bwino. Ndinagona m'manja mwake, nkhope yanga ili m'manda m'khosi mwake ndipo misonzi inadzadza m'maso mwanga. Kulemera kwa dziko lapansi kunakwezedwa m'mapewa mwanga munthawi yomweyo.
 
Msungwanayo ndiye bwenzi langa tsopano. Ndipo kugonana ndi ziwopsezo zimakhala zodabwitsa nthawi iliyonse ndimatha kukuwuzani momwe ndidapangira. Nditha kukuwuzani momwe ndidasinthira moyo wanga. Pazomwe ndidayamba kusunga zolemba patsamba lino, za chipika chothokoza pambuyo pake komanso momwe ndidakwaniritsira ndikusinkhasinkha. Momwe ndidadziphunzirira pakudya bwino ndikusintha momwe ndimadyera. Za magazi ndi thukuta zomwe zidalowa mthupi langa. Momwe ndidachepetsa XBox, TV ndi intaneti ndikusintha izi ndikuwerenga, nyimbo komanso kucheza. Nditha kukuwuzani kuti ndidayamba kuganizira zomwe ndikufuna kuchita ndi moyo wanga, zokhumba zanga komanso zokhumba zanga. Ndi momwe ndinayambira kuchitapo kanthu kuti ndizindikire zomwe ndimafuna. Nditha kukuwuzani kuti ndidazichita popanda choletsa komanso momwe izi zidaphunzitsira kudziletsa. Ndipo ngakhale momwe nthawi ina ndidasankha kuiwala za PA ndi bolodi chifukwa kuyang'ana kwanga kudali kundilepheretsa kuchira. Koma palibe zomwe zikadakhala zofunika. Chifukwa pamapeto pake sizinali nkhani kapena zida za ena zomwe zidandimasula, udali udindo wanga komanso kuchita ntchito zanga; Kuvomereza gawo langa ndikuchitapo kanthu. Ndipo popeza ndidapanga izi ndidatha kusankha zida zanga ndikuwongolera nkhani yanga. Koma ndikufuna kukuwuzani zambiri. Ndikukuuzani izi: Ili ndi gawo limodzi chabe laulendo wokulirapo. Uku si kutha, ichi ndi chiyambi chabe.

Moyo ndi wabwino.