Choyamba, ndilibe baji. Ndinalibe akaunti ya reddit mpakana pano, ndikhululukireni izi. Komabe, ndikuganiza iyi ndi sabata yanga yachisanu ndi chiwiri ya challange (perekani kapena mutenge pang'ono), ndipo ndiyenera kunena kuti zachita zodabwitsa pamoyo wanga.
Ndikupatsani chidule cha nkhani yanga (chifukwa ndizabwino kwambiri kuyankhula ndi ma intaneti pa intaneti za mbiri yanu yodziyambitsa) kenako ndiyesa kufotokoza chifukwa chomwe ndiyenera kusiya reddit kuti ndipitirizebe zanga ulendo.
Ndabwera ku chinthu cha nofap kudzera mukulankhula moledzera ndi msuweni wanga. Pa nthawiyo ndimangolimbana ndi vuto la chlamydia ndikukhala ndi zisonyezo zomwe ndimaganiza kuti ndi herpes (pambuyo pake zidakhala mphere - mukadakhala kuti mwawona mawonekedwe ampumulo pankhope panga pamene ndimayamba kupeza zilonda m'mapazi anga anachotsa mantha a a herp). Komanso ndinali nditangoyamba kumene kuyesa mankhwala osokoneza bongo ndipo pazifukwa zina ndimaganiza kuti machende anga akuthwa ndikufa. Mwachidule, ndimadzimva ngati wamamuna wochepa.
Sindinazindikire panthawiyo, koma ndikuganiza kuti mwina ndinali ndi vuto la kuchepa kwa erectile. Mukukumbukira chlamydia yomwe ndimanena? Sindine wosewera. Msungwana yemwe (mwina) ndidamugwira anali msungwana wachiwiri yemwe ndidamuyanjanapo m'moyo wanga. Uku kunali kuyima mosadziteteza usiku umodzi ndi mlendo. Pambuyo pake ndinali ndi zibwenzi ziwiri. Choyamba, ndinagonana nacho (mwina kasanu kapena kasanu ndi kawiri muzaka 2 ½), koma nthawi zonse zinali zovuta, kuyang'ana kwambiri pakukhalitsa momwe ndingathere, komanso kutengeka ndikukhala ndi nthawi yayitali ndikukhala Wodandaula za kukhala ndi chiwerewere (tonsefe tinali anamwali, kotero mutha kulingalira zovuta). Chowonadi chochititsa manyazi ndikuti ndinalira kamodzi chifukwa sanachite manyazi. Izi sizinali, monga ndimaganizira zakusangalala kwake, koma kwenikweni zinali za EGO yanga. Kaya angafuule dzina langa, akuwopa kuti mawuwo angayandikire kuti ndimayamwa pabedi. Mwachidule, ndinali nditaphunzitsidwa kuti ndiziona zolaula. Anandisiya. Ndimaganiza kuti ndichifukwa sindinali wokonda zabwino, koma kwenikweni zinali chifukwa ndinali kupenga.
Bwenzi langa lachiwirili, sindinagone naye. Kuyambira pamenepo mpaka mtsogolo, ndinali wophunzitsidwa zocheperako. Pazifukwa zina ndinalinso kuweruza kwambiri za thupi lake, kachiwiri kutengera zolaula (zomwe sindinazindikire). Kuchepa kumeneku ndi kuwopa kugonana (komanso mavuto ena zana pazinthu zanga, pamapeto pake kumatilekanitsa.
Gawo lachisoni ndiloti, ndinawakonda onse awiri. Ndikutanthauza, zonse zidapita kale ndipo takhazikitsa mtendere. Sindikudandaula za kugonana koipa, monga momwe mayesero amomwe ndimawakakamizira.
Ndiye kuti, mpaka kuyima kwanga usiku umodzi. Ndinapita ndi mnzanga, sindinkafuna aliyense, choncho ndinangoledzeretsa ndikupsompsona mtsikana wokongola uyu. Mnyamata wachinyamata wochokera ku Scandinavia yemwe anali wamkulu zaka zingapo kuposa ine ndikukhala ndekha mumzinda wawukulu (ndimakhalabe ndi makolo anga). Amayi ake, azimayi olimba mtima omwe adanditenga adanditengera kunyumba kwawo, zomwe zinali ngati kujambulidwa ndi akatswiri ojambula, tidamvera zolemba zina zomwe zidachitika mwangozi kuti ndife omwe tidagawana nawo, opuma pantchito ndipo, mukudziwa ...
Ndipo chinthu chopenga? Sindinali wokonda zoipa. Sindinali woyipa konse. Ndikadatha kufuula padenga la nyumba "NDINE PAKUTI AVERAGE !!!". Ndinasangalala kwambiri. Ndinaganiza kuti zinthu ziwiri zinali kusewera a) Iye anali mlendo kwathunthu wopanda kulumikizana ndi aliyense amene ndimamudziwa b) Ndinali wokwiya kwambiri. Izi zikuwonetsa vuto langa lokhala wamaganizidwe. Anali mantha omwe anali kuwononga moyo wanga wogonana.
(china ndichakuti anali wamkazi wachimodzimodzi, osati ngati wokonda kubera, koma wokhulupirira kufanana pakati pa amuna ndi akazi, komanso zokambirana zachidule zomwe tidakhala nazo zakumwa komanso chakudya cham'mawa tidabzala mbewu m'mutu mwanga, pomwe ndimakhala ndimalingalira kuti ine ndine wopitilira patsogolo. Ndidayamba kuzindikira kuti ndimaganiza kuti ndili ndi azimayi, ndimaganiza ngati ndimawakonda, andibwereke kena kake ndipo matupi awo amandiyambitsa) - ngakhale zidachitika zonsezi, sindidadziwe kuti ndili ndi vuto.
Ndinayezetsa matenda opatsirana pogonana chifukwa ndimamva ululu m'matumba mwanga. Mayeso adabweranso alibe (koma ndidamwa kale mankhwalawo chifukwa adokotala anali otsimikiza). Ndidaganiza kuti mwina zamupeza ndipo ndangoyesa mayeso a mkodzo molakwika (iyenera kukhala bwenzi lako loyamba la tsikulo ndipo silinali langa), koma tsopano ndikutsimikiza kuti ndinali wamanjenje zokhudzana ndi mbolo yanga popanda chifukwa.
Zachisoni, ndidamuyimbira mtsikana uyu yemwe sindimadziwa kuti amulengeza kuti ali ndi Chlamydia ndisanadziwe izi. … Awkwaaard.
Monga ndidanenera, ndinamverera ngati wopanda munthu. Mipira yanga inali yopweteka. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndikufufuza malembawo. Ndidachita mantha kuti ayandikira. Ndimaganiza kuti ndikupita nduna ndipo maukadaulo anga anali ofooka kwambiri. Yankho langa? Ndinkalankhula zachiwerewere nthawi zonse. Ndinkadzikakamiza kuti ndiyeserere ndikuwona mkazi aliyense yemwe ndimamuwona. Zina mwa magulu anga zidali zakuledzera ndi kumpsopsona atsikana. Amvera poyamba (mwina ndili wokongola, ndiyesere kutero; P ...), koma adathawa mwachangu ataganiza kuti ndikupenga. Ndili kunyumba ndimawopa mantha. Malingaliro anga anali atayamba kusintha pang'ono pang'ono kwa chaka chathunthu, kotero ndimaganiza kuti ndimangogona ndi atsikana oledzera omwe samazindikira.
Ndipo komabe, sindinadziwe kuti ndili ndi vuto. Ndimaganiza kuti munthu aliyense amakhala ngati akuwongolera nkhawa, ndikuonera zolaula kawiri patsiku kuti "ayese" ukazi wawo. Ndinali ndimavuto ena onse, ubongo wa chifuwa, zovuta kupitiliza kucheza ndi amuna kapena akazi, chidaliro chochepa, kulephera kuyang'ana anthu ena.
Chifukwa chake NJIRA: Kuledzera kuyankhulana ndi msuweni wanga. Ndinkadzitamandira kuti ndimakonda kuchita zolaula kapena zoyipa (zomwe zinali kwa ine momwe zimadzalira ndi testosterone wamunthu) ndipo adati sanathenso. Adanenanso kuti akhala akuchita izi. Ndidamuseka. Ananenetsa kuti pali zabwino. Ndinaliphwasula pambali, sizingatheke, ine ndinati, "Ndi PRACTICE SEX!"
-munthu wanga anali wotani
Masabata angapo adadutsa ndipo pamapeto pake ndidayamba kuzindikira kuti malingaliro anga sadali athanzi. Ndinaganiza kuti ndikudwala zauzimu. Ndinalowa pakusinkhasinkha kwachi Buddha, kufanana pakati pa amuna ndi akazi, ndinayamba kuwerenga Gandhi ndipo ndinayamba kulumbira kuti sindidzachita chiwawa (sindingalole kuchita zachiwawa m'mawu, malingaliro, kapena zochita ndipo ndiyenera kuchitira anthu mwachikondi komanso ulemu, ngakhale omwe amandizunza - kapena ndiyesetsa kutsatira mfundo imeneyi).
Sindikonda zachipembedzo, koma ndinayamba kukayikira moyo wanga ngati wopanda chiyembekezo.
Chifukwa chake ndidakumana pamaso ndi maso ndi zolaula yanga ngati vuto. Ndinaona kuti kuonera uku kumalimbikitsa nkhanza zochitira azimayi omwe amagulitsa ntchito. Ndinachotsa vidiyo ndikusunga zithunzi zamaliseche zomwe nthawi zonse zinali mawonekedwe anga okondedwa. Kenako ndidayamba kuganiza kuti kudziyimira pawekha ndiwachiwawa chabe, chifukwa kumakana kuti mkazi ndi umunthu wake wonse. Khampasi yanga yamakhalidwe inali itayamba kukula (ndikuganiza kuti ndakhala ndikutha msanga m'maganizo) ndipo ndikuyamba kuchita chiwembu ndi mbali yanga yadyera!
Ndinkadziwa kuti ndiyenera kusiya. Ndinkadziwa kuti ndiyenera kuchotsa chikwatu changa chobisika cha zithunzi, koma ndinkaopa kutaya chisonkhitso changa (sindinkaganiza kuti sichingakhale chachilendo kudziphatikiza ndi iwo!). Sindimatha kuchita izi.
Ndipo, monga ambiri, ndinawonera kanema wa Gary Wilson. Ndidachita, ndidachotsa zolaula zanga zonse. Ndasiya kuseweretsa maliseche. Ndinalumbira kuti sindidzawonanso zolaula, chifukwa zimandipweteketsa moyo wanga wogonana.
Ndipo tsopano pakhala pafupi milungu isanu ndi iwiri. Sindinakhalebe wowerengera zachuma. Ndakhala ndikungokhala. TZotsatira zake zimakhala zodabwitsa.
- Ndikulumikizana ndi anthu pafupipafupi
- Ndikumva ngati ndili ndi ufulu kuyenda padziko lapansi
- Ndimakhala mwamtendere ndi ine ndekha komanso ndi anthu ena
- Ndimatha kulankhula ndi aliyense
- Ndikupanga ubale weniweni ndi azimayi. Amawoneka ngati otetezeka pafupi nane. Chifukwa ndilibe zolinga zakumbuyo, ndipo ndine wonyadira kwambiri!
- Tsopano ndili ndi malingaliro. Chimwemwe changa ndikusangalala ndipo chisoni changa ndichachisoni. Ndimakonda kukhala wachisoni. Zimandipangitsa kumva kuti ndili ndi moyo.
- Ngakhale ndimakhala wanzeru kwambiri, ndimatha kuyankhulana ndi kufotokoza
- Ndikumva ngati munthu wathunthu, wogonana. Ndakhala mdindo wothandiza moyo wanga wonse. Tsopano ndine mfulu. Ndimayembekezera tsiku lililonse lomwe ndidzakhale moyo.
Ndikumva pang'ono pang'onopang'ono koma nthawi ndikudziwa zitha. Ndipo ndili ndi kumverera kochulukirapo, kumafuula mu umunthu wanga wonse: PALIBE DZIKO LAPANSI PAKUTI, ANTHU AMBIRI OGWIRITSITSA NTCHITO, NDIPO KUTI NDINAYESA KUTI NDIKUFUNA UTHENGA WABWINO KWAMBIRI KUKHALA NDI MOYO KWAMBIRI
(Ndikukhulupirira kuti sizikumveka ngati wopusa) Tsopano, ndikuyesetsabe kudzikonza. Ndikuyesera kukonda adani anga, ndidzikonde ndekha (ndikumvera chisoni tsopano, osati mafuta onunkhira: P) ndikukulitsa chikondi ichi chomwe tsopano chikutsanulira kwa okondedwa ndi abwenzi anga, pakugwiritsa ntchito chikondi ichi pazabwino, kukhala weniweni ndi MUNA wosamala (Ndine munthu tsopano, tee hee). Ndasungabe kusinkhasinkha. Ndikumaliza chaka changa chomaliza ku yunivesite (ndinali nditatsala pang'ono kusiya), ndikukonzekera kuyenda ku Europe, ndekha, kukafunafuna moyo wabwino (kulikonse komwe ungakhale) chaka chamawa. Ndiyesera kukhala wojambula ndi njala kwakanthawi. Chifukwa, monga mneneriyu akunenera, "zichitike!"
Chifukwa chake, Komabe, kuba kwa wolemba wamkulu; Irvine Welsh (yemwe tsopano nditha kuvomereza kuti sindinawerengepo, chifukwa ndikuvomereza zina zonse): NDINASankha MOYO.
Ndipo zimandibweretsa kwa inu, reddit. Kuyambira koyamba paulendo wanga, ndimayang'ana patsambali tsiku lililonse. Zinandipatsa kudzoza. Kunena zowona, zinandipatsa chinsinsi kuti ndiyang'ane pa kompyuta. China chochita usiku wopanda kugona.
NDIMAKONDA, MODI, KWA KUTI MUZITSITSA ANTHU NGATI NDINAKHALA NDI INE NDIMAKONDA, NOFAPPERS
Koma ndiyenera kukusiyani. Monga zolaula ndi mtundu wamanyazi, wonamizira kugonana; malo ochezera, ndi zoyipa, zoyeserera za kulumikizana kwenikweni kwa anthu. Zimandikumbutsa za moyo wanga wakale kwambiri, kotero ndisiya.
(Ndiyenera kusunga facebook mpaka nditamaliza koleji - yolumikizirana ndi gulu langa, koma izi zipitanso momwe zingathere)
Koma ndisanasiye kuyambiranso, ndimaganiza kuti ndilembe ndipo ndilembe. Kungoti ndithokoze.
Ndipo ndikapitiriza ulendowu ndekha, moyo wanga wasintha kwamuyaya.
Zikomo kwambiri nonse.
Sindikufuna kubwerera ku PMO tsopano. Ndine wokondwa kwambiri kuwona kuyambiranso kumachitika pamaso panga.
Awo anali a catharsis mwamtheradi akulemba izi. Samalira!
(Ndikupitiliza moyo wa NoFap, koma ndikusunthira kutali ndi mauthenga. Ndimalimbikitsa ena kuti adzandilowetse nthawi ikadzakhala bwino. Ndikuganiza kuti ndi gawo lofunikira.)
BYE! Xx
-Munthu wosadziwika, 23.
TL; DR: INE + NOFAP + MEDITATION + NONVIOLENCE = MLENGO Wanga WAKUKHALA, OTHANDIZA NDIPO MALO OGULITSIRA PA MOYO
LINK - Masiku 50 (ish) mkati, ndipo ine ndatuluka muno! Mtsinje wa chikumbumtima.
by OMGMcGee
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