Mosakayikira iyi inali imodzi mwazosankha zazikulu kwambiri zomwe ndidachitapo m'moyo wanga wonse.
Tiyeni tiyambe ndikukuwuzani komwe ndinali masiku 90 apitawo. Ndinali nditangoyamba kumene kukangana mopusa ndi bwenzi langa lakale. Pazifukwa zina, ndimadalira kwambiri chikondi chakuthupi kotero kuti ndikapanda kukakhala, ndimayamba kukhala wamantha. Kuopa kumeneku kumandipangitsa kuti ndiziimitsa ndipo pamapeto pake ndimamunyalanyaza.
Ndikukumbukira tsiku lina anandiuza "leka kundiyang'ana ngati ndili chidutswa cha nyama!" Ndinasokonezeka, sindimadziwa zomwe amalankhula. Ndinkadziwa kuti sindimamva choncho, koma kusazindikira kwanga za PMO kunandipangitsa kuchita zinthu zomwe zidawonetseratu izi. Ndidamuchitira ngati chidutswa cha nyama. Pokwiya, adandiuza kuti ndiyenera kupeza zoyipa zanga. Ndidamva kuwawa kwa mawu ake. Zinandidzutsa.
Pafupifupi nthawi yomweyo, YouTube idandilangiza kanema. Zinali pa sabata ziwiri zomwe zinachitikira nofap. Ndinachita PMO tsiku limodzi ndisanawonere kanemayo ndipo ndikukumbukira momwe sindinakondwere pambuyo pake. Ndimafuna kuti izi zisinthe koma sindimadziwa momwe zingasinthire. Ndidachita kafukufuku wina ndipo zonse zomwe zimachitika momwe zimachitikira, ndimadziwa kuti ndiyenera kudzipereka masiku a 90. Nazi zinthu zina zomwe ndaphunzira:
1) Ndinkakonda zolaula. Moona mtima, sindimaganiza kuti ndidatero. Sizinasokoneze sukulu, ntchito, ndi zina zambiri. Sindinamve ngati zikuyenda m'njira zanga zogwirira ntchito tsiku ndi tsiku. Mwinamwake osati nthawi yanzeru, koma ndithudi inanena momwe ine ndimawonera anthu ena. Sindinazindikire kuchuluka kwa momwe ndinakhalira ndikumva bwino kudzera pachisangalalo. Ndikadapanda kukhalapo, ndikadakhumudwa pazakugonana.
2) Tsopano ndikudziwa kusiyana pakati pa kukhala wamanyazi ndikukhumudwa pogonana. Mukamaonera zolaula, mumawona alfa awiri akupita pamene inu mumakhala pansi monga woonerera. Sikuti simukuchita nawo zochitikazo, koma zomwe mumawona zimakhala zachilendo. Mukudzipangitsa kukhala olephera ikafika nthawi yogonana. Zowonjezera sizikuyenda momwe mukuyembekezera ndipo mukufuna zambiri kuti mukwaniritse zoyembekezerazi. Kukhumudwa kumakulirakulira. Izi sizabwino, ichi sichikondi.
3) Tsopano ndimayandikira azimayi okongola mosavuta ndipo ndizosavuta. Kuyankhulana kumangomverera mwachilengedwe. Sindikulimbikitsidwa ndi kugonana. Ndimangokhala kuti ndipereke ndikusangalala ndi zokambiranazo. Akazi amazindikira zinthu izi. Mukakhala osayang'ana cholinga chakumapeto mumachokera kumalo ochuluka. Kuyankhula ndi azimayi ali ndi njala kumakupweteketsani mwayi.
4) Maganizo anga amamva kukhala olimba. Ndikukumbukira nthawi ina yemwe wakale adandiuza "simusangalala." Apanso, ndinaganiza mumtima mwanga, "koma ndikusangalala?" Njira yosavuta kuyiyika, dopamine wotsika. Mwina ndimaganiza kuti ndinali wokondwa, koma sindimangonena. Ndili wokondwa komanso wokonda kulemba chidutswa ichi pakali pano. Kulimbikitsa munthu m'modzi yekha ndikwanira. Ndikumvanso kuti ndimatha kumvana ndi anthu pamalingaliro. Sindinamvepo chisoni ndi ena monga momwe ndikuchitira panopo.
5) Ndikumva ngati mtsogoleri. Ndikumva kuyang'anira. Sindiopa kuchitapo kanthu ndipo sindimadzudzulanso mwankhanza
6) Ziphuphu za muubongo wanu zimakwiya bwino. Ndimamva ngati nditha kuganiza mavuto anga momwe ndingathere kupeza yankho labwino osati zongolira ndekha. Chifundo kwa ena chimapita kutali.
7) Mphamvu zadutsa padenga! Ndimapita ku masewera olimbitsa thupi a 6 pa sabata. Pakupita mwezi umodzi chabe, ndidazindikira zambiri zopindulitsa ndipo ndakhala ndikuchita izi kwa zaka tsopano. Inakhala yabwino kupuma kudzera papula
8) Ndipo pamapeto pake, ndine wokondwa. Ndine wokondwa kukhala inenso. Ndili wokondwa ndi munthu amene ndikhala. Ndimadzikonda kwambiri kuposa kale. Moyo wanga ndi wodabwitsa. Anthu amandilemekeza kuposa kale ndipo amakhala omasuka kukhala ndi ine.
Nditayamba nofap ndinali ndi malotowa… ndinali nditangotsika ndege ndipo ndinafikira ku paradiso. Aliyense anali wamtendere kwambiri. Koma kenako ndinakumbukira kuti ndayiwala chikwama changa mundege. Ndinathamanga kubwerera kukatenga. Nditangopeza ndikutembenuka, paradaiso anali atapita. Chilichonse chidakhala chothinana kwambiri ndipo chikwama changa chimandichedwetsa.
Zinali zikumbutso kuti ndimafunikirabe kuyika nthawi ndi khama kuti ndikafike paradiso. Tsopano sindikunena kuti ulendowu wakhala wangwiro. Ndikuvomereza kangapo molawirira pomwe ndidapumira (W / O zolaula). Koma ndidadziyimitsa. Sindikufuna ungwiro kotero kwa ine mzere wanga udali wamoyo. Chifukwa chiyani? Chifukwa ndidazindikira zomwe zidandipangitsa. Kukhumudwa kwanga. Ndinali wokhoza kuzichita ndikakumana ndi zovuta zina. Kudziwa zofuna izi ndikofunikira. Kukhumudwa ndi zakale? Kukhumudwa ndi zamtsogolo? Ganizirani za Pano! Mutha kuchita izi. Titha kuchita izi.
Ndikuthokoza chifukwa cha zokumana nazo zonse zomwe zandichitikira. Chilichonse chinachitika momwe chinachitikira ndipo sichikanachitika mwanjira ina iliyonse. Masiku ano, ndine munthu wosangalala. Uwu ndiye moyo wawukulu kwambiri womwe ndidasinthapo.
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LINK - Lero ndi Tsiku 90. Nayi nkhani yanga yopambana
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Moyo wanga wonse, ndauzidwa kuti ndili ndi zomwe zimafunikira kuti ndikhale mtsogoleri. Sindinakwanitse kukhala ndi dzina ili. Lero lero ku malo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi, ndimakhala mgalimoto yanga ndikupopera kuti ndibwerere ndikutengeka. Ndinangodziwa kuti kukakhala kukweza kwabwino. Nditangotuluka mgalimoto, m'modzi mwa ogwira ntchitowo amandiimitsa ndikundifunsa kuti ndakhala ndikuchita chiyani chifukwa thupi langa limawoneka bwino kwambiri kuposa momwe limakhalira chaka chapitacho. Sindikupita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi kuti ndikasangalatse ena koma ndikumva bwino ndikamawona anthu akugwira ntchito molimbika komanso khama. Posakhalitsa, bambo wina wachikulire yemwe sindinayankhulepo adandiimitsa ndikundifunsa kuti "Mumasewera masewera ati? Mukuwoneka bwino kwambiri!" Gawo labwino kwambiri ndiloti, ndidang'amba labrum yanga kusekondale. Ndinali nthambi yowonda ndikuwona anzanga onse akuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi komanso kulimbitsa thupi pomwe kusatetezeka kwanga kumakulirakulira (O ndi PMO, tisayiwale chidutswa chija). Nditachitidwa opareshoni kuti ndikonze phewa langa, ndidadzipereka kuti ndikwaniritsa zaka zonse zomwe ndakhala ndikungokhala. Bamboyu adandiuza kuti adandiwona ndikulimbitsa thupi ndipo amatha kunena kuti ndimayika nthawi ndi khama kuti ndikhalebe wolimba ndikadali wolimba pazokweza zanga. Adandiuzanso kuti adachita chidwi ndi squat wanga…. Sindikukhutira ndi squat yanga ndipo ndikufuna kuti ndikhale bwino! Kulimbikitsidwa kwakukulu kotere! Kenako, WINA WINA adabwera ndikundiuza kuti adachita chidwi ndi mapewa anga ndipo ngati ndili ndi malingaliro oti amange! Katatu tsiku limodzi tsiku limodzi kuchokera kwa anthu omwe sindimalankhula nawo kawirikawiri. Ndilimba mtima. Ndikudziwa kuti thupi langa likuwonetsa za mtsogoleri. Abale, musayime patatha tsiku 90. Pitilizani ulendowu ndikukhazikitsa mfundo zonse zomwe mukumva kuti mukusowa. Pitilizani kulimba ndikugonjetsa zovuta zonse zomwe zimakulepheretsani kuthekera kwanu.
LINK - Tsiku 107 - NDIMAMVA NGATI MTSOGOLERI !!!!
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Ndadzikhululukira pamapeto pake chifukwa chamakhalidwe anga akale
[Chinthu chimodzi chomwe sindimamva pa Tsiku 90] chinali kukhululuka. Sindinathe kudzikhululukira ndekha momwe ndimagwirira mkazi wanga wakale. Ndinkadziwa kuti ndakula, koma ndikuganiza kuti chinali chinthu chovulazidwa.
Lero, miyezi 5 pambuyo pake, pamapeto pake tidacheza koyamba kuyambira pamenepo. Kwa nthawi yoyamba, kugonana kunalibe m'malingaliro mwanga. Kwa nthawi yoyamba, sindinkaganizira kwambiri zomwe ndingamuchitire kuti ndizisangalala. Kwa nthawi yoyamba, ndimangomva kukhala wokhutira ndi kukhala naye ndikusangalala, osakhala wathupi. Mtima wanga wakhuta tsopano. Ndakula kwambiri kuchokera kwa mwana yemwe ndinali. Ndimadzinyadira ndekha. Ndikufuna kuti nonse mukhale ndi zofanana ndi izi paulendo wanu.
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Zomwe mumaphunzira za inu nokha ndikuganizira momwe mwakwanira.
M'mwezi wapitawu, ndinali pachibwenzi ndi mtsikana wamba. Ndidakondwera nazo, kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga ndidali kuyang'ana kwambiri kusangalala ndi zomwe ndikanamuchitira m'malo mogona. Chifukwa cha NoFap, sindinachedwe kugona nawo. Eya, sabata yatha nthawi idakwana. Kodi ndikuganiza kuti ndinali wokonzeka kugonana? Mwina ayi, koma ndazindikira kuwongolera. Kuyambira PIED kupita kumalo osinthasintha osinthika, zomwe zikugonana modabwitsa. Moona mtima, ndikuganiza kuti kusinthaku kudali kwenikweni kuchokera ku nkhawa. Kodi ndidakhala nthawi yayitali, gehena ayi. Tidayankhulana patapita nthawi ndipo ndinamuuza zomwe ndikumana nazo.
Kodi akufuna kundionanso? Ayi. Kodi zili ndi vuto? Ayi! Ndikudziwa kuti pamapeto pake adangophonya dude wamkulu womupangira zambiri. Akufuna kukhalabe abwenzi ndipo ndidamuwuza motsimikiza kuti sindifuna. Ndine wokondwa kale ndi moyo wanga kotero sindikusowa chitsimikiziro chake. Ndikudziwa m'mbuyomu mwina ndikadavomera.
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