Pachiyambi ndikungofuna kupepesa pazolakwitsa zina chifukwa sindimagwiritsa ntchito Chingerezi pafupipafupi ndipo ndikufuna kukuwuzani kuti ikhala nkhani yayitali kwambiri, mwina imodzi mwazitali kwambiri zomwe ndawerengapo ngati sindikufuna kuti ndiwerenge, palibe amene amakukakamizani. Nkhaniyi ikufotokoza chilichonse chofunikira pamavuto anga omwe amadza chifukwa cha zolaula zaka zisanu zapitazi za moyo wanga.
Panopa ndili ndi zaka 24. Chifukwa chake, mwina ndibwino kuyamba ndi chiyambi. Tiyerekeze kuti chiyambi ichi chinali pamene ndinali ndi zaka zisanu ndi ziwiri. Ndinayamba kupita ku pulayimale ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndinali BOSS chifukwa ndinali mwana wamphamvu kwambiri mkalasi mwanga ndipo aliyense amandilemekeza LOL. Sindinali mwana wamanyazi ndipo ndinali wowoneka bwino kotero kuti atsikana onse anali kundikonda. Ndinali munthu wokonda kulankhula kwambiri komanso wokonda kucheza ndi anthu, mwana wachimwemwe nthawi zonse.
Ndili ndi zaka eyiti, azibale anga akulu adandiphunzitsa momwe ndimasewera maliseche, zinali zoseketsa kwa iwo chifukwa anali ndi zaka khumi ndi zinayi ndipo ine ndinali ndi zaka zisanu ndi zitatu, koma osaganizira, chinali chiyambi. Kumva bwino kwambiri, sindinagwiritsepo ntchito malingaliro anga chifukwa sindimadziwa zomwe ndikuchita koma ndimangodziwa kuti kumapeto ndidzamva bwino, chifukwa chake ndimazichita tsiku lililonse, nthawi zina kangapo kamodzi tsiku.
Chaka chamawa ndili ndi zaka zisanu ndi zinayi ndidapeza kuchuluka kwa abambo amamagazini a playboy. Mnyamata oh mnyamata momwe ndinkasangalalira. Bwino kuposa Disneyland kwa ine. Ndinkawerenga tsiku lililonse kangapo patsiku, atsikanawo anali odabwitsa, koma patapita nthawi ndinkafunika kumenyedwa mwamphamvu, ndipo ndinapeza, inali magazini yolaula ya anthu ogonana. Zoyipa izi zinali zapamwamba kwambiri kwa ine ndipo ndidasinthiratu playboy ya magazini yolaula. Ndinkasewera maliseche kangapo patsiku pogwiritsa ntchito magaziniyi, koma moyo wanga unali bwino nthawi imeneyo. Ndinali wokonda kucheza kwambiri, wokonda kucheza ndi anthu, ndinkachita masewera ambiri, ndinali wovuta kwambiri ngati ana ena, ndimatha kupeza boner nthawi iliyonse ndikafuna.
M'zaka ziwiri kapena zitatu zotsatira ndinatolera magazini ambiri azolaula koma ndinayamba kumva kukhala wotopetsa ngati helo. Sanachite zambiri muubongo ndi thupi langa monga momwe amachitira pachiyambi. Gawo lotsatira anali makanema olaula pomwe ndinali ndi zaka khumi ndi ziwiri. Monga nthawi zonse ndimapeza kanema wawayilesi yakanema zolaula pambuyo pa 11 koloko masana ndipo nthawi iliyonse ndikakhala kunyumba ndekha ndimawaonera ndipo amakhala pafupifupi miliyoni miliyoni kuposa magazini, sooooo magazini anga adathera m'zinyalala.
Zaka ziwiri zotsatira, tangoganizani, kangati patsiku maliseche pogwiritsa ntchito makanema olaula pa DVD. Vuto lokhalo ndiloti ndimazolowera zowonera zonse nditaziwonera kamodzi, koma zinali bwino kwa zaka ziwiri pomwe anzanga adandionetsa momwe ndingawonere zolaula pa intaneti komanso momwe ndingachotsere mbiri nditawonetsetsa kuti makolo anga asatero Fufuzani. Ngakhale nditazindikira kuti ndili ndi zingwe, zomwe sindikufuna kuyankhula pano chifukwa sindikufuna kukuyambitsani.
Kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula pa intaneti tsiku lililonse, ndinali mwana wabwinobwino, popanda vuto lililonse, sindinawonepo tanthauzo lililonse pamoyo wanga. Ndinkasangalala kukhala pafupi ndi atsikana ndipo nthawi zonse ndimamva bwino kwambiri nawo, makamaka ndikapsyopsyona, kutumizirana mameseji… Monga momwe ndimamvera chisoni, ndinali wokongola (ndipo ndimakhala hahaha) kotero sindinakhale ndi vuto lopeza atsikana, koma ndimakhala choncho nthawi zonse wokondwa ndikamapita kunyumba chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti chinthu choyamba ndikutsegula kompyuta yanga ndikuwonera zolaula. Zinali zochita zanga za tsiku ndi tsiku.
Pamene ndinali 15 sekondale yomwe idayamba ndipo sindinali BOSS chifukwa panali anthu olimba kwambiri, akulu ndipo ndinali watsopano, sindimadziwa aliyense koma mwanjira inayake ndimakwanitsa kuyamba chibwenzi ndi msungwana wowoneka bwino kwambiri pasukulupo. Mofulumira, kugonana koyamba sikunayende bwino, bwenzi langa laling'ono silinakwere (tsopano ndikudziwa kuti zinali chifukwa cha zolaula komanso zomwe ndimayembekezera chifukwa cha zolaula koma osaganizira) tsiku lotsatira tinayesanso ndipo china chake zinachitika. Kuyambira tsiku lomwelo sindinakhalepo ndi vuto lililonse ndi mzanga mpaka zaka 5 zapitazo. Pakati pa zaka 15 ndi 19 inali nthawi yakusekondale ndipo ndinali munthu wabwinobwino, wochezeka, wochezeka… Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ngati gehena, ndipo chinthu chokha chomwe chasintha chinali kukoma kwanga. Zinafika poipa kwambiri, ndimayang'ana zinthu zomwe sindimakonda kwenikweni m'moyo weniweni, koma zolaula izi zidayamba (zachilendo = dopamine). Nthawi zina ndimayang'ana zinthu zomwe sizili zogonana koma chabwino.
Ndili ndi zaka 19 koleji yanga idayamba. Ndinkakhala bwino bwino, anthu anali abwino, vuto linali kusowa kwa atsikana koma osaganizira. Inali nthawi yomwe mafoni oyamba anali pamsika koma sindinachite chidwi ndi izi, ndinali ndi NOKIA wakale hahaha. Ndinkafuna kompyuta yanga yakukoleji kuti makolo anga andigulire. Posakhalitsa ndidapeza Smartphone yanga yoyamba. Chofunika kwambiri ndikuti ndidathetsa chibwenzi changa, adandiuza kuti sindimagwira ntchito komanso wotopetsa. Ndinali wokhumudwa, ndimamva chisoni chifukwa ndimamukonda kwambiri. Ndimamusowa kwambiri, koma ndinali ndi intaneti yothamanga kwambiri, kompyuta yanga mchipinda mwanga ndi Smartphone.
Zindikirani zomwe zinachitika, magawo a PMO tsiku lililonse kwa maola. Koleji yanga ndiyolimba kwambiri ndipo imafunikira maola ambiri kutsogolo kwa kompyuta, choncho ndinazolowera PMO ola lililonse kapena awiri. Nthawi zina ndimakonda zolaula. Nditangobadwa kumene, ine ndi mnzanga wapamtima tinali paulendo wopita ku Hungary mzinda wa Budapest ndipo tinapita ku kalabu yausiku, tinamwa kwambiri ndikakumana ndi atsikana ena, anali otentha ndipo mwanjira ina ine ndipo mmodzi wa iwo anathera m'chipinda changa cha hotelo. Mwinanso mukudziwa zomwe zinachitika, mwana wanga wamkazi anali wakufa momwe iye akanakhalira. Ndidamupepesa, ndidadzudzula mowa chifukwa cha izi ndikupitiliza ndi moyo wanga. Ndayiwala kutchulapo kuti zidachitika kale, chimodzimodzi mtsikanayo.
Nthawi yoyamba sindinali kuda nkhawa koma ndinali ndi mowa wambiri m'magazi anga kotero kachiwirinso koma ndinazindikira kuti ndataya moto mthupi mwanga, sindimadziwa kwenikweni koma ndimakhala ngati atsikana enieni ali otopetsa, ndipo ine ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche kwambiri ndikumapewa atsikana enieni momwe ndingathere. Vuto lalikulu linali loti ndinkakhala wokhumudwa, sindinkafuna kupita kunja, sindinkafuna kulankhula ndi aliyense. Ndidakoleza koleji yanga kwambiri. Zithunzi zolaula ndizo zokha zomwe zidapangitsa moyo wanga kukhala wosangalala nthawi imeneyo.
Zolakwitsa zazikulu kwambiri zimabwera pompano. Ndinkafuna china chake chenicheni ndiye ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche pa cam kupita pa intaneti. Kwa ine zinali zoposa kugonana kwenikweni, sindinakhalepo ndi vuto lokhazikika kapena kutaya, zinali zovuta kupeza atsikana nthawi zina ndimayamba kuseweretsa maliseche ndi ena. Inde anyamata ... Ndikudziwa kuti izi zikumveka zoyipa koma ndizowona.
Ndinapitiliza kuzichita tsiku lililonse kwa maola angapo, ndipo patadutsa miyezi ingapo, ndinazindikira kuti ndili ndi vuto lalikulu kwambiri. Sindingathe kukweza atsikana pazenera, koma zolaula zokhazokha, koma anyamata opanda mavuto ... wtf ndinali wosokonezeka ngati fuck kotero ndinasiya kuzichita, ndimamva zoyipa komanso zachilendo. Ndinapitilizabe kukhala ndi PMO pa zolaula koma zinali zosasangalatsa ndipo bwenzi langa laling'ono silinali lovuta momwe liyenera kukhalira. Moyo wanga weniweni unali tsoka, usiku wina ndinali kuvina mu chibonga ndi msungwana wokongola ndipo anali akunjenjemera ndi bulu wake mozungulira mnzanga wamng'onoyo koma anali atamwalira ndipo inali nthawi yoyamba pomwe ndinachita mantha.
Ndinali ndi mayesero angapo ndi atsikana ena koma opanda mwayi nthawi zonse. Ndimaganiza kuti ndichifukwa ndili ndi nkhawa kwambiri ndipo sindingathe kumasuka, izi ndi zomwe ndawerenga pa intaneti chifukwa chavuto langa. Vuto lalikulu ndilomwe ndidapeza kenako, inde izi zoyipa zimatchedwa ZOTHANDIZA zolaula, zolaula, mzimayi wamwamuna, wamtendere, tchulani momwe mumafunira. Ndikupepesa, sindikufuna kukhumudwitsa aliyense, koma kwa ine zonsezi ndi zoyipa chifukwa zidasokoneza moyo wanga. Chizolowezi ichi chinali choipa kwambiri, nthawi iliyonse ndikaziyang'ana, kamnyamata kanga kanali kolimba ngati thanthwe, ndimamva moto mkati mwanga ndikamaziyang'ana, kenako ndikunyansidwa pambuyo pake. Sindimadziwa zomwe zikuchitika ndipo sindinasamale. Koma chinali chizoloŵezi china, kuledzera kunali kolimba ndipo ndinakhala chizolowezi kwa nthawi yayitali, ndikungoonera zolaula zokhazokha. Kotero china chake chokhudza moyo wanga weniweni, kukopa atsikana, osalimbikitsa chilichonse, kuyimitsidwa ndi masewera amtundu wina kale, anali ndi chiwerewere china chosapambana ndi msungwana wamkulu, anali wolusa, wonenepa ...
Sooooo chilimwe zaka 3 zapitazo, ine ndi anzanga tinapita kutchuthi, ndinakumana ndi mtsikana wina wabwino kwambiri, anali wanzeru, wanzeru, wowoneka bwino ngati fuck, oh anali 10/10. Anyamata andikhulupirireni, sindinagone ndi uyu, koma tidakhala ndi nthawi yopambana, ndipo mwamwayi amakhala pafupi ndi kwathu, motero tidalumikizana. Sindikudziwa kuti ndimatha bwanji kucheza naye, chifukwa ndimayang'ana atsikana ngati kuti anali mnofu ndi mafupa, koma mukudziwa chifukwa chake, munthawi yomwe ndimamuwona koyamba, ndinali masiku 10 ndili patchuthi ndipo sanawone zolaula zilizonse kotero kuti ubongo wanga sunali bwino. Mtauni yakwathu, ndinali wokondwa kwambiri atanditumizira meseji, koma zomwe ndidazindikira ndikuti ndili ndi ZERO adzakhala ndi mphamvu zogonana naye, ndipo zinali zachilendo kwa ine. Nthawi zonse ndimanyazi kwambiri ndipo palibe chilichonse. Ndinasokonezeka, koma ndimaganiza kuti zidzakhala bwino tikadzakhala pabedi. Inde zidachitika, tidali pachibwenzi kwakanthawi ndipo usiku wina tidagona pabedi. Anzanga okondedwa omwe mukuwerenga izi ... kodi mukudziwa momwe zimamvekera… zimayamwa kwambiri, komanso kamnyamata kanga sikanali kolimba, kwenikweni anali atamwalira kwambiri.
Ndidamuuza kuti sizikugwirizana ndi iye, kuti ndatopa kwambiri komanso ndimadandaula. Inu amene mukuwerenga izi ndi ine, tikudziwa chifukwa chake izi zachitika. Koma sikunathe ... Ndidabwerera kunyumba ndipo ndidatsegula kompyuta yanga, ndikupita pa intaneti, ndikulemba zolaula za TRANSEXUAL, ndikuwongolera nthawi yomweyo, molimba ngati thanthwe .... Zikomo pa intaneti, mphindi yachiwiri ndinayamba kukhala ndi HOCD yayikulu. Mnyamata ndimaopa mpaka kufa kuti ndine gay ...
Masiku oyamba anali gehena wamoyo, iwo omwe ali nawo, mukudziwa zomwe ndikunena, ndipo kenako ndikuwuzani zambiri za izo. Chifukwa chake ndidakhala pachibwenzi ndi mtsikanayo kwa mwezi wamawa kapena iwiri, koma nthawi iliyonse yomwe timatuluka ndi chifukwa amafuna, ndipo ndimati chabwino. Sindingathe kuyankhula naye bwinobwino. Ndinali wamantha 24/7 ndipo osakopeka naye kotero tidasiyana. Ndinali wokondwa kwambiri titasiyana chifukwa zinali zosavuta kukhala omvetsa chisoni komanso kukhala ndekha popanda iye. Simungakhale ndi msungwana ngati iye ngati muli omvetsa chisoni, odzipha komanso okhumudwa. Ayenera kukhala mwamuna wamkulu.
Chifukwa chake zomwe ndidachita kenako, ndidayamba kuyang'ana mavuto anga ndikupeza NoFap, YBOP, Reboot Nation, nditazindikira kuti ndili ndi HOCD, kwenikweni ndidazindikira kuti ndikudziwononga ndekha kwa zaka khumi. Mwanzeru ndinasiya kuyang'ana zolaula monga amanenera pa NoFap, YBOP ndi Reboot Nation, masiku a 80 hardmode adapita mwachangu kwambiri kenako ndidatembenukanso ndi Tranny porn, ndipo zitatha izi ndidatsitsa masiku owerengeka. HOCD yanga inali yabwinoko pang'ono, koma kutali ndi zabwino. Libido, erections ndi nkhuni zam'mawa sizidalipobe.
Ndinkadzikwiyira ndekha, chifukwa ndimafuna kukhala BOSS momwe ndimakhalira komanso kuti ndikungoyenda wakufa. Ndidayikira zero yanga; Ndikuganiza kuti nthawi ino yomwe ndidachita masiku a 30 hardmode, ndinatheranso ndikuyambiranso zolaula. Nthawi iyi ndidadzigunda ndekha nkhonya yanga m'mutu momwe ndidakwiya. Kubwereza masiku enanso owerengeka molimba kenako kuyambiranso ndipo zachitika kangapo zaka 3 zapitazi. Zabwino zanga zonse zinali masiku a 160, munthawi imeneyo ndimatha kukhala ndi ma bonasi ovuta nthawi zina komanso nthawi ya 4 / 7 yam'mawa koma osatulutsa libido.
Ndikhulupirireni anyamata, sikuti papita masiku angati, koma ndi zomwe mukuchita masiku ano, ndipo mupanga chiyani munthawi kuyambira pano mpaka pano mutamwalira. Ndikukhulupirira kuti mumvetsetsa zomwe ndikuyesera kunena. Mukamaliza kuwerenga izi, pitani kwina, mulungu akudziwa komwe, ngati mungakwanitse, siyani foni kwanu, pitani kukayenda kuthengo, pitani kukwera njinga yanu, muzicheza ndi anzanu, pitani kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi, pitani kukaona agogo anu , thandizani makolo anu ndichinthu china, chitani china chake chothandiza, sichingasinthe dziko kapena moyo wanu, koma kuchita tsiku ndi tsiku, kudzakhala chizolowezi chanu ndiye zikutanthauza kuti mudzakhala munthu wabwino. Iwalani za Dick wanu ndi PIED komanso nkhani zina za akatswiri, kuiwala zakuda nkhawa kuti muli ndi matabwa m'mawa m'mawa kapena ayi, musaganize zomwe zingachitike mukapeza msungwana wamkulu ndipo simumamuvuta ndipo ndi angati masiku mulibe PMO ndi bla bla bla.
Ndili ndi nkhani imodzi yoyipa kwa ena a inu anyamata… Chofunikira kwambiri kwa ine ndi kwa nonsenu ndikubwezera. Ndimvereni, MUYENERA kulimbikira kupeza mnzanu. Kupita masiku ambiri opanda PMO ndi kwabwino komanso kothandiza koma ndichimake chabe pachimake pachimake. Kupita NoFap ndikusasintha chilichonse m'moyo wanu sikungasinthe chilichonse. Pali anthu ambiri pamasamba ambiri omwe akudandaula za kukhala 1,2,3 kapena zaka 4 mwamtheradi PMO mfulu ndipo sanapindule kalikonse. Chifukwa chiyani? Chifukwa cholinga chawo chokha ndikumulimbikitsa mwana wawo wamwamuna kuti azitha kuseweretsa mtsikana aliyense yemwe amayenda pafupi. Ndizolakwika kwathunthu, ndikhulupirireni. Sitiyenera kukhala cholinga chanu, chifukwa ngati ndicholinga chanu, ndiye kuti mukuchita chilichonse cholakwika, ndipo mukudziwa chifukwa chake? Chifukwa NDINAKHALAKO.
Atsikana ndi anthu okongola, ndi oseketsa, otha kumva, amafunidwa kwambiri. Tsiku ndi tsiku ndi nkhondo yatsopano momwe mungapezere mtima wake. Kugonana ndi chinthu chabwino chokhacho chomwe chimabwera limodzi ndi maubale. Muyenera kukhala oseketsa komanso abwino kwa iye ngati mukufuna kumusunga. Ali ndi moyo wake, ali ndi mavuto ake, mwezi uliwonse amakhala ndi masiku ochepa mu nthawi yake ndipo muyenera kumamuthandiza, ayenera kukhala bwenzi lanu labwino kwambiri. Lekani kuwachitira monga zidole zogonana, akuyenera amuna akulu kuposa inu mu mphindi ino.
Ndikuwerenga nkhani zobwezeretsa, komanso nkhani za anthu omwe akhala ndi mavuto kwakanthawi ndipo anthu ambiri amalankhula zamphamvu. Kodi supermans kapena chiyani? Dziwani kuti, simudzakhala ndi mphamvu zoposa, mungokhala munthu wabwinobwino. Mudzakhala munthu momwe mumayenera kukhalira ngati simunayang'ane zolaula kwanthawi yayitali. Kodi ndili kuti tsopano? Ndinazindikira izi pazolinga zamoyo kalekale, ndipo ndidasintha kakhalidwe kanga kathunthu. Ndimaphunzira ukadaulo wamakina, m'dziko langa ndi koleji yovuta kwambiri, ndipo ndamaliza mayeso ovuta kwambiri chifukwa ndadzipereka kwathunthu, miyezi isanu ndi umodzi ndipo ndine injiniya… Kodi mungakhulupirire?
Zaka 3 zapitazo sindinali munthu, wopanda cholinga ... tsopano ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi katatu pamlungu, ndimawoneka bwino, ndidayamba nkhonya chaka chapitacho ndipo ndizothandiza pamoyo ndikhulupirireni, chifukwa moyo ndi mdani wamkulu, ndipo ngati inu ofooka, adzakuswetsani. Ndimayenda kwambiri nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndingathe, ndi ndalama kapena wopanda. Ndimacheza kwambiri, ndimayankhula ndi anthu ambiri, nthawi zina ndimapita kukakwera matola.
Bwenzi langa linandisiya zaka 5 zapitazo, ndipo lero tili palimodzi, komanso kukhala oona mtima ndikadakhala pamalo ake 5 zaka zapitazo, ndikadachitanso zomwe adachita kale chifukwa ndidali wopusa. Tsopano, ndimakondwera naye, ali wokongola kwambiri, ndimamukonda kwambiri ndipo timakhala nthawi yayitali limodzi.
Ndipo tsopano china chokhudza kugonana chomwe ndikuganiza kuti aliyense akufuna kudziwa. Zizolowezi zolaula ... Sindingakuuzeni nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndidachita PMO, koma kwenikweni, ndikuganiza kuti kupitilira chaka ndi theka kwatha. Kodi timagonana bwino? Inde tili nawo, nthawi iliyonse ndikamuwona ali wamaliseche mnyamatayo ndi wolimba mwala ndipo timachita karezza kugonana chifukwa ndikuganiza kuti si nzeru kuchita zachiwerewere ndi kudzimbidwa koyambirira ndipo zimakupangitsani kumva kuti mukufuna mnzanu mochulukirachulukira ndipo ndiwothandiza muubwenzi wanthawi yayitali kuti moto pakati pa onse azikhala nawo ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ngati mutagonana ndi mphumu ndikutulutsa umuna nthawi zambiri zimatha kukubwezeretsani pang'ono.
Vuto ndiloti libido yanga sinachiritsidwe ndiye sikuti ndikuyenda ndi miyala mu buluku langa koma ngati angafunike kuchitapo kanthu, ADZAKHALA okonzeka. Nthawi yomaliza pomwe ndinawona zolaula za TRANNY zidapitilira zaka 2 zapitazo, ndipo ndikhulupirireni sindinalembe mpaka pano hahaha.
Funso ndiloti nthawi zonse mumayenera kukhala osokoneza bongo pazithunzi zolaula kapena mtundu uliwonse. AYI !! Pambuyo pazaka zoposa 2, ndayiwaliratu za momwe ndidayiwonera, koma muyenera kulimbana nayo. Sichikhala ntchito yosavuta.
Monga ndidanenera kale, ndapeza zotengera zolaula, ndipo patatha nthawi yayitali akukhala moyo wokangalika, zidatha. Mukasiya kuonera zolaula, bongo wanu adzafunafuna dopamine mwanjira iliyonse yomwe ndingathe, ndikukuuzani kuti mudzayerekeze kugwera ku ubongo wanu nthawi zonse, ndipo mutapambana nkhondo zambiri muubongo wanu, ikuyimirani, ndipo ikukhala bwenzi lanu. Muyenera kuyikamo zolaula, ndipo yankho labwino kwambiri pazomwe ndidachita, ndikupereka chibwenzi changa akaunti yanga yotseketsa zolaula kuti aziwona zonse zomwe ndimafufuza pa intaneti. Yeserani tsopano kuyang'ana zolaula kapena chilichonse chokhudzana ndi masewera ngati muli ndi mipira. Kuti tifupikitse, YOPHUNZITSIRA KWAMBIRI SIYABWINO KWA inu.
Tsopano ndikukuuzani mwachidule zomwe muyenera kuchita ndi zomwe simuyenera kuchita:
1) Nthawi yomweyo lekani kuonera zolaula, ndikusiya ndi maliseche. (anthu ena amati kuseweretsa maliseche ndibwino, koma kodi ndizotheka kwa inu omwe mumakonda kuchita maliseche kuti muzichita maliseche osaganizira? Sindikuganiza choncho, ndipo maliseche amatenga mphamvu zanu, ndipo mphamvu ndi zomwe muyenera kuchita ZOPHUNZITSA zinthu.)
2) Mwaleka kuyang'ana zolaula, zikomo ndipo tsopano siyani kuonera makanema osayimika a YouTube ndi zithunzi za bikini kapena zithunzi za facebook, twitter, instagram ndi masamba ena miliyoni ngati awa. PITIRIZANI KUTENGA Zithunzi. Mukungodzipusitsa.
3) Ikani zolaula zabwino zolaula ndikupereka akaunti yanu kwa atsikana anu / chibwenzi / bwenzi / amayi / abambo / mlongo / mlongo / m'bale kapena aliyense.
4) Yambani kuchita zinthu zabwino pakali pano, koma poyamba kutuluka m'nyumba yanu, ndiyabwino kuyamba. Chitani zomwe mukufuna kuchita kwa nthawi yayitali.
5) MUSAPITE KUGONANA NDIPO YAMBIRANI KUGANIZA INU NOKHALA NDI AMBUYE, NDINAKHUMUDWA KUTI SIYO !!! Ndizopanda phindu, Sizoipa monga kuwonera zolaula, koma ndikhulupirireni kuti ndizoyipa.
6) Muyenera kufunafuna mnzanu. Wina yemwe mutha kugawana naye zinsinsi komanso wina amene mungamuuze zomwe zikuchitika. Ndikofunikira kwambiri. Kupatsa Mphoto CHINTHU CHOFUNIKA KWAMBIRI. Werenganinso !!!!!! Popanda izi, zinthu zimayenda pang'onopang'ono momwe angathere. Muyenera kuuza wokondedwa wanu zomwe zikuchitika chifukwa zidzathandiza kuti zinthu zizikhala zosavuta ndipo zidzakuchotsani. Ngati sakufuna kukhala wokuthandizani pamoyo wanu mukamachira, kuposa momwe sayenera kukuthandizani.
7) Mukawerenga masikuwo, MUSAKhumudwe ngati simukuwona kusintha pambuyo pa masiku opusa a masiku 90. Ndikhulupirireni, anthu ena atha kuchiritsidwa pambuyo pa masiku 90, koma ngati ndinu ovuta kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula monga momwe ndimakhalira, kuposa masiku 90 kumangotentha. Pambuyo masiku 90 muyenera kukhala opanda chilimbikitso chowonera zolaula ndipo ndizo zonse. Iyi ndi nthawi yomwe muyenera kugwiritsa ntchito nthawi yanu yopuma kuti muchite zinazake zabwino.
8) ZOSANGALATSA. Mayi wopusa ... nthawi yoyipa. Osandifunsa kapena aliyense zitenga nthawi yayitali bwanji chifukwa palibe amene akudziwa, mwina mwezi, kapena chaka, ngati wina akuwuzani kuti zitenga masiku 34, maola 9 ndi mphindi 14, mwina ndiwodzala ndi zoyipa. Yakwana nthawi yomwe ubongo wanu umafunikira kukhala wabwinobwino choncho muloleni atenge nthawi yonse yomwe akufuna. Izi ndizabwino kwambiri chifukwa zimamasula ubongo wanu pazolakalaka zolaula.
9) NKHANI ZA M'MAWA… chabwino ngati muganiza za izo tsiku ndi tsiku, ndizotheka kuti mulibe. Osakakamiza chilichonse. Ndi chizindikiro chabwino kuti mukuyenda bwino, koma mutha kudzuka popanda izi pazifukwa miliyoni monga nkhawa, kupsinjika kapena ALARM. Mukadzuka tsiku lililonse pogwiritsa ntchito alamu, ndiye kuti sizachilendo kuti mudumphe nthawi ngati imeneyi m'mawa mukakhala ndi mitengo yam'mawa. Chifukwa chake musadandaule za izi, nthawi yoyamba patatha zaka khumi ndimamva matabwa am'mawa patatha miyezi 4 ku NoFap. Anthu ena adakumana nazo pakatha miyezi 6 kapena 8 kapena kupitilira apo, musadandaule.
10) Musakhulupilire bongo wanu, adzayesa kukuchenjezani kangapo, tsopano ndiye mdani wanu. Osakugawira.
11) Khalani ndi anthu, ofunikira kwambiri.
Ndikuganiza kuti ndaphimba chilichonse chofunikira, tsopano ndithandizira anzanga omwe ali ndi HOCD (yoletsa zolaula kapena ayi).
Monga ndanenera kale m'mbuyomu, chifukwa chakusowa kwa dopamine muubongo wanga kwakanthawi ndidayamba kuwonera zolaula zogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha. Zithunzi zolaula zokhudzana ndi chiwerewere zidakhala zosangalatsa kwambiri. Ndinkafunika kumenyedwa mwamphamvu pamutu, ndipo mitundu iyi inali yamphamvu kwambiri kotero ndinali bwino nayo, ndimadziwa kuti ndi zolaula zokha. Mavuto anga adayamba nditazindikira kuti sindingathe kukonza zolaula kapena ndi atsikana enieni. Ndinawopa kuti ndikhoza kukhala gay, ndipo mphindi 5 pambuyo pake HOCD.
Monga ndidanenera, masabata oyamba anali milungu yoyipitsitsa m'moyo wanga. Ndinali wamantha kwambiri, sindinakhulupirire kuti zikuchitika kwa ine, nthawi zonse ndimakonda atsikana, ndimakonda nawo, ndimawaganizira komanso zinthu zina zonse zokongola. Ndilibe chilichonse chotsutsana ndi amuna ogonana amuna okhaokha koma sindimatha kuwamvetsetsa. Kotero zomwe ndinachita, ndinayamba kuyang'ana za HOCD tsiku ndi tsiku ndi usiku, zinakhala zovuta zanga. Nthawi zina ndimamva kupumula nditawerenga za izi pa intaneti, ndipo nthawi zina ndimawerenga zinalembedwa ndi wina yemwe sakudziwa kuti HOCD ndi chiyani ndipo ndimamva chisoni. Zinanditengera mphamvu zanga zonse, sindimatha kugwira bwino ntchito, sindimatha kucheza ndi anzanga chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti ndikumva kuti ndingakhale gay. Ngati mwamuna wina anali pafupi nane, ndikadadwala. Ndimayang'ana amuna ndi akazi aliwonse mumsewu ndikuyesera kuti ndimvetse zomwe ndimakonda. Ndikawona mkazi, sindimamva chilichonse (chifukwa cha zolaula zanga zidawononga ubongo), ndipo ndikayang'ana munthu wosasintha ndimamva kuyankha kovuta. Zinali zoyipa kwambiri.
Nditha kulemba za masamba ena 10 chifukwa ndakhala ndikulimbana nawo kwazaka pafupifupi 2 koma sinditero chifukwa mukudziwa zinthu zonse. Chifukwa chake chaka choyamba chinali chowoneka bwino, ndimafuna kudziwa mayankho onse chifukwa chomwe ndili chonchi. Mukuona, ili ndi vuto, sindikufuna kulitcha HOCD, chifukwa ndingolitchula kuti OCD chifukwa ndi lomwe lili. Kodi mukudziwa kuti OCD ndi chiyani? Kuwonongeka Kwamphamvu-Kukakamiza. Ndizosavuta ANXIETY. Funso limodzi kwa inu ndi ubongo wanu muli ndi tsiku lonse loti mukulikonza. Ndikhulupirireni, INU NDINU OSATI GAY KAPENA OCHULUKA, ndipo mukudziwa chifukwa chiyani ndili wotsimikiza 100000%? Chifukwa mumaopa kuti ndinu ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha. Ndiuzeni china chake, mukuganiza kuti anthu ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha amawopa kuti ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha? Ayi ayi, akuwopa momwe anthu achitire zinthu ndipo ndizo zonse. Safuna kugonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, ali osangalala chifukwa ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, ndikhulupirireni, ndalankhula ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha ambiri. Mukawafunsa, angakhale anthu osangalala kwambiri m'chilengedwe chonse ngati atakhala ndi dziko lachiwerewere pomwe palibe amene angawawone ngati pali china chake cholakwika. Ndipo ndikakufunsani kuti mukufuna kukhala amuna kapena akazi okhaokha kapena owongoka, ndikudziwa yankho, koma simuyenera kuyankha, chifukwa ubongo wanu uzisewera ndipo simungamve ngati mukundiuza chowonadi.
Mwina mumadzilingalira muli ndi amuna onse okuzungulirani ndipo mumamva kunyansidwa, mantha komanso kutopa chifukwa ubongo wanu ukugwira ntchito mwachangu kwambiri ndipo kukuchotsani mphamvu zanu zonse. Mukuganiza kuti munthu amene amagonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha amanyansidwa ndi mwamuna wina wokongola? Sindikuganiza choncho. Koma mumachita ndipo ndizomwe zimakupangitsani kukhala owongoka 10000%. OCD imamenya NTHAWI ZONSE zomwe simuli !!!!!!! Kumbukirani izi !!!
Tsiku lililonse likhala lovuta ndipo mudzadzifunsa mafunso miliyoni, ndipo ndi zomwe OCD ali. Ndidawerengapo mayeso opusa a OCD za momwe mungadziyese mukupsompsona mwamuna kapena ayi (mumakonda kapena ayi) ndipo ngati mukuti inde ndiye kuti ndinu ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha ndipo ngati mukuti ayi mulunjika. Ndizopusa chifukwa mwina mungakane koma ubongo wanu ungakuuzeni kuti sizowona. Chifukwa chake musachite mayeso opusa awa.
Chotsatira ndi amuna ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha omwe amakhala muzipinda zapakhomo. Chonde musayambe kumangoyenda ngati ndili m'chipinda kapena ayi hahahaha chifukwa simuli ndipo adzangowononga ubongo wanu. Anthu omwe anali "owongoka" moyo wawo wonse ndipo ali ndi ana ndipo tsopano ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, kenako mumadzifunsa nokha, bwanji ngati ili ndi vuto langa… hmm hmmm… chabwino sikuti chifukwa anali amuna kapena akazi okhaokha ndipo nthawi zonse amafuna kukhala ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha koma samatha chifukwa cha gulu komanso chipembedzo. Ndili ndi mayeso amodzi abwino kwambiri kwa inu omwe andithandiza kwambiri. Mukakhala mgalimoto, ndikudikirira pa traffic light, ndipo mwana wankhuku wina wotentha kwambiri akuyenda kutsogolo, chabwino mphindi ino yoyamba zomwe mumamva mukamawona msungwanayu ndi zomwe inu muli. Kodi mukumvetsetsa? Mphindi yoyamba iyi pomwe mudamuwona msungwanayo ubongo wanu wopusa ndi OCD utayamba kutenga nawo mbali ndikuyesera kuseweretsani nanu ndikuyesera kukutsimikizirani kuti ndinu ogonana ndi zomwe muli. Pambuyo pa masekondi 5 ubongo wanu uzikuuzani kuti akubwereka ndipo muyenera kuyang'ana mnyamata wina wokongola, koma sikofunika, mphindi yoyamba mukamuwona ndi yofunika.
Kodi ndimagonjetsa bwanji OCD? Chifukwa chakuti ndinali wokonda zolaula, sindinathe kugwiritsa ntchito ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention) pogwiritsa ntchito zolaula chifukwa ndimomwe ndidazipezera, chifukwa chake ndimagwiritsa ntchito moyo weniweni wa ERP. Nthawi zambiri ndimapita ku sauna komwe kuli anyamata ambiri amaliseche ndipo ena mwa iwo ndi achiwerewere ndipo amakukuyang'anani nthawi zina (nthawi zina ndimadzida chifukwa chokhala LOL wokongola), koma ndikhulupirireni kuti ndiye chida champhamvu kwambiri chotsutsana ndi OCD.
Osasiya kucheza ndi anzako ndipo osasiya kuchita zinthu ndikuyendera malo omwe mumawona ngati zonyansa, sikuthandiza, mukazindikira kuti palibe amene angakupwetekeni komanso kuti ndi lingaliro chabe lopusa ndiye mukupita kumva bwino. Malingaliro ndi malingaliro chabe. Nthawi zambiri ndimalota za ine ndi anyamata ena akuchita zinthu, ndi zomwe ndidachita nthawi yoyamba? Ndinatsala pang'ono kudzipha, ndipo ndinachita chiyani kachiwiri? Palibe, ndinangodziuza ndekha kuti ndili ndi zinthu zofunika kuchita kuposa kudandaula za CHINTHU. Zolaula ndi zolaula chabe, awa ndi ma pixels chabe.
Mumapita ku cinema ndipo mumalipira ndalama zambiri kuti muwonere kanema wowopsa pomwe bambo yemwe ali ndi zingwe zakuthwa amadula anthu pakati, ndiye kodi zikutanthauza kuti m'moyo weniweni mungakonde kuwonera? Sindikuganiza choncho. Mudawonera kanemayu chifukwa ndiwopanda pake ndipo mudasangalala. Kodi mukumva?
Mukuganiza mwina mukakhala pabedi ndi mnyamata wina ndipo mumakhala ndi erection ndipo mwadzidzidzi mumagonana… Ichi ndichinthu chomwe ambiri aife titha kuchita. Osewera ambiri mumakanema olaula a gay amakhala owongoka. Ngati mutsegula mulingo wa Kinsey, muwona kuti si anthu ambiri omwe ali achiwerewere 100% kapena 100% molunjika. Zimatanthawuza kuti anthu ambiri amatha kugonana ndi munthu yemwe amagonana naye, koma chinthu chofunikira ndichokhacho chomwe mukufuna. Ndipo tsopano mwasokonezeka ndipo simukumvetsetsa zomwe mukufuna. Malingalirowa akangofika kwa inu, chinthu chokhacho chomwe muyenera kuchita ndi CHABE. Uku ndiye kusiyana kokha pakati pa inu ndi wina yemwe alibe OCD. Ngati wina yemwe alibe OCD amadzifunsa kuti ndi gay, yankho lake lidzakhala lalifupi. PALIBE sekondi limodzi ndipo zonsezi sizingakonzedwe komanso zovuta koma osati inu. Simungachite izi. Mumaganizira za izo nthawi zonse.
Sindingathe kulemba chilichonse chokhudza izi chifukwa ndidapeza pafupifupi yankho lililonse ngakhale funsolo linali lopusa bwanji. Ndikuganiza kuti ndili ndi mayankho onse omwe mungafune chifukwa ndinali ndi HOCD yayikulu ndipo ndimayigonjetsa. Mukuwona, musafufuze za HOCD kapena OCD, ngati mukufunikiradi, fufuzani ZOKHUDZA KWAMBIRI chifukwa ndi zomwe zikukuvutitsani, HOCD ndi gawo lotsatira chabe, NKHANI ndiye muzu wamavuto anu ndipo ngati mukufuna kukaonana ndi wazamisala, sankhani mwanzeru chifukwa alipo ambiri omwe sakudziwa zomwe mukukambirana, ndipo mudzamva kuwawa kuposa kale…
Chifukwa chake, anyamata, ngati wina ali ndi funso lililonse pazinthu, musamasuke kufunsa chifukwa ndikuganiza kuti lembalo likhala lalikulu kwambiri. Ndili ndi malingaliro mamiliyoni m'mutu mwanga okonda kusuta komanso HOCD yomwe ndikufuna kugawana nanu anyamata kotero kungosankha buku ndi buku hehehe.
Ndinafuna kulemba izi kwa nthawi yayitali chifukwa ndikumva kuti ndili ndi mwayi wokhala ndimagulu.
Ndikufuna kunena kuthokoza kwa munthu aliyense wamkulu patsamba lino ndi masamba ena onse, omwe andithandiza kwambiri mu nthawi zowopsa kwambiri m'moyo wanga, ndipo ndikufunitsitsa modzipereka kwambiri kwa aliyense.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi zithandiza munthu wina ndikuthandizani ena a inu anyamata. Ngati munthu mmodzi yekha akhala bwino atatha kuwerenga izi, ndipo ngati munthu m'modzi yekha achita zomwe ndanena, kuposa kuyesetsa konseku kolemba izi kudzandipangitsa kukhala munthu wosangalala kwambiri kukhala wamoyo.
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