Mukudziwa chiyani? Ndikumva ngati njoka ikatha khungu. Ngakhale zili kutali kwambiri ... zolimbikitsa zolaula ndizotsika kwambiri, koma kubwereranso ku chinthu chenicheni chomwe changoyamba kumene. Pakadali pano, ndikungodziwa kuti mbewu zomwe ndimabzala chaka chatha mu Julayi nditawerenga nkhani yomwe idanditsogolera ku NoFap.
Koma tiyeni tiyambire pachiyambi…
… Nthawi yomwe zofuna zanga zogonana zinadzuka, ndinali ndi zaka 10 ndikuganiza. Nditakhala ndi TV yanga ndili ndi zaka 12 kapena 13, ndidayamba kulota ndikumapanga ma mtv clip, zotsatsa pa hotelo yogonana ndi zonse zomwe ndimapeza pulogalamu yonseyi. Awo anali mizu ya chizolowezi choyipa ndipo ndimawalola kuti akule zaka 10 zikubwerazi! Kompyuta yanga yoyamba. Intaneti. Mwamwayi, ndinali kale ndi 14 ndipo ndimangokhala ndi modem yocheperako ya 56k yoti ndigwire nayo ntchito koma zinali zokwanira kuumitsa zizolowezi zanga maliseche kudzera pazanema, popeza anzanga ena adagawana nawo zolaula pamaphwando a LAN, nawonso. Ndinakumana koyamba ndi azimayi azaka za 15. Talingalirani chiyani, sizinamveke zachilengedwe kapena zondisangalatsa. Chifukwa cha mawonekedwe anga abwino ndinali ndi zibwenzi zingapo (ubale wanga wautali kwambiri unali pafupifupi miyezi 3), koma ndidavutika ndi ED kuyambira pamenepo. Ndakhala ndi mwayi khumi ndi awiri kumasula v-khadi, koma sindinathe kuyitulutsa ndipo sindinasangalale ndikamachita izi, zomwe zinali zokhumudwitsa komanso zonyoza. Kenako kunabwera intaneti yothamanga kwambiri.
Ndinali ndi zaka 19 ndipo ndidangochoka panyumba ya makolo anga. Kukula tsiku ndi tsiku, zizolowezi zinafika poipa ndipo ndidayamba kukhala ndi vuto lalikulu, chifukwa ndimakhudzidwa ndi chilichonse. Osati kokha chifukwa cha kukula - moyo wanga unali wosasangalatsa komanso wopanda kanthu panthawiyi. Ndinkayamwa maphunziro anga, kumwa mowa mopitirira muyeso, kudya pizza 2 patsiku, kusewera masewera a kanema osachepera maola 5 patsiku (kuyika mizu ya vutoli ndi pc yanga yoyamba, nawonso.), Kusuta, sikunathetsere wakale wanga -gf yemwe anali pachibwenzi ndi anzanga angapo, analibe masomphenya amtsogolo mwanga ndipo samakonda chilichonse. Ndiloleni ndikuwuzeni: ndende yotonthoza. Panali mphindi imodzi yokha, yovuta kwambiri m'moyo wanga mpaka pano, ndinali nditangokhala mchipinda changa osamva kalikonse. Kukhala chete kwathunthu. Palibe kutentha, kumva, kupweteka. Ndinali nditangokhala pamenepo ngati chiboliboli choyang'ana m'makoma amaliseche ndipo zidandichititsa mantha. Kuyambira tsiku lomwelo ndimafuna kusintha zinthu zina, koma kudzuka kwenikweni kunabwera ndi mayeso anga ochokera ku yunivesite. Kunali kumenya mbama pamaso koma kunathandizadi. Ndinayamba kukumana ndi mavuto tsiku lomwelo ndipo ndinkafuna kutulutsa khola lomwe ndinapanga, koma ndiyambira pati?
Ndinazindikira NoFap kudzera m'nyuzipepala yapaintaneti chaka chamawa. Zinali za James Cameron amalankhula zakuletsa zolaula pa intaneti. Mu gawo la ndemanga panali munthu uyu yemwe adalemba ulalo wa NoFap ndipo kuchokera pamenepo zinthu zidayamba kumveka bwino. Ndazindikira "Ubongo Wanu Pa Zithunzi", makanema a TED ndi anyamata onse omwe akuvutika pamafamu a reddit akugawana nkhani zawo zolimbikitsa. Sindinali ndekha panonso! Ndinayamba ndi vuto laulere la 30 tsiku la PMO, ndinayesetsa, ndinabwereranso, masiku ochepa a 7, ndinazungulira, ndinalimbana, ndinalimbana ndi zolakalaka ndipo pamapeto pake ndinakwanitsa kufikira 90. Ndinasiya kusuta, ndinasiya kusewera ndipo ndimangomwa mowa kumapeto kwa sabata tsopano. Ndidakhala pachibwenzi ndi mtsikana, ndimakopana kwambiri ndipo sabata yatha ndimayandikira atsikana a 3 modzidzimutsa zomwe sindinachitepo kale. Ndikumva kulimba mtima, ndidayamba kuchita masewera ndi kusinkhasinkha, ndapeza ntchito ndikuphika pafupipafupi. Ndikupita kukawona anzanga pafupipafupi ndipo pali chinthu chimodzi chomwe chimandipangitsa kukhala wosangalala kwambiri: Ndimayamba kumva momwe sindinadziwepo kuyambira ndili mwana. Pali kuyamikira kwachilengedwe kwa zinthu zazing'ono. Dzuwa lagolide pa nyali ya mlatho, akhwangwala otulutsa ma walnuts mumsewu kuti magalimoto aziwadutsa akudutsa, kukumbatirana maanja, kununkhira kwa udzu wothothoka komanso, kukongola kwa msungwana akumandimwetulira.
Zikundiuza, kuti ndidapanga kutsika koyenera. Zikundiuza, kuti mutha kutuluka mumayendedwe akuya omwe ali ndi manja anu opanda mphamvu komanso mphamvu yakufunira. Zikundiuza, kuti kuyesetsa kwanu lero ndi mphotho yomwe mupeze komwe mukupita mawa komanso kuti palibe mphamvu yoti ithetse amuna omwe akupita kwa iye yekha. Ndikukulimbikitsani kuti mutenge ulendowu. Ikani mtundu wina m'moyo wanu. Limbani ntchito nokha ndikukwera phirilo pang'ono pang'ono mpaka mukafike pamwamba pomwe mudzathe kufuula mpaka ku chigwa cha dothi ndi kuzunzika komwe mwauka pakuseka za zovuta ndi zovuta zomwe tsopano zikuwoneka zazing'ono komanso zomvetsa chisoni mpaka kudabwa chifukwa chomwe amakuletsani. Ndife amuna, chifukwa cha milungu. Yakwana nthawi yobwezera zomwe zidatengedwa.
"Chinsinsi cha kusinthaku ndikuyang'ana mphamvu zanu zonse, osati pomenyana ndi zakale, koma pomanga zatsopano." - Socates
… Mawu amenewa anditsogolera m'masiku ovutawa. Zinali zothandiza kwa ine kujambula bowo ngati gawo lina la ine lomwe ndidadyapo ndipo tsopano ndalowetsa china chathanzi komanso chachilengedwe. Kwambiri. Kuledzera ndi kachilombo, chiwanda chomwe chimakutengera. Zomwe mumapeza sizikhala kanthu, kachidutswa kakang'ono kokhalitsa kokasangalala kwanthawi yayitali. Ndi zonyansa. Ndi kapangidwe. Ndimadana nazo ndikulakalaka kutenga zaka 10 za moyo wanga zomwe ndikadagwiritsa ntchito pofufuza zachiwerewere.
Ndinakulira pankhondoyi ndipo ndikulakalaka tsiku lina ndidzapeza yemwe ndingakhale munthu wabwino. Sindingatengere vuto lililonse pachibwenzi changa. Anyamata. Ndizovuta, koma ndi mdani wamaganizidwe okha. Ingokuuzani kuti gawo lalikulu la nkhondoyi ndi kupewa china chake. Zikhala zosavuta. Ndipo kwa anyamata omwe ali mmenemo masabata angapo: dziwani! Pazakona amabisala chotsatira chotsatira, phunzitsani malingaliro anu kuti muwone, kuwunika ndikulola chidwi cha PMO. Ndipo zidzapita.
Tsiku lina zidzapita kwamuyaya.
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