Ndili ndi zaka 25. Zinanditengera miyezi yambiri ya 18 ya kubwezeretsanso kuti ndithetse ku ED okwanira ndi 50% erection ku erection yamphamvu kwambiri yomwe ndakhala nayo kuyambira ndili mwana komanso ndondomeko ya 0 ED.
Mbiri yofulumira: Ndinabadwira mumzinda wa San Antonio, ku Texas kumene ndimakondwera ndi ubwana wosangalatsa. Banja lalikulu, amzanga apamtima, ndipo ankachita nawo masewera olimbitsa thupi.
Ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche ndili ndi 12 kapena 13 zolaula. Sindinakhulupirire chisangalalo chifukwa chodzisangalatsa nthawi yoyamba yomwe zidachitika. Kwa zaka 3 kapena 4 zotsatira ndakhala ndikuseweretsa maliseche pafupifupi tsiku lililonse ndikuonera zolaula komanso momwe ndimakondera ndimagwiritsa ntchito malingaliro anga. Chaka changa chachikulu cha kusekondale ndidakhala ndi mtsikana kwakanthawi ndikutaya namwali kwa iye, koma zosankha zanga sizinali zoyipa makamaka popeza inali nthawi yanga yoyamba ndi mtsikana ndipo chisangalalo chake chinali padenga. Sitinachite zogonana kangapo kangapo. Sindinachitenso zogonana kusukulu yasekondale zomwe zinali zachilendo chifukwa ndinali mnyamata yemwe bwalo lake lalikulu la 15 kapena abwenzi omwe amacheza limodzi kumapeto kwa sabata iliyonse, komanso anali munthu yemwe amacheza ndi zosiyana zambiri magulu azikhalidwe. Ndikusowa kwa kugonana, ndinkasewera maliseche makamaka popeza ndinalandira laputopu ndi iphone pano. Amayi anga adandilowererapo kamodzi ndikamachita izi ndipo zochititsa manyazizo sizinachedwetse.
Ndinapita kukoleji ku University of Texas ndipo ndimakhala mchipinda chogona cha 4 ndimakhala ndi anthu ena omwe anali ochezeka komanso osangalala chaka changa chatsopano. Tonse timasewera basketball ndikumenya nawo masewera olimbitsa thupi madzulo komanso maphwando kumapeto kwa sabata. Sindinakhalepo ndi vuto lopusitsa azimayi ndipo ndinabweretsanso chaka chatsopano ndikukhala ndi vuto logonana. Ndinawona kuti zosankhazo sizinali zamphamvu, koma ndimaganiza kuti anali mowa kapena mtsikanayo ndipo ndinangopitilira. M'chaka changa cha Freshman kugwiritsira ntchito zolaula kunayamba kuwonjezeka kwambiri. Ndimagwiritsa ntchito PMO ngati njira yopulumukira kupsinjika makamaka kumapeto kwa sabata ndipo pamapeto pake kugwiritsa ntchito kwa PMO kudakhala kwamphamvu kwambiri. Ndinalowa m'magulu osiyanasiyana ndipo kuyambira pamenepo kupita ku PMO nthawi zosachepera 2 patsiku ku koleji. Ndinayamba kulowerera ndipo ndinangotaya chikhumbo changa. Ndinasiya kusewera basketball ndipo ndinasiya kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi nthawi zambiri. Ndinazilimbikitsabe kuti ndipite kumisonkhano yamabungwe, makalasi, ndi zina zotero, koma zinali choncho kwa anzanga omwe amandithandizira. Ndikakhala ndimacheza ndi anthu, ndimangokhala ngati wokonda kuseweretsa komanso kucheza, koma m'maganizo mwanga, ndimakonda kusiya zochitika zapaulendo ndikumangopita kunyumba ndikuseweretsa maliseche zolaula.
Nditangomaliza maphunziro anga kukoleji, ndidaganiza zosamukira kwina komwe ndikakakamizidwa kupanga anzanga kuti asakhale omvetsa chisoni. Ndinasamukira ku New York City koyambirira kwa chaka cha 2011 ndipo ichi chinali chisankho chabwino kwambiri chomwe ndidapangapo. Ndinapeza ntchito yabwino pakampani ina yolemekezeka ndipo sindimagwiridwa molimbika ngati anzanga aku banki. Ndinagwira ntchito pakati pa 50 ndi 60 maola sabata ndipo ndinkakhala mnyumba yaying'ono yazipinda zitatu. Ichi mwina chinali chinthu chabwino kwambiri chomwe chidandichitikirapo. Ndinakakamizika kutuluka mnyumbamo pafupifupi maola 3 patsiku ndikubwera kunyumba yaying'ono sizinali zosangalatsa kwambiri kotero ndinakakamizidwa kupeza anzanga, kutuluka kunja, kucheza, ndi zina zambiri. Ndinayambiranso chibwenzi. Ndinali ndi azimayi omwe ndimagona nawo limodzi omwe ndimapita nawo kumaphwando. Mwamwayi, adapita ku NYU ndipo amakhala mwamtendere.
Ndinkachita maliseche kamodzi pa masiku awiri kapena atatu mu 2 omwe anali ochepa kwambiri kuposa kale ndipo sindinagwiritse ntchito zolaula mochuluka. Ndinagonana koyamba kanthawi mu 3 ndipo sikunali kokongola. Ndinavutika maganizo ndipo chizoloŵezi changa cha PMO chinayamba pang'ono makamaka kumapita m'nyengo yozizira kumene sindinkafuna kutuluka. Kumapeto kwa 2011 - Chakumapeto kwa 2011, ndidayamba chibwenzi ndipo ndimayesetsa kugonana pafupifupi 2011 kapena kangapo ndipo ndimangopambana katatu. Ndinapeza YBOP mkatikati mwa Julayi ndikusiya zolaula komanso maliseche, koma mipira yabuluu nthawi zambiri imandikakamiza kuti ndizichita maliseche. 2012 ya nthawi zopambana za 20 idabwera mochedwa mu 3 ndipo anali pafupi ndi 2% erection ngakhale ndi kondomu kuti nditha kuwona kusintha. Pamenepo, ndidaganiza zosiya chibwenzi ndikudzipatsa nthawi yopuma kwa azimayi.
Ndinapita masiku 62 opanda PMO ndipo ndinayambiranso chibwenzi. Ndimakumbukira ndikukhala ndikumupsompsona. Izi zinali zatsopano kwa ine. Sizinachitike ngakhale kwa ine kusekondale. M'mbuyomu, kupsompsonana sikunatanthauze kanthu kwa ine chifukwa zimandiyendetsadi, koma kupsompsona kumathandiza. Patatha milungu ingapo ndidagonana ndi kondomu ndipo ndinali wolimba monga kale. Mowa unathandizanso. Tidagonana kangapo, koma tidasokonekera pomwe amafuna munthu wina wokhwima pang'ono. Ndikufunanso kuwonjezera kuti ndidayamba kugwira ntchito kumapeto kwa 2012 komanso koyambirira kwa 2013 ndipo ndidavala pafupifupi mapaundi 30 amtundu wa 5'9 ″ chimango.
Kwa miyezi yotsatira ya 3 kapena 4, sindinachite maliseche mpaka nditakhala pachibwenzi ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimakhala masiku 30 mpaka 40 opanda PMO. Ndidaphatikizana ndi zibwenzi zambiri ndipo zotsatira zake ndimapeza bwino. Ndinadzipeza ndekha ndikufuna kuthera nthawi yochuluka ndi azimayi awa. Sindimaganiza zopita kunyumba ndikunyamuka kapena kupita kumabala ndi anzanga. Mwamaganizidwe, ndimafuna kukhala ndi azimayi awa ndipo ndimafuna kukhala pachibwenzi. Maganizo anga adasintha kuti akhale abwinoko panthawiyi ndipo ndikuganiza kuti zonsezi ndizobwezera.
Maganizo anga akhala paliponse! Ndikulumikizana kwambiri ndi azimayi ndikuyankha mwamphamvu pamikangano kapena ndewu. Ndakhala ndikumverera pang'ono pantchito komanso zomwe zitha kuwononga, koma ndimakonda kukhala ndimoto pang'ono kapena zest pamagwiridwe anga atsiku ndi tsiku. Zili ngati kuti ndikuchitapo kanthu pazonse zondizungulira osati kukhala loboti yomwe imangochita zomwe akuyenera.
Ndatha kugonana masiku a 3 motsatizana ndimphamvu zolimba ndipo palibe zovuta za PE. Pamwamba pa izo, nkhawa zilizonse zomwe ndinali nazo ndisanachite zogonana tsopano zakwaniritsidwa ndi chisangalalo chomwe ndimakhala nacho. Sindikukumbukira ndili ndi chisangalalo chotere ngakhale ndili kusekondale.
Malangizo a Lucky 7:
- Ngati mumachita maliseche, tengani gehena kutali ndi kompyuta kuti musamakutsutseni.
- Rewire. Rewire. Rewire. Ndikuganiza zambiri zomwe ndapitako zinabwera kuchokera ku rewiring.
- Tulukani m'malo anu abwino. Ngati simukufuna kukomana ndi atsikana, pitani mukakumane ndi atsikana, koma chitani mwaubwenzi ndikuyandikira pafupi nawo. Yesetsani kukumana ndi kucheza ndi anzawo, koma samalani pamilatho yomwe mungawotche.
- Osagwiritsa ntchito zowonjezera. Zimachotsa malingaliro anu kutali ndi cholinga chachikulu chomwe si PMO ndipo zimakupangitsani kufuna kudziyesa nokha.
- Kumbukirani kuti PMO ndi kusintha kwa moyo osati chinthu chimene mukulephera kuchita pa 90, 180, masiku 360 omwe mumayika.
- Sankhani zokondweretsa zomwe zingakulepheretseni kuti muphunzire kapena kuwonetsa zopinga zomwe muyenera kuzigonjetsa. Ndinkakonda kusewera gitala, kuvina ku hip hop, ndi kukwera miyala.
- Sangalalani ndi moyo! Ingotuluka panja panu ndikukhala moyo wanu wonse. Ndine wokonda kwambiri chiwonetserochi Momwe Ndinakumana Ndi Amayi Ako ndipo chimodzi mwazinthu zomwe ndimaganiza chinali nkhani zomwe ndikauze ana anga. Sindikufuna kuwauza nkhani yosasangalatsa yokhudza momwe ndidakhalira ndi PIED komanso ndimakhala kunyumba osayendetsa. Ndikufuna kuwapatsa nkhani yosangalatsa ya moyo yomwe angaphunziremo. Ndili ndi zaka 25 zokha ndiye ndili ndi njira yayitali yoti ndiyende malinga ndi zokumana nazo m'moyo. Ambiri a inu muli azaka zofanana kapena ocheperako chifukwa chake khalani ndi moyo woyenera kukambirana!
Ndiuzeni ngati muli ndi mafunso.
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