Background Ndakhala ndikuchita PMOing kuyambira ndili 13, ndipo ndidatembenuza 25 posachedwa, kotero ndawononga zaka pafupifupi 12 za moyo wanga pafupifupi tsiku lililonse ndikudzimana mphamvu ndi zolinga zanga.
Chosangalatsa ndichakuti nthawi zonse ndimakhulupirira zikhulupiriro, chifukwa ndikakhala ku sekondale ndimaganiza kuti kuseweretsa maliseche tsiku lotsatira kudzandipatsa mwayi tsiku lotsatira, nthawi zambiri zinali zowona. Ndidakhulupirira kuti ndi njira ya Mulungu yakundilangirira tsiku lotsatira ngati ndadzisewera maliseche usiku womwewo. Nthawi zonse ndimamupereka ndikamupereka ndalamayo ndikubwezera kangapo usiku womwewo.
Job Ndinagwira ntchito yotopetsa pakampani ya inshuwaransi. Kutopa nthawi zonse komanso kutopetsa kuyambira pomwe ndimaliza mankhwala anga a Adderall (Ndidamaliza nthawi yomweyo ndikasiya ndudu). Sanali ine ndekha, komanso inali ntchito yanga. Ndinkafuna kulowa pakhomo chaka chimodzi ndi theka zapitazo mu kampaniyo, koma ndinali nditayima pantchito yanga kwakanthawi. Tsiku lomwe ndinasiya PMOing linali tsiku lomwe ndidadziuza kuti ndikufunika kusintha kwathunthu m'moyo wanga. Miyezi eyiti yapitayo ndidasiya kusuta ndudu kwathunthu (ndimakhala ndikusuta zaka 5). Ndinadziuza ndekha ngati ndingathe kusiya ndudu ndikusiya zolaula kuyenera kukhala kosavuta. Mwamuna ndinali kulakwitsa. Testosterone yanga nthawi zonse imadutsa padenga. Komabe, ndimadziuza kuti ndikufuna kuchoka pamalo pomwe ndimakhala (ndinali ku Midwest). Ndinadutsa wolemba ntchito ndipo adandifunsa mafunso atatu ndi makampani atatu olemekezeka. Kuyambira kale sindinathe kuyankhulana pafoni. Ndikuuzeni - Ndidatembenuza magomewo ndikugwedeza onse atatu. Ndinapita kukaona malo atatuwa ndikuti ONSE atatu anandipatsa malowa ndipo anati ndidzakhala woyenera. Sindinayambe ndakhalapo ndi chidaliro panthawi yofunsidwa ndipo ndinkamva kuti ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri, kuyankhulana kulikonse ndimatembenuza tebulo ndikuwafunsa mafunso kuti ndiwone ngati kampaniyo ikundiyenerera bwino, osati njira imodzi yokha. Komanso werengani ku kampani yanga yapano - milungu ingapo yapitayi ya ntchito idawakumbutsa m'mene ndingawathandizire (ndimalumikizana ndi abale) ndipo adandipempha kuti ndikhalebe. Sizinali zanga ndipo ndimafuna kutulukamo nthawi zonse. Ndili pantchito yanga yatsopano ndipo ndimakonda zovuta komanso zosangalatsa (Ndine wofufuza).
ubwenzi Sindinakhalepo ndi chibwenzi mpaka ndinakumana ndi mtsikana ku koleji kubwerera ku '08. Ndimakumbukira bwino kuti sindinakhala ndi PMO kwa sabata limodzi kapena apo ndipo ndinakumana ndi bwenzi langa loyamba panthawiyo. Sindinataye konse v-khadi yanga kwa iye. NDINAKHALA nthawi zambiri nditakumana ndi iye ndipo tinathetsa banja mosakhalitsa. Mwinanso chifukwa chosowa choyendetsa pa chilichonse. Nditataya unamwali wanga ndi mtsikana wina pambuyo pake ndidakhala "wotenga mwayi" ndi akazi, kapena zomwe ena amadzitcha hule. Sindinazikonde, ndinali wokhumudwa chifukwa ndimatha kukondana mosavuta, koma ndimayambiranso zibwenzi mwachangu. Sabata imodzi nditayimitsa PMOing (sabata imodzi ndisanayambe kulemba) ndinakumana ndi mkazi wokongola kwambiri. Ndine ochepa kudziko lino, ndipo ndili ndi nkhope yokongola komanso thupi limodzi ndi umunthu wake wokoma poyamba ndimaganiza kuti wachoka pantchito yanga. Komabe chidaliro changa chidakwera ndipo moona mawonekedwe anga sioyipa. Ndidamufunsa kuti tikhala limodzi kuyambira kale. Sindinakhalepo koma nthawi yodabwitsa ndi iye ndipo chifukwa cha iye sindimadandaula zaka khumi ndi ziwiri zomwe ndinawononga, chifukwa sindikuganiza kuti nditha kukumana ndi wina aliyense zabwinoko.
Moyo sindinakhalepo wosangalala chonchi m'moyo wanga kale. Ntchito yanga yatsopano ndiyabwino, bwenzi langa labwino ndi wamkazi wokongola kwambiri komanso wokoma mtima yemwe ndidakumanapo naye. Amandikonda ndipo amandiyamikira monga momwe ndimachitira naye. Ponena zakuthokoza ndimayamikira anzanga onse makamaka makamaka abale anga tsopano. Ndimawayimbira pafupipafupi kuposa kale ndipo ndimakonda mphindi iliyonse ya moyo. Ngakhale popanda bwenzi langa ndili wokondwa, adakali kwawo ndipo azikasamukira kudziko lina kwakanthawi, koma tidzalumikizana. Sindimangoganizira zazing'ono. Ndi nthawi yonseyi ndimathera yambiri ndikugwira ntchito ndikuphika ndikuphunzira zinthu zatsopano. Sindimawona zaka khumi ndi ziwiri ngati "zinyalala" kwambiri monga ndidanenera poyamba, koma ndimamva ngati kambuku atulutsidwa mchikwere. Vuto lokhalo ndiloti ndimachoka testosterone wanga amakhala wokwera kwambiri ndipo ndimakhala wovuta nthawi zonse. Nditha kuugwira ntchito. Ndilibe gawo lofunika kwambiri pa PMOing - ndasankha kusiya zonse.
Ndimakonda kuwerenga zolemba za aliyense, zina ndi nkhani zabwino ndipo zina ndizolimbikitsa kwambiri. Ngati mwafika pano - zikomo powerenga! Ndikukufunirani zabwino zonse. Zomwe ndimangonena kwa inu anyamata sikuti mukhale ndi zolinga zazifupi, chifukwa mukazikwaniritsa mumamva ngati kuti mukuzitayanso. Yesetsani kuti muchotse kwathunthu.
tl; dr: ntchito yatsopano, bwenzi latsopano, moyo watsopano, wokondwa kwambiri kuposa momwe ndidakhalako.
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