Sindikukhulupirirabe kuti ndakhala nthawi yayitali. Ndamaliza kumaliza pa Januware 29th. Ndakumana ndi zokumana nazo zambiri zabwino chaka chino (kugwira ntchito pawailesi yakanema, kugwirira ntchito nyuzipepala, kukumana ndi anthu atsopano).
Ndipo ndiwamisala kwa ine kuganiza kuti zonsezi zidachitika pambuyo Fungi yanga yomaliza.
Ndili wolingalira kwambiri masiku ano. Nditha kuwerenga buku m'masiku ochepa (chomwe ndi chinthu chachikulu kwa ine). Ndinkakonda kugula matani a mabuku ndi cholinga chowawerenga ndipo sindidandaula. M'masabata atatu apitawa, ndawerenga mabuku 4, ndipo pano ndikuwerenga lina. Pamapeto pake konzekerani kuwerenga mabuku onse omwe ndili nawo.
Maganizo anga sangakhale osayembekezereka. Tsiku lina ndimatha kukhala wolimbikitsidwa komanso wosangalala ndipo tsiku lotsatiralo, ndili wokhumudwa kwambiri. Zili ndi zambiri zokhudzana ndi mawonekedwe anga (Ndine wonenepa kwambiri) komanso kuti ndilibe moyo wambiri. Komabe, ndimayesetsa kuti ndisamangokhalira kuganizira za kusachitako kanthu ndikukhala otanganidwa. Zinthu zitha kukhala zoyipa kwambiri kuposa momwe ziliri.
Ndikhoza kupeza zovuta popanda zovuta masiku ano ndikumva kuti ndikhoza kukhala wokonzeka kugonana. Ndikadali ndi nkhawa zanga zoyesera ngati sindingathe kutero, koma ndikukhulupirira kuti ndiyenera kutero.
Zonsezi, ndine wokondwa kuti ndatha miyezi 8. Kubwerera mu Januware, ndikulowerera mdzenje la PMO kukhumudwa, moona mtima sindinkaganiza kuti lero likubwera. Koma zatero, ndipo zonse zomwe zidatenga chinali chisankho chobwezera zomwe chizolowezi changa cha pr0n chidandichotsa - moyo wanga.
Ndine wokondwa kutenga mafunso aliwonse omwe muli nawo.
LINK - Miyezi ya 8 lero
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ZOCHITIKA - Ripoti langa la tsiku la 90 (pepani kuti werengani kwa nthawi yayitali!)
Ndinagunda pansi pakati pa Epulo.
Nditadzipereka ndekha ngati fap-oholic sanandiyimitse kuti ndikule, ndinaluma chipolopolo ndipo Ndinaganiza zouza anzanga ochepa za chizolowezi ichi - chomwe ndidakhala ndichinsinsi kwa zaka 6. 'Zithunzi zolaula' sizinali kanthu kanga, zomwe zidandichititsa kukhala zithunzi zachikazi za akazi ndipo izi ndi zomwe ndidakulira ndikumangokhalira kuzolowera. Anzanga anali kundithandiza.
Tsoka ilo, ngakhale izi sindinathetse chizolowezi changa cha PMO ndipo ndinayamba pafupifupi sabata kapena kupitilira apo. Ndinabwereranso kwakanthawi kochepa, ndinakhumudwa kwambiri ndipo ndinamva kumenyedwa kwathunthu. Pambuyo pake tsiku lomwelo, ndidaledzera palimodzi ndikuuza anzanga ochepa. Anasokonezeka poyamba (mwachilengedwe), koma nawonso anali othandizira. Ili linali thanthwe kwa ine ndipo ndiye anali wolimbikitsa kumbuyo kwa masiku 90 awa.
Ndazindikira zambiri za ine m'masiku awa 90;
* Ndazindikira zomwe zimayambitsa - zomwe zimandipangitsa kuti ndizisintha - ndipo ndatha kuwongolera izi makamaka (kwa ine, ndikungokhala kutali ndi intaneti zikhumbo zikabwera).
* M'masiku 90 apitawa, ndapita pazithunzi zitatu zamaliseche nditawona china NSFW pa reddit komanso chodabwitsa / chowopsya kumva kusintha komwe kumachitika mukamachita. Kulakalaka kwakukulu kumakukhudzani ndikukufunsani kuti muthe - kumverera kovuta kwambiri kubwerera. Zomwe zili ngati chizolowezi chanu zimagwira ntchito mosadalira chifuniro chanu - ndichifukwa chake chifuniro chanu chiyenera kulimbikitsidwa. Muyenera kuwonetsa omwe akuyang'anira.
*Kulingalira ndichizolowezi changa chomwe chimakwera mobwerezabwereza ndikagona, usiku kapena m'mawa, ndipo ndapeza kuti imatha kukulitsa zokhumba zanu ndikuchulukitsa. Zabwino zake kuzidula mukazindikira kuti mukuchita.
*Kupatula zitsanzo zochepa, nkhawa yanga yokhudzana ndi chikhalidwe chawonjezeka kwambiri yomwe ndimanena kuti kusintha kwa mankhwala muubongo wanga kuchoka popanda PMO. Kuti ndiyesetse kulimbana ndi izi, ndakhala ndikuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikuwerenga - Ndachepa thupi, ndikuwoneka bwino kuposa momwe ndakhalapo ndikuthana ndi nkhawa, ndikukhazikika m'maganizo mwanga ndikumangokhalira kudzikayikira ndikungochita ubongo wanga .
* Mbolo yanga imakhala yolimba komanso yayitali nthawi zambiri, koma masiku ena imawoneka ngati chikopa chachikopa. Mitengo yammawa imabwera ndikudutsa (ndinali nayo lero koma sindingakumbukire nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndidachita).
* Magawo oyipitsitsa kwambiri achotsedwe kwa PMO kwa ine ndiwotalika, akuwoneka kuti satha matope ndi kulumala, kupweteka kwa mutu kumandivuta. Amadutsa maola ochepa, koma munthu ndiwambiri.
Ndakhala ndikudzikongoletsa kuyambira tsiku loyamba ndipo ndikutenga izi ngati chizindikiro ndili ndi njira yayitali yopita. PMO adandiwononga ndipo ndidayenera kudzipangira zikhalidwe zonse kuyambira pansi. Ndachita bwino kwambiri m'miyezi iyi ya 3, koma ndidakali WIP.
Ndikufuna kupita pachibwenzi, kuti ndiphunzire ndikucheza kwambiri ndikhale ndi moyo wabwino. Sindinatuluke mumdima panobe, koma ndikudziwa kuti mbandakucha uli patsogolo.
ZOCHITIKA 2 - Chaka chimodzi !!! [positi]
Zosakhulupirika, zatha miyezi iwiri kuchokera pomwe ndidalemba 'tsiku la 300' lomwe limafotokoza zifukwa zanga zopangira NoFap (mutha kuwerenga izi apa kuti mumve zambiri).
Ndatsiriza PMO'ed chaka chimodzi lero. Iyi ndi nthawi yayitali kwambiri yomwe ndadutsa popanda kuseweretsa maliseche kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba zaka khumi zapitazo. Ndi surreal kuganiza kuti sindinachite maliseche chaka chimodzi. Dzulo usiku ndinawerenga zina mwa zolemba zanga zakale pano ndipo ndinadabwitsidwa ndi kusimidwa kozama mwa ena a iwo, ndikunena zakusowa chiyembekezo ndi kusowa thandizo komwe ndidamva. Kuwerenga izi tsopano, zikuwoneka ngati zachilendo. Sindingathe kukumbukira ndikumva choncho, koma ndidatero. Kalelo mu boma lomwe ndinalimo, lero ndikadakhala loto lamoto.
Chizolowezi changa cha pr0n chinali chovuta kwambiri; Ndimagwiritsa ntchito kangapo patsiku, tsiku lililonse. Ndikuganiza kuti ndikadakhala woyipa kwambiri pano, chifukwa cha kuchuluka kwa zovuta zomwe ndidakhala nazo kuchokera kwa PMO wamkulu. Izi zidadzetsa nkhawa pakati pa anthu, kusowa mphamvu, kukhumudwa, kusowa chidwi, kusowa chidwi, kusadziletsa, ndi zina zambiri. Zolinga zingapo zomwe zidakhazikitsidwa pazovutazi (masiku 30, masiku 90, ndi zina zambiri) zonse zidadutsa ndipo zidalibe zambiri zotsatira. Ndakhala ndikudziwikiratu kuyambira tsiku la 1, lomwe liyenera kukhala chisonyezero cha momwe ndasokonekera mwakuthupi ndi m'maganizo.
Ndawona kusintha - kwathunthu, ndimakhala wodekha komanso womasuka, osakhala ndi nkhawa. Mbolo yanga imafanana ndi mbolo tsopano osati kanyama kakang'ono kosalala, kofewa. Ndakhala ndikulota maloto anayi chaka chatha (chimodzi mu Julayi, Ogasiti, Seputembala ndi masiku angapo apitawa) zomwe ndikuganiza kuti kugonana kwanga kumadziyambiranso. Ndili ndi chidaliro kuti ndibwerera mwakale nthawi ina chaka chino ndikapitiliza maphunziro koma pali kusatsimikizikanso komweko. Kaya ndingathe kukhala pachibwenzi / kugonana kapena ayi mu 2015 sizothandiza chifukwa ngakhale zitatenga chaka china ndikudziwa kuti ndikafika kumapeto. Maganizo anga adzabwerera, kusadziletsa kwanga kudzachoka ndipo ndidzakhala wopambana kwambiri kuposa kale lonse.
Chaka chimodzi, ndikupitabe patsogolo kwambiri kuti ndichite. Zilakolako za zithunzi zogonana zidakalipo ndipo zimakweza mutu wake nthawi zina. Ndakhala ndikulifufuza mobwerezabwereza panthawi yonseyi ndikuyambiranso ndikuganiza moyenera pafupipafupi (sindimaganiza kwambiri mwezi watha kapena apo, ndikuyesera kuti ndizilamulire). Ngakhale ndikamayambiranso ndimatha kumamatira, ndikudziuza ndekha momwe ndingapezere PMO tsiku lina ndikadapulumuka mokwanira. Komabe, monga chizolowezi chomwa mowa kwambiri chomwe tsopano chikuzindikira kuuma kwa nkhani zawo, ndikuvomereza kuti izi sizichitika. Sindinganene motsimikiza kuti sindidzachitanso maliseche m'moyo wanga, koma sindikuwona nthawi yomwe ndidzakhale PMO. Chikhumbo kulibenso ndipo ndikudziwa zomwe ndikadasiya ndikadatero. Sindingaganize kuti izi zingatheke.
Inu omwe mukuvutikira poyambiranso, pitirizani. Kusiya kuzizira koledzeretsa ndichinthu chovuta kwambiri chomwe mwina mungachitepo ndipo zimatenga nthawi yambiri komanso kuleza mtima kwambiri. Komabe, mosasamala kanthu za momwe muliri oyipa, kuchira kuli m'manja mwanu. Ndizowona koma zowona; ngati ndingathe kufika pano, ALIYENSE angathe.
YAM'MBUYO YOTSATIRA 3
Posachedwa ndidadutsa chaka ndi theka mu NoFap streak yanga yaposachedwa; motalika kwambiri kuposa momwe ndidakhalapo. Ndawona zabwino zambiri, zakuthupi ndi zina.
Mwathupi, ndidawona kusiyana kwakukulu pakugonana. Zida zanga za mbolo zimakulirakulira komanso kutalika (momwe zinkaliri zaka zam'mbuyomu PMO) komanso zomangira zinali zambiri. Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala wokhumudwa komanso wokhumudwa. Kanthawi kochepa mmbuyo ndinayamba kuganizira zodzithandizanso kudziseweretsa maliseche. Ndayang'ana YBOP ndipo ndapeza positi lotsatirali kuchokera kwa Gary Wilson komwe akuti pamapeto pake ambiri adzidziyesa mwa 'MOing kuti awone momwe angayankhire.
Ndinaganiza zabwino ndi zowawa ndipo ndinatsala pang'ono kuzichita kangapo kwa milungu yotsiriza, pamapeto pake ndinaweruka chifukwa ndinali wamantha. Koma kukhumudwa kudabwezanso mutu m'mbuyomu ndipo ndidaganiza, kuti nditaganizira zonse, ndikanachita izi ndipo usiku ukhala usiku.
Ndinali wamanyazi ndipo sindinayankhe nthawi yomweyo, choncho ndinaganiza kuti ndisachite zimenezo ndipo ndinagona. Ndidadzuka patatha maola angapo nditakonzeka, ndidapita kubafa ndikubwerera kuchipinda changa. Apanso ndinali wopanda pake, koma ndinayamba kukondoweza. Pambuyo pake ndinakhala wolimba ndipo ndinayesetsa. Zinkawoneka zachilendo osachita ndi imfa kapena zozizwitsa zilizonse, koma zosangalatsa. Ndinasintha ndi manja anga onse koma ndinapeza kuti ndikumva bwino ndikumanja (Ndili kudzanja lamanja). Nditabwera zinali zopweteka komanso zopweteka pang'ono, mwina chifukwa chosatulutsa umuna kwa chaka ndi theka. Ndinapita flaccid pafupifupi pambuyo pake.
Chifukwa chake, madandaulo aliwonse?
Moona mtima, ayi.
Gary Wilson wanena kuti simukuwerengera kupambana m'masiku ochepa, koma kupita patsogolo kwakanthawi. Ndimamva kuti kupita patsogolo kokwanira kwachitika, ndipo padapita nthawi yokwanira, pomwe ndimatha kuzichita popanda mantha oyambiranso. Zinali zoyesera zomwe ndimamva kuti pamapeto pake ndiyenera kuchita nthawi ina ndipo ndimangofunika kudziwa. Ndikumayambiriro kwambiri kuti ndidziwitse zotsatira zakuchepa koma pano, ndimakhala womasuka. Zotsatira zoyendetsa mosakayikira zidzatsatira koma mwina sizolimba. Ndine wotsimikiza kuti ndidzayang'ananso choncho.
Kutalika, sindikuganiza kuti ndibwereranso ku maliseche nthawi zonse, koma sindimanong'oneza bondo kuti ndichitenso. Kubwerera kwake tsiku la 1 kwa ine, koma kungolankhula manambala.
Mbiri yanga ya tsiku la 553 idatha lero.
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