Mungakonde kugawana nawo nkhani yanga. Ndinayamba kuseweretsa zolaula zaka zakubadwa za 12, ndimakhala ndi nthawi yochita izi mpaka nthawi za 4 tsiku lililonse. Mavuto a ED ndi HOCD adayamba miyezi ingapo yapitayo.
Ndinkadukiza nthawi ndi nthawi koma ndimatha kuugwira. Izi zidandipatsa nkhawa yayikulu komanso kukhumudwa, sindinathe kuyang'ana anthu m'maso. Ubongo wanga unkandiwuza kuti ndili ndi gay kapena transsexual etc ndipo izi zimandidwalitsa m'mimba. Ndimatha kuseweretsa maliseche kuwongola zolaula kuti nditsimikizire ndekha, ndipo zinthu zidasokonekera kwambiri pamene ED wanga adalowa mkatikati ndipo ubongo wanga umaganiza zokhazokha zolaula za transsexual / gay kuti zikhale zovuta. Pepani chilankhulo chotsimikizika.
Zina zokumbukira kuyambira ubwana zidabweranso, ndidazunzidwa ndili mwana ndipo ndimakumbukira ndili mwana ndidadutsa mums ndikumasewera ndi lipstick. Chifukwa chake mutenga chithunzichi, ubongo wanga umatha kuyika zonsezi pamodzi ndikunena kuti ndinu amuna kapena akazi okhaokha. Ndiyenera kunena kuti ndilibe chilichonse chotsutsana ndi amuna ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, ndikungodziwa kuti mtunduwo siwanga.
Ndinganene motsimikiza kuti zolaula zinali m'malo mwa chitonthozo ndi atsikana enieni. Ndakhala ndi atsikana ambiri m'mbuyomu ndipo nthawi zonse ndakhala ndikukopa atsikana.
Ndikumva zotsatira za nofap kale, ED wanga wachiritsidwa, HOCD yanga ili bwino ndipo ndikuyamba kutuluka ndikukakumana ndi atsikana. Kudzidalira kwanga ndikudzidalira kukuyamba kutenga ndipo sindiganiza za zomwe anthu amaganiza za ine ndikukhala ngati choncho ndipo ndikhoza kudzipangira ndekha ndikuonera zolaula. Kutalika kwa moyo !!!
LINK - Age 26, masiku 40 palibe zolaula, angapo adayambiranso. ED adachira. HOCD adachira
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