Moni, apaulendo anzanu!
Kumene ndinayambira Ndinali ndi PIED yayikulu yomwe inandipangitsa kuti ndisapeze erection ndi munthu wina WONSE (Ndine 26 tsopano ndipo ndimagonana kuyambira 17). Ndinayamba kuchita zachiwerewere mozungulira 11/12, koma sindinayambe kuseweretsa maliseche mpaka zaka 15. Zolakalaka zanga zogonana zomwe ndimakonda ngakhale ndisanachite maliseche. Ndidakhala ndikuonera zolaula zambiri kwazaka zambiri ndipo zidakulirakulira.
Kuyesa koyamba … Idayamba pafupifupi chaka chapitacho ndipo idatenga masiku opitilira 100. Ndinali ndi zotsatira zabwino ndikumva kuti PIED yanga ikanatha, koma sindinayese kuyesa. Kenako ndidaganiza zoyesa kupewa zolaula ndikuwongolera maliseche. Izi zidayenda bwino pafupifupi kwa miyezi ndipo kenako ndidatengera zizolowezi zakale. Zosagwirizana ndi izi ndinayamba kukhumudwa kwa miyezi ingapo zomwe zidandilepheretsa kuyesanso.
Kuyesera kwachiwiri Masiku 130 apitawo ndinapezanso chifuniro changa ndipo ndinayambiranso. Ndikudziwa kuti ambiri mudzandida chifukwa cha izi, koma moona mtima ndilibe vuto lalikulu lopewa PMO. Zomwe zimapangitsa kuti vutoli likhale losavuta, komanso likhoza kukhala chizindikiro cha libido yonse. Sindikutsimikiza.
Kuyesa koyamba komwe ndidamva ndikubwezeretsanso bwino ndikumva bwino pakhungu langa, ndimamva kulira, komwe ndidayiwala momwe zidalili. Tsopano pakuyesaku sindimva mphamvu yakugonana nthawi zambiri. Masabata awiri kapena kupitilira apo ndinali kuvina ndikupanga ndi msungwana wowoneka bwino komanso wotentha. Inde, zinali zodabwitsa pang'ono chifukwa cha zifukwa zina zandalama zomwe sindikufuna kulowa nazo ndipo ndidaganiza zosayesa kugona naye ngakhale ndimapita naye kunyumba (nditaledzera, ndimafuna kukwera njinga yake, ndi zina zambiri), koma Sindinasewera ngakhale theka nthawi yayitali panthawi yovina, kupera mwamphamvu kapena kupanga masewera olimbitsa thupi. Pambuyo pa miyezi inayi ya 4 yodziletsa nditha kuganiza kuti izi ndizochepa kwambiri. Koma ayi. Palibe.
Pafupifupi tsiku 50 kapena apo ndimatenga mtsikana kukagona ndipo sizinagwire ntchito, koma ndimangoganiza kuti zingatenge nthawi yina. Ndimakhala ndi nkhawa ndi izi.
Sabata yatha ndidakhala pachibwenzi ndi mtsikana ndipo sindinakhale womasuka ndi munthu wina mwachangu kwanthawi yayitali. Tinkagwirizana kwambiri ndipo tinali ndi zosangalatsa zambiri. Mwina ndimuitanira mawa ndikumuphikira. Chifukwa chake mwayi ulipo, ukhala wolimba ndipo ndikufuna kuti pasakhale mavuto amtundu uliwonse kumeneko.
Today Chifukwa chake lero ndimayang'ana mndandanda ndikugona pamenepo ndipo ndimadzifunsa ngati zingayende bwino, ndikadzagona pabedi ndi mtsikana. Ndinkafuna kuyesa ngati ndingakhale wovuta, koma ndinali ndi chinthu ichi pomwe ndimamverera kuti chiwonongeko chikuyandikira popanda kuvuta. Zinanditengera nthawi kuti ndiyimirire ndipo mwatsoka nthawi imeneyo sindinathe kudziletsa ndikubwera. Zinali zosangalatsa zabwino kwambiri komanso zophulika zosadziwika. Sindikumva kuwawa ndikanena izi. Mfundo ndi iyi: Poyesa koyamba ndimakhala wovuta mosavuta komanso mosakhalitsa ndisanafike pachimake ndipo sichimatha msanga pambuyo pa masekondi 5. Sindikudziwa choti ndikuganiza.
Ndikutanthauza… pakatha miyezi inayi sindingayembekezere kumudikira. Ndidakhala ndi miyezi yoyandikira 1 kapena iwiri yoyeserera zonsezi nanga bwanji pangakhale patatha miyezi yopitilira 4? Kodi wina aliyense adakumana ndi zotere?
Chifukwa chake… sindikudziwa choti ndichite. Ndiyenera kuchotsa ED yanga ndipo tsopano ndili ndi nkhawa, kuti siwokhudzana ndi PMO pambuyo pake (osati chifukwa chachikulu). Ndinali kwa adotolo za izi kale ndipo anangondiuza kuti palibe cholakwika mwathupi.
Ngati wina angandipatseko malingaliro, ndikuthokoza kwambiri.
TL; Dr Ndidakhala ndi nthawi yosavuta kuyesera kwanga kwachiwiri koma ndimakhalabe ndi PIED pambuyo pa miyezi ya 4 kapena flatline ndi / kapena libido yotsika, yomwe imawoneka yachilendo kwambiri poyerekeza ndi kuyesera kwanga koyamba.
Cheers, Johnny
LINK -Masiku a 130, zotsatira zosatsata
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