Anayamba PMO ku 14 pamene abambo anga adatumiza intaneti kwambiri ndipo ine ndinapeza mitsinje. Ndikhoza kutulutsa maulendo ambiri pa nthawi ndi MO kangapo patsiku. Mayi anga okha anali atasindikiza, koma ndinapanga ndi zithunzi zopanda pake za anthu amaliseche kapena MILFS. Chizoloŵezichi chinapitirira kupyolera mu sukulu ya sekondale, komwe sindinkakonda kwenikweni kugonana, kapena ngakhale chibwenzi pa nkhaniyi.
Ndidapeza ntchito yabwino ndipo ndidatuluka ku 21 (ndidali namwali) ndipo ndidadzutsidwa ndikupita kudzenje lamdima, laphompho lomwe ndi zolaula. Izi zinakhala chinthu chatsiku ndi tsiku kwa ine, ndipo ndikucheperachepera pagulu lapaubwenzi ndidayesetsa kuti ndisiye. Maganizo anga kwathunthu kwa amayi adapitilirabe, kukulitsidwa ndi kupezeka kosangalatsa kwanthawi yomweyo kuchokera pa intaneti. M'mutu mwanga sindinkafuna chibwenzi, kapena kuthana ndi zovuta zonse kuti ndipeze mmodzi, chifukwa ndinali ndi masauzande ambiri kunyumba. Onsewo ndi okongola, owopsa komanso opepuka kuti apite. Sakanandiweruza kapena kundikana kapena kusewera nane, amangofuna kundisangalatsa. Sanasamale kuti nditenga nthawi yayitali bwanji, kapena ngati ndilibe chidziwitso. Muubongo wanga wopotoka anali angwiro ndipo zonse zomwe ndimafunikira kuti ndikwaniritse zogonana ndikudina mbewa zingapo ndi mphindi 10 ndi dzanja langa. Zosavuta, zosavuta. Kuthamanga kwachangu kwa dopamine ndipo ndili bwino tsikulo.
Kuthamangira msinkhu wazaka 24 mutapambana pafupifupi ndi azimayi zaka zam'mbuyomu. Potsiriza ndinapeza bwenzi langa loyamba lenileni, munthu amene ndinamudziwa kwa chaka chimodzi zisanachitike (ndiko kulondola, ndinaswa choletsa cha friendzone!). Miyezi 13 kapena 14 yoyamba ndi msungwanayo inali yodabwitsa kwambiri ndipo adatenga unamwali wanga. Kugonana kunali kovuta kwambiri monga poyamba. Sindingathe kumaliza konse. Kenako pang'onopang'ono tinayamba kuyenda mofewa tikamazichita, ndikumaganiza za zolaula zomwe zidadzaza mutu wanga, osasunthika kwa iye komanso kuchokera kuzowona. Ndinkadziwa kuti zolaula ndizo zimayambitsa mavuto anga, ziyenera kukhala choncho. Ndine wathanzi, wachangu, wachinyamata. Palibe chifukwa chomwe sindingathe kukhala wovuta ndi msungwana wokongola wamaliseche pakama panga. Ndinayesera ndekha kuti ndileke, koma sizinathandize. Chizolowezicho chinali chodzaza kwambiri ndipo ndimakhala ndekha panthawiyo, motero ndinalibe udindo uliwonse. Kugonana kunakhala bwino ndipo pamapeto pake ndimatha kugona nthawi zonse, koma sindinachite mpaka nditayamba vuto langa la NoFap kuti kugonana koyenera kudakhala kodabwitsa.
Okutobala watha, (pafupifupi nthawi yomwe ndidapunthwa ndikutenga NoFap), ndidakhumudwa kwambiri, makamaka chifukwa cha malingaliro anga pa moyo wanga. Sindinkafuna chithandizo, ndikuganiza kuti nditha kupirira ndekha, ndipo izi zidakhudza ubalewo. Tidasiyana mu Julayi ndipo ndikadabwerabe nazo kuyambira pano. Kuyesera kupitiliza, kucheza ndi anthu ena ndi zina koma ndizovuta kwambiri ndipo ndimamusowa komanso galu yemwe tidamulera limodzi kuposa chilichonse. Akuwona kale wina ndipo zikuwoneka ngati zowopsa, zomwe zimapangitsa kuti zikhale zovuta kwambiri.
Chifukwa chake pano ndili ndi zaka 90, osati komwe ndikufuna kukhala m'moyo, koma kumverera kuti zinthu zizikhala bwino kuyambira pano. Zachidziwikire kuti ndangoyang'ana pang'ono chabe zaulendo wanga komanso zokumana nazo panjira, chifukwa chake ndingakhale wokondwa kuyankha mafunso aliwonse omwe anthu angakhale nawo!
LINK - 27M - Pambuyo pa miyezi 13 ya NoFap ndapeza masiku anga a 90. AMA!
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Ayankha funso:
Zikomo munthu, ndimayamikira kwambiri.
Zowona sindikumva zolimbikitsa zomwe ndinali nazo panthawiyi. Adazungulira nthawi yomwe mulipo (tsiku 50 - 65), chifukwa chondidziwira ine muli mgulu la 9 la gehena pompano. Koma ndikulonjeza kuti zidzadutsa, ndichifukwa chake ndikukhulupirira kuti izi ndizowonadi. Osandilakwitsa, ndimangokhalabe ndi mphamvu zogonana, koma ndi za akazi enieni, osati zolaula. Sindikufunanso kuti ndiyang'ane atsikana omwe ali ndi mapikisheni kuti ndikhale wosangalala. Zitha.
Chinthu chomwe ndachiwona kwambiri ndicho kuthetseratu chisokonezo cha anthu. Mu PMO wanga masiku ndinakhala wokondwa kwambiri kuti ndimangokhala kunyumba ndikukhalanso usiku ndikusungulumwa, koma tsopano ndikulakalaka kuyanjana kwa anthu. Ndikufuna kuti ndikhale ndi anzanga komanso achibale anga, ndikufuna kutuluka ndikukumana ndi atsikana, ndikufuna kusewera masewera anga mokwanira. Monga momwe zingamveke, ndimangofuna kukhala ndi moyo wambiri. Ndipo izo zimakhala zabwino!
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