Mwakhala pavutoli kuyambira pomwe mwayenda chaka chino! Ndadutsa mayesero angapo kuyambira masiku 4-5 mpaka masiku 10-12 ndi max anga masiku 19 1-2 nthawi! Ndakhala ndiri mu pmo kuyambira zaka 13… koma chizolowezi changa choyipa chidakulirakulira nditatha zaka 18 ndili ndi pc yanga mchipinda mwanga.
Ndipo makamaka pamene ndimapita ku koleji ndipo ndinali womasuka kuchita "chinthu" changa! Ndinali wamanyazi ndili mwana komanso ndikuganiza kuti ndidapeza kuthawa mu pmo (ndimasewera ena apakanema koma osati pano)!
Zaka 2 zapitazo ndidapezeka kuti ndili ndi vuto lachipatala koma sindinadye mankhwala aliwonse (ndikulimbana ndi masewera olimbitsa thupi komanso kudya).
Chinthuchi ndi chakuti pambuyo pa 21 ndimakumbukira kuti chisangalalo changa choyambirira chinatsika ndipo ndinali wosiyana kwambiri, ndikuvutika maganizo, osasunthika maganizo kuposa kale! Ino inali nthawi yomwe ndinali ndekha m'nyumba yanga ku koleji m'malo momangoyenda pakhomo ndi anzanga ndikukacheza tsiku lililonse (nthawi zina 2 kapena nthawi 3)!
Kenako pa 25 ndinasiyana ndi chibwenzi changa ndipo ndinataya ntchito ndipo NDIMAKUMBUKIRA ZOCHITIKA KUTI PMO wanga adagwiritsa ntchito kwambiri (mtundu ndi nthawi: nthawi zina ndimakhala ndikulemba ndi P kwa maola 8-10, ndikuphatikizanso ndi macheza ndi ma cams a Facebook ) !!!! Kuyambira pamenepo ndayamba kukulitsa zizindikilo monga mantha (usiku), kutsika pang'ono ndi malingaliro amalingaliro. Ndinali ndi zolinga koma zolimba, kuda nkhawa kwambiri, kusinthasintha kwamaganizidwe, kusowa tulo komanso kugona tulo, nkhuni zam'mawa, ED nthawi zina, osagonana ndi kondomu, kusakhazikika komanso kusowa mtendere mu zovala zina, kumverera kopanda pake, kutaya anzanga , nkhawa yayikulu yachitukuko, kudzidalira pang'ono, khosi / mkangano wamkati kumbuyo ndi zina !!
Zinali zowonekeratu… ndinali ndi matenda azachisoni ndipo zowonadi ndinapita kwa asing'anga kuti akalankhule za izi. Ndinakana kumwa mankhwala aliwonse ndipo ndinayamba kufunafuna intaneti mavuto anga. Kenako ndapeza yourbrainonporn.com ndi nofap ndipo ndayamba kuchita zigawenga (kuyambira 4-5 mpaka 10-12) kuyambira chiyambi cha 2014, ndili ndi masiku anga a 19. Kuyambira pamenepo ndinali ndi masiku abwino kwambiri, masiku ena apakatikati komanso masiku ena oyipa, mantha anga amayamba kuchoka pa 3-4 nthawi pasabata mpaka 1-2 pamwezi, kupweteka kwanga msana ndi khosi kuli bwino ndipo ndikuganiza kuti malingaliro anga ayamba kupita mmwamba pang'ono ndi pang'ono nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimayesetsa kupewa PMO!
MASIKU OTSIRIZA 3-4 NDILI M'NTHAWI YABWINO KWAMBIRI M'ZAKA 2 ZOMALIZIRA! Ndikutanthauza kuti ndimadzuka ndipo sindili wokhumudwa, ndili ndi chiyembekezo. Ndikufuna kucheza ndi anzanga, ndikufuna kukhala ndi moyo, njala yanga ndiyabwino pang'ono, kugona kwanga kuli bwino, ndimalotanso! Inde ndili ndimasinthidwe inde komabe ndili ndi zizindikilo zoyipa koma zikuyenda bwino!
Ndili ndi zolinga ndi chiyembekezo kachiwiri !!!!!! KOMA ine ndikudziwa kuti ine ndiri ndi masiku ovuta kutsogolo (monga kutaya: kusokonezeka ndi kusinthasintha maganizo) ndipo nkhondo siitha!
CHONCHO kwa aliyense amene akuganiza kuti ali ndi matenda ovutika maganizo kapena ovutika maganizo: chonde onani zizoloŵezi zanu, chonde tengani zolaula m'miyoyo yanu chifukwa cha ine ndinali ndikuyamba kudzipha ndipo mphamvu yanga ya moyo inali itatha - koma tsopano ndakhala Anayambanso kukhala / kutenga nawo mbali padziko lapansi !!
GUYS KUKUMBUKIRA IFE SINTHU OKHULUPIRIKA TIMAKHALITSIDWA NDIPO KUTI TIMASATHA !!
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