Zaka 27 - Anachiritsidwa PIED & kuchedwa kuthamangitsidwa, ngakhale anali ndi OCD yolemala

Kwakhala kanthawi kuyambira pomwe ndakhala kuno ndipo ndikusangalala kunena kuti ndachiritsidwa ku DE ndi PIED. Kudziletsa pa zolaula kwandichotsera nkhawa komanso kulephera kuchita chiwerewere ndipo tsopano ndili pachiyembekezo chomwe ndili pachibwenzi changa.

Vuto lokhalo ndikuti ndikulephera kusiya kulakwa komanso manyazi pazomwe ndidakumana nazo m'mbuyomu; makamaka kulephera kwanga kukhala ndi zibwenzi ndi anzanga popanda zongopeka. Ndikumva kuti izi zachepetsa kwambiri kulumikizana komwe ndimafuna kukhala ndi anzanga akale (koma ndiyo njira yokhayo yomwe ndingasungire ubale wabwino). Umodzi mwa maubwenzi awa anali ndi mnzanga wokondedwa kwambiri yemwe ndimamuwonabe pafupipafupi ndipo ndimadzimva waliwongo kwambiri (sindinatero panthawiyo, popeza sindinkagonana "mwachizolowezi" choncho zonse zomwe zinali zongopeka zinali "wabwinobwino" kwa ine), ngati kuti ndikugwiritsa ntchito zongopeka kuti andikankhire m'mphepete mwake ndimamunamiza mwanjira inayake.

Komanso ndimavutika kulimbana ndi mkwiyo womwe ndimakhala nawo kwa makolo anga omwe mwanjira ina amachititsa mavuto amenewa, ndipo ndimadwala kuti ndimadana nawo motero ndikungofuna kuti ndikhalebe ndi moyo wanga. Chifukwa cha inu omwe mukudziwa ndidziwa kuti ndili ndi opuwala OCD ndipo izi zitha kukulitsa nkhawa zanga. Ndikungofuna kuyambanso watsopano ndikusiya kumva kuwawa kwambiri.

Mwachita bwino kwa aliyense amene akuyesera pano ndipo ndikufuna kuti aliyense wa inu achiritse zomwe ndakhala ndi mwayi kukhala nazo.

LINK - Kuchiritsidwa kwa DE ndi PE, koma vuto kusiya zomwe mwakumana nazo kale.

NDI - apc27


 

ZOTHANDIZA ZOYAMBIRA - My Journal (kusinthidwa pafupipafupi)

Hi,

Ndayamba chibwenzi chatsopano ndi mtsikana yemwe ndimamukonda kwambiri, koma ndakhala ndikugonana zomwe zandithandizanso kudzidalira. Ndingonena pang'ono za mbiri yanga; Ndili ndi zaka 27, ndipo kuyambira nthawi yanga yoyamba ndachedwa kuchepa. Ndinayamba zolaula pa intaneti mozungulira 13 ndipo ndimayenera kulingalira zochitika zina kuti ndithane ndi zosangalatsa (ndikakhala komweko ndimatha kuyang'ana pa msungwanayo ndikudzipangitsa kuti ndizichita nawo chidwi poyang'ana iye ndi chisangalalo). Izi sizinandivutitse kwenikweni monga ndili mwana zinali kutanthauza kuti ndikhoza kukhala zaka zambiri ndipo ndinalibe vuto lokhalitsa ndi erection.

Komabe, nthawi yathu yoyamba pamodzi ndi msungwana uyu ndidakhala ndi nkhawa yochita bwino ndipo tsopano ndili ndi vuto lokhala ndi erection tikakhala limodzi. Amatenga nthawi yochuluka kuti akhale "wokonzeka kulowa" kotero pali zambiri zomwe zimachitika. Sindinganame, ndikumva kuti pali zovuta zambiri kuti ndichite izi, koma mwamwayi akumvetsetsa modabwitsa. Tikapsompsonana ndikukumbatirana sindimakhala ndi vuto lokhazikika koma zikafika polowera dongosolo langa limachita mantha ndikutseka. Mwamwayi takhala ndi gawo limodzi lopambana pomwe ndinali nditaledzera zomwe zinali zodabwitsa koma ndinalinso ndi tabu ya zomwe dokotala wanga adandiuza kuti ndithane ndi ED. Ndikuganiza kuti thupi langa likuyamba kukana chifukwa ndidakumana ndi ED posachedwa pomwe ndidakwezedwa.

Nayi chinthu chake; Posachedwapa ndasiya kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Sindinakhalepo wogwiritsa ntchito zolemetsa (ndimafotokoza zolemetsa kamodzi kapena kawiri masiku angapo aliwonse) kwazaka zingapo, ndipo tsopano ndili ndi chizolowezi chotsutsa zikhalidwe zolaula pa intaneti zomwe zasintha malingaliro anga pazolaula zonse ( Ndimadwalanso ndi OCD kotero kuti kampasi yanga yamakhalidwe nthawi zonse imangowonjezera). Momwe zikuyimira tsopano ndimayang'ana zolaula mwina kamodzi pamwezi, ndipo zakhala motere kwa miyezi ingapo tsopano (ndangomaliza kumene kukhala pachibwenzi nthawi yayitali motero ndikuwonetsa kuti kugwa kwanga ndikuchita zolaula ndikumatha kukhumudwitsanso). Kodi ndizotheka kuti ndili pakati pa flatline? Libido yanga imawoneka ngati ikufuna kukankhira patsogolo nthawi ndi nthawi popeza sindimangopeza zosankha pafupipafupi pafupipafupi. Sindingathe kukwaniritsa zomangirira, zomwe ndinkatha kuchita. Ndachitapo kanthu kuti ndikhale ndi thanzi labwino la erectile monga kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi komanso kusiya kusuta, kodi pali china chilichonse chomwe ndingachite? Ndikuyembekeza kuti sindili pakati pa flatline chifukwa ndimamukonda kwambiri mtsikanayo ndipo sindikufuna kuyika moyo wathu wogonana pachiwopsezo choopa kumutaya. Zikomo.