Chifukwa chomwe ndili pano: Ndinayamba kupita kusukulu ya Katolika, ndi makolo amene sanalankhule nane za kugonana. Iyi si njira yabwino yolerera mwana wanu. Ndinasiyidwa kuti ndidziwerengere ndekha (kupatula zomwe sukulu inali kundidyetsa), ndipo sindinachite bwino kwambiri! Ndinayamba kupeza zolaula pafupi ndi zaka za 11, mwangozi kwathunthu.Ndinali kuyenda kunyumba ya abwenzi pamene ndinapeza khadi la malonda a playmate mumsewu. Uku kunali kukhudzika kwanga koyamba pakugonana, ndizodabwitsa momwe ndimakumbukira bwino (osati chithunzicho). Sindinachite maliseche chifukwa sindimadziwa kuti chinali chiyani.
Mofulumira zaka 2 ndipo ndidazindikira kuseweretsa maliseche, izi zinali zodabwitsa! Monga mtsuko wanga wankhuku, sindinayambe kuchita nthawi zonse. Chaka china kapena zingapo zidadutsa ndipo ine ndi anzanga tidayamba kupeza magazini akuda, ndipo tidayankhula poyera zakukula (zomwe timadziwa pang'ono). PMO mwamsanga anakhala chinthu cha tsiku ndi tsiku, sindinadziwe ngakhale zomwe zinali kuchitika.
Zaka za Sukulu Yapamwamba ndi koleji: Tikudziwa zomwe kukula kumatichitira tsopano, koma nthawi imeneyo kunalibe chifukwa choti ndisawonongeke nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimamva (1-5 nthawi patsiku). Izi zidadzetsa mavuto, sindinayesetse kuyanjana ndi atsikana, ngakhale ndimakopeka nawo. Ndinali ndi nkhawa, ndimakhala chete, ndimatopa nthawi zonse (hmmm?), Ndipo sindinapereke 2 shits chilichonse! Ndikukhulupirira ndikadakwanitsa kuchita zinthu zodabwitsa ndikadapanda kukhala kutali ndi PMO, mwamasewera komanso homuweki.
Masiku XXUMX apitawo: Ndine 27 tsopano. Inde, tonsefe timayenera kuyambira tsiku la 1. Ndidzakhala woona mtima ndikadakhala kuti ndikadasunga zolemba zanga, komabe ndimakumbukirabe pafupifupi chilichonse. Ndakhala ndikuyesera ndekha kusiya PMO, koma sindinachite bwino kwa masiku opitilira (ndikupanga masabata a 3 kamodzi, chozizwitsa chenicheni).
Sabata 1: Kwa ine ichi chinali chovuta kwambiri, kufika tsiku la 8 kunali kovuta kwa ine kuposa masiku 15-90. Usikuwo umayamwa, mutagona pabedi ndi ubongo wanu wopukutira poyesa kukunyengererani kuti muzikula. Mwamwayi ndinkadziwa momwe ndimamvera ndikamabwerera komaliza, ndipo zidakhala nane… sindinkafuna kudzimvanso choncho. Ndinayamba kuzindikira mphamvu zambiri, khungu langa linali kuwoneka bwino, maso anali owala, mawu ozama, komanso ziphuphu zochepa zimayambanso.
Sabata 2: Zinthu zidayamba kukhala zosavuta, ndidalimbikitsidwa ndi testosterone, ndipo ndimalimba mtima kwambiri. Ndinali ndikuyamba kuchita manyazi ndekha chifukwa chokhala ndi PMO nthawi zonse (mumatha kumva manyazi anyamata, ndikudziwa kuti azimayi amatha… amachitcha kuti chowopsa). Ndakhala ndikumwa masana tsiku lililonse otentha kenako kuzizira, inali imodzi mwa njira zanga zopambana. Palibe chonga kupopera madzi ozizira pamipira yanu kuti muphe chilakolakocho.
Masabata 3-4: Kotero tsopano ndi pamene ndinayamba kubwerera ku zenizeni, ndinali kuzolowera umunthu wanga watsopano. Apa ndipomwe muyenera kuyang'anira, chifukwa mutha kuganiza kuti mukuyendetsa bwino… koma zonse zimatengera mphindi imodzi yofooka. Ndinakumana ndi mayi wabwino (thanksNoFaplol) ndipo ndimayembekezera kuti ndidzakhala pa ED yanga ... Anali womvetsetsa kwambiri, pamapeto pake ndinazipeza kwa masekondi pang'ono O… shit, zilizonse. Iyi inali nthawi yoyamba kuchokera ku PIV (bwenzi langa lomaliza la 7 zaka zapitazo anali wokongola kwambiri, ndipo ndinakumana ndi ED naye, ndinali wamanyazi ndipo sindinayesenso).
Mwezi 2: Ndinangomuwona mtsikanayo kamodzi panthawiyi, ndipo ndinali wopambana pang'ono, koma zinthu zinali kukhala bwino. Ndinayamba kuchita bwino kwambiri panthawiyi. Nkhope yanga tsopano ikuwoneka kuti yabadwanso, ndiyabwino. Ndili ndi mphamvu zopanda malire, ndikuzigwiritsira ntchito pamoyo wanga. Nayi chinthu chake: Ndakhala okhazikika tsopano, ichi ndi chatsopano changa. Sizatsopano komanso zosangalatsa ngati sabata yachiwiri, chifukwa chake ndiyenera kuzisunga m'mutu mwanga kuti sindingathe kubwerera. Ndidakhala ndi maloto anga oyamba kunyowa, zomwe zidatsitsimula bwanji. Ndimakhala wotsimikiza kwambiri nthawi zambiri, makamaka omwe ali ndi akazi (kumbukirani kuti ndinali ndi nkhawa kale). Ndayamba kumva zachilendo, kunyada?
Mwezi 3: Kukhazikika pakadali pano, osapereka chinyengo chilichonse chomwe aliyense akuganiza kapena kunena. Ndidatulukira za Nofap kwa ochepa omwe siabwenzi apamtima (mmodzi wokhala ndi pakamwa lalikulu). Ndinkadziwa kuti angapo amafunikira NoFap, osatsimikiza ngati agwira… koma onse adachita chidwi. Ndikumva kuti ndili wamoyo, ndipo kuzindikira kwanga kukukulitsidwa… koma ndikudziwa kuchokera pansi pamtima kuti pali zambiri zoti ndigwire ntchito. Ndikumvetsetsa kuti moyo suyima chilili, mudzakhala patsiku 90 kenako mudzakhala tsiku la 91.
Tsiku 90: Ndiyenera kumuwona msungwanayo lero, sichinthu china? Amuna, ndinalibe mavuto, ndimatha kupeza zovuta zanga popanda kulimbikira… ndiye mpumulo. Tidayenda kangapo ndipo ndimawalemba ngati chigonjetso chachikulu. Ndimanyadira ndekha pakuchita masiku 90, ndikuyang'ana kumbuyo ndikudabwa.
Tsiku 91: Chabwino ndiye izi, ndikusiya Nofap ndi Reddit masiku 90. Uku ndiyeso yamphamvu, ndidzabweranso kudzapereka lipoti lina panjira. Ndikukonzekera kusintha zinthu zambiri m'moyo wanga, ndipo ndikudula maukonde. Ndikutha kuona zomwe sindinatulukemo tsopano, zikuwonekeratu m'mutu mwanga. Ndine wobadwanso mwatsopano, koma ndidakali chimodzimodzi ndi akale anga.
Ndimangokhala tsiku limodzi kapena awiri ngati wina ali ndi mafunso.
LINK - Masiku 90 - Kuyang'ana kumbuyo
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