Zaka 27 - Namwali; Masiku 90 NoFap Afikira. Zotsatira zanga.

Uwu ndiye positi wanga woyamba. Ndikugawana ndikuyembekeza kuti zokumana nazo zitha kuthandiza wina aliyense.

Monga mutu umanenera, Ndine 27 ndipo ndidali namwali (ndakhala ndikukhala ndi anthu, sindinayambe ndagonapo - ndiye kuti ndikuganiza kuti sindinamwali?). Ndimakhalabe namwali makamaka chifukwa sindinakopeke ndi anthu kwa moyo wanga wonse. Inde, ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula nthawi yonseyi. Sizothandiza kuti ndidayamba zaka zomwe ndikadayamba kupanga ubale ndi anthu. Izi zinali zaka 12+ zapitazo.

Komabe, pamapeto pake ndafika pamlingo womwe ndikufuna kukhala pachibwenzi, kotero ndimafuna kuti ndidzaone ngati zolaula zawonongera chidwi changa cha anthu m'moyo weniweni, kapena ngati sindikufuna kugonana (asexual? china?).

Ndakhala ndikusunga pepala labwino kwambiri ndikulemba momwe ndimasangalalira, kaya ndinali ndi maloto onyowa, kugonana kwanga, mphamvu zanga, komanso ngati ndimakondana ndi wina (yemwe yourbrainonporn amalangiza kuti athandizenso kuyambiranso). 0 anali manambala otsikitsitsa; 10 anali wapamwamba kwambiri.

Pamaso pa NoFap:

• Ndinkakonda kudziwa za 4-8ish pa sabata.
• Sindikufuna kuti anthu andigwire (ndikutanthauza kutikita minofu ndi zinthu zina - zimamveka zachilendo.

Pakadali pano pa NoFap:

• Kusintha kwanga ndi mphamvu sizinatsike pansi pa 7. Onse anali 8 ndi 9. Komabe, izi sizinachite chilichonse ndi NoFap. Nthawi zambiri ndimagona kwambiri ndipo ndimagwira ntchito mwamphamvu ndipo ndine wokondwa.
• Ndakhala ndi maloto onyowa a 4. Imodzi patsiku 56, imodzi pa 58 tsiku, imodzi patsiku 78, ndi imodzi pa 86.
• Maloto anga awiri oyamba anali ndi maloto enieni (osakhudzana ndi zolaula: mwachitsanzo, m'modzi, ndinali kusanja pakompyuta uku ndikuthamangitsa anthu kusukulu ikundithamangitsa, lol). Lachitatu lidachitika ndi loto lomwe ndimayang'ana (ndidadzuka). Wachinayi anali kumasulidwa kwausiku osalota.
• Kawirikawiri, kugonana kwanga kwakhala 0. Komabe, ndakhala ndi nthawi ziwiri zomwe ndimakhala ndimantha (nthawi zomwe ndimamva ngati thupi langa limandikakamiza kuti ndizigonana kapena kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi). Choyamba chidachitika mozungulira tsiku la 20 mpaka 30 (zoyendetsa zimakhala zamphamvu kwambiri masiku ena kuposa ena). Chachiwiri chidachitika pakati pa tsiku la 63 ndipo chidafikira pafupifupi tsiku la 66 (osati lalitali). Sindinaperekepo, kumene, chifukwa amamva ngati 'abodza'. Ndiyo njira yabwino kwambiri yomwe ndingafotokozere. Ndinadziwa kuti apambana. Ndinadziwa kuti ubongo wanga umangofuna kundipusitsa.
• Ndinkangokhalira kukwatirana ndi ena (makamaka osagonana; kamodzi kapena kawiri kugonana kosakwanira) ndi munthu wina yemwe adatuluka m'masiku makumi anayi oyambirira, koma adataya chidwi pambuyo pake. Ndidayamba kumva bwino panthawiyi, koma sindinakopeke ndi munthu wina aliyense payekha. Sikunali kokopa monga momwe amasangalalira kukhudzidwa, ndikuganiza. Sindinakhalepo pachibwenzi kapena kugonana ndi aliyense.
• Tsoka ilo, ndimakondabe zolaula. Ndawonapo zowonera ndi zomwe sizili (ma gifs ndi zina) ndikumverera pang'ono. Ndimapewa zithunzi zapaintaneti momwe ndingathere, koma twinge (yomwe imayenera kuchokera kwa anthu enieni) ikadalipo.

Zomwe ndikuganiza pa NoFap:

• M'masiku a 90 mkati, kuposa momwe ndimamverera kale. Zikuwoneka mwezi watha makamaka kuti ndilibe choyendetsa. Ine ndikufuna kufuna kugonana. Ndikufuna kupeza wina wokongola, ndipo ndimawona anthu osangalatsa, sindikufuna kugona nawo. Sindikudziwa ngati izi zili choncho chifukwa ubongo wanga umangofunika nthawi yochulukirapo kuti uchiritse kapena ayi (ngakhale sindinamvepo ngati kuti ubongo wanga ukuyesera kundinyenga kwakanthawi).
• Sindinamve kuti ndili ndi 'mphamvu zoposa'. Ndine munthu yemweyo momwe ndinalili poyamba kupatula pano sindimachita bwino. Ndimakhala pafupifupi maola 2 tsiku lililonse kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi 5x sabata iliyonse, koma ndimachita izi NoFap isanachitike. Ndilinso ndikulimba mtima kwambiri ndipo ndimagwira bwino ntchito yanga, ndipo palibe chomwe chasintha pamenepo.
• Ndine wachifundo kwa anthu ambiri omwe amanena kuti NoFap yakhala yovuta kwa iwo koma, ngati ndine woona mtima, zakhala zophweka kwambiri kwa ine (ngati 10 inali yosavuta, yakhala ya 8-9 kwa ine). Nthawi zambiri ndimadzifunsa ngati ichi ndichizindikiro kuti ndimakondadi amuna kapena akazi anzawo ndipo mtima wanga sufuna kugonana.
• Ndinkakonda kuda nkhawa kwambiri zogonana. Ndinayesetsa kukhala ndi anthu ochepa ndisanayambe NoFap, ndipo ndinali ndi nkhawa kwambiri zakukumana nawo nthawi iliyonse. Mwinanso kusintha komwe ndazindikira kuchokera ku NoFap ndikuti sindimakhalanso wamantha pazinthu izi. Zachidziwikire, sindinkafuna kukhala mumkhalidwe wotere kwakanthawi tsopano (ndikutanthauza, ndikufuna, koma thupi langa silikusangalatsidwa).
• Sindingathe kuchita bwino mwakufuna kwanga. M'masiku oyamba a 50-60 kapena kupitilira apo, ndimatha kupeza erection mosavuta ndikudzigwira. Ndizovuta kwambiri kuti ndichite izi tsopano. Sindinakhalepo ndi erection kwa milungu ingapo. Ndikhoza kuchita ndi dzanja langa pa mbolo yanga, koma yafa (chabwino, akufa ndi mawu amphamvu: zimamveka ngati sizikusangalatsidwa).
• Ndikunena kuti, ndimadzuka m'mawa kwambiri ndikumangirira. Nthawi zambiri, amakhala olimba komanso olimba.
• Sinthani: Ndiyenera kuwonjezera: Sindikudziwa ngati ndingafotokozere momwe ndimamvera tsopano ngati "alpha", koma ndakhala ndikumvadi kuti ndine munthu. Ndikuganiza kuti izi mwina zandithandiziranso ku masewera olimbitsa thupi, inenso: ngakhale ndakhala ndikupita kwanthawi yayitali, ndikadakhala wowona mtima, ndimakhala wovuta kwambiri panthawi yomwe ndinayamba NoFap. Sindidzadziwona ndekha ngati alpha kinda guy, koma ndimasangalala ndikumverera ngati ndine wodekha komanso wolamulira.

Pano pali masiku 90 otsatira ndikuganiza!