Yemwe Ndine: Mnyamata wazaka 28 zakubadwa. Anayamba PMO ndili ndi zaka 18. Muzimasuka kuwerenga nkhani yanga. Ndikuzindikira kuti iyi ndi nthawi yayitali ndipo ndikulemba izi pazifukwa zanga, kuti ndichotse pachifuwa panga. Mwina wina kunja uko angamve.
M'mbuyomu: Nthawi zambiri ndimakonda kusewera kamodzi patsiku. Sindinkaganiza kuti izi zinali zochulukirapo mwanjira iliyonse, kwenikweni ndinkaganiza kuti zinali zabwinobwino. Sindinakhale mwamantha kapena zachilendo, koma zolaula zinkalimba pang'onopang'ono zaka zambiri. Sindinazindikire, ndinali ndi nkhawa zambiri zobwezera. Choyamba komanso ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi 20 ndidayamba kukhala ndi HOCD (vuto logonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha). Izi zinali zodabwitsa kwambiri kwa ine chifukwa ndinali atsikana moyo wanga wonse. Ndimatha kukumbukira kuthamangitsa ndikupeza kupsompsona koyamba kwa atsikana ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi 5 kapena 6. HOCD idandigwedeza pachimake ndipo ndidayamba kuda nkhawa ndi izi mwachangu.
Zaka zingapo zinadutsa ndipo ine ndinali ndikadali wa PMO tsiku lililonse. Pakadali pano ndinali ndi zaka 23 ndipo ndidakumana ndi kukhala wamkulu ndi mtsikana wokongola yemwe ndidakumana naye ku masewera olimbitsa thupi. Patatha pafupifupi chaka chibwenzi tidayamba kukwatirana. Tidali ndi misala za wina ndi mnzake komanso mwachikondi. Ngakhale zinthu zinkawoneka ngati zikuyenda bwino tinali ndi zovuta zina zomwe zidapangika mwachangu. Sikuti ndimamupatsa chidwi chokwanira. Ndimakhala ndikulakalaka za akazi ena. Ndinkalima nthawi imeneyo ndipo atsikana ankadziponya tsiku lililonse. Ndidapezeka kuti ndikufuna PMO m'malo mogonana ndi bwenzi langa lokongola. Pambuyo pake zinafika pomwe anali wosasangalala kwambiri kuti adasiyana ndi ine, ndikundibwezera mphete, ndikuyenda kunja. Ndinali wopanda nkhawa. Sindingathe kunena zomwe ndidakumana nazo m'maganizo zitatha izi.
Ndidagwera nthito yamtundu wa PMO. Zokhumudwa, kuda nkhawa, ndipo ngakhale ndimasilira za akazi NGAKHALE kuti HOCD iyamba kukulira. Pakadali pano sindinadziwe zomwe zolaula zimandipanga ku ubongo. Sindinathe kulumikiza madontho ndi zolaula ndi HOCD. Ndinali ndisanamvepo ndekha moyo wanga wonse. Ndinkadziwa kuti sindine gay koma sindingathenso kutero. Pamodzi ndi izi ndidakhala ndi nkhawa yayikulu yomwe ndimabisira aliyense chifukwa ndimachita manyazi ndi HOCD. Kudzipha kudutsa malingaliro anga pafupipafupi. Ndimaganiza kuti ndine yekhayo mdziko lapansi amene akudutsa izi.
Mbali yabwino, ngakhale ndimavutitsidwa ndimisala ndidakwanitsa kuchita ntchito yanga ndipo ndidapeza ntchito yayikulu. Komabe, PMO ndi nkhawa zinkalipo tsiku lililonse. Zovuta zinali kuyamba kukulira ndipo sizinali zongogwirizana ndi HOCD. Ndinayamba kuda nkhawa ndi zinthu zosiyanasiyana pamoyo wanga. Zaka zina zingapo zimadutsa. Ndine wosakwatiwa ndipo ndikulingalirabe ndikuthamangitsa atsikana, ndikuyika zala zanga kulowa pagulu. Ndimakonda kwambiri kucheza komanso kukumana ndi atsikana atsopano. Anzanga komanso abale anga asintha kwambiri m'miyo mwanga komanso umunthu wanga. Nthawi yonseyi HO HO ili pafupi kusokonekera kwamalingaliro.
Ichi chinali chodabwitsa kwambiri komanso chovuta kufotokoza. Ndinafuna ndikusilira za atsikana mokhazikika, koma nthawi yomweyo, a HOCD anali nditangodzipha. Sindingathe kuyanjana ndi azimayi omwe ndimakhala nawo. Ndidasintha atsikana pamoyo wanga mwachangu kuposa momwe ndidasinthira masokosi anga. Ndikufuna zatsopano. Ndidasweka mitima yambiri nthawi imeneyi. Nditangogona ndi mtsikana sindingafune kanthu nawo. Ndinkadana ndi izi. Zomwe ndimafuna kuti ndichite ndikupeza mkazi wamaloto anga. Zikafika poipa kwambiri, bwenzi langa lakale lidakumana ndikukwatirana ndi chibwenzi china. Chokhacho chomwe chimangokhala chokhazikika m'moyo wanga chinali chakuti ndimakondabe tsiku lililonse. Palibe chodabwitsa kapena chopenga, kamodzi kokha patsiku. Ndinayambanso kusowa kwambiri akazi. Kudzidalira kwanga konse kunali kotengera zomwe atsikana amandiganiza. Ndinasandulika kukhala chirombo chopatsa mphamvu cha PMO osazindikira.
Ndipo tsiku lina ndinali kusakatula / r / Askreddit, ndipo funso lomwe winawake adaligwira linandidabwitsa. Mnyamata uyu adandifunsa "Chifukwa chiyani ndimayang'ana akazi nthawi zonse?" Nthawi zambiri ndimadzifunsa funso lomweli kotero ndidadina ulalo. Ndinawerenga mayankho angapo osavomerezeka, kenako ndinazindikira kuti munthu wina walemba ulalo kwa / r / nofap, ndikufotokozera kuti sanatenge masiku a 7. Ndidapita ku ulalo ndipo ndidapeza anthu amderali. Ndinawerenga zonse zomwe zidayenera kuwerenga pa ybop.com. Nthawi ina ndinayamba kulira chifukwa ndimazindikira kuti mapemphero anga anali atayankhidwa ndipo ndinazindikira chomwe chimayambira pa zovuta zanga. Zolaula. Ndipo ine ndinalibe lingaliro. Nthawi yomweyo ndidalumbira zolaula ndikuyamba zovuta zanga.
Pambuyo: Patatha masiku 90 ndili pano. Ndinganene moona mtima kuti kusiya zolaula chinali chisankho chabwino kwambiri chomwe ndidapanga. Nditangoyamba ulendo wanga ndidakumana ndi mtsikana, ndipo zinthu zikuchitika modabwitsa. Tikuwonana okhaokha tsopano ndipo sindikufuna kupita ku chinthu china. Ndimakumbukirabe zina, koma malingaliro amenewo amalamulidwa mosavuta pano. Ndipo kwa nthawi yoyamba mzaka zambiri ndimatha kumva kuphatikana kwabwino kumapangidwa. Tangokhala pachibwenzi kwa miyezi ingapo tsopano, koma moona mtima ndikumva ngati ndikakumana ndi mkazi yemwe ndikufuna kukwatira.
HOCD ili pafupi kupita kwathunthu, ngakhale kumangokhala kokhazikika apa ndi apo. Sindidenso nkhawa kapena kukhumudwa. Sindingafotokoze kusiyana kwa chisangalalo. Ndikumva ngati 1000lbs yatulutsidwa pamapewa anga. Ndilimbikitsidwa ndikukankha bulu mu masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikuyambiranso kudya wathanzi. Abwana anga sanakhalepo achimwemwe ndi kaimbidwe kanga. Moyo umawoneka wowala komanso wokondwereranso ndipo ndikhulupilira kupitiliza ulendo wanga wosangalatsa kwa moyo wanga wonse.
Kodi mavuto anga onse anali okhudzana ndi zolaula? Sindikudziwa. Zomwe ndikudziwa ndi momwe ndikumvera tsopano, poyerekeza ndi masiku a 90 apitawo. Ndipo ndikusiyana kwa usiku ndi usana. Zinali zosavuta. Kumayambiriro, zikhumbo zinali zambiri ndipo ndidatsala pang'ono kubwereza kangapo. Pamafunika mphamvu zambiri kuti mukhale oyera. Gulu lathuli lidandithandiza kwambiri ndipo anyamata inu mumakhala ndimbuyanga.
Iyi ndi nkhani yanga. Ngati mwawerenga mpaka pano, zikomo. Ndikutanthauza izi modzipereka. Cheers.
KULUMIKIZANA - Zomwe ndikukumana nazo za tsiku la 90: Pambuyo ndi Pambuyo Pambuyo
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1 chaka chatha lero ndidayamba ulendo wanga wa nofap. Malingaliro anga.
Zowona sindikukhulupirira kuti ndidakwanitsa. Pamapeto pake ndili ndi roketi yaying'ono pafupi ndi dzina langa! Sindikudziwa kwenikweni choti ndinene. Ndingotsanulira malingaliro anga ena pa momwe moyo wanga wakhalira kuyambira pomwe ndinasiya PMO.
Poyamba, nditamaliza masiku 90 oyamba ndidalemba zolemba zomwe zalandila mayankho ambiri abwino. Kwa aliyense amene adayankhapo pamsonkhanowu, munandipatsa chilimbikitso chomwe ndimafunikira kuti ndikwaniritse chaka champhamvu. Zikomo fellas. Nawu ulalo wa aliyense amene akufuna ...
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Ndinganene moona mtima kuti ndangokhala chaka chabwino kwambiri m'moyo wanga. Nofap yasintha moyo wanga. Pakhala pali zokwera ndi zotsika zambiri. Ndipo nthawi zambiri pomwe ndinali pafupi kubwerera. Ubongo wanu uli ndi kuthekera kodabwitsa kofotokozera chilichonse chomwe chikufuna, ngakhale zili zoyipa bwanji kwa inu. Ndinali ndi nkhondo zambiri komanso ndimayandikira kwambiri. Pamapeto pake, sindinabwererenso ndipo ndinatha kumaliza chaka poyesa kanga koyamba. Ndasankha kusiya zopindulitsa za nofap m'magulu osiyanasiyana. Ndikumva kuti iyi ndi njira yosavuta yosonyezera anyamata momwe zandikhudzira.
Choyamba, HOCD / nkhawa. Kwa aliyense amene akudabwa kuti ndi chiani chomwe ndikulankhulachi pitirizani kuwerenga zolemba zanga zoyambirira, pomwe ndimafotokozera momwe zimakhalira ndikamakumana ndi zoyipa izi. Choopsa kwambiri ndikuchiyika modekha. Ili linali vuto lalikulu kwambiri lomwe ndimakumana nalo pomwe ndimayamba. Kwa inu omwe simukuwadziwa, HOCD imayimira Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder kapena, imadziwikanso kuti Primally Obsessive OCD. Kwenikweni ndi mantha osaganizira omwe amawonetsa ngati malingaliro osafunikira omwe simungathe kuwongolera. Kwa ine, zinali mantha kuti ndimagonana. Ndikudziwa, ndikudziwa, pitilirani ndikunena izi. "Mnyamata uyu ali m'chipindamo!" Ndamva zonse kale. Nkhani ndiyakuti sindine ndekha amene ndidakumana ndi izi. YBOP ili ndi zambiri pamutuwu. Nthawi zambiri, mutha kufananitsa izi ndi munthu wina yemwe amangokhala "m'chipinda," zomwe zingakhale bwino ndikadakhala kuti ndimagonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha. Izi ndizowopsa kwambiri kwa wina yemwe ali wowongoka ndipo amakonda akazi moyo wawo wonse. Ndinachita mantha kuti nditaya china chake chomwe ndimachikonda komanso kuchikonda. Ubale ndi akazi.
Popeza kusiya PMO, HOCD idapita. Ndichoncho. Kuchotsa zolaula kwandipatsa mwayi wopeza OCD. Ndinapemphanso thandizo kwa sing'anga yemwe adandithandiza kupeza njira zoyenera zomenyera OCD. Chofunika koposa, kutha kuyimitsa "kuwunika" komwe kumabwera ndi OCD. Zili ngati kuti mapaundi chikwi atachotsedwa m'mapewa mwanga. Sindidzaiwala usiku womwe ndidapeza nofap. Ndinagwetsa misozi, pozindikira kuti zolaula ndizomwe zimayambitsa mavuto anga. Sindinathe kukhala ndi ubale wabwino. Simungathe kudzutsidwa ndi akazi abwinobwino, okongola pamaso panga. Porn zinali zitasokoneza malingaliro anga pankhani yakugonana mpaka pomwe atsikana wamba sanandichitire chilichonse. Chifukwa chake, zomwe zimabweretsa nkhawa zambiri pa HOCD, ndikupanga zozungulira. Iwo anali atakhala zinthu mmalo mwa anthu. Ndinkafuna zambiri. Ma booby abodza, matupi angwiro, othandizana nawo angapo. Zonsezi ndizabodza, zopanda nzeru. Kugonana pafupipafupi sikunali kokwanira. Ngati aliyense angathe kundimvetsetsa ndipo akufuna wina woti alankhule naye, omasuka kunditumizira uthenga. Ndingakhale wokondwa kwambiri kumvera. Kukhala womasuka ku OCD kwadzetsa chisangalalo chomwe ndinali nditaiwala.
Chachiwiri, chidwi ndi chidwi. Sindingathe kufotokoza. Sindinakhalepo wolimbikitsidwa kwambiri m'moyo wanga wonse. Ndatengera kulimba kwanga pamlingo wina watsopano. M'mbuyomu, ndimavutika kukhala wokhazikika pa masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikupitilizabe kudya. Mwachidule, ndangomaliza kudula kwamasabata 12 ndipo tsopano ndikuyambitsa pulogalamu yochulukirapo. Sizovuta koma zomwe ndakulimbikitsani sizinasinthe. Ndine wokondwa kwambiri ndi komwe ndili kwakuthupi ndipo ndili wokondwa kuwona komwe ndingapiteko. Kwa aliyense amene akufuna kudziwa pulogalamu yomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito, onani / r / malalanje. Amuna kumeneko ndi abwino.
Chachitatu, Ubale. Uku ndiko kukhala kusintha kwakukulu kwambiri komwe ndidapanga ndipo mwina ndi komwe ndikuthokoza kwambiri. Nditangoyamba kumene nofap ndinakumana ndi mayi wokongola komanso wanzeru yemwe anali atachoka mu mgwirizano wanga. Wokongola, wolimbikitsidwa, wanzeru, komanso woseketsa. Zinthu zonse zomwe ndimayembekezera. Ndinalemba za iye mwachidule positi yanga yoyamba. Tidakali limodzi ndipo zinthu zikuyendabe bwino. Tikubwera pa chaka tsopano. Amadziwa zonse za ine ndi ulendo wanga wa nofap ndipo wakhala akundithandizira mokhulupilika pazonsezi. Koma ine ndinena izi. Ndikadapanda kuyamba nofap, mwina akadangokhala kukumbukira kwakutali pofika pano. Monga ndidanenera koyambirira, sindinathe kukhala ndiubwenzi wabwino. Atsikana anali atakhala zinthu. Ndinali ndikunyamula ndikudutsa atsikana ngati openga. Zachidziwikire, ndimaganiza kuti ndimawakonda poyamba, koma ndikagona nawo, ndimangotaya chidwi nthawi yomweyo. Ndinkalakalaka zachilendozo. Ndinali kungotchulidwa pafupifupi mayina onse m'bukuli, ndipo moona, ndinali oyenerera.
Takhala pachibwenzi kwakanthawi tsopano ndipo ndikuganiza moona mtima kuti tsiku lina ndidzamukwatira. Ngati ndili ndi mwayi. Chaka chatha tidaphulika, ndikupita ku Hawaii. Ngati sikunali kwa nofap sindikadatha kukhazikika ndikumuyamikira ndi chilichonse chomwe angapatse wina. Ndine mwayi wosaneneka komanso othokoza.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti pali zambiri zomwe ndingathe kuwonjezera koma izi ndi zomwe ndaganizira pamwamba pamutu panga. Malangizo anga kwa aliyense amene akuganiza zoyesa nofap. Ingochitani amuna. Kwambiri. Osachepera yesani. Zingamupweteke bwanji? Zasintha malingaliro anga kwamuyaya ndipo ndikuyembekeza kupitiliza ulendo wanga wa nofap moyo wanga wonse.
Zikomo powerenga. Cheers.
Kenny
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