Ndimalongosola mwachidule nkhani yanga. Ndidayamba kuchepa nditamva kuti ndili ndi cum, yemwe anali wazaka pafupifupi 13. Ndinkakwanitsa tsiku lililonse pamoyo wanga ndipo makolo anga atachoka ndipo ndimakhala ndekha ndimatha kupitilira kasanu usiku.
Kuthamangira kwa ine ndili m'zaka zanga za 20, ndidakhala ndi malo anga ndipo mzanga adandiwuza za tsamba linalake la chubu. Ndinkakonda atsikana ndipo nthawi zambiri ndinkakhala pafupipafupi kamodzi kapena kawiri pa sabata. Ndinali ndi panga yanga ndipo ndinali kumenyetsa atsikana osiyanasiyana nthawi zonse ndipo zolaula sizinali vuto chifukwa sindinkawona zambiri.
Kenako nditatembenuza 25, ndidayamba ndi ma hookers ngakhale nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi atsikana angapo ochulukirapo omwe ndimawaona. Pang'onopang'ono kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kunali kopitilira kugonana kwanga ndi atsikana enieni. Pakati ndidakondana atsikana anayi (osati nthawi imodzi) koma zolaula zidangokulirakulira.
Kuthamangira msinkhu wazaka 28 ine, kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula mopanda pake ndinali ndi bwenzi lokhazikika lomwe ndimakwanitsabe kugonana naye koma zopempha zanga zidakwiyira kwambiri. Kukula pafupipafupi katatu patsiku tsiku lililonse. Ndimagwira m'mawa uliwonse ndipo ndimachedwa kugwira ntchito tsiku lililonse. Ndinakwanitsa kugwira ntchito ndekha mpaka nthawi yabwino pantchito chifukwa pakati pa 24 ndi 27 wazaka sindinkawona zolaula zambiri (osati zomwe ndimakumbukira) ndipo ndimayang'ana kwambiri ntchito yanga.
Ndinayamba kutaya zoyipa, kuchedwa kuntchito, ubongo wa muubongo… liwu laphokoso, osatha kufotokoza pamaso pa unyinji wa anthu (zomwe ndizofunikira pantchito yanga). Ndinapita kukafika pafupipafupi nthawi 5 patsiku. Chibwenzi chinakhala nane, ngakhale ED akuyamba. Panthawi yomwe ndimamuwona ndikadakhala ndikuchulukitsa katatu patsikuli kotero zikuwoneka kuti chilakolako changa chogonana chinali 0 panthawiyo ngakhale ndinali ndi bwenzi lotentha kwambiri lomwe linali laling'ono kwambiri kuposa ine.
Kenako, ine mwanjira inayake ndidapunthwa pamtunduwu chifukwa winawake amamuchitira nthabwala pa gawo lina. Kenako ndidapita pa tsamba lanu la webrainonporn ndikusinthanso. Kwa nthawi yoyamba, ndidavomereza kuti ndili ndi vuto komanso ndizofunika kwambiri kuti chizolowezichi chidakumana ndi zovuta.
Ndinapitiliza kuwerengera tsiku limodzi kapena 1 "2 streaks" ndikubwereranso kangapo kuposa momwe ndikukumbukira. Ndimamva ngati wopanda chiyembekezo. Ndinawerenga nkhani za anthu ndipo ndinazindikira kuti ndinali woyipa kuposa 99/100 fapstronauts. Izi zidachitika kwanthawi yayitali. Ndinangobwereranso tsiku 1 kapena 2 kapena 3 ngati ndinali ndi mwayi.
Werengani nkhani ya Gabe ndikuwona makanema ake, ndikuyamba kudziphunzitsa ndekha powerenga mabuku olimbikitsidwa ndi oyambiranso bwino. Nthawi zonse kubwereranso tsiku ndi tsiku. Ndimapopedwa ndikupita patali 2 kapena 3 tsiku ndikumakhala tambala BOOM! kubwereranso pambuyo pobwereranso pambuyo pobwereranso. Ndidali wokhumudwa kwambiri koma ndimangowerengera nkhani zanu zonse ndi mabuku (pomwe sindinali kukula zomwe sizinali kawirikawiri).
Kenako china chake chidachitika masiku 188 apitawo, ndimapita pa "nofap" ina ndipo sindikudziwa chomwe chidadina koma ndikudziwa nkhani zakuwononga zolaula ndi Gabe komanso nofap ndi masamba ena omwe atchulidwa ndi mabuku omwe ndimawerenga zonse adasewera gawo lawo. Ndimakumbukira kukhala tsiku la 4 ndikufuna kulemba pa nofap koma sindinayesenso kutaya tambala.
Ndinkayesedwa nthawi zambiri kuti ndingoyang'ana mwachangu zina zamawu anga akale kuti ndione zomwe zikuchitika m'dziko la zolaula koma mwanjira ina ndinakana, ndinabwereranso ku malo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi kuti ndikagule Mabuku ena othandizira ena ndipo ndalandira ena patsamba langa.
Pakati pa tsiku 5 ndi 10, ndimakumbukira zoyipa zonse zomwe ndimakonda kuchita. Kusewera dziwe, kusonkhanitsa ndikuwerenga mabuku azithunzithunzi! Kukhala ndi nthawi ndi anzanu komanso abale! Ndipo kwa nthawi yoyamba pazomwe zimamveka ngati kwamuyaya sindinathe kudikira kuti ndikhale pachibwenzi ndi bwenzi langa. Tinagonana ndipo ndinakhala wolimba, molimbika kwambiri, ndinkasangalala nayo kwambiri ndipo kwa nthawi yoyamba tinayamba kukondana ndipo sitinachite zoyipa zomwe zingandipangitse kukhala wolimba (ndimamufuna kuti azilankhula ngati zauve kuti akhale zovuta pazifukwa zina kale).
Pakati pa masiku 1 mpaka 20, ndinkalota zolaula zamaliseche… zomwe ndimakonda, atsikana omwe ndimagonana nawo m'mbuyomu. Ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri ndipo ndikukumbukira ndikugona pabedi ndikuwukiridwa ndi malingaliro ndi masomphenya onsewa, ndimamva ndendende momwe Ewan McGreggor amawonedwera ku Trainspotting komwe anali kuchira chifukwa chakuzunzidwa ndi heroin, ZONSE monga choncho. Ndinkazunzidwa makamaka madzulo ndi m'mawa koma ndinkangodziuza ndekha “kudwala ndi kukupeza bwino, izi sizikhala kwamuyaya”… ndipo sizinachitike
Pitani patsogolo + -day 20, osakhala ndi zithunzi, osakhala aulesi m'mawa… mphamvu zokhazokha, koma ine ndikhale wanthabwala. Liwu langa linali lamphamvu kwambiri ndipo ndimatha kuyankhula ndi anthu popanda chibwibwi, POPANDA STUTTER ndipo ndinalibe nkhawa ndikamafotokozera anthu kuntchito kenanso. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala wabwino ndi atsikana koma ndimaganiza kuti ndichifukwa ndinali mwana wamwamuna woopsa kwambiri pamlingo womwe ndimatsata atsikana ndimayenera kucheza ndi ochepa. Sindinaone kuti ndiyenera kubera chibwenzi changa, koyamba kuti anali wokwanira, sindinkafuna ngakhale pang'ono kuti ndimuperekeze ndipo kupita kwa atsikana ena kumangowonjezera kulemera koma kamodzi sindinakhale bwenzi lopenga sakanakhoza kunena chilichonse ndi dzenje.
Ndikawona masiku 188 pafupi ndi baji yanga sindimakhulupirira. Popeza masiku awa a 188 ndatenga 10kg, ndimatha kuthamanga 24 km popanda nkhawa, sindinasute ndudu (vuto langa la PMO limayenderana ndi ndudu momwe ndimasutira ndili PMO'ing). Sindingathe kukhala PMO popanda kukhala ndi ndudu ndi theka la nthawi yomwe ndimamwa ndikumwa PMO'ing ndikusuta. Thanzi langa lachita 180, sindinatope nthawi zonse ndipo ubongo wa ubongo wapita kwathunthu.
Tithokoze aliyense amene walemba nkhani yake pano, ndimadzaza ndi misozi ndikaganiza zakutali komwe ndafika patatha masiku 188. Anthu amaseketsa gawo ili koma lidachita gawo lalikulu pakupulumutsa moyo wanga ndikundipangitsa kukhala wokondwa koyamba kwanthawi zonse. Tsopano ndikukhala moyo osati kungopulumuka.
Mutha kuchita izi, ndikhulupirireni. Ndine amene anali wozunzika kwambiri ndipo ngati ndingathe, inunso mutha kuchita.
Masiku a 188, ndimaganiza kuti ndinali wopanda chiyembekezo. Koma ndine pano.
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