Zaka 29 - Flatline, ED

History

Lero, ndili masiku a 41 opanda P, masiku a 39 opanda M / O, ndipo mosakayikira konse sakanatha kufika pano (kapena mwina anayesapo konse) popanda Marnia ndi Gary kugwira ntchito mwakhama pofalitsa kuzindikira za izi. Zikomo kwambiri nonse. Komanso, maakaunti anu komanso nkhani zobwezeretsanso zinthu ndizomwe ndidafunikira kuti ndibwererenso pomwe mphamvu zanga zikuchepa, chifukwa chake zikomo nonse chifukwa chokhala olimba mtima kuti mutumize zambiri mwatsatanetsatane kuti zithandizire ena - ndikudziwa osadziwika, komabe, ndizovuta kubisa moyo wako kuti onse awone!

Ngakhale ndakhala ndikukayikira kulemba za njira yanga, ndakhala ndikuganizira za izo, ndipo ndikumva kuti ndili ndi ngongole kwa anthu ammudzi kuti awonjezere gawo langa lodzichepetsa. Mwina nkhani yanga ipangitsa kuti wina ayesetse kuthana ndi zovulaza zomwe tonsefe timakumana nazo - ndizochepa zomwe ndingachite. Pitani ku nthano->

Nditaphunzira zomwe ndaphunzira pano, ndimadziona kuti ndine mwayi. Ndine wazaka 29. Ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche ndili wamng'ono (ndikuganiza kuti ndiocheperako kuposa ambiri, ngakhale sindikudziwa kuti anyamata ndi azaka zingati), kalekale ndisanapeze zolaula, ndipo zikuwoneka kuti ndichinthu chabwino. Zinayamba ngati zosagonana, kutanthauza kuti kunalibe malingaliro, ndimangokhalira kusangalala ndi kuthupi. Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndidawonapo zolaula, ngati ndikukumbukira bwino, ndimachokera ku stash ya abambo anga a Playboy magazini mu chipinda. Ndimakumbukiranso ndikupeza masamba osweka kuchokera ku magazini ya Hustler kusukulu ndili ndi zaka 11 kapena 12, ndipo ndidapita nawo kunyumba ndikuseweretsa maliseche kuzithunzi ndikuwasunga pamalo obisalapo. Tikapeza kompyuta, mwina ndili ndi zaka 13, ndinawona zithunzi zanga zolimba kwambiri, ndipo pamapeto pake ndinayesa "cybersex" pamalo ochezera pa intaneti. Munthawi yonseyi, ndinkasangalatsidwa ndi zolaula komanso zongoyerekeza. Nthawi ina, ndinayamba kudalira kwambiri zakunja, ndipo nthawi zina ndimakhala ndi maliseche pazithunzi za intaneti mpaka 4 kapena 5 nthawi patsiku!

Ndinagonana ndi mkazi kwa nthawi yoyamba ndili ndi 18, ndipo panalibe zovuta zogwirira ntchito kuti ndiyankhule. Sindikuganiza kuti ndimadziwa kuti ndizotheka kukhala ndi mavuto. Ndi wokondedwa wanga waku koleji kugonana kunali kwabwino ndipo kunalibenso, mavuto. Komabe, panthawiyi (makamaka nthawi yachilimwe pomwe sindinamuwone kwanthawi yayitali), ndimachita maliseche pa zolaula za pa intaneti, nthawi zambiri zithunzi zosasintha. Ndinazindikiranso zabwino zakukalamba ndikupita ku sitolo yamavidiyo achikulire kukagula matepi a VHS. Chakumapeto kwa chibwenzi chathu, ndimakumbukira zochitika zomwe timagonana, ndipo ndimayenera kulingalira za chinthu china kuti ndikhale ndi chidwi chokwanira ... izi sizinakhale vuto lenileni, koma ndimakumbukira kuti zimachitika nthawi ndi nthawi nthawi, ndipo ngakhale bwenzi langa lachimuna limatha kuzindikira bwino pomwe malingaliro anga sanali kwathunthu kwa iye.

Nditapita kukoleji, panali nthawi pafupifupi chaka chomwe ndinalibe chibwenzi, ndipo panthawiyi kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kunakulirakulira. Ndikuganiza kuti zinali pafupi kuti lino kuti ndiyambe kutsitsa mavidiyo ndikukhala ndi chopereka chachikulu. Ndinkawonera ukonde mwina kwa maola pafupifupi 1 kapena 2 tsiku lililonse ndikutsitsa ndikuwonetsa maliseche etc. Kenako, ED yoyamba ya moyo wanga inachitika. Ndili pafupi 23. Ndinali ndi chibwenzi chatsopano, ndipo nthawi yoyamba yomwe tinayesera kugonana ndimavutika kuti ndikhale ndikukula. Ndinalimba nazo mpaka misempha ndi makondomu. Mwamwayi, izi zidasowa ndipo kugonana kunali kwachilengedwe komanso kwabwino kwambiri pachibwenzi chathu, koma munthawi imeneyi, nthawi zosowa poganizira zinthu zina (zolaula, azimayi) kuti apitilize kukonzekera. Ndinazindikiranso kuti ndimakhumbirabe zolaula ngakhale moyo wathu wamagonana unali wopindulitsa kwambiri. Kumapeto kwa chibwenzi chathu, ndikukumbukira kuti sindimapeza bwenzi langa lokongola ngati kale, ndikuyamba kumfanizira ndi ochita zolaula. Sindinakhale wosakhutira ndipo maubalewo adatha.

Kwa zaka zingapo zotsatira ndinalibe chibwenzi chilichonse, ndi amuna, komanso sindinachite zogonana. Ndidadzimva kuti ndikulankhula kwambiri ndi akazi, ndipo ngakhale ndimayesa kuchita chibwenzi, sizinamveke bwino, sindinakhalepo wosangalala, ndipo ndidavutika ndi ED kawiri ndi akazi. Nthawi yomweyo, monga momwe mungaganizire, zolaula zanga zidafika pachimake. Ndinayamba kulipira masamba azolaula, ndikutsitsa makanema ambiri, ndipo chidwi changa pazinthu zowoneka bwino chidakulirakulira. Ndinali mwana wochezeka, wochezeka, wopanda mantha, koma tsopano ndimamva mosiyana kwambiri, monga wakale ine ndinali chabe mthunzi ndipo watsopano wanga anali nyama yowuma, yodandaula, yopanda chiyembekezo. Sindinali kudzikonda kwambiri panthawiyi, koma sindinaphatikizepo awiri kapena awiri limodzi. Zinali chabe zomwe ife amuna tidachita - tidathawa, kusangalala ndi zolaula, ndipo ndi momwe zimakhalira - njira ya mwamunayo. Chinanso chiyenera kuti chikuyambitsa mavutowa, sichoncho?

Chaka chapitacho ndi pamene zolaula zanga zinayamba kuwononga moyo wanga. Ndikutanthauza, idali kale kale m'njira zambiri, koma tsopano idayamba kutenga magawo osavomerezeka. Ndidazindikira kuti ndimatha kusintha mavidiyo omwe ndimawakonda ndi mkonzi wavidiyo. Nditha kusintha magawo omwe ndimawakonda kwambiri, kuwadula ndikuwadula ndikuwakonza ndi nyimbo - chinali chojambula chachikulu. Ndinayamba kugawa makanema osiyanasiyana palimodzi, kuthera maola ambiri ndikupeza chilichonse molondola, kukonza nyimbo, ndi zina zambiri. Popanda kunena kuti inali kudwala, ndimakhala chizimbwizimbwi kuchita izi kwa maola ambiri. Chodzikhululukira changa ndikuti ndimachepetsa makanema anga, ndikudula zinthu zonse zomwe sindimakonda ndikupanga makanema olimbikitsa kwambiri, omwe ndimagonana nawo. Mabomba khumi a atomu anali abwino kuposa ma grenade makumi asanu, sichoncho?

Zokopa zomwe makanemawa adapereka sizinali zosiyana ndi zomwe ndidakumana nazo kale. Makanema angapo odulidwa uku ndi uku mwachangu, zonse zimafikira pachimake nthawi yomweyo nyimbozo. Ndikukhulupirira kuti zina mwazokopa zolaula ndizomwe zimawongolera - chizolowezi changa chatsopanochi chinali kuyendetsa gawo lina. Icho chinali chinthu chosokoneza kwambiri chomwe ndakhala ndikumanapo nacho. Kanema akangomaliza, ndimapereka, kuyiyang'ana, kuseweretsa maliseche, kenako, ngati kuti ndikuwuka kuchokera kumaloto, ndimadabwa kuti ndimakhala ndikuchita chiyani tsiku lonse. Ndimamva manyazi, kudziimba mlandu, komanso kukwiya chifukwa chowononga maola ochuluka kwambiri kuchita chinthu chonyansa komanso chopanda pake. Koma, tsiku lotsatira, inali kuyimba, ndipo ndimabwereza kuchita.

Zinali zachilendo, ngakhale izi zinali zoyipa kwambiri kuposa kale lonse, inali nthawi yoyamba kuti ndizindikire kuti ndinali ndi vuto. Ndidanyansidwa nditagunda kuti ndimakonda kuchotsa makanema anga onse, chilichonse, ndikumanena kuti sindidzachitanso, zomwe zikuwononga moyo wanga. Ndikhoza kungokhala masiku angapo kapena apo, ndikubwerera, ndikutsitsa ndikusintha makanema. Mobwerezabwereza ndimayesetsa kudziletsa, koma mobwerezabwereza ndimabwereranso. Sindinakhalepo wokhoza kuwongolera zofuna zanga.

Ndinakumana ndi mtsikana nthawi yachilimwe yomwe ndimakonda kwambiri. Sitinagonepo, sizinathandize, koma kumbuyo kwa malingaliro anga ndimadziwa kuti ngati titagonana, ndikhala ndi vuto. Ndikulingalira kuti ubongo wanga unali utayamba kulumikiza timadontho ndisanadziwe konse. Ndachotsa makanema anga onse ndipo kwa masabata pafupifupi 2 sindinayang'ane zolaula kapena maliseche, ndikangogona ndi mkaziyu. Ndinaganiza ngati ndikusunga mphamvu zakugonana. Ndikadakhala kuti sindinachite maliseche kwakanthawi, palibe njira yomwe ndikadakhalira ndi ED, sichoncho? Ndikanakhala wolakalaka kuti ndipite, sichoncho?

Ndidadzichepetsera panthawi yodziletsa. Mbolo yanga inali yopanda moyo komanso yopanda chidwi nthawi zonse, chifukwa chake ndidatuluka ndikuyamba kuyang'ana zakulephera kwa erectile. Izi zidanditsogolera ku YBOP. Sindinakhulupirire! Zinali zoyipa kuposa momwe ndimaganizira - zolaula zidasintha ubongo wanga!

Nditasiya kuwona msungwanayu, ndinadzimva kuti ndine wotetezeka ndikudziwa kuti sindingadandaule za kusewera, ndipo izi zinandipatsa chilolezo chobwerera kumachitidwe anga akale. Tsopano popeza ndidawerenga zambiri za YBOP, komabe, sindinazindikire kuti mbewu idabzalidwa ndipo kuti ndinali kale paulendo wokayambitsa vutoli kamodzi kokha. Nditapumira pang'ono, ndinadzipeza ndikubwerera, ndikudziphunzitsa ndekha, ndipo pamapeto pake ndidasankha kuti moyo wanga uyenera kusintha.

Nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndimayang'ana zolaula inali Okutobala 16th. Nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndinkasewera maliseche panali masiku 2 pambuyo pake, pa Okutobala 18th. Pa Novembala 14th, ndinkasewera maliseche, ndipo ngakhale ndimafunadi, ndidadzitchinjiriza ku O'ing komwe ndinkanyadira. Awo anali okhawo omwe adazembera, ndipo SINDIDZABWERANSO chifukwa ndikufuna kuchita izi ndikuwombera kamodzi! Ndikumva bwino kuposa kale lonse! Ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri, chilimbikitso, komanso malingaliro olimba kuposa momwe ndakhalira zaka zambiri! Sindingathe kudikirira kuti ndiwone kusintha kwina!

Kuyambiranso

Nayi kuwonongeka kwa zomwe ndakumana nazo mpaka pano. Uku ndi kuyesa kwanga koyamba kuyambiranso, ndipo ndine mwamuna wazaka 29. Kuti ndisunge zolembazi, ndili ndi makalendala angapo ophatikizidwa pamodzi a miyezi ya Oct / Nov / Dec. Ndimadutsa tsiku lililonse ndikamadutsa, ndikulemba tinthu tating'onoting'ono tazizindikiro posonyeza momwe ndimamvera, libido, mulingo wamagetsi ndi zina. Izi zandithandizira bwino. Cholinga changa ndikufika masiku 76, pa Januware 1, 2012.

October 16th, 2011 - Kugonana maliseche kwa nthawi yomaliza.

October 17th, 2011 - Kubwezeretsani kumayambira

October 18th, 2011 - Ndisanasankhe kuyambiranso, ndinali ndalamula zidole zingapo zamwamuna. Tsoka ilo adafika lero. Amawononga $ 100. Ndinaganiza zoyesa kuchita maliseche nawo, koma ndimangomverera. Ndinatha kufika pamalungo (ngakhale ndimakhala ndi 80% erection) pamangomverera ndekha. Pambuyo pake, ndinadzimva kuti ndine wolakwa kwambiri, ndipo ndinakumbukira kuti sindingathe kutsatira zonsezi ngati zoseweretsa izi zili ponseponse. Chifukwa chake, ndidawataya, pomwepo. Ndidawona ngati kutsanzikana komaliza, komanso kunakhala chizindikiro cha kutsimikiza mtima kwanga - ngakhale izi zidanditengera ndalama zambiri, kuponyera zinthu zatsopanozi kunali kutsimikizira kuti ndinali wofunitsitsa kuthana ndi vutoli. Ndinkaona kuti ili linali mwala wofunika kupondapo.

October 19th-30th - Lathyathyathya. MBALI. FLATLIN E. Ndinalibe libido kapena chilimbikitso chilichonse chodziseweretsa maliseche panthawiyi. Zinali zabwino chifukwa inenso sindinkafuna kuwona zolaula. Ngakhale kuti flatline imamveka yachilendo, zimapangitsa kuti zikhale zosavuta kudutsa masikuwo. Pakati pa nthawi imeneyi, ndidazindikira kuchuluka kwa kucheza, ndipo makamaka pa 27 ndi 28, ndidayamba kuyang'ana kukongola kwa akazi enieni. Kwa zaka zingapo zapitazi, ndidawawona azimayi pamasom'pamaso, ndimawapeza okongola kapena osakongola ndi zina zambiri, koma izi zinali zosiyana. Zinali ngati ndimazindikira zazing'ono zazing'ono zawo kapena maso awo kapena aura yawo yachikazi. Komanso panthawiyi ndinali ndi vuto kugona usiku wonse nthawi zonse. Maganizo anga anali okhazikika.

Ogasiti 31st - Ndinalota maloto omveka bwino. Ndimayang'ana ndipo ndimakhala ngati ndikuchita nawo zolaula. Panalibe makamera, koma ochita sewero ladziko lolaula ndinazindikira kuti analipo. Ndikukhulupirira kuti ndimagonana ndi wojambulayo koma sindikukumbukira, mwina ndinkangoyang'ana. Zinali zoseketsa mwanjira ina, ndikulota zowonera zolaula LIVE - mutha kudziwa kuti ubongo wanga ukuchita, ndichotsimikizika. Ndinadzukanso usiku ndikumangirira maloto awa, ndipo kukonzekera kunali kolimbikira komanso kolimba.

Novembala 1st-7th (kumapeto kwa sabata la 3rd) - Libido yanga sinalipo, koma ndinawona zolaula / zithunzi zikuwoneka m'maganizo mwanga kuti ndiyenera kugwedezeka. Chifukwa libido yanga inali yotsika kwambiri, sindinayesedwe kuyesa kuseweretsa maliseche. Maluso anga ochezera sabata ino apitilizabe kusintha, ndipo diso langa lazinthu zachikazi lidawonekeranso. Amayi enieni amawoneka okongola kwambiri! Maganizo anga mpaka pano anali asanakhalepo pachisoni - ndimakhala wokhumudwa kwambiri ndikamayang'ana zolaula, kotero izi zinali ngati kusalowerera ndale, ndipo zinali kukhala bwino ndi kusintha konse komwe ndimakuwona.

November 8th-10th - Libido yanga idayamba kubwerera pang'ono. Sikunali kwakukulu, koma kunali kwakukulu kwa mphamvu yakugonana yomwe ndimakumana nayo. Nthawi yomweyo, ndinali nditayamba kulakalaka zolaula zomwe ndidakhala nazo kuyambira pomwe ndidayambiranso. Zithunzi zimawonekera kuchokera pazithunzi zomwe ndimazidziwa bwino, ndipo ndimayenera kuzilimbana nazo ngati zamisala. Nthawi zina zinali zovuta kwambiri. Ndinawonetsanso loto pa 8, kutanthauza kuti loto logonana, koma sindikukumbukira tsatanetsatane wake.

November 11th - Ndinalota maloto omveka bwino pomwe ndimagonana ndi mayi yemwe ndimamudziwa m'moyo weniweni zomwe ndakhala ndikulakalaka m'mbuyomu. Izi zidaphatikizidwa ndi nkhuni zam'mawa zamphamvu kwambiri zomwe ndidakhala nazo zaka ndi zaka ndi zaka. Ndinasangalala kwambiri!

November 12th-14th - Libido yanga idayamba kukhala yamphamvu kwambiri, ndipo ndikakhala pagulu, zimandivuta kwambiri kuti ndizindikire msungwana aliyense wondizungulira. Akazi omwe sindikanapeza okongola chaka chapitacho tsopano anali owoneka okongola komanso okongola. Zinali zosangalatsa kwambiri! Cholakwika cha izi ndikuti zolakalaka zanga zidakula, komanso zopepuka. Pa 14th, Lolemba usiku, ndinali nditaimitsidwa chifukwa chokhudza mbolo yanga modekha. Ndinkamva chisoni kwambiri, choncho ndinkaganiza kuti mwina ndibwino kuseweretsa maliseche kapena maliseche bola ngati palibe zolaula. Ndinakhala pakama ndikugwiritsa ntchito kondomu chifukwa ndimafuna kuwona ngati ndingakhale womvera ndi kondomu komanso kupewa kuyeretsa kulikonse. Ndinali wokondwa kuona kuti mbolo yanga inali yovuta kwambiri ndipo ndimadzutsidwa mosavuta popanda zongopeka. Ndinatsala pang'ono kukhala ndi vuto, koma nditafika pamenepo, ndinayamba kuona kuti izi zinali zolakwika ndipo zinali posachedwa. Sindinkafuna kudzuka m'mawa wotsatira ndikudzimva wokhumudwa ndikulakalaka zolaula, kapena ndikumverera ngati kupita patsogolo kwanga kwatsukidwa. Kotero… ndinayima. Ndimalola kuti kumangidwanso kwanga kukhale kochepa. Ndinkawona ngati wopambana ndipo ndinkanyadira kuti ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri. Kuti ndilimbikitse lingaliro langa, ndidabwera patsamba lino ndikuwerenga zolemba zina. Ndapeza mawu awa kuchokera kwa Gary: "Ngati muli ndi ED, kapena nkhani zina zokhudzana ndi zolaula, kupitirizabe kuseweretsa maliseche komanso kuseweretsa maliseche sikungabweretse zotsatira zomwe mukufuna munthawi yomwe mukuyembekezera. Sindinawone aliyense "akuchiritsa" bwino zolaula zawo zomwe zimapangitsa ED ndikupitilizabe kuchita nawo ziwonetsero. ”Zinali zomwezo, ndizo zonse zomwe ndinkafuna. Ndidachita chinthu choyenera posapita ku O yayikulu ndipo tsopano, nthawi iliyonse ndikafuna chikumbutso, ndimangowerenga mzerewu. Ndikufuna kuchiritsidwa!

November 16th - masiku 30! Ndinapita masiku 30 opanda zolaula komanso 28 opanda zolaula! Masabata a 4! Ndinali wokondwa, ndipo kucheza kwanga, malingaliro, mphamvu, komanso diso la azimayi zinali zotsogola lero. Ndinalinso ndi nkhalango yammawa.

November 17th-25th - Zonse zakhala bwino. Zolakalaka zanga zidachepetsedwa, ndipo ndimakumana ndi mphamvu ZAMBIRI zomwe ndimamva zaka zambiri. Ndikulumbira kwa Mulungu, sindinayambe ndalimbikitsidwa komanso ndili wamphamvu kuyambira ndili mwana. Ndinkafuna kuchita zinthu, kusamalira bizinesi ndi zina. Ndinazindikiranso kuti ndinali ndisanakhale ndi khofiine wochuluka monga mwa masiku onse masiku apitawa. Libido yanga inali itasokonekera ndipo sindinayitchule kuti ndiyokwera kapena yotsika, koma ndinayambanso kumva zowawa m'mimba mwanga kungoyang'ana azimayi m'moyo weniweni - Ndikudziwa kuti izi sizinachitike nthawi yayitali .

November 26th-27th - 26, zokhumba zanga zidabweranso nthawi yayikulu, kuyambira pomwe ndidadzuka. Sindikudziwa chifukwa chake, osatsimikiza chomwe chingayambitse (ndinakhala mochedwa kwambiri kuposa momwe ndimakhalira usiku watha, ndipo ndinadzuka mochedwa kuposa masiku onse). Kwa maola atatu oyambirira a tsikuli, ndimangoganiza za zolaula komanso momwe zingakhalire zotsitsa ndikusintha makanema limodzi. Mwamwayi ndinalibe chidwi chachikulu mbolo yanga ndipo ndinalibe nkhuni zam'mawa kuti ndigwirizane ndi vutoli. Chifukwa chake, ndidathetsa zolakalaka ndipo ndidatsimikiza mtima kuti sindingawononge kupita patsogolo kwanga. Ah, inde, nawonso, Ndinali nditangodutsa tsiku la 40th, ndipo kotero ndimakhala ndikudzifunsa ngati ndingathe kuyesa madzi pang'ono. Masiku 40 anali okwanira, sichoncho? Kenako ndinazindikira kuti awa anali chabe zingwe zanga zopusa zomwe zimandisewera ngati wopusa, kotero ndidaziuza kuti zitsekeretu ndikuyamba tsiku langa. Ndinayang'ananso kalendala yanga mobwerezabwereza, ndikuyiyika pamalo osavuta kuwona, kuti andikumbutse kuti cholinga changa sikuti ndidutse masiku 40 okha koma ndikupita ku Chaka Chatsopano !!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!

LINKANI KU BLOG

by richaroo

PEZANI (2014)

Kusuta koyera kwatha pafupifupi zaka zitatu kuchokera pomwe ndidatumiza ku blog yanga. Ulendowu ndiwonso bwanji! Zokwera ndi zotsika, masiku abwino ndi masiku oyipa, kubwereranso ndikuchita bwino, ndipo koposa zonse, kuzindikira zambiri.

<--break->” src=”https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/02/spacer.gif” title=”<--break-->“>I know that most of the community has moved to YBOP or YBR, but I don’t want to start a new blog and hopefully some people will read this and it will help them. If by chance in your busy life you read this, feel free to add it to my YBOP rebooting account (titled: Age 26, ED, Relapses [see below]).</p><div><div><div><p>My last entry was after I had gone 120 days PMO free. That was back in 2012, and unfortunately, I still haven’t completely kicked the addiction, although each year has been better than the last. I’ve done several stretches of between 100 and 120 days free of porn since then, but there have been many short-lived binges in between, and this year I finally figured out a few things that I hadn’t yet learned despite the long journey.</p><p>(1) For those of you who are decade long users (or more), and especially the younger guys who have grown up with high-speed Internet porn, 90 days or 120 days isn’t going to be enough to fix you! This is going to be a several year long struggle, but it can be reduced by using A few of the ideas I’m going to list below. I say this because it is too easy to let your guard down when you’ve gone 90 days and then, before you know it, you are back in the clutches of your addiction!</p><p>(2) Simply getting porn out of your life, no matter if it’s for 90 days or three years, isn’t going to do the trick. This is what I had to learn the hard way. Sure, you can go without porn for a long time, but if you don’t fill your life with other meaningful and fulfilling things, then you will just fill that void with porn again, or with something else that is equally unhealthy. Socrates said: “The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.” I labored and labored so hard on keeping PMO out of my life, that it became my WHOLE life, this epic, never ending struggle to fight off the desire. This can turn your addiction into something even worse, because you become obsessed with it and you are constantly thinking about it, or, more accurately, constantly thinking about not thinking about it. Fill your life with other things, then you won’t have time to think about it anymore! This is a huge factor, and you won’t recover unless you adhere to this, I promise you that.</p><p>(3) I guarantee that every person with a PMO addiction is also addicted to one or several other things. If you read accounts on the Internet, you will often hear about drug use, prostitution, and other unhealthy addictions that are intertwined with pornography use. Pornography is just a symptom of an addicted mind. If it isn’t porn, an addict will reach for the next thing that comes and takes them away from life, allows them to escape, numbs them etc. You must identify all of your addictions, and instead of using those other things as a kind of methadone to help you quit the porn, you have to kill all of those addictions at the same time, get your mind focused all at once, and start filling your life with things that are not addictive and do not act as an escape from reality. This is a mistake I made many times throughout the past few years. I would quit the porn only to say to myself that I could play video games or binge on television shows to help ease me into the recovery. This was totally backwards. I was just switching one addiction for another, and eventually, my favorite addiction would always come back to haunt me.</p><p>Now be careful here. Things you may not think are an addiction, even the littlest things, may be hurting your progress. One must identify all those things that are used for comfort in times of boredom, loneliness, or discontent. When you are anxious with nothing to do, do you drink beer and watch TV all night? When you are lonely do you eat unhealthy food, or waste time watching stupid Youtube vids? Do you lurk on Facebook for hours, or scan craigslist personals? You should be able to sit by yourself quietly and do one simple thing, like reading a book, without feeling anxious. If you are sitting there reading but can’t focus because you suddenly get the urge, almost an uncontrollable urge, to go to the mall and buy a pair of pants, then perhaps shopping is one of your escapes from reality and needs to be treated that way. Even the things that seem so harmless may actually be just another crutch we are using to numb some hidden pain.</p><p>(4) One thing that really helps is tracing your addiction back to its roots. When did you first use porn as an escape? Why did you use it as an escape? What were you seeking comfort from? For me, I realized that I have had a deep-seated fear of rejection since I was very young, and particularly the fear of rejection from women. Pornography allowed me to insulate myself from any chance of rejection, and now I felt as though I was in control of this thing that, throughout my childhood, had seemed so uncontrollable and scary. Of course, this was an illusion, as most of you know. All other addictions serve the same purpose. They arrived at a time in your life when you felt vulnerable and had no other ways or ideas of how to protect yourself, so you fell into addiction. You must understand that you are no longer a helpless child with minimal options. You are now an adult with many different paths to take, and you no longer need to rely on unhealthy outlets that damage your life. You can now stand up for yourself and do all the things that, perhaps, when you were young, seemed impossible.</p><p>(5) Just because you are no longer looking at pornographic images or videos, does not mean you aren’t still objectifying women (or men), and this has to cease as well. Most of the noFap community is very excited to get rid of porn and get back into real romance and real sex, but we have to be careful that our entire attitude about women and sex doesn’t stay the same. Remember, for years you have objectified women and believed that raunchy sex and extreme sexual pleasure are the greatest things life. Many people continue with the same attitude even though they are no longer looking at porn, and this will eventually lead back to serious issues. Now, this isn’t to say that you can’t look at women and appreciate the female form and whatnot, but you must be in control of these desires and not let them run wild as you had let your PMO habit run wild. Pornography is a fantasy, and so is ogling that woman on the corner and imagining what she would be like in bed, or imagining tons and tons of wonderful sex now that your ED is cured. Try to get some perspective on life and on what really matters. Sex is great, but it isn’t everything. Don’t let it run your life and don’t let it occupy your every waking thought, there is much beauty in the world and many other things that are just as gratifying and fulfilling.</p><p>So there are a few nuggets of wisdom from this weary traveler. I hope they help some people see things a bit more clearly. I did 110 days this year porn free, but recently relapsed and went back-and-forth between binges for about two months. The reason this happened to me is precisely because I failed on numbers 2, 3, & 5 above. I think I finally learned my lesson, and my mind is in a very good place right now. I am working on enriching my life with social activities, and I am now aware of all of the things I use as an escape from reality (addictions), and they are many! I’ve gotten most of them under control and I am working towards the future, because frankly, I’m pretty damn tired of fighting the past.</p><p>https://www.reuniting.info/blogs/richaroo/holy-smokes-its-been-almost-3-years By richaroo</p><hr><p>[Earlier post – 05/07/2012]</p></div></div></div><p><strong>11-27</strong> I began masturbating at a young age (I think younger than most, though I’m not sure what the average age for boys is), long before ever discovering porn, and it appears that that is a good thing. It began as rather non-sexual, meaning there was no fantasy, I was just enjoying the physical sensation. The first time I ever saw porn, if I recall correctly, was from my father’s stash of <em>Playboy</em> magazines in the closet. I also remember finding some torn pages from a Hustler magazine at school when I was around 11 or 12, and I took them home and masturbated to the images and kept them in a safe hiding space. Once we got a computer, probably when I was about 13, I saw my first VERY hardcore images, and eventually tried “cybersex” in an online chat room. Throughout this period, I both pleasured myself to pornographic material and also to simple fantasy. At some point, however, I started relying more on the external stimuli, and there were times I would masturbate to internet pictures up to 4 or 5 times per day.</p><p>I had sex with a woman for the first time when I was 18, and there were no functional problems to speak of. I don’t think I even knew it was possible to have problems. With my college sweetheart the sex was great and there were, again, no problems. However, during this time (especially summer breaks when I didn’t see her for extended periods), I did masturbate to internet porn, usually static images. I also discovered the benefits of getting older and made some trips to the local adult video store to buy VHS tapes. Toward the end of our relationship, I remember instances where we were having sex, and I had to fantasize about something else in order to keep my erection at full attention…this never became a real problem, but I do remember it happening from time to time, and even my girlfriend was able to sort of sense when my mind wasn’t completely with her.</p><p>After college, there was a period of about a year where I did not have a girlfriend, and during this time my porn use definitely escalated. I think it was around this point that I started downloading videos and had a substantial collection. I would surf the net for probably 1 or 2 hours daily and download and masturbate etc. Then, the first E.D. of my life happened. I was about 23. I had a new girlfriend, and the first two times we tried sexual intercourse I had trouble getting and maintaining an erection. I chocked it up to nerves and condoms. Thankfully, this disappeared and the sex was natural and great for most of our relationship, but during this time, instances of needing to fantasize about other things (porn scenarios, women) to maintain an erection increased. I also noticed that I still craved porn even though our sex life was very charged and fulfilling. Toward the end of our relationship, I remember not finding my girlfriend as attractive as I once had, and began comparing her to porn actresses. I grew dissatisfied and the relationship ended.</p><p>For the next several years I did not have any meaningful, romantic relationships with women, nor did I have any sex. I felt a vastly decreasing motivation for speaking to females, and though I did try to date, it never felt right, never felt exciting, and I suffered E.D. on two separate occasions with women. Concurrently, as you might have guessed, my porn use was reaching it’s peak. I began paying for internet porn sites, downloading many videos, and my taste for more explicit material became stronger. I had been a fairly outgoing, sociable, fearless sort of kid, but I now felt much different, like the old me was just a shadow and the new me was this withered, anxious, pessimistic beast. I was not very fond of myself at this time, but I never put two and two together. It was just something us men did — we jerked off, enjoyed porn, and that was the way it was — the man’s way. Something else had to be causing these problems, right?</p><p>A year ago was when my porn addiction really started taking a toll on my life. I mean, it already had in many ways, but now it began taking up unacceptable portions of time. I discovered that I could manipulate my favorite videos with a video editor. I would edit my favorite parts of the scene, cut them and splice them and arrange them with music — it was a serious production. I began splicing different videos together, spending hours getting everything just right, getting the music aligned, etc. Needless to say it was sick, and I would sit in a trance doing this for hours. My excuse was that I was reducing my video collection, cutting out all the stuff I didn’t like and making the most potent, most sexually stimulating videos I possibly could. Ten atom bombs were better than fifty grenades, right?</p><p>The stimulation these videos offered was unlike anything I’d experienced before. Several movies cutting back and forth between each other at a rapid pace, all timed up to climax at the same time the music did. I believe that part of the allure of pornography is the element of control — this new hobby of mine was taking control to another level. It was the most addictive thing I’ve ever experienced. Once a video was complete, I would render it, watch it, masturbate to orgasm, and then, as if waking from a dream, I’d wonder what the hell I was doing all day. I would feel intense shame, guilt, and anger for wasting so many precious hours doing something so disgusting and worthless. But, the next day, it was calling, and I’d repeat the process.</p><p>It was strange, even though this was the worst my addiction had ever been, it was also the first time I’d ever realized I had a problem. I felt so disgusted after binging that I’d often delete all my videos, everything, and say I would never do that again, that it was wasting my life away. I could only hold out a couple days or so, and I’d be right back, desperately downloading and editing videos again. Over and over I tried to stop myself, but over and over I’d return to it. I’ve never been so unable to control my urges.</p><p>I met a girl over the summer that I really liked. We never got sexual, it just didn’t work out, but in the back of my mind I knew that if we did get sexual, I was going to have a problem. I guess my brain had begun to connect the dots before I was fully aware of it. I deleted all my videos and for about 2 weeks didn’t look at porn or masturbate, just in case I did go to bed with this woman. I thought of it as storing up sexual energy. If I hadn’t masturbated for a while, there was no way I could have E.D., right? I’d be raring to go, wouldn’t I?</p><p>I flatlined during this short abstinence. My penis had no life and no sensitivity what so ever, so I sort of freaked out and started looking up erectile dysfunction causes. This ultimately led me to YBOP. I couldn’t believe it! It was worse than I ever imagined — porn had altered my brain chemistry!</p><p>After I stopped seeing this girl, I felt safe again knowing I wouldn’t have to worry about performing, and this gave me a license to go back to my old ways. Now that I’d read some of the YBOP information, however, I didn’t realize a seed had been planted and that I was already on my way to kicking this addiction once and for all. After a couple more binges, I finally decided that my life needed to change.</p><p>Here is a breakdown of my experience so far. This is my first every reboot attempt, and again, I’m a 29 year old male. To keep these records, I have a couple of paper calendars stapled together for the months of Oct/Nov/Dec. I cross out each day as they go by, and make small notations in the forms of symbols to indicate my moods, libido, energy level etc. This has worked really well for me. My goal is to reach 76 days, on January 1st, 2012. If you want to read my story leading up to this reboot, here it is: <a href=https://www.reuniting.info/node/9793

Ogasiti 16th, 2011 - Kugonana maliseche komaliza.

Ogasiti 17th, 2011 - Reboot iyamba

Ogasiti 18th, 2011 - Ndisanasankhe kuyambiranso, ndinali ndidayitanitsa zidole zingapo zamwamuna. Tsoka ilo adafika lero. Amawononga $ 100. Ndinaganiza zoyesa kuchita maliseche nawo, koma ndimangomverera. Ndinatha kufika pamalungo (ngakhale ndimakhala ndi 80% erection) pamangomverera ndekha. Pambuyo pake, ndinadzimva kuti ndine wolakwa kwambiri, ndipo ndinakumbukira kuti sindingathe kutsatira zonsezi ngati zoseweretsa izi zili ponseponse. Chifukwa chake, ndidawataya, pomwepo. Ndidawona ngati kutsanzikana komaliza, komanso kunakhala chizindikiro cha kutsimikiza mtima kwanga - ngakhale izi zidanditengera ndalama zambiri, kuponyera zinthu zatsopanozi kunali kutsimikizira kuti ndinali wofunitsitsa kuthana ndi vutoli. Ndinkaona kuti ili linali mwala wofunika kupondapo

Ogasiti 19-30 - Lathyathyathya. MBALI. FLATLIN E. Ndinalibe libido kapena chilimbikitso chilichonse chodziseweretsa maliseche panthawiyi. Zinali zabwino chifukwa inenso sindinkafuna kuwona zolaula. Ngakhale kuti flatline imamveka yachilendo, zimapangitsa kuti zikhale zosavuta kudutsa masikuwo. Pakati pa nthawi imeneyi, ndidazindikira kuchuluka kwa kucheza, ndipo makamaka pa 27 ndi 28, ndidayamba kuyang'ana kukongola kwa akazi enieni. Kwa zaka zingapo zapitazi, ndidawawona azimayi pamasom'pamaso, ndimawapeza okongola kapena osakongola ndi zina zambiri, koma izi zinali zosiyana. Zinali ngati ndimazindikira zazing'ono zazing'ono zawo kapena maso awo kapena aura yawo yachikazi. Komanso panthawiyi ndinali ndi vuto kugona usiku wonse nthawi zonse. Maganizo anga anali okhazikika.

Ogasiti 31 - Ndinalota maloto omveka bwino. Ndimayang'ana ndipo ndimakhala ngati ndikuchita nawo zolaula. Panalibe makamera, koma ochita sewero ladziko lolaula ndinazindikira kuti analipo. Ndikukhulupirira kuti ndimagonana ndi wojambulayo koma sindikukumbukira, mwina ndinkangoyang'ana. Zinali zoseketsa mwanjira ina, ndikulota zowonera zolaula LIVE - mutha kudziwa kuti ubongo wanga ukuchita, ndichotsimikizika. Ndinadzukanso usiku ndikumangirira maloto awa, ndipo kukonzekera kunali kolimbikira komanso kolimba.

Novembala 1st-7th (kutha kwa sabata la 3) - Libido yanga sinalipo, koma ndidawona zolaula / zithunzi zowoneka m'maganizo mwanga kuti ndiyenera kugwedezeka. Chifukwa libido yanga inali yotsika kwambiri, sindinayesedwe kuyesa kuseweretsa maliseche. Maluso anga ochezera sabata ino apitilizabe kusintha, ndipo diso langa lazinthu zachikazi lidawonekeranso. Amayi enieni amawoneka okongola kwambiri! Maganizo anga mpaka pano anali asanakhalepo pachisoni - ndimakhala wokhumudwa kwambiri ndikamayang'ana zolaula, kotero izi zinali ngati kusalowerera ndale, ndipo zinali kukhala bwino ndi kusintha konse komwe ndimakuwona. Anayambanso kumva kupweteka mutu (kupweteka komwe kumachokera kumbuyo kwa diso limodzi). Zitha kuchitika mosadukiza ndipo zimatha pafupifupi mphindi 30 nthawi imodzi. Sindinakhalepo ndi matenda opweteka ngati awa m'moyo wanga!

Novembala 8th-10th - Libido yanga idayamba kubwerera pang'ono. Sikunali kwakukulu, koma kunali kwakukulu kwa mphamvu yakugonana yomwe ndimakumana nayo. Nthawi yomweyo, ndinali nditayamba kulakalaka zolaula zomwe ndidakhala nazo kuyambira pomwe ndidayambiranso. Zithunzi zimawonekera kuchokera pazithunzi zomwe ndimazidziwa bwino, ndipo ndimayenera kuzilimbana nazo ngati zamisala. Nthawi zina zinali zovuta kwambiri. Ndinawonetsanso loto pa 8, kutanthauza kuti loto logonana, koma sindikukumbukira tsatanetsatane wake. Mutu unapitirira.

Novembala 11th - Ndinalota maloto omveka bwino pomwe ndimagonana ndi mayi yemwe ndimamudziwa m'moyo weniweni zomwe ndakhala ndikulakalaka m'mbuyomu. Izi zidaphatikizidwa ndi nkhuni zam'mawa zamphamvu kwambiri zomwe ndidakhala nazo zaka ndi zaka ndi zaka. Ndinasangalala kwambiri!

Novembala 12th-14th - Libido yanga idayamba kukhala yamphamvu kwambiri, ndipo ndikakhala pagulu, zidandivuta kwambiri kuti ndisazindikire msungwana aliyense wondizungulira. Akazi omwe sindikanapeza okongola chaka chapitacho tsopano anali owoneka okongola komanso okongola. Zinali zosangalatsa kwambiri! Cholakwika cha izi ndikuti zolakalaka zanga zidakula, komanso zopepuka. Pa 14th, Lolemba usiku, ndinali nditaimitsidwa chifukwa chokhudza mbolo yanga modekha. Ndinkamva chisoni kwambiri, choncho ndinkaganiza kuti mwina ndibwino kuseweretsa maliseche kapena maliseche bola ngati palibe zolaula. Ndinakhala pakama ndikugwiritsa ntchito kondomu chifukwa ndimafuna kuwona ngati ndingakhale womvera ndi kondomu komanso kupewa kuyeretsa kulikonse. Ndinali wokondwa kuona kuti mbolo yanga inali yovuta kwambiri ndipo ndimadzutsidwa mosavuta popanda zongopeka. Ndinatsala pang'ono kukhala ndi vuto, koma nditafika pamenepo, ndinayamba kuona kuti izi zinali zolakwika ndipo zinali posachedwa. Sindinkafuna kudzuka m'mawa wotsatira ndikudzimva wokhumudwa ndikulakalaka zolaula, kapena ndikumverera ngati kupita patsogolo kwanga kwatsukidwa. Kotero… ndinayima. Ndimalola kuti kumangidwanso kwanga kukhale kochepa. Ndinkawona ngati wopambana ndipo ndinkanyadira kuti ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri. Kuti ndilimbikitse lingaliro langa, ndidabwera patsamba lino ndikuwerenga zolemba zina. Ndapeza mawu awa kuchokera kwa Gary: "Ngati muli ndi ED, kapena nkhani zina zokhudzana ndi zolaula, kupitirizabe kuseweretsa maliseche komanso kuseweretsa maliseche sikungabweretse zotsatira zomwe mukufuna munthawi yomwe mukuyembekezera. Sindinawone aliyense "akuchiritsa" bwino zolaula zawo zomwe zimapangitsa ED ndikupitilizabe kuchita nawo ziwonetsero. ”Zinali zomwezo, ndizo zonse zomwe ndinkafuna. Ndidachita chinthu choyenera posapita ku O yayikulu ndipo tsopano, nthawi iliyonse ndikafuna chikumbutso, ndimangowerenga mzerewu. Ndikufuna kuchiritsidwa!

Novembala 16 - masiku 30! Ndinapita masiku 30 opanda zolaula komanso 28 opanda zolaula! Masabata a 4! Ndinali wokondwa, ndipo kucheza kwanga, malingaliro, mphamvu, komanso diso la azimayi zinali zotsogola lero. Ndinalinso ndi nkhalango yammawa.

Novembala 17 - 25 - Zonse zakhala bwino. Zolakalaka zanga zidachepetsedwa, ndipo ndimakumana ndi mphamvu ZAMBIRI zomwe ndimamva zaka zambiri. Ndikulumbira kwa Mulungu, sindinayambe ndalimbikitsidwa komanso ndili wamphamvu kuyambira ndili mwana. Ndinkafuna kuchita zinthu, kusamalira bizinesi ndi zina. Ndinazindikiranso kuti ndinali ndisanakhale ndi khofiine wochuluka monga mwa masiku onse masiku apitawa. Libido yanga inali itasokonekera ndipo sindinayitchule kuti ndiyokwera kapena yotsika, koma ndinayambanso kumva zowawa m'mimba mwanga kungoyang'ana azimayi m'moyo weniweni - Ndikudziwa kuti izi sizinachitike nthawi yayitali . Mutu unali utazimiririka panthawiyi, ndipo kugona kwanga sikunasokonezeke.

Novembara 26th-27 - The 26, zokhumba zanga zidabweranso nthawi yayikulu, kuyambira pomwe ndidadzuka. Sindikudziwa chifukwa chake, osatsimikiza chomwe chingayambitse (ndinakhala mochedwa kwambiri kuposa momwe ndimakhalira usiku watha, ndipo ndinadzuka mochedwa kuposa masiku onse). Kwa maola atatu oyambirira a tsikuli, ndimangoganiza za zolaula komanso momwe zingakhalire zotsitsa ndikusintha makanema limodzi. Mwamwayi ndinalibe chidwi chachikulu mbolo yanga ndipo ndinalibe nkhuni zam'mawa kuti ndigwirizane ndi vutoli. Chifukwa chake, ndidathetsa zolakalaka ndipo ndidatsimikiza mtima kuti sindingawononge kupita patsogolo kwanga. Eya, inde, inenso, ndinali nditangodutsa tsiku la 3, ndipo ndimakhala ndikudzifunsa ngati ndingayese madzi pang'ono. Masiku 40 anali okwanira, sichoncho? Kenako ndinazindikira kuti awa anali chabe zingwe zanga zopusa zomwe zimandisewera ngati wopusa, kotero ndidaziuza kuti zitsekeretu ndikuyamba tsiku langa. Ndinayang'ananso kalendala yanga mobwerezabwereza, ndikuyiyika pamalo osavuta kuwona, kuti andikumbutse kuti cholinga changa sikungodutsa masiku 40 okha koma kupita ku Chaka Chatsopano!

11-28 Lero linali NTHAWI YONSE yokwera pozindikira mikhalidwe yabwino mwa akazi! Ndizoseketsa, monga zilili. Sindingathe kuyang'anitsitsa akazi pafupi ndi ine. Akazi omwe ndakhala ndikuwadziwa kwakanthawi anali akuwoneka okongola kwambiri komanso achigololo kwa ine lero, ndipo awa ndi azimayi omwe sindinakhalepo ndi malingaliro am'mbuyomu. Ndikumva kuti zosintha zokha zitha kukhala pangodya. "Bambo. Wokondwa ”wandisunthira kwambiri mu buluku langa lero pomwe ndimayang'ana, ahem, mzere wa mzimayi (ndimakhala wolemekezeka, komanso wochenjera, mukudziwa). Koma sindinamvepo zoterezi - pansi pamunsi - m'zaka ... osachepera, osati pochita ndi akazi enieni. Ndizosangalatsa kudziwa kuti NDILI WABWINO (tonsefe tili), ndikuti malingaliro anga amangomira munyanja yakukondoweza kwakanthawi.

Monga ndaphunzirira kale, limodzi ndi kuwonjezeka kwa libido ukuwonjezeka pamayesero okuchita maliseche. Ndikamaganiza zoseweretsa maliseche, ndimangoyamba kuganiza zolaula, zolaula, zithunzi ndi zina. Zikuwoneka kuti poyamba ndizabwino kuchita, koma kenako ndimangopukusa mutu ndikudziuza ndekha, "Ayi, palibe chilichonse muli pompo. Mukusangalala kwambiri pano, komanso, simukuzifunanso. SIMUDANA nazo. ” Ndipo ndimangoganiza za momwe NDIMADANA ndi zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche mopitirira muyeso komanso zomwe zandichitira ineyo komanso mayeserowa amatha. Zikuwoneka mosavuta kuti zikwaniritse malingaliro amenewo, ndipo zopepuka zimayamba kufooka pakumveka kwawo komanso potency.

Ndinalinso wokonda kucheza ndi anthu masiku ano. Kwa zaka zingapo zapitazi, ndikakhala pagulu, sindimayankhula zambiri pokhapokha ndikafunsidwa. Sindinganene kuti ndine wosakhazikika pagulu, ndimangokhala chete komanso wowonera. Koma lero ndimamva ngati ndikucheza ndikukhala chothandizira kukambirana - kupatsidwa, izi sizinali ndi mlendo kapena mnzanga koma ndi wachibale, komabe, sizinali zachilendo kwa ine. Ndikukhulupirira, ichi ndi chimodzi mwazabwino kwambiri pakubwezeretsanso, ndipo zikuwonjezeka tsiku lililonse.

Ndikulimbikitsabe ndikudziyesa ndekha kumbuyo. Sindikukhulupirira kuti ndafika pano. Uwu ndiye motalika kwambiri womwe ndadutsa osakhala ndi vuto chifukwa mwina ndimakhala ndi vuto langa loyamba. CHIYANI!

12-04 Mphamvu zanga komanso mayendedwe anga anali okwanira sabata yonse. Ndakhala ndikumva bwino, ndipo malingaliro anga akhazikika. Ndimasangalala kukhala wokondwa kuyambira nditadzuka pabedi mpaka nthawi yomwe ndimagonanso. Ndimadzipeza ndekha ndikuyembekezera mawa, zomwe sizinali choncho nthawi zonse.

Tonsefe timadziwa momwe madokota amamvera, ndipo tonse tikudziwa kuti nthawi zina timawopa m'mawa, makamaka ngati tili ndi ntchito yayitali patsogolo pathu kapena zovuta zazikulu kuti tisamalire. Chowonadi ndi chakuti, malingaliro amenewo ayenera kukhala okhawo, osati lamulo. Munthawi yayitali yakukonda kwanga kwa PMO, sindinkayembekezera chilichonse, ndikuopa kupita kuntchito, ndipo sindinawonepo kucheza ndi anzanu komanso abale monga zabwino zonsezi, makamaka poyerekeza miyambo yanga ya PMO yomwe idandisangalatsa komanso kusangalatsa kuposa kena kalikonse. Ndi chisangalalo chimenecho pamoyo wanga, zinthu zazing'ono zonse zimandisangalatsa, ndipo ndimapeza ndikuseka nthawi zambiri, ndikumwetulira popanda chifukwa chenicheni, komanso kumangokhala mizimu yabwino konsekonse. Ndimaganiza kuti ndinali wokonda kutaya chiyembekezo, koma kwenikweni ndinali munthu wokonda kukwiya.

Zochitika zina zazikulu sabata yatha zidaphatikizapo masiku atatu motsatizana (Novembala 1, 2, 3) yamatabwa ammawa / usiku. Dzulo m'mawa, ndikudzuka, ndinali ndi vuto "lovuta kwambiri" lomwe ndidakhala nalo kuyambira ndili ndi bwenzi langa lomaliza ku 2006 - zaka 5 zapitazo. Ndizosangalatsa thupi lanu likakupatsani mauthenga ngati awa, limakupangitsani kumva kuti muli panjira yoyenera. Ngakhale kuti kukondaku kunatenga mphindi zoposa 25, sindinamvepo chilakolako chodziseweretsa maliseche. Ndinangogona pamenepo ndikusangalala ndikumverera ndikuganiza za momwe ndingafikire.

Ndikupezabe zolaula. Ndikuwona zithunzi zolaula kapena magawo ena azithunzi zomwe ndimazidziwa bwino. Kumayambiriro koyambiranso, milungu ingapo yoyambirira, zovuta izi zimandipangitsa kuti ndiganizire kwambiri maliseche kapena kuyang'ana zolaula pa intaneti. Tsopano, ndikazipeza, sindimafuna kwenikweni kuchita zinthu zimenezo. Ndimathamangira kuwona zithunzizi m'mutu mwanga, koma ndizomwezo. Ndimatha kuwagwedeza mwachangu popanda chotulukapo. Mphamvu zawo zikuchepa pang'onopang'ono.

Kufuna kukhala ndi mkazi pachibwenzi kumayamba kundipweteka. Ndikulakalaka kukhudza / kukumbatirana / kupsompsona ndi zina zotero. Kugonana kungakhalenso kwabwino, koma lingaliro loti ndikhale ndi wina wofunika kwambiri kapena wina woti ndikhale naye pafupi likumveka bwino patsikulo. Sindinamvepo kuti ndikulimbikitsidwa kutsatira maubwenzi achikazi kwanthawi yayitali. Ndizosangalatsa kumva motere, komanso ndizolimba chifukwa ndazolowera kukhala wokonda chilakolako chimenecho. PMO ili ngati chishango kuti ndisamve chilichonse chenicheni, ndipo tsopano ndikamvanso, zimandipweteka komanso kusungulumwa nthawi zina. M'mbuyomu, ndimalakalaka kukhala ndi akazi, koma zinali ngati lingaliro chabe, ngati kuti ndimadziwa kuti ndiyenera kukhala ndi winawake ngakhale sindinkafuna kwenikweni. Tsopano, ndikumverera kovuta kwambiri, ngati kuti thupi langa likungokhala ndi njala yaubwenzi ndi chikondi.

12-11 Chabwino, sabata yatha ndakhala ndikugona usiku komanso nkhuni zam'mawa, pafupifupi tsiku lililonse. Libido yanga yakhala ikukwera kwambiri, ndipo dzulo, tsiku la 55, ndinapanga chisankho choyesa kuyesa maliseche ndi chiwerewere osagwiritsa ntchito koma kukhudzidwa.

Chisankhochi sichinachitike mopepuka. Sindingathe kufotokoza, koma ndimangomva kuti inali nthawi yoyesera izi, kuti nditsimikizire ndekha kuti kuseweretsa maliseche sikuli vuto lalikulu, bola ngati kulibe zolaula zomwe zimapangitsa chidwi chake . Ndinkakhulupirira kwambiri kuti ndinali pa nthawi yomwe sizingayambitse kuseweretsa maliseche kapena kuluma kapena zinthu zomwe timaopa.

Sindinangoganiza kuti ndizichita maliseche kunja kwa mpweya, ngati kuti ndaziphonya kwambiri ndipo ndimangofunika kudzichitira ndekha. M'malo mwake, ndimamva kukoka kwamphamvu kuti ndichite izi, ngati mphamvu zambiri zakugonana zimadutsa mwa ine ndikusowa kuthawa. Kukhudza pang'ono kumaliseche kwanga ndipo ngakhale kupukutidwa kwa mapepala usiku kunandipangitsa kukhala wamantha kwambiri, ndipo pakadutsa masiku angapo, zimamveka ngati lingaliro labwino. Izi ndizosiyana kwambiri ndikumverera kofuna kuseweretsa maliseche ukamakonda zolaula. Mbolo yanu imatha kufa kuposa khola, koma kungoganiza za azimayi okongolawo akuchita zinthu zoyipazi komanso momwe zingakudzidzimutseni nthawi yomweyo chinali chojambula chenicheni, ndipo ndikosavuta kuzilakwitsa chifukwa cha mphamvu zakugonana. Tsopano ndikudziwa kusiyana.

Chifukwa chake, ndimadziseweretsa maliseche, ndikugwiritsa ntchito dzanja langa ndi mafuta odzola pang'onopang'ono, mwamtendere, modekha. Zinali zosavuta kupeza ndi kusunga erection nthawi yonse. Palibe nthawi yomwe ndimayenera kugwiritsa ntchito kuthamanga kwambiri kapena kuthamanga. Ndinaganiza patatha masabata a 8 opanda chiwonetsero kuti mutu wanga (onsewo) ukhoza kuphulika ndikamaliza, koma sizinali choncho. Zinkawoneka bwino, zinali zosangalatsa kwambiri, koma sizinandigwire ngati kuchuluka kwa heroine kapena chilichonse. Ndinangokhala pamenepo, wokondwa komanso womasuka. Sindikumva kuti, "Mulungu, ndiyeneranso kutero !!" Ndinali wokhutira mwamtendere, ndipo ndimaganiza kuti mwina m'masabata angapo ndingachite izi. M'mbuyomu, ndi zolaula, zimangokhala mphindi khumi ndi zisanu kapena makumi atatu mutangoyamba kumene ndipo ndikadakhala kuti ndikukonzekera tsiku lotsatira. Blah!

Ndinali wosamala kuti ndiyang'ane momwe zimakhalira, koma kunalibe. Pamene ndikulemba izi ndi tsiku lotsatira, ndipo sindinakhalepo ndi chilakolako chodziseweretsa maliseche tsiku lonse, kapena kuyang'ana zolaula. Ndinali ndi nkhuni zammawa pabedi m'mawa uno !!! Izi zidandidabwitsa, chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti izi zidzasowa kwa tsiku limodzi kapena awiri otsatira, koma ayi, zinali kumbuyo komweko.

Ndine wokondwa ndi momwe izi zachitikira. Ndikuganiza kuti ndi thanzi labwino kuchita izi popanda kutuluka chifukwa cha kuwongolera. Ndikuyang'ana masiku angapo otsatira ndikuwona ngati pali kusiyana kulikonse pakati pamaubwenzi, libido, mphamvu zamagetsi etc.

Komanso, sindikufuna kuti zimveke ngati ndikuvomereza kuchita izi. Ndizowopsa, ndipo ndikumvetsetsa. Ndimangomva ngati kuti ndakhala nthawi yayikulu yopanda M / O'ing ndipo thupi langa limandithandizira kuti ndipange chisankho. Apanso, ndizovuta kufotokoza chifukwa chake, koma ndimangomva ngati pano, sizingasokoneze kuyambiranso kapena kundibwezeretsanso chilichonse, PAMENE NDINAKHALA ndikhoza kuzichita popanda zongopeka komanso popanda njira yamphamvu zolimbikitsa pamanja. Mukamawerenga koyambirira mu blog yanga, ndimakhala ndi mfundo zofooka kumapeto kwa Novembala komwe ndimangofuna kuseweretsa maliseche, chifukwa ndaziphonya ndipo ndimalephera kudziletsa. Ndidayamba, koma ndinadziyimitsa ndekha kuchokera ku O'ing chifukwa ndimamva molakwika. Kunali molawirira kwambiri ndipo sindinali wokonzeka kutsika mseuwo. Zinali zosiyana kwambiri ndi izi.

12-20 Tsoka ilo, ndasewera maliseche dzulo, tsiku la 64 poyambiranso… ndidzangochotsa izi.

Ndimaganiza kuti ndachoka kunkhalango. Ndimaganiza kuti madzi anali otetezeka. Sindikudziwa chomwe chidapangitsa izi, ndimakhala wosangalala, ndikumva ngati ndikulamulidwa, kenako Lachisanu lapitalo, tsiku 61, ndinayamba kukhala ndi zilakolako za zolaula, malingaliro ndi malingaliro omwe ndimangokhala sakanakhoza kugwedeza. Ndinayandikira PMO'ing masiku angapo otsatira, ndipo ndinamenyana ndi chilakolakocho ndi zonse zomwe ndinali nazo. Pofuna kuthana ndi zovuta izi, NDINAKHALA opanda zolaula Lachisanu usiku, kumangomverera kokha, ndikuyembekeza kuti izi zithetsa, koma sizinathandize.

Mukawerenga zolemba zanga zam'mbuyomu, mudzawona kuti ndadutsa masiku 55 opanda zolaula. Patsiku 56, ndimamva kuti ndikulamulira ndipo ndidaganiza zongodziyesa ndikumverera kokha maliseche. Zinayenda bwino, sindinkawoneka kuti ndikuthamangitsa, ndinapita masiku 5 otsatira osalakalaka kanthu. Lingaliro langa likadakhala kuti ndangokhala ndi zotsatira zochedwa, chifukwa sindinakhale ndi zolimbikitsa zoyipa kuyambira sabata 2 kapena 3 yoyambiranso.

Kotero, dzulo ine PMO'd kwa nthawi yoyamba mu masiku 64. Mwamwayi, nditangomaliza kumene, ndidatuluka m'maganizo mwanga ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndidamva WOOPSA. Ndine wokondwa kuti ndinamva kuwawa, chifukwa ndikufuna kuti PMO'ing igwirizane ndi izi, osati zosangalatsa. Ndinkachita manyazi, kudziimba mlandu, komanso koposa zonse kukwiya chifukwa chofooka.

Ndikulingalira kuti ndayamba kumwa thukuta, ndikuganiza kuti ndikhoza MO MO sabata lapitalo osalangidwa, kuti sizingandisokoneze, koma zikuwoneka kuti zidatero. Ndikukhulupirira kuti ndidakhala ndi nkhawa pang'ono, chifukwa ndikawona atsikana okongola ndimawopa komanso kutaya chiyembekezo, ngati sindidzakhalanso ndi mkazi. Malingaliro awa anali ofanana ndi masiku anga a PMO, koma anali atangokhala chiyembekezo chokhazikika - ndikuganiza kuti chiwonetserochi chinakhudza izi.

Ndaphunzira zinthu zingapo kuchokera apa. Pali zambiri pantchitoyi kuposa kungopewa PMO. Cholakwitsa chimodzi chomwe ndidapanga ndikumakhala ndekha kumapeto kwa sabata kumapeto kwa sabata. Ngakhale mutayambiranso, ndikofunikira kuti mutuluke ndikufunafuna kulumikizana ndi anthu. Kukhala wekha ndi zosangalatsa zamagetsi monga mnzako ndiwowopsa kwambiri. Ndikuganiza kuti izi zidathandiza kwambiri kuti ndizingoyenda. Zitha kukhala kuti kubwereranso ndikuzembera sikungapeweke pokhapokha mutapeza wokondedwa. Munthu atha kungokhala yekhayekha kwa nthawi yayitali asanayang'ane china chilichonse chodzadzikirira. Zingakhale kuti kuyambiranso kwanu sikukwanira mpaka mutapeza mnzanu. Mpaka mutachita izi, mutha kukhala pachiwopsezo chobwerera ku zolaula kuti mutonthozedwe.

Komanso, 60, 90, kapena gehena, ngakhale masiku 120 kwenikweni satalika. Ganizirani za maola onse omwe mwakhala mukuonera zolaula, masiku onse, usiku, miyezi ndi zaka za moyo wanu zomwe mudakhala mukuzipuma ngati mpweya. Chizoloŵezi choterechi sichingathetsedwe m'masiku ochepa. Ndikuganiza kuti zitenga nthawi yayitali kuti muchepetse matendawa - china chake pamiyezi isanu ndi umodzi mpaka chaka, osachepera.

12-22 Masiku angapo apitawo ndinabwereranso. Tsiku lotsatira nditakhazikika pakufuna kwanga kuti ndibwererenso kwa ine, chifukwa chake ndinali wobala zipatso zochulukirapo ndipo ndinasiya zolakalaka zilizonse monga anali fumbi pansi pa kabati. Dzulo, komabe, zolakalaka zidalimbana ndi nthawi yayikulu, ndipo ndisanadziwe ndimayang'ana zolaula. Zinali zamtundu wakale wakale, zodziwikiratu pambuyo pobwereranso. Mumadziuza mumtima mwanu, "Chabwino, ndayambiranso, ngati ndikawona zolaula pang'ono sizingakuvulazeni," ndi zina zambiri.

Zinali zosiyana panthawiyi, komabe. Ndinasinthasintha pakati pa woyendetsa ndege, maso owuma, zolaula, kenako ndikukhumudwa, 'sindikufuna izi'. Mmbuyo ndi mtsogolo zimapita, ndikuseweretsa maliseche kwakanthawi, kenako ndikudziyimitsa. Chifukwa cha nkhondoyi, zovuta zonse sizinali zosangalatsa kwenikweni - zinali zopanikiza, koposa china chilichonse. Pomaliza, ngakhale nditakhala ndi erection m'manja (komanso wamphamvu, nditha kuwonjezera), ndidaganiza kuti sizomwe ndimafuna ndipo ndidasiya pomwepo. Ayi O, palibe kalikonse. Ndinangoyimirira ndikubvala buluku langa ndikunena "ayi zikomo, sindine inenso." Sindikuganiza kuti ndidakwanitsa kuchita izi. Mwina ndikutsogolo kwanga (kotekisi?) Ndikulimba.

Chifukwa chake ndimamverera ngati ndapita patsogolo, ngakhale zili choncho. Lero pakhala zokhumba zochepa koma alibe zikhadabo zoti anganene. Ndakhala wobala zipatso, wosangalala, ndikumva ngati momwe ndidayambira pomwe ndidayambiranso. Ndine wokonzeka kuthana ndi ziphuphu m'masiku akubwerawa, koma ndimadzimva kuti ndine wokonzeka kuposa kale kutenga chilichonse chomwe chingandibweretsere vutoli.

[Pambuyo pake]

Ndikuti ndizimire pang'ono ... pepani, pasadakhale.

Zolaula, pachimake pake, zimakhala ngati china chilichonse chosokoneza bongo. Kawirikawiri zinthu izi zimabweretsedwa m'miyoyo yathu kuti tisokoneze zowawa zina kapena zovuta zomwe timamva. Timayamba kudalira iwo ndipo ndipamene timayamba kusuta. Vuto ndiloti amagwira ntchito. SASINTHA kupweteka kwanu, koma m'menemo muli vuto.

Mukuwona, simungasankhe kutengeka mtima kapena kumverera popanda kugwedeza mtima uliwonse. Chifukwa chake ngakhale zinthu izi zimachepetsa kuluma kwa kusatetezeka, kusungulumwa, chisoni, kukhumudwitsidwa, ndi mantha, zimathandizanso kuthana ndi malingaliro monga chisangalalo, chiyembekezo, chisangalalo, ndi chikondi.

Sindikufuna kuyankhulira ena, koma ngati nonse anyamata muli ngati ine, zolaula kwa inu ndi njira yochepetsera kusatetezeka. Sindimakonda kukhala pachiwopsezo, makamaka pankhani ya amayi. Sindikonda kumverera kotayika, kapena kumverera ngati ndili munjira ina ya akazi. Ndibwezeretseni kuzipsinjo zakubadwa kwaubwana kapena zomwe muli nazo, sindikudziwa komwe zimachokera, koma ndikudziwa kuti zolaula zakhala njira yoti ndithandizire china chake chomwe ndakhala ndikumva kuti sichingathe kuwongoleredwa .

Ngati muli ndi azimayi azimayi a digito kunyumba kwanu, simuyenera kuyikiridwa ndi akazi, kapena kudziyika nokha kuti muweruzidwe ndi mkazi, kapena kudzipangitsa kukhala pachiwopsezo cha ubale ndi mkazi. Tsopano muli ndi chiwongolero chokwanira chokhudzana ndi kugonana kwanu, ndipo mwina mumamverera ngati kuti mwalumikizana ndi zokongola ziwirizi pa hard drive yanu. Chifukwa chiani pachiswe chilichonse mukakhala ndi 100% yotsimikizika yakukhalirani kukuyembekezerani mbewa? Pamenepo mupita, mavuto atathetsedwa.

Zachidziwikire, mavuto anu akungoyambira. Tonsefe timadziwa izi, kapena sitikanakhala pano. Ndizovuta kwambiri. Zithunzi zolaula zimagwiritsidwa ntchito kukulitsa chitetezo ndi kuwongolera, koma zikayamba kuyambitsa zinthu monga ED ndi zina zomwe zimachitika, zimakupangitsani kuti musakhale ndi chidaliro chogonana, komanso kukhala osatetezeka. Lingaliro logona ndi mkazi weniweni tsopano limakhala chiyembekezo chowopsa, chodzaza ndi zosayembekezereka komanso tsoka lomwe lingachitike, chifukwa chake mwachilengedwe mumadalira kwambiri pobisalira kwanu pakhomopo.

Koma kusatetezeka ndikofunikira monga mpweya. Nthawi yomwe timabadwa timakhala pachiwopsezo. Ndi gawo limodzi likhalidwe lamunthu monga chilichonse. Pali mawu akale akuti, "palibe chomwe chidachitika, sichinapindule chilichonse." Ngati simukufuna kukhala pachiwopsezo, ndiye kuti, chinthu chokhacho chomwe mungapindule ndi maso akhungu ndi khungu lopunduka, ndikuganiza.

Kalekale ndimamudziwa mwana uyu yemwe sankaganizirapo kawiri pazinthu. Amanena momwe akumvera ndi atsikana omwe adawakhumudwitsa ndipo amachita chilichonse chotheka kuti apambane mitima yawo, ngakhale zitakhala zotani. Anaika pachiwopsezo chonse ngati kunalibe mawa. Koma kwinakwake pamzerewu ndikuganiza kuti adakalamba, kenako adayamba kuganiza kawiri, kenako adayamba kuganiza katatu, kenako asanadziwe kuti sakufunikiranso kuchita ngozi, motero adabisala kuseri kwa kompyuta m'malo mwake , kuwononga tsiku ndi tsiku mwezi ndi mwezi ndi chaka ndi chaka, kusewera mosangalatsa komanso motetezeka.

Ndikufuna kukhala mwana wamwamuna uja.

1-02 Zakhala zikuyenda kwambiri kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba kuyambiranso pa Okutobala 17. Ndinadutsa masiku 50 opanda chiwonongeko, motalika kwambiri kuposa momwe ndinasiyira kuyambira nthawi yanga yoyamba yomwe ndinabwerera pamene ndinali wee.

Cholinga changa choyambirira chinali masiku 76, kupita nane Januware 1. Ndinali ndi PMO patsiku la 64, ndinalimbana ndi zolimbikitsa zina pambuyo pake, koma mwatsoka mphepo yamkuntho sinasanduke binging kapena mtundu uliwonse wotsika. Ndidayamba Chaka Chatsopano ndikumva kukhala wathanzi, wathanzi, wamphamvu komanso wolimbikitsidwa! Ichi chinali chiyambi chabwino kwambiri cha chaka chomwe ndakhala ndikukumbukira posachedwapa.

Ndinaganiza zopita kamodzi pamlungu kapena kamodzi pakatha milungu iwiri ya 2 MO (popanda zongopeka kapena zolaula, nditafika), koma zolakalaka zomwe zidatsata ma O anga aposachedwa ndizowopsa kusewera nawo, chifukwa chake ine ndikhala osadya bwino momwe ndingathere.

Mausiku awiri apitawa ndakhala ndikugona usiku kwambiri komanso nkhuni zam'mawa. Lero m'mawa ndinakonzedwa kwa mphindi 20 nditadzuka, koma sindinamve ngati MO'ing kuti ichoke. Zinali zabwino kungokhala ndi "mnzanga" kumusi kuja kuti andilandire pamene ndimadzuka, hehe. Ndakhala ndikulota za bwenzi langa lakale lakale pafupifupi zaka 9 kapena 10 zapitazo. Mu malotowo tinagonana, kugonana kwabwino, ndipo ndinafikira pachimake m'maloto - ngati kukumbukira kumandigwira bwino, sindikuganiza kuti NDINALI ndi maloto m'maloto. China chake chimachitika nthawi zonse kundilepheretsa kumaliza kugonana, ndipo ndimathera loto lonselo kuyeseranso koma osakwaniritsa cholingacho. Sindikukhulupirira kuti ili linali loto lonyowa, komabe, nditha kulakwitsa. Panalibe chowoneka chilichonse pakama panga, koma sindinakhalepo ndi maloto onyowa kale kotero sindikudziwa momwe mungatsimikizire.

Chifukwa chake, ngakhale ndikumva bwino tsiku lino, malotowo andisiya ndili wosungulumwa pang'ono. Ndikumva kuti ndikusowa chikondi chachikazi, koma mwatsoka palibe zitseko zotseguka pompano. Ngakhale ndachita bwino kwambiri ndikugwira ntchito molimbika kuti ndifike pano, zikuwoneka kuti ndili ndi ntchito yambiri yoti ndichite. Zambiri zomwe ndimakonda kuchita ndimachita zokhazokha, koma ndimawakonda, ndipo zimanditengera nthawi yambiri. Sindine womangika, koma inenso sindine womasuka. Ndikufuna kukumana ndi munthu wina mwachilengedwe (osati pa intaneti), koma sindikudziwa kuti zichitika bwanji.

Ndikuganiza kuti kuleza mtima kudzakhala kopindulitsa mwa ichi, koma ndazindikira kuti gawo lina la machiritso limafuna kukhala ndi ubale ndi akazi, onse ochezeka komanso achikondi, osakhalitsa kapena a nthawi yayitali. Sindikuganiza kuti izi ndizomwe mungathe kumenya nokha, ndipo mumakhala osungulumwa kwambiri mukamayandikira njira zanu zakale.

01-11 Dzulo ndinamva china chake chomwe sindimadziwa kuti ndichotheka kumva. Sindikunena kuti sizinandichitikirepo kale, kungoti sindingakumbukire nthawi ina iliyonse yomwe idakhalapo.

Ndinali pamalo odyera omwe ndimakonda kuchezera nkhomaliro. Ndimaona woperekera zakudya kumeneko kukhala wokongola kwambiri ndipo timadziwana mayina. Ndinamuyang'ana pamene iye anali ataima patali kuseri kwa kauntala wakutsogolo. Amandiyang'ana pomwe maso athu adatsekedwa, kenako adamwetulira mwachisangalalo ndipo * BOOM *, ndidapeza kukondeka kwamankhwala uku pamutu panga komanso kumbuyo kwa mutu wanga. Ndinamwetuliranso, inde. Tsopano, sindikufuna kuphweketsa chidziwitso chosalakwa, chodabwitsa chazinthu zina zamankhwala kapena zamankhwala am'magazi, koma kumverera kwake kunali kwakuthupi, kosavuta, kwakuti kudandidabwitsa ndipo nthawi yomweyo kunandipangitsa kukhala wosangalala kwambiri ndikuyembekeza. Sindikukumbukira kuti ndidakhudzidwa ndikumwetulira kapena kuyang'anitsitsa.

Ndizodabwitsa chabe. Kuti musakhale otakataka, pomwe zithunzi zonyansa kwambiri komanso zowopsa zomwe zingayambitse kuyankha mwa inu, kuti mukhale ndi chisangalalo chochepa kuchokera kumwetulira kosavuta ndi kukumana kwa maso ... ndizomwe zimapangitsa kuti ntchito yonseyi ikhale yofunika. Kuchiritsa ED kapena mavuto ena otere ndi bonasi yowonjezera. Kumva WAMOYO kachiwiri ndipomwe kuli kwenikweni!

01-19Lero ndi tsiku la 95th loyambiranso. Uwu sunakhale ulendo wangwiro, inde, koma kawirikawiri. M'masiku 95 apitawa, ndakhala ndi ziwonetsero zonse za 6. Siyanitsani izi ndi moyo wanga wakale - pomwe mankhwala osokoneza bongo a PMO anali oyipitsitsa - pomwe ndimatha kukhala ndi ziphuphu za 50-60 pamwezi. Miyezi itatu yapitayi ndidayika 2 pamwezi ... iyi ndi gehena imodzi yotembenukira!

Masiku angapo apitawa akhala ovuta. Ndakhala nthawi yambiri ndili ndekha komanso ndekha. Banja ili ndikumverera kofooka chifukwa chakulephera kupezanso mkazi / wokonda, ndipo zidadzetsa kuyesedwa kwakukulu. Ichi ndiye chimodzi mwazomwe zimandipangitsa kuti ndiyambe kukayikira za moyo wanga wachikondi. Nthawi zina zimawoneka ngati zosatheka, ngakhale ndikudziwa kuti sizotheka.

Kotero, tsiku 90, ndikumverera pang'ono, ndinayang'ana pa zolaula ndi MO'd. Kenako ndinayambiranso MO'd tsiku lomwelo koma popanda zolaula. Ndinakhala masiku a 2 osavutikira kwambiri, ndikutsimikiza kubwerera pa kavalo, koma zolakalaka zinagundanso ndipo ndakhala masiku omaliza a 2 mdera lenileni pakati pa malo omwe ndimayang'anira kutsogolo kwa lobe ndi dera langa lokonda zosangalatsa. Ndine wokondwa kunena kuti lobe wanga wakutsogolo wapambana!

Ndazindikira kuti mukakhala kuti mwatsimikiza mtima kusiya zolaula, zimasintha china mwa inu nthawi yomweyo. Simudzathanso kusangalala ndi zolaula monga kale. Zachidziwikire, mupeza kuthamanga kwa dopamine ndi jazi yonseyo, koma nthawi yomweyo mudzapanikizika ndikudzikhumudwitsa nokha nthawi zonse, zomwe mosakayikira zimapangitsa kuti chidziwitso chonsecho chisakhale chosangalatsa. Ngakhale ndimayang'ana zolaula nthawi zingapo masiku awiri apitawa, zimangokhalabe zosangalatsa. Pofika kumapeto kwa dzulo, ndimayang'ana zochitika zomwe m'mbuyomu zandichititsa kuthengo, ndipo ndinali wokhutira ndi kulimbana konse kotero kuti kuzimitsa kunali kosangalatsa kuposa kupitiliza. Ndikuwona kuti ichi ndi chochitika chachikulu kwambiri, ndipo ndi chitsanzo chimodzi cha momwe "kubwereranso" kumatha kuwonetsa kusinthika kwamakhalidwe anu ndikudziletsa. Nthawi zina mumayenera kuchita pang'ono kuti mutenge gawo lalikulu.

01-20 Ndikubwerera m'mbuyo posachedwa, ndimamva kuti ndikufunika zida zatsopano kuti ndipitebe patsogolo ndikuonetsetsa kuti sindibwereranso.

Nawa malingaliro angapo omwe ndapeza omwe akuwoneka kuti ndi othandiza kwambiri. Ndipepesa ngati awa ananenapo kale ndi ena - Sindikufuna kudzitamandira chifukwa cha malingaliro awo koma sindinawawonepo akutchulidwa kale. Ndikukhulupirira awa ndi othandizira kwa ena a inu.

** Kuthana ndi zojambulidwa / zithunzi zolaula->

Pakati pa milungu isanu ndi umodzi kapena isanu ndi iwiri yoyambira pomwe ndidayambiranso, ndidagwiritsa ntchito njira ya "Red X" bwino. Kwa iwo omwe sadziwa, lingaliro ndiloti pamene chithunzi kapena zolaula zikuwoneka mosakondera m'maganizo mwanu, mumazitchotsa ndi chithunzi cha X ofiira wamkulu. ndi zabwino) ngati njira ina. Posachedwa, izi sizinagwire ntchito. Njira yanga yatsopano ndikugwiritsa ntchito chinthu china chovuta kwambiri komanso chatsatanetsatane: chiganizo kapena ndime yamtundu uliwonse wa mawu… ndizabwino kwambiri. Izi zagwiradi ntchito. Chithunzi chikatuluka, ndimangoyang'ana m'maganizo mwake, kenako ndimayesetsa kuti ndiwerenge kwathunthu momwe ndikumbukire. Izi zimatenga nthawi yayitali ndipo zimafunikira kusinkhasinkha kokwanira kotero kuti kumachotsa malingaliro a "otsogola" am'mbuyomu. Chithunzi chosavuta cha Red X chinali chosavuta kwambiri komanso chofulumira ndipo nthawi zambiri chimakhala chodetsa nkhawa ndi zithunzi zolaula. Zingathandizenso ngati mawuwa akukhudzana ndi kuchira / kuledzera, mwachitsanzo, imodzi mwamavidiyo a Gary's YBOP, omwe amandibweretsa ku njira yotsatira.

** Kulimbitsa zifukwa zomwe mukubwezeretsanso / kusiya / kuchira->

Kwa ine, ndinali wotsimikiza ndikayamba kuyambiranso, ndipo ndidazichita zonse mwadongosolo komanso lowerengeka. Posachedwa, malingaliro ndi kutsimikiza kumeneku zatsika. Ndinaganiza kuti zingakhale zothandiza kusinthanso zina mwazinthu zomwe ndidachita koyambirira. Chifukwa chake, NDIMAWERENGA MAvidiyo a Gary YBOP. Kupatula apo, ndiwo omwe adandithandizira kuti ndiyambenso kuyenda, ndikuwayang'aniranso, ndikutha kutsimikizira kuti ndi zida zamtengo wapatali ndipo ziyenera kuwonedwa kamodzi kapena kawiri pamwezi, monga kulimbitsa thupi. Amachitadi zodabwitsa.

** Kupeza magwero abwino a dopamine->

Anthu ambiri amavomereza kuti kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndi phindu lalikulu pakachiritso. Kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kumathandizira kukulitsa milingo ya dopamine ndi serotonin ndikukupatsani "okwera" komwe kungathandize kuthana ndi "zinthu zina". Zachidziwikire, simungangolimbitsa thupi mphindi iliyonse tsiku lililonse, chifukwa chake ndizothandiza kukhala ndi njira zina. Zachidziwikire, zosangalatsa, zochitika, komanso kucheza ndi zina mwazomwe zimayambitsa dopamine ndi chisangalalo, ndipo momwe mphotho yanu yoyendera imakhalira, mudzapeza chisangalalo ndi chisangalalo kuchokera kuzinthu izi - awa ndi malo anu ogulitsira. Kupeza dopamine kuzinthu izi ndikofunikira kwambiri, chifukwa dopamine yako ikamachepetsa pakutha, umakhala ndi mwayi wololera. Posachedwa ndidakumana ndi gwero latsopano, laling'ono koma lothandiza.

Ndikadasiya PMO masiku opitilira 50, sindimamva bwino. Tsopano, ngati dopamine ndi "chiyembekezo chamankhwala amthupi," ndinazindikira kuti ndikadziphunzitsa ndekha kukhala wosangalala ndikabwerera ku chisangalalo, mpaka nthawi yomwe ndimamva bwino, komanso ngati nditha kuwona bwino njira zonse zomwe ndidasinthira ndikuyamba kuti ndikhale wokondwa kubwerera kumeneko, ndimatha kumva kuyankha kwa dopamine.

Mwachitsanzo, mu imodzi mwama blog omwe ndidatumiza kale ndidalemba momwe ndidakumana ndi maso ndi woperekera zakudya ndipo tinkamwetulirana wina ndi mnzake… sindimamva bwino za kumwetulira kosavuta M'ZAKA. Lero m'mawa, ndidangolingalira zomwezo m'mutu mwanga, kenako ndikuyamba kukhala ndi ziyembekezo ndi chisangalalo pazochitika zoterezi, ndipo ndidapeza kuti zidandipatsa chisangalalo komanso chisangalalo ndipo, koposa zonse, chilimbikitso. Chifukwa chake, tengani chisangalalo kuchokera m'mbuyomu ndikuchipanga kukhala chenicheni m'maso mwanu. Dziwani kuti simudzakhala ndi chisangalalo ngati ubongo wanu umakhumudwitsidwa ndi zolaula, koma dziphunzitseni kuti muyembekezere kubweranso kwa malingaliro amtunduwu mukamachiritsidwa. Izi zithandizira kusintha magwero anu a dopamine kuchoka m'malo olakwika kupita kuzabwino.

02-01 Ndinalowa mchaka chatsopano ndili ndi malingaliro abwino ndipo ndakhala ndikuyenda masiku pafupifupi a 60 popanda zolaula, maliseche, kapenanso kuchita zolaula.

Kwina mozungulira chapakati pa Januware, gehena yense adatuluka. Ndipo ndikungotanthauza kuti ndakhomeredwa ndi zolakalaka zazikulu komanso kufooka kwakukulu. Pambuyo ponyalanyaza kangapo ndinaganiza kuti ndiyenera kupeza masiku ena 60 olimba pansi pa lamba wopanda PMO. Ndayesera kuyambitsa njirayi kawiri m'masabata angapo apitawa koma ndalephera nthawi zonse, masiku anga abwino ndi masiku 10.

Sindikudziwa kuti ndi chiyani. Kuyambiranso kwanga koyambirira kunayamba ndikutsimikiza mtima kwambiri, koma sindikuwoneka kuti ndilinso ndi mphamvu yomweyo. Ndipitabe kuyesera.

04-17 Hei nonse, simunalembetsepo pano kwakanthawi, makamaka chifukwa ndimafuna kudikirira kuti ndidzakhale wopambana komanso zinthu zabwino zoti ndilembere.

Monga chosinthira: Oktoba watha ndidayamba kuyambiranso kuchokera ku PMO ndipo ndidapita masiku a 54 opanda orgasm ndi masiku a 63 osawona zolaula. Nditayambiranso, ndinasiyanso kwa milungu ingapo koma ndinabwereranso mkati mwa Januware.

Chifukwa chake, ndidadzinyamula kuchokera pamenepo, ndikuyamba kuyambiranso pa 2 February. Pakalipano, ndili patsiku la 76 la zolaula, koma masiku awiri apitawa ndakhala ndikuseweretsa maliseche ndikungomverera. Ndakhala pachibwenzi ndipo ndimayembekeza kuti O wanga woyamba achitika ndi mayi, koma zinthu sizinakhale choncho. Ndizoseketsa, chifukwa kwa inu omwe mumadziwa kubwezeretsanso, kuwonekera kwa malingaliro omwe mumapeza kuchokera kwa PMO'ing ndizodabwitsa. Mukuganiza bwino, mumakumbukira zinthu bwino, mutha kuyanjana ndi anthu abwinoko etc. Vuto linali, pamene ndimapita masiku 70 osakhala ndi chiwonetsero, chilakolako changa chonse chidakhala chosokoneza mwa icho chokha. Sindingathe kuganiza zogonana kapena kupeza mkazi woti ndigone naye. Zinali sizokhudza zolaula konse, zomwe zinali zabwino, koma zinali zosokoneza kotero kuti ndimamva kuti ndiyenera kumasulidwa motero ine M ' d ndikumverera kokha.

Sindinkafunika kugwiritsa ntchito pang'ono chabe, ndipo ndinatha kuyatsa kwambiri ndikumangirira zolimba. Ndinakhalapo kwathunthu, ndikusangalala ndikumverera kopusa mu mbolo yanga, ndipo zinali zokhutiritsa - zokhutiritsa kotero kuti ndinabwereza tsiku lotsatira. Sindinkafuna kuchita masiku awiri motsatira, koma ndinaganiza kuti gehena - zolaula ndi mdani weniweni, ndipo sindikufunanso kuziwonanso. Lero ndimakhala wabwino, wopanda wothamangitsa, wopanda zilakolako, ndipo ndimadzimva wachisoni kwambiri. Komabe, chinthu chimodzi chomwe ndinali kuda nkhawa chinali chakuti pambuyo pa O'ing, ndikanataya mwayi wanga wofunafuna akazi. Izi sizinachitike, inde, zosiyana zachitika. Ndinganene kuti popeza ndimangogwiritsa ntchito kukhudza thupi kuti ndifike pachimake, mwadzidzidzi ndimakhala ndi njala yokhudza kukhudzidwa kwina, ndipo ubongo wanga ukuwoneka kuti ukuvomereza kuti kukhudza kwakuthupi kwa akazi okongola ndikofunikira kwambiri.

Tsopano, sindikufuna kulengeza M'ing pachimake pakatikati poyambiranso, ndiroleni ndingonena. Koma, ndikudabwa ngati ndikofunikira kuphunzitsa ubongo wanu kutali ndi zolaula. Ngati ubongo wanu ukugwirizanitsa mphotho yayikulu yomwe amapeza chifukwa cha zolaula ndi zolaula PAMODZI, ndiye kuti zikupitilizani kukuthandizani. Ngati ndicho chinthu chomaliza chomwe ubongo wanu umakumbukira ndikupeza chotupa, pamenepo mwachibadwa chidzachifuna. Nditakhala ndi chidziwitso chokwanira chokhudzidwa ndimthupi, ndimamva ngati ubongo wanga ukuphunzira kuti utha kulandira mphotho yake panjirayo, kuchokera pa kukhudza kwa munthu, kaya ndi dzanja langa kapena thupi la mkazi.

Kuchokera pa zomwe ndawerenga, zikuwoneka kuti anthu omwe amamvetsetsa anzawo omwe ali pachibwenzi amakhala ndi nthawi yosavuta yothetsera vuto la PMO osabwereranso. Kwa iwo omwe satero, ndikuganiza kuti kuphunzitsanso kotere kungakhale kofunikira. Ndimadziyang'anira sabata yamawa kapena awiri ndikuwona zotsatira zake.

SUNGANI: Ndinaiwalanso kunena kuti poyambiranso "2nd", zinali ngati njirayi idathamanga. Zabwino zonse zidabwera ndikubangula kwa ine mwachangu, ndikuwonetsa kuti ndizowonjezera. Masiku omaliza a 76 akhala opindulitsa kwambiri komanso osangalatsa kwambiri m'moyo wanga. Ndakhala ndikucheza ndi abale ndi abwenzi momwe ndimangouza zakomwe ndimabisala. Kutopa komwe ambiri amamva kuti anali atatha sabata la 3, ndipo ndakhala nthawi yonseyi ndili wokondwa komanso ndikuyembekeza popanda chosokoneza. Kwa iwo omwe amawerenga izi omwe akuyamba kuyambiranso kapena akuganiza zoyamba, chitani ndipo musayang'ane kumbuyo. Ndi chinthu chabwino kwambiri chomwe mungadzichitire nokha.

5-01 Eya, lero ndi tsiku 90 la kukhala opanda zolaula. 73 yamasiku amenewo anali maliseche komanso yopanda maula. Ndazichita! M'mbuyomu, ndidapita masiku pafupifupi a 64 PMO, koma ndikumva bwino tsopano kuposa momwe ndidalili kumapeto kwa kuyambiranso. Ndi njira yowerengeka yowonjezereka ndi zovuta ndi zotsika zambiri.

Awa akhala masiku 90 opindulitsa kwambiri m'moyo wanga, ndipo sindikuganiza kuti ndidzabwereranso ku njira zanga zakale. Zithunzi zolaula zilibe mphamvu pa ine panonso. Masiku amapita ndisanalingalire za izo. Ngakhale ndikachita maliseche, lingaliro lakuwona zolaula sililowa mu equation, ndipo ndikuganiza kuti kulekanitsa zinthu ziwirizi ndi gawo lofunikira kwambiri panthawiyi. Muyenera kuzindikira kuti zolaula sizogonana, ndipo zolaula si maliseche - ndi nyama yosiyana kotheratu ndi zovuta zomwe zimapitilira chisangalalo chosavuta.

Kamodzi kanthawi ndimakhala ndi zovuta, koma ndizosavuta kuthana ndi zotchinga ndipo sizimapangitsa chidwi chofuna kuwona zolaula. Ndikumva kuti izi zikhala kwakanthawi. Zaka zowonongeka sizimangopita ndikumva zala zanu. Ndikulakalaka ndikadakhala ndi nthawi yonse yomwe ndidataya PMO, koma sindingathe - zonse zomwe ndingathe kuchita ndikupita patsogolo ndicholinga, kukhazikika, ndi kuthetsa. Sindidzabwerera m'mbuyo.

Zinthu zomwe zidandithandiza pochita izi (mulibe dongosolo):

- Kugwiritsa ntchito nthawi ndi abwenzi komanso abale

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- Kukonzekera

-Mawu

-Anthu onse omwe adalemba maulendo awo

Pali zambiri zakungokhala kuposa dziko lokhala ndi mbali ziwiri zokha zachiwerewere komanso kugonana mopitirira muyeso, kungosangalatsidwa ndi zamtopola. TENGANI ZABWINO mwachangu momwe mungathere, ndikuyamba kukhalira ZOONA!

6-01 Lero ndi masiku 120 opanda zolaula. Ndili bwino! Ndakhala ndikuseweretsa maliseche ndikumva zachilendo ndikamamva choncho. Nditangobwezeretsanso MO kusakanikirana, mozungulira tsiku la 70 ndikuganiza, zinali zosangalatsa kuti ndidakhala wopenga ndipo ndidazichita kangapo m'masiku ochepa. Tsopano, komabe, ndili panthawi yomwe ndi gawo limodzi lachilengedwe changa. Si zachilendo kwa ine kuti ndipitirire sabata kapena masiku 10 popanda izo, ndipo sizolimbana konse. Zili ngati sindimaganiziranso mpaka libido yanga itandimenya ndikunena, "Hei, wandikumbukira? Tili ndi bizinesi yosamalira! ”