Choyamba, ndikuyenera ndikuwuzeni chifukwa chomwe ndidayonera zolaula, sizinali chifukwa cha nkhani zina zachipembedzo kapena zamakhalidwe, sizinali chifukwa cha ED. Zinali chifukwa chakuti ndinali dopamine junkie, ndikumawononga maola ambiri kuti ndione zithunzi zamaliseche za mkazi (ine ndimangokhala mu zofewa).
Ndinayamba ulendo wanga wapa zolaula chaka chatha mu Juni. Ndinabwereranso, ndinali ndi kupambana kwanga (masiku 116 anali abwino kwambiri). Sindikuchezeranso malowa nthawi zambiri, makamaka chifukwa ndaphunzira kuthana ndi zolaula pofika pano. Koma ndimafuna kugawana nawo kanthu, makamaka ndi awa omwe angoyamba ulendo wawo.
Tsopano, pakadali pano pa tsiku la 110. Ndipo ndidangozindikira kuchuluka kwa zolaula zomwe zidandisintha, zidasintha malingaliro anga kwa mkazi, ndimawalemekeza, sindimawalemekeza chifukwa cha mawonekedwe awo, ndimamvera chisoni mayi amene amapeza ndalama polola kuti alendo padziko lonse lapansi aziwonera matupi awo (zitha kundipusitsa, podziwa kuti aliyense atha kupeza zithunzi zamaliseche zanga pa intaneti).
Sindikudziwa momwe ndingalongosolere, koma ndikumasula. Panali mkwiyo mwa ine, womwe ulibenso kumeneko. Ndikutsimikiza kuti pali anthu ambiri omwe amatha kuthana ndi zolaula, koma sindine m'modzi wawo. Ngati muli ngati ine, zolaula zimakulowetsani ndipo simudzazindikira. Ndipo ndidakali ndi njira yayitali yoti ndipite…
LINK - Masiku a 110 a zolaula adandipanga kukhala munthu wabwino
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YAM'MBUYO YOTSATIRA 1 - Kuyandikira tsiku 90, malingaliro ena pa zolaula ndi nofap, ndemanga zina, palibe "zopambana" zenizeni koma kusintha kwina
Ndachita masiku 90 a nofap kale, pano patsiku la 124. Chifukwa chake nditha kufananiza zotsatira zanga kuchokera ku nofap komanso zolaula. Kutalika kwanthawi yayitali, nofap idandipatsa chifuniro champhamvu ndikuwongolera zokhumba zanga, idachotsa ubongo waubongo, idandipatsa chilimbikitso, ambiri ndimakhala wokondwa, osatinso nkhawa zamagulu. Ndikulingalira kuti kupambana kwanga kwakukulu ndikuti ndidapita kutchuthi ndekha kumayiko ena, osalankhula chilankhulo komanso osapanga mapulani, ndimangopangira ndege. Zinali zosangalatsa zenizeni, ndinakumana ndi anthu ena osangalatsa panjira yanga. Ndikulingalira kuti aliyense amene ali ndi nkhawa yokhudzana ndi chikhalidwe cha anthu amadziwa kukula kwake. Ndikulangiza kuti ndiyende kwa aliyense amene ali ndi mavuto ofanana, anthu amakhala abwino akamayenda komanso kufunafuna kampani. Ndikosavuta kucheza ndi apaulendo ena.
Pornfree inandipatsa "kukonzanso" kwenikweni kwa ubongo wanga, ndimamva ngati sindinathebe, koma ndikuwona zotsatira. Mbali yayikulu yakukhazikitsanso ndimomwe ndimayang'ana pa akazi, maubale komanso mayanjano pakati pawo. Ndikayang'ana m'mbuyomu, ndimamuwona mkazi ngati zosangalatsa zakugonana, makamaka momwe ndimagwirira ntchito ndi mkazi yemwe amalamulidwa ndi malingaliro amtunduwu. Ngati sindinali wokonda kugonana ndi mkazi ndimatha kucheza naye, popeza kunalibe kukakamizidwa kugonana, chifukwa chake ndimacheza ndi atsikana ena omwe ndimawawona kuti siabwino, titha kunena kuti ndawapanga. Tsopano, chomwe chasintha ndikuti kukakamizidwa kugonana sikuliponso, izi zidandithandiza kwambiri ndimakhumudwa ndimayendedwe azanga ndi mkazi wokongola. Zaka zingapo zapitazo ndidangowonongeka kuti ndithane ndi nkhawa, zidagwira ntchito, koma ndidazindikira nthawi ina kuti iyi si yankho lolondola. Ndine wosowa kwambiri kwa mkazi wokongola, ndimangocheza nawo, osaganizira kumbuyo kwa mutu wanga momwe angawanyengerere.
Ndikuganiza zonse, zolaula ndi zopanda pake zimayenderana. Koma kwenikweni zolaula ndiye vuto lenileni pano, zimayambitsa chizolowezi chosavomerezeka, mwachitsanzo timapanga ngati misala. Kwa ine zolaula ndi nofap ndi njira zolimba kuti musinthe zina ndi zina. Ndazindikira kufooka kwanga ndipo ndiyesetsa kuyesetsa kuthana nazo.
Pomaliza, ndikufunirani zabwino zonse anyamata! Kumbukirani, zimangotenga nthawi kuti musinthe, musayembekezere kuti pali zopambana, kungosintha pang'ono.
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