Koyambira pati? Uwu wakhala ulendo wautali komanso wopenga. Iyi ndi positi yayitali, pitirizani nayo ndipo ndikuuzani nkhani kumapeto. Ndine wamwamuna 30yo, ndikuganiza ndidayamba whackin 'zaka za… .11? Ndinganene kuti ndakhala ndikuligwiritsa ntchito kamodzi patsiku malinga ndikukumbukira.
Sindikudziwa kuti ndakhala ndikugonana nthawi zonse. Mukudziwa kuti ndikamamvera Prince ndi Red Hot Chili Peppers akukambirana za sir psycho sexy.
Ndakhala ndi mbiri yakukonda akazi (kugwiritsa ntchito atsikana & kugonana pofuna kutonthoza) ndipo mwachiwonekere maubale omwe sanachitike (ngakhale ndakhala wokhulupirika zingapo - sindine mbulu wathunthu)
Ndinayamba NoFap chifukwa… sindimakonda chilichonse kuti chizindilamulira. Ndili mwana ndidaganiza kuti sindisuta kapena kumwa khofi chifukwa sindinkafuna KUSOWA china. Zaka ziwiri zapitazo ndinasiya kumwa mowa chifukwa ndimafuna kuwona momwe zingakhalire popanda izi ndipo ZOSANGALATSA, kuyambira pamenepo ndakhala ndikulowerera - zolaula kapena masewera apakompyuta. Ndikanatha kusiya zolaula koma ndinkalowa mu sewero la masewera ... KAPENA ndikhoza kusiya masewera apakanema ndikukhala chilombo cholaula. Kudzera mu mphamvu ya NoFap, anthu amderali, ena olimbikira komanso kugwira ntchito molimbika ndinasiya zonse ziwiri, ndipo tsopano nditha kunena moona mtima kuti palibe chinthu chimodzi chomwe chimandilamulira - ndilibe chizolowezi chomachita zinthu zosokoneza bongo (ngakhale ndimakhala ndi nkhawa mpaka kalekale kuti abwerere )
KODI NJIRA IYO INALI YOTANI? Kugonana mwamphamvu. zoyipa, mwamphamvu. Zimakhala bwanji kudzuka kutulo ndikulowa zenizeni. Maganizo onse adabwerera ndipo ndimafuna kulira ndikuseka nthawi yomweyo (ndimachitabe) Ndinali ndi vuto la kukhumudwa - ndinali ndi chisangalalo chachikulu - nthawi zina patangotsala mphindi zochepa - ndinazindikira kuti sindinali 'wobwerera m'mbuyo 'ndipo' ozizira 'monga momwe ndimaganizira! ndipo amayenera kugwira ntchito kuti abwezeretse. Ndikulimbanabe ndi zoyipa izi kwenikweni.
Koma mukudziwa zomwe chinthu chimodzi chomwe ndalankhula munthawi yonseyi ndikumva kuti ndili moyo. Chiphuphu chakwera ndipo sindingasinthe ichi pachilichonse ngakhale chakhala chovuta;
Ndimakumbukira nditaimirira m'sitolo ndi mipira yoyipa kwambiri yamabuluu yomwe ndidakhalapo nayo.
ndipo ine ndikukumbukira ngakhale lero ndiri wamantha kwambiri ine ndimakhoza kulira.
NDINASINTHA BWANJI? kwazaka zambiri ndakhala ndikumva kufooka, chete, osowa chowonjezera, palibe nthabwala zoti ndinene, osadandaula kwenikweni pakuwonjezera kukambirana. NDINAKUMBUKIRA nthawi ina ndikuseka koma zomwe zidafera mwa ine, ndimaganiza kuti ndichifukwa chakuti ndimakalamba, ndimangokhala wamkulu NOPE, ndimangokhala ngati ndikumva zowawa, koma tangoganizani, ndabwerera kumbuyo .
Sindikonda zolaula, ndimayang'ana zolaula kale, ndipo mbolo yanga inali ngati "mzanga, ndine wowopsa koma izi? sindikufuna ”
Sindikulankhulanso akazi pamsewu, ndikadali mwa iwo motsimikiza! koma china chake chasintha ... Ubongo wanga uli ngati kuzirala tsopano, sukuwona china chilichonse chodzutsa chilakolako chogonana ndipo chimakhala chododometsa ndikuyamba kufuna ma endorphin. Tsopano zikudziwa kuti pali ntchito yoti ichitidwe, mukudziwa ngati zokambirana.
Sindikulakalakanso kugonana nthawi zonse, sindingakuuzeni chomwe chimakhala kuti ine ndazindikira kuti ndingathe kupita nthawi yonseyi popanda kugonana kapena kumasulidwa. NDITHA KUDZIWA CHISONYEZO NDI MOYO WANGA !!
Ndimakumbukira nditaimirira mu chibonga ndipo msungwana wina adabwera kwa ine ndipo AMAFUNA kuti agone nane (anali ataledzera komanso osachita bwino) ndipo ndimakumbukira ndikuganiza koyamba m'moyo wanga "SINDIKUGONA msungwana uyu, ndakhala nthawi yayitali osagonana - ndipo chifukwa chakuti msungwanayo AKUFUNA kugona nane sizitanthauza kuti NDIKUFUNA ”Izi zitha kumveka zachilendo kwa anthu ena koma kwa ine zidali zowululira. Zakhala zikuchitika kangapo kuyambira pomwe, ndakumanapo ndi atsikana komwe kunali kukondana komanso mwayi ndipo sitinagonepo, chifukwa ndikuganiza kuti sizomwe zimakhalira ndikutha kwamuyaya. Ndipo chitsimecho ... .kuwombera si ndiko kukhala kwatha ndi kutha kwamuyaya.
Nditha kudziwa ngati mtsikana ali mwa ine kapena ayi, kukopeka kumakhala kwachidziwikire komanso kowonekeratu, ngati lingaliro latsopano, ngati pali zokopa zili ngati mtsikanayo ndipo tili pamlingo wofananira, kumangika kwatha, osati chifukwa cha Kupeza chidaliro koma m'malo mwake mumangokhala ngati ... kuwonekera.
Chifukwa chake ndikuganiza kuti ndizo, ichi ndiye chidutswa cholemba chowopsa ndikupepesa. Ndiyenera kuwonjezera pamenepo kuti pafupifupi masiku a 30 mu izi, ndidagonana ndi atsikana awiri sabata limodzi. ndiye mwina masiku a 30 kuchokera pamenepo panali zina zambiri koma osati zogonana. kuyambira pamenepo ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito tsiku lililonse.
Masiku ena (makamaka ndikadakhala kuti ndatuluka usiku wapitawo kapena ndili ndi mayi) zinali zovuta kwambiri ... koma mukudziwa zomwe zidandisinthira, zidayamba kuchepa POPANDA kuyesera kusiya kuyesera OSATI kusowa kuti mutonthozedwe, mukudziwa? kukhala omasuka ndi zovuta monga munthu wanzeru pano ananenera.
Ndikuganiza kuti tonse titha kuvomereza kuti vuto silakuti tikufuna kupaka maliseche athu, vuto ndilakuti palibe m'modzi wa ife akufuna kudziyang'ana tokha, tikufuna kuthamangira kwathu kwa amayi athu, kudziko lathu lamphamvu lolamulira - komwe timasankha pomwe tikusangalala ndikutulutsa ma endorphin ngati tikuwafuna. bwino FUCK kuti - Ndine zida zankhondo - ndimangoyang'anitsitsa kusowa kolamulira, kusakhoza kugonana nthawi yomwe ndikufuna, osatha kudzisangalatsa ndekha. Ndimatenga zowawa zakukhala ndekha ndipo ndimazigwiritsa ntchito ngati roketi kukumana ndi anthu atsopano, kuchita zinthu zatsopano ndikupanga zinthu.
Ndikuganiza kuti kusintha komaliza komanso kopatsa chidwi kwambiri (ndipo ena a inu mumazitcha zazikulu) ndi atsikana okha, sindikuganiza kuti ndikulimba mtima ?! Sindikumvetsa kwenikweni ... Atsikanawo amangokhala ngati ine. Pepani kuti ali - amadziwa kena kake - amatha kuneneratu. zomwe zimanditsogolera ku nkhani yanga;
Kotero tsopano, ZOCHITIKA tsopano (ndangobwerera kumene) - madzulo a tsiku langa la 90th. Ndimalowa m'sitolo yayikulu pafupi ndi nyumba yanga, ndikulowa pakhomo ndikulunjika gawo la sushi. Pali mtsikana amene waima apo mwamtheradi modabwitsa. Ndipo chotchedwa sushi chimawoneka chocheperako koma kotero ndinena kuti "ndizovuta kwambiri" ndipo ali ngati "eya"
Ndikuyenda, ndikupita ku bala la saladi, akuwoneka ndipo palibe aliyense wa ife amene timachita chidwi ndi saladi - kwenikweni chinthu chokhacho chomwe tonsefe tili nacho chidwi ndi wina ndi mnzake, ndikutanthauza kuti ndiwodabwitsa kwambiri ... akunena zonga izi wokhumudwitsa, pali malo a sushi panjira yomwe ndingapite kumeneko ”
komwe ambuye, ndiyankhe china chonga "chabwino tikumana kumeneko"
Ndimayenda, amayendetsa (midadada iwiri) timakhala pansi, timakambirana mpaka bala ya sushi itatseka - amandipatsa nambala yake ndipo tidzayesa kukumana kumapeto kwa sabata.
TSOPANO ndi chiyani, sichoncho ngati kanema? Kodi ndikadakhala ndikadachitapo zoterezi? ayi. osati pa moyo wanu… chifukwa ndinali wamanyazi… mwina? chifukwa ndinalibe chilimbikitso… mwina… .chakuti ndikadakhala kuti ndikumverera ngati maliseche ndipo PALIBE chilichonse chonga kuyankhula ndi msungwana ndikudziwa kuti simukufuna kugonana ndipo simukufuna? Sindikudziwa - sindikudziwa chifukwa chake zidachitika - sindikudziwa komwe ubongo wanga udali zitachitika ndimakhala mdziko langa ndekha tisanayambe kuyankhula ndipo sindinatanthauze kuti ndiyambe kuyankhula iye (wopenga ngati izi zikumveka)
ndipo chinthu chabwino kwambiri, ndipo ndikulumbira pa moyo wanga pa chakudya chamadzulo amandiwonetsa chithunzi chake cha chinthu chojambula cha thupi lamasewera. Sananditembenuzire kapena china chilichonse, kupaka thupi sikuti - koma ndikutanthauza, bwanji adandiwonetsa izi, adadziwa bwanji kuti sindine wopotoza wamisala?! KUPHATIKITSA… Sindikukumbukira nthawi m'moyo wanga komwe ndidakumana ndi mtsikana wina m'sitolo yayikulu ndikumukakamiza kuti asamugulire chakudya mmenemo ndikumapita naye kukadya m'malo mwake.. ndinayamba ndamvapo ndipo ngati ndikanawona mu kanema ndimamutcha bullshit!
CHIKUCHITIKA NDI CHIYANI?
China chake chasintha mwa ine ndipo sindingathe kuyikapo chala changa koma… zikuyenda bwino kwambiri ndipo mwina ndikuyenera kunena kuti ndinayesetsa ndi NoFap.
Ine sindikukupatsani upangiri, mukudziwa momwe mungachitire izi, manja anu asakhale oyipa.
Zomwe ndingakuuzeni ndikuti ndikumva bwino nthawi miliyoni.
INE sindingakuwuzeni ngati zimandithandizira kuti nthawi zina ndimakhala ndi Pe chifukwa choti sindimagonana pafupipafupi koma mosabisa mawu sindisamala, ndinkafuna kukhala opanda chiwerewere, komanso zaulere zolaula komanso zopanda chilakolako komanso pompano lero ndi zomwe Ndine. Ndikakumana ndi wina wapadera kapenanso wina amene ndikufuna kumangogonana ndi iye zikhala ngati kanthu kakang'ono kogwirizana ndi momwe ziyenera kukhalira.
Ndifunseni zomwe mumakonda, pepani chifukwa cha mawu opusa opusa omwe amachedwa, ndikakhala tsiku lalitali lodabwitsa.
Dziwani izi, zolaula ndizachabechabe komanso zopanda pake.
LINK - Lipoti langa la masiku 90 - zonse zomwe zidalonjezedwa ndi zina zambiri!
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