(Masiku a 90) Ndidayamba ndikuwonera zolaula zofewa ndili 9 (Lachisanu / Loweruka usiku pa Cinemax, yomwe imadziwikanso kuti Skinimax). Ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche patatha chaka chimodzi, ndili 10. Kwa zaka zingapo zotsatira, chimenecho chinali chondichitikira cha PMO (sindinadziwe kuti, ndimatenga zipsinjo zanga m'maganizo mwanga, zomwe zimakhala ndi mitundu ina ya nsapato ndi tsitsi lakumaso).
Kenako kunayimba pa intaneti pomwe ndinatembenuza 13. Kuchokera pamenepo, zomwe ndimakonda zimayamba kupitako (agogo, ma BBW, nthawi zina amaphatikizidwa). Izi zinakulirakulira pamene Intaneti yothamanga idabwera kunyumba kwathu patangopita zaka zochepa. Ndili ndi liwiro lalikulu, ndidayamba kuchita chidwi ndi zinthu zina zomwe sindidzatchula pano. Nthawi yonseyi, sindinkaganiza kuti panali vuto ndi ubongo wanga konse. Ndidagula mzere wa BS kuti "maliseche pafupipafupi ndiwathanzi (m'maganizo komanso mwathupi) ndipo aliyense amatero" ndipo ndimadziwa munthu wina aliyense yemwe ndimamudziwa kuti amayang'ananso zolaula. Pakadali pano, ndinali ndi atsikana angapo ndipo sindinakumanepo ndi mavuto, chifukwa chake zonse zinali bwino ndinkaganiza.
Mofulumira kutsogolo zaka zingapo zapitazo pamene ndinali 28, pamene chizindikiro choyamba kuti ndili ndi vuto chayamba. Ndinali ndi bwenzi langa lakale, ndipo tinali pafupi kukonzekera kugona naye, ndipo zonse mwadzidzidzi, ndinayamba kunyansidwa! Kunena zowona, kunena zoona, ndinali kumuleka kumukopa chifukwa cha zovuta zomwe zinali pachibwenzi, zomwe ndimati a ED panthawiyo, motero ndidaletsa kuyesa kuchita naye chilichonse chogonana. Nditasowa, ndimaganizira za nyenyezi yomwe ndimakonda kwambiri kapena munthu wina yemwe ndidamuwona pagulu yemwe ndimamuwona kuti ndi wokongola. Chifukwa chake, sindimaganiza kuti ndili ndi ED, koma "manjenje". Ndidayesa njira zothandizira kuti ndikhale ndi zochitika zogonana, makamaka zomwe ndikudziwa tsopano zimatchedwa kuti "edging" (zomwe sindimadziwa kuti panthawiyo zinali zikuipiraipira zinthu). ). Nditha kuwona zosauka zomwe ndimakonda kwa maola angapo ndikuwoneka osachita bwino. Chifukwa chake ndidali mtundu wanga wa nofap momwe ndimaganizira, koma sizidali chifukwa choti ndikupangabe PM ku PMO ..
Pambuyo pake, ndidasiyana naye mu Epulo 2013, ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndinayambiranso chizolowezi changa cha PMO. Mwachangu kupita ku Marichi omaliza. Ndidakhala pa chibwenzi ndi mzimayi wokongola kwambiri (malinga ndi amuna ambiri, amakhala), kenako ndinazindikira kuti sindinakhalepo wovuta kwa iye kale, nthawi, kapena tsikulo. Ine ndinayesera kutenga imodzi, koma sindinathe. Kenako, ndinazindikira kuti sindinakhalepo wovuta kwa azimayi ena omwe ndinakwatirana nawo posachedwapa, omwe anali okongola nawonso. Chifukwa chake ndinayamba kumasuka, ndikuganiza mavuto anga a ED ndi bwenzi langa anali okhudzana ndi izi. Ndimaganiza kuti sindidzakwatiranso / kukhala ndi ana / zina. Ndikudumphadumpha, ndinayamba kuyenda ngati wamisala (ndinawona kufanana kwa nkhani ya Gabe kuti ndiyambiranso), ndinakumana ndi YBOP, ndi momwe zolaula / maliseche zimatsogolera ku PIED. Komanso, ndidaphunzira kuti ikhoza kukhazikitsidwa popewa zolaula / maliseche / kuwongola. Zinkamveka zopenga poyamba ndipo sizinamveke bwino kwa ine. Pamenepo, ndinali nditafika pansi pomwe ndinali wokonzeka kuyesa chilichonse. Chifukwa chake ndinatero. Masiku angapo pambuyo pake, ndinapeza nofap sub pa reddit, motero ndinapanga baji.
Sabata yoyamba kulowa, ndinamva ngati ndiyenera. Ndidali ndi nkhawa kuntchito chifukwa sindikudziwa, ndipo ndidapanikizika pang'ono. Komabe, sabata lachiwirilo, ndidayamba kuwona zabwino kale. Mwezi umodzi mu, ndinali pachibwenzi ndi munthu wina (yemwe amakhala kwa masabata a 6), ndipo ndinakhala osasunthika panjira ya nofap (kupatula tsiku limodzi, pomwe ndinamulowerera - nthawi yokhayo yomwe ndidagwirizana ndi chaser, ndiye kuti ndinakonzanso baji yanga ). Momwe ndimakhala ndimantha maulendo angapo ogona naye, sindinapeze zovuta zazikulu za ED, ndipo maganizidwe anga pabedi adayamba kuvuta nthawi ikamapita. Komabe, zinthu zidatha, ndipo ine mwanjira ina ndinakhala wamphamvu osakhala PMO pambuyo pamavuto. Ndakhala ndikuvutikanso kwa masabata opitilira 8 tsopano. Pakalipano, ndili pautali wanga wamtali kwambiri wosapanga zosefera kapena wolimbitsa thupi kuyambira ndili 10 (kunena izi, Bill Clinton anali mu nthawi yake yoyamba kukhala Purezidenti). Nazi zina mwazomwe ndazindikira mwa ine ndekha:
- Sindinakhalepo ndi nkhawa pang'ono pagulu. Nthawi zambiri ndimapezeka m'malo opezeka anthu ambiri ndikakhala ndekha, makamaka m'malo okhala ndi anthu ambiri. Komabe, ndaphunzira kuti makamu samandivutitsa kwambiri, ngati zonse zikhala pano. Zinafika mpaka pomwe ndidadzipeza kangapo ndikupita kumsika kuti ndikangoyenda kuzungulira anthu. Nthawi ina, ndinapita kugolosale ukangomaliza kugwira ntchito, kuti ndikangokhala pena paliponse koma osapita molunjika kunyumba.
- Komanso ndakhala ndikungocheza ndi anthu ambiri, komanso sindingocheza nawo. Izi ndi zomwe zimachitikiranso atsikana. Mwachitsanzo, masabata angapo apitawa, ndinachita zomwe sindinachite m'moyo wanga (nthawi imodzi mu kanema wausiku): Ndinapita kwa mzimayi wokongola kwambiri, tsiku lililonse (ndinali komweko msonkhano wapa ntchito yanga, anali kupezeka mu umodzi mwa magawo), ndipo ndidakumana naye, chifukwa chosowa nthawi yabwino. Anali wolabadira, ndipo tsopano tikukomana ndi nkhomaliro sabata ino, pamsonkhano wapabizinesi. M'masiku akale a PMO, ndikadadziuza ndekha kuti sindikhala ndi mwayi wokhala naye, ndikungopita ndikamaganiza za iye nditapezeka kuti ndimaliza kunyumba usiku womwewo (malingaliro athu osintha bongo omwe amaganiza kuti PMO ndi weniweni, wogonana). Tsopano, posatha kusewera, sindinasankhe koma kuyankhula ndi iye ndinaziwona m'mutu mwanga. Monga ndidanenera m'mbuyomu, mnzanga wafanizira zomwe ndakumana nazo pa Family Matters pomwe Steve Urkel adasinthira kukhala Stefan Urquelle, ngakhale akuyenda pang'onopang'ono.
- Sindinakhalepo ndi vuto la kuvutika maganizo kuyambira pomwe ndinayamba kuvuta. Ngakhale pakakhala choyambitsa choyambitsa kupsinjika, ubongo wanga pazifukwa zina, ukukana kuti "ndipite kumeneko." Zili ngati "Ndikufuna kumva kukhala wopanda kanthu, koma sindingathe pazifukwa zina." Ndimangopita ndimamva ndikusangalala ndi mfundo yoti sindikuyendanso mu malingaliro amenewo.
- Ndakhala ndikuledzeranso zochepa (kunyumba ndekha) zomwe ndaphunzira. Nthawi ya PMO, kumwa kunyumba inali njira yodziwira chisangalalo chomwe ndimaganiza kuti chikusoweka. Tsopano, ndilibenso zilimbikitso kuti ndiziledzera kunyumba. Ndili pamwambamwamba nthawi zonse tsopano.
- Ndakhalanso ndikuwerenga zowerengera, ndipo ndidachitanso kanthu, ndipo ndidapeza ntchito yachiwiri monga profesa ku yunivesite yakomweko. Kuphunzitsa pakadali pano ndizosangalatsa kwa ine, ndipo ndagwiritsa ntchito nthawi imeneyi kukula komanso kuchita bwino ntchito yanga.
- Pomaliza, kukopa kwanga kwa azimayi m'moyo weniweni kwawonjezeka (chomwe ndichimodzi mwa zifukwa zomwe sindimawopa kuyandikira kwa iwo monga momwe zinalankhulidwira kale), ndipo tsopano ndikupezeka kuti ndimalumikizidwanso masiku okonzekera, kungoganiza kupsompsonana, palibe zogonana.
Zomwe zandithandiza ndikayesedwanso kuti ndiyambirenso kuchita zinthu izi:
- Ndimasunga chithunzi chachikulu (chifukwa chomwe ndidayamba, komanso momwe ndimakhalira ndimaganizo). Ndimadziuza nthawi zonse kuti "sizoyenera kuchita."
- Izi zikagwira ntchito, ndiye kuti ndimayendera ma nofap sub, ndikuwerenga zolemba kuti zinditsimikizire kuti ndisachite (nsanamira pomwe anyamata amadzitamandira chifukwa cha "awo opambana" kapena kunena momwe amamvera atabweranso). Izi nthawi zambiri zimandigwira ntchito.
- Ndimapita ku masewera olimbitsa thupi pafupifupi tsiku lililonse. Izi zimaphatikizapo kuthamangira ma 7 mamailosi (kapena ma 9 mamailosi ngati ndibwino kunja), ndikukweza zolemera tsiku lililonse lililonse. Nditha kudziwa kuti minofu yanga yakula kuyambira nthawi imeneyo, ndipo zandithandizira kukulitsa chidaliro changa. Kupita kukachita masewera olimbitsa thupi kumandilola kuti ndimasule mphamvu zina m'malo mwake ndikumumasulira kudzera ku PMO.
Zotsatira: Ndachita Zowonongeka zambiri mu ubongo wanga zaka 20 zomaliza ndi PMO. Ngati nditha kuchira ndikuyamba kusintha moyo wanga, inunso mutha.
Zikomo kwambiri chifukwa chondithandiza pa ulendowu, ndipo ndidzakhala pano kwakanthawi!
LINK - Nkhani Yanga ya Tsiku la 90, Kuphatikiza Ulendo Wanga Apa ndi Zomwe Ndapeza.
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