Chifukwa chake kauntala wanga akuti masiku 177. Ndikhazikitsanso posachedwa koma ndisanachite zimenezo ndikufuna kugawana nawo nkhani yanga. Miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yapitayo ndidasankha nofap ndipo ndiyenera kunena kuti chinali chisankho chabwino. Moyo wanga wocheza nawo udasinthiratu ndikamapewa kukhala kunyumba ndekha madzulo. Ndimathamanga, mofulumira kuposa kale. Ndinkawerenga zinthu zodzikongoletsera, ndikulimbana ndi nkhawa zanga. Ndipo pafupifupi mwezi umodzi wapitawo ndidaganiza zodzipereka kuti ndikhale pachibwenzi… Ndiko komwe kutsetsereka kudayambira. Ndinadzaza ndi malingaliro abwino, kulimbikitsidwa kwakukulu chifukwa masiku ambiri oyamba adadzetsa madeti achiwiri ndipo ena achitatu, ndidakondwera nazo koma ndidayambanso kupeza malingaliro. Kenako ndidaswa machitidwe anga olimba, pafupifupi masabata atatu apitawa. O chabwino, palibe thukuta, tonse tinasangalala nazo. Koma phompho lidayamba kukhala lotsetsereka kuchokera pamenepo.
Mukukumbukira malamulowo?
- khalani otanganidwa
- palibe zolaula
- osasinthika
Sabata ino inali kugwa kwaulere. Ndaswa zonsezi.
Ndavulala bondo, ndimayendera pang'ono. Misonkhano yolinganizidwa ndi abwenzi idachotsedwa, madzulo aulere. Kutikita msungwana wachigololo komanso wowoneka bwino sikuthandiza.
Kodi ndimadandaula? Ayi. Kodi ndiyambiranso? Inde. Zinali bwino miyezi isanu ndi umodzi? Mosakayikira
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Masiku a 36, phokoso pansi, amalimbikitsa
Ndinalemba kale masiku angapo apitawa kuti kusinthasintha kwanga ndikotentha. Ndikulimbana ndi zomwezi pakadali pano polemba izi. Pokumbukira masiku angapo apitawa ndikhoza kunena kuti mutu wokhudzana ndi kugonana ndi maubale kapena kusowa kwa wina ndi mzake ndimakonda kwambiri kukambirana nawo. Ndi anzanga pachakudya chamadzulo, ndi mlongo wanga, ndi abwenzi pachakudya chamadzulo. Zili ngati kuti chilakolakocho chikudutsa pazipata zanga zamadzi osefukira. Maminiti khumi okha apitawa ndimadzimva ndikuganiza zopita kukalabu yausiku kapena kusakatula kuti ndiperekeze kuti ndikumbukire kuti sizosiyana kwambiri ndi zolaula, mumangolipira ndalama m'malo mwa zithunzi zokongola. Dziwani, musaganize za izi
Malipoti a masiku a 30, m'malo motalika, makamaka kolimbikitsidwa komanso kolimbikitsira
TLDR (chifukwa ndi yayitali kwambiri kuti ingodutsa pansi) 🙂 Ndimakumbukira kuchokera pamaphunziro anga zabwino za kalos kagathos, ndi kukongola, ukoma, chivalry, zonse m'modzi. Mudzakhala chilichonse chomwe mukufuna, bola ngati mupitiliza kudyetsa ubongo wanu ndipo zolaula sizabwino kwenikweni. Kudziletsa ndichinthu chaching'ono, mwina mudakwaniritsa zazikulu m'mbuyomu osazindikira. Zikomo nonse chifukwa chogawana nkhani zanu komanso maudindo anu atsiku ndi tsiku ndi zonse, zimapangitsa kusiyana kwakukulu kundidziwa, inu ndi ena simuli nokha pankhondoyi.
Mbiri yanga, tulukani ngati simusamala - Ndakhala ndikukula ndikuyesera kuyambira ndili ndi 10 ndikuganiza. Ndinkakhala ndi magazini angapo pansi pa rug mpaka nditakwanitsa kugula PC yanga yoyamba. Kuyambira pamenepo zolaula zinali ndimalo ambiri oyendetsa magalimoto omwe ndinali nawo. Mutha kunena kuti ndili ndi OCD yokhudzana ndi zolaula 🙂 Ndikudziwa. Ndinayamba ndi softcore ndipo pang'onopang'ono ndinasamukira ku hardcore, ngakhale kugula zidole ... Ndinataya unamwali wanga ndili ndi zaka 25 ndipo ndinali ndi zibwenzi ziwiri zazitali komanso zazifupi ziwiri. Tsopano ndili ndi zaka 32 ndipo ndi miyezi 9 kuyambira pomwe ndinagonekedwa.
Sindinadziganizire kuti ndili ndi vuto lokonda zolaula, ngakhale ndikutha kuwona kuti zidasokoneza ubale wanga wotsiriza. Sindinkafuna kuti ndizisintha tsiku lililonse kapena kangapo patsiku kotero panali kangapo m'mbuyomu pomwe ndimakhala osadukiza kwamasiku angapo, pafupifupi pafupifupi masabata awiri, wopanda thukuta. Ndimadziyesa kuti ndili ndi mwayi kuti sindinapange imfa kapena ED. Koma nthawi zonse pamakhala china chosowa ndipo anthu ambiri pano akuwoneka kuti ali m'bwatolo lomwelo.
Sindinadziganizirepo ndekha ngati munthu wopambana koma ndikakumbukira nthawi zonse ndinali ndi cholinga china. Sizinachitike konse kwa ine. Mwati bwanji?! Mwina simukuzindikira, mwina mukuganiza kuti mumachita zomwe zikuyenera kuchitidwa kapena mukuganiza kuti simukuchita kalikonse. Lekani ndikuuzeni za zolinga zanga. Zikuwoneka zazing'ono, aliyense amatha kuchita izi, monga kuphulika, sichoncho? Kumanja 😉
Kukhala mozungulira makompyuta kuyambira ubwana ndi ukadaulo wachikondi zinali zachidziwikire kusankha kuyesa kupeza digiri ku tech tech. Cholinga chake ndi chiyani? Cholinga chimenecho chinanditengera zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi m'moyo wanga ndipo pomwe ndimachichita sindinadandaule za moyo wanga. Kupatula pakuphunzira ndimakhala zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi makamaka ndili mu dorm ndikusewera. Zikumveka bwino? 😉 Zinkawoneka ngati udindo kwa makolo anga panthawiyo koma zinali zovuta kumaliza MSc yanga. Mumangodziwa momwe ubongo wanu ndi maphunziro aliwonse opitilira kusekondale ndizofunikira mukayang'ana pozungulira msinkhu wanga. Mukamayenda mozungulira malo ogulitsira, mukapita kumisonkhano yasekondale, mukamamvera anthu mumsewu. Kwa bwenzi lililonse la kuyunivesite lomwe mudali nalo pali anthu khumi ndi awiri omwe samatha kuwongolera pamoyo wawo. Ndinkakonda kusukulu nthawi zikwi zambiri, ndinkalumpha makalasi, sindinachite mayeso koma ndidazichita. Panali pafupifupi 900 a ife mu semester yoyamba koma tidatsitsidwa kufika pafupifupi 125 pomaliza. Mukuganiza kuti mutha kuchita?
Nditatuluka ku dorm uni ndinali wosauka kwenikweni, ndinayamba kuda nkhawa ndi anthu. Mchemwali wanga ankandigulira zovala “zokongola”. Mwa kukongola ndimatanthauza koyenera osati tiyi wakuda kapena wakuda kwambiri. Sindingathe kulowa m'sitolo ndikufiyira kumaso ndikudutsa gawo la atsikana mpaka amuna. Kuyang'ana mtsikana m'diso? Ndinu openga? Komabe, muyenera kuchita zomwe muyenera kuchita, chifukwa chake ndinali kunja kukagwira ntchito. Cholinga china chofunikira kwambiri. Pambuyo pake ndidazindikira kuti abwana anga akale anali amtundu womwewo ndipo ndidamuwona wachichepere atakhala patsogolo pake pamafunsowo. Ndinalembedwa ganyu m'nyumba yaying'ono yamapulogalamu ndipo ndinayamba kuyang'ana pozungulira ndipo pang'onopang'ono ndinapeza kuti muofesiyo muli anthu ena ndi mtsikana! Ndimakumbukira ndikuganiza za iye kukhala kutali ndi nyenyezi zolaula "zabwino". Koma kukhala pafupi ndi anthu kunanditsegula maso ndipo ndidayamba kuzindikira zanga komanso zanga. Monga wopanga junior ndimafunikira thandizo lochuluka. Koma ndinayamba kudzidalira pakapita nthawi mothandizidwa ndi ena omwe amandilimbikitsa nthawi zonse. Ndi mtsikana ameneyo? Sitinadutse gawo lamayanjano koma ndinayamba kumukonda momwe anali. Kuchokera pafupifupi autistic MSc kupita ku IT, zaka 4. Pamenepo! Ndidawerenga kawiri pano kuti anyamata adasiya ntchito yawo yovutayi ndikuyamba kuchita chinthu chenicheni, chopindulitsa. Komanso ndakumanapo ndi anthu ambiri m'moyo wanga omwe amakhala otanganidwa ndi ntchito yawo moyo wawo wonse. Ngati simusangalala ndi ntchito mwina pang'ono si ntchito, ndi sentensi. Ndi anthu ochepa okha omwe amamvetsetsa izi, ngakhale ndi ochepa omwe amakhala nawo. Sikuti aliyense akhoza kukhala Steve Jobs koma simukufuna kukhala Joe wochokera ku fakitale ya botolo la PET. Kodi izi zikugwirizana bwanji ndi nofaping? Ndife amuna, ndife opambana mwachilengedwe. Timangokhalira kufunafuna zovuta ngakhale mwina simukudziwa. Kodi mastering CoD / BF3 / MtG / DoD / (ikani masewera omwe mumawakonda apa) ngati sichinthu chokwaniritsa? Koma izi ndizopambana m'maiko ena omwe ali ndi malamulo opangira. Zinthu zenizeni ndizolimba komanso zopindulitsa kwambiri. PMOing imakupatsani chisangalalo chosafulumira ngati kukhala ndi mbendera ya mdani. Pang'ono ndi pang'ono mumayiwala za dziko lenileni, zakwaniritsidwa kwenikweni, atsikana enieni, zogonana zenizeni… ngati mudakhalapo ndi wina woyamba. Kukwaniritsa ntchito ndi malo oti muyambire, pitani ngati mungayerekeze.
Ndidakhala pachibwenzi ndi msungwana wanga woyamba ndili ndi 14 kenako ndidakhala ndi kompyuta yanga yoyamba 🙂 Mutha kulingalira zomwe zidatsata 😉 Inde, zochuluka ndikuchepa komanso kudzikweza ndi kudzidalira. Ubale wanga woyamba weniweni, kugonana kwanga koyamba sikunachitike mpaka nditakhala 25. Ndipo kwakanthawi ndidanyoza kuchepa ndikusiya chifukwa ndimamva ngati ndikumunyenga. Patadutsa zaka ziwiri tinasiyana ndipo ndinayambanso kukula. Koma ndinayambitsanso vuto lina osaganizira kwenikweni. Ndidawawona anyamata ena onse a IT pakampaniyo ndipo panali malingaliro ochepa kuti sindikufunanso kukhala munthu wowonda mu mathalauza anyani komanso tiyi wopusa. Chifukwa chake ndidayamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikuthamanga. Maubwenzi atatu (komanso nthawi yopanda mbiri) pambuyo pake ndimakondwera ndimayendedwe anga, osakhala olimba kwenikweni koma osangalatsa kwenikweni ndipo ndikutha kuwona kuti ndikuwonetsetsa ndikamavala bwino m'mawa. Ndine wamkulu IT ndi malipiro ambiri. Ndimangolira za ntchito yanga nthawi ndi nthawi koma ndimakonda zomwe ndimachita nthawi zambiri. Osakwatira, dziwani, koma ndine wokondwa kwambiri ndi zomwe ndakwanitsa kuchita mpaka pano. Zomwe sindikunyadira ndikukula kudzera muubwenzi wanga womaliza. Ndinkakonda pafupifupi m'mawa uliwonse akamapita kuntchito. Zinaipiraipira mpaka pomwe tidagonana kamodzi m'masabata awiri. Ndinadzipatula kwa iye, ndinakhala dorm wanga wakale ndikudzikonda, osamupatsa chikondi chokwanira. Pakali pano ndikuwona zomwe kukula kungachite kuubwenzi. Phunziro lovuta taphunzira movutikira, simukufuna kuchita izi.
Nthawi yomweyo ndidazindikira kuti ndikufuna kuwoneka bwino ndinazindikiranso kuti ubongo umagwiradi ntchito ngati kompyuta, uzisamalira zomwe umadyetsa. Sindinaphunzirepo zama psychology koma mnzanga amatero. Zolemba ndi zochepa zochepa pambuyo pake ndikudziwa kuti ndakhala ndikudziwonetsa ndekha zaka zonsezi. Zolinga zonsezi, zodzifunira komanso zobisika komanso zosaoneka zinali mapulogalamu anga. Tonsefe timachita izi nthawi zonse ndipo PMOing ndizosiyana. Posachedwa mnzanga wama psychology adadandaula zakusowa kwa amuna enieni, kuti anyamata samathamangitsa atsikana ngakhale kuti angalimbikitse kugonana chifukwa ndikosavuta kuwona zolaula nthawi iliyonse kulikonse. Zimakhala zachizolowezi kuti pamene lingaliro losangalatsa likachitika mumakhala okhudzidwa kwambiri ndi malingaliro ofanana. Mwadzidzidzi ndinakumbukira kuti ndinawerenga kwinakwake za kuchuluka kwa testosterone pakukhala osasiya. Mwadzidzidzi ndinazindikira / r / nofap. Mwadzidzidzi mnzake wina yemwe ali ndi mavuto ake amandibwereka buku la David Deida (limawoneka ngati kapepala ka mboni za Yehova koma lingaliro lalikulu m'bukuli ndilabwino). Mwadzidzidzi ndidapunthwa pa Nkhani ya Misandry Bubble ndipo mosasamala kanthu kuti ili pafupifupi lingaliro lachiwembu ili ndi mfundo zina zabwino. Mwadzidzidzi ndinaphunzira kuti mnzanga wapamtima wakhala akuchita nofap kwa zaka zinayi chifukwa adazindikira kuti ndibwino maubwenzi ake, adadabwa nditamuuza kuti zikuyenda bwino.
Kuti mumvetsetse kuti muli ndi vuto ndichinthu choyamba chothetsera. Masiku makumi atatu ndichopambana chabe koma zidandikhudza kwambiri ndipo ndikutsutsa wobwera aliyense kuti apirire. Zinali zosavuta kuti ndipange nofap. Koma ndinkapitanso patsogolo kwambiri kuti ndikhale otanganidwa, ndikasiya kugwiritsa ntchito kompyuta, kucheza ndi anzanga, ndikuyang'ana osawadziwa, kucheza nawo nthawi ndi nthawi. Palibe mwayi ndi atsikana pakadali pano… ngati simukuwerengera mnzanga woyamba kugonana sex
Ndinawerenga zambiri m'masabata apitawa. About psychology, maubale, kulumikizana, kusonkhezera. Apa mu / r / nofap, kwina. Zinali zosangalatsa kusakanikirana kwa malingaliro, malingaliro ndi zowona kuchokera kumagulu onse osiyanasiyana. Chilichonse chimveka bwino tsopano. Kujambula kwanga, nkhawa za pagulu, kugonja ndi (zolaula) msungwana wabwino, kulephera kuyankhula ndi atsikana ndi zina zomwe ndidawanyalanyaza mwadala. Chilichonse chikugwirizana ndi kusefera ndi Mlingo wopanda pake wa zolaula.
Ndimayesetsa kulimbikitsa ena pano chifukwa ndikudziwa zitsanzo zabwino zomwe zitha kuchitira mnyamata. Ndinalibe, patapita nthawi ndidavomereza mnzanga wapamtima ngati bambo yemwe ndimasowa.
Ponseponse, ndimamva ngati Mr. Awesome kuyambira sabata lachitatu lokhala opanda mbiri. Zoposa zonse, zilipo, ngakhale ndi inu nokha amene mungawabweretsere moyo. Zikomo nonse amene mumalemba zolemba, kulimbikitsa ena ndikubweretsa malingaliro pagome. Zambiri zomwe zalembedwa pamwambapa ndizochepa chabe zomwe zakhala zikuganiza m'masabata angapo ngakhale kuti malingaliro ena amapita patsogolo kwambiri m'mbuyomu.
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