7/17/2012 Chabwino, mbiri yanga mwachidule. Zaka 33, wathanzi, ntchito yabwino, wokongola, wokwanira, wolankhula komanso wochezeka. Ngakhale, palibe kugonana kwazaka zopitilira ziwiri tsopano. Chifukwa chiyani mumapempha? Zosavuta, Mantha. Ndakhala ndi ED ndikukana chilichonse chogonana chomwe ndakhala nacho zaka ziwiri zapitazi. Chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti msirikali wanga samvera.
Ndidayimba mlandu, mowa, kunenepa, kuchepa thupi, kupsinjika, munganene. Sizinachitike mpaka nditapunthwa pa positi pa forum yaku Sweden yokhudzana ndi izi pomwe ndidazindikira kuti vuto linali chiyani. Yesu, ndinazindikira nkhani za anyamatawa. Zotsitsimula bwanji!
Sindinakhale munthu wolimba wa POM. Mwinamwake 50% nthawi yomwe ndagwiritsa ntchito P kuti ndiyambe. Sindinakhale munthu yemwe POM katatu patsiku, masiku asanu ndi awiri pa sabata. Kwenikweni ndakhala ndikukhala ndi kachitidwe, katatu Lamlungu lililonse komanso zina "zofulumira" mkati mwamasabata.
Ndikugwiritsa ntchito blog iyi ngati zolemba zina. Cholinga chake ndikusokoneza, chithandizo chamankhwala komanso mwina kudzoza kwa munthu wina?
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Sindinaganizepo kuti kuchoka kungakhale ndi zotsatirazi. Tsiku lachitatu ndidakumana ndimatenda ngati zipsera ndikumva m'mphepete. Pomwepo ine komwe ndimakhala ngati gehena ndipo ndimangofuna MO. Ndakwanitsa kukhala osazindikira chifukwa choti komwe ndimayendetsa kudutsa tsiku lomwelo ku Sweden. 🙂
Komanso ndakumanapo ndi zikhatho thukuta. Osati zosangalatsa zomwe ndinganene. O, nayi mfundo yochititsa manyazi. Kutseguka panyanja kwa ine komwe kunakhala kopusa patsiku la 4. Ndinamverera ngati ng'ombe yomwe sanayamwidwe mkaka…. manyazi!
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Pafupifupi maola 1400 ndidayamba kukhala gehena. Zachilendo kwenikweni, ndikuganiza kuti libido yanga idatulukira kwakanthawi. Chisangalalo chidapitilira mpaka XNUMX koloko pomwe ndidapuma nditatuluka muofesi. Kupanda kutero ndimakhala ndi malo otuwa, kapena ndimangosinthasintha pakati pa okondwa pang'ono komanso ochepa nkhawa. Kutembenuka ndi ola….
Ndikuwona kuti "zisonyezo" zonse zimawoneka ngati ndikutopa. Komabe palibe vuto kuthana ndi zolakalaka. Zabwino! Nditadzuka nditagona ndinali ndi nkhuni zazikulu. Nthawi yachiwiri yokha yomwe ndinali nayo kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba ichi. Pitilizani kubwera!
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Palibe libido, osakhumba, osalota, mulibe nkhuni zammawa ndipo simusintha. Ndikuganiza samazitcha zachabechabe ...
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Ndinali nacho chodabwitsa kwambiri lero. Nthawi inayake kuzungulira 10 AM libido yanga idayamba kugunda. Zolemba! Ndikulingalira kuti mfundo yoti ndinali ndi njala ngati gehena idathandizira kumverera.
Nditayendetsa mphindi 10 kupita kwa wogulitsa sushi yemwe ndimakonda komwe ndimakhala wamisala. Ndinkafuna kugona ndi mkazi aliyense yemwe ndimamuwona ndipo sindimatha kuyang'ana ndikamayendetsa. Ngakhale ndinadutsa kutuluka kwanga, kawiri! Kinda zoseketsa pambuyo pake, koma panthawiyo ndimaganiza kuti ndikumasula.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti ichi ndichinthu chopitilira.
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Kufooka… .nyengo… ..
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Palibe chatsopano lero pamaso pa PMO. Libido yanga ikuwoneka kuti ikubalalitsa zodabwitsa izi kangapo patsiku. Zachilendo. Ndinagonanso usiku watha, ndinadzuka ndi zosunthika zosachepera 4 nthawi. Kupanda kutero ndakhala ndikusangalala. Zomwe zili zabwino.
Sindikuganiza kuti chinthu choletsa ndichovuta kwa ine kapena chovuta. Chomwe chimandivuta ndi chidziwitso chonse chopanda PMO. Ndine wodziwa kwambiri, wogwira ntchito, kapena wopezeka ngakhale, ndipo ndakhala ndikuchulukitsa "kusanthula miyoyo" kapena kulingalira. Pakakhala "PMO-mtambo", zitha kukhala modzichepetsa kuti udziyang'ane pagalasi ndikudziyang'ana wekha momwe ulili. Muyenera kuthana nanu pamapeto pake. Ndikudziwabe izi, gawo limodzi panthawi…
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Komabe palibe libido weniweni
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Ndimakometsabe ngakhale libido yanga ikuwoneka, koma osagwira. Zimakhala zovuta kufotokoza. Si maolivi kapena mafunde omwe ndidatchulapo kale. Zambiri monga zatsegulidwa koma zimangoyenda mwina 5 -10%. Chizindikiro chachikulu ndikuganiza!
Khalidwe lakhala labwino posachedwapa. Koma sindikumva mphamvu yakumenya. Ndakhala waulesi ndipo sindimachita zambiri mozungulira. Limenelo ndi vuto kwa ine. Sindikumapumulanso ngakhale. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala munthu yemwe sindingakhale chete….
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Ndakhala pamalo abwino lero. Wokondwa ali mwana ndipo palibe chomwe chakwanitsa kutsika. Ndikumva bwino! 
Ndikutsimikiza kuti mkhalidwe wanga wamakono ukugwirizana ndi kuti libido yanga ikubwerera (ndimamva ngati mwamuna wamwamuna kachiwiri).
Ndidazindikira kuti sindinakhale ndi maloto onyowa kwakanthawi, ndikungozindikira komanso kusadandaula.
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Kubwereranso! Choseketsa ndichakuti sindimachita manyazi kapena kukwiya nazo. Ndidayenda, mosakayikira, mwina ichedwetsa kuchira kwanga. Koma zili bwino, ndiphunzira pazomwe zandichitikirazi. Ndasuntha…
Sindingabwezeretse kuwerengera kwanga ndikuyamba kuyambira 0. Ndikumva kuti ndilibe zokhumba pakadali pano ndipo popeza kubwereranso ku 0 m'malingaliro mwanga kungakhale chilango ndipo izi zitha kuyambitsa mowa wambiri ngati malingaliro anga apita malo oyipa kwambiri . Ndikudziwa kuti kubwerera kwanga kudzandibwezeretsa kuchira, koma sindilephera kuchira. Zochita zanga zokha ndi zomwe zingaimitse kuchira kwanga ndipo ndine amene ndikuwongolera zochita zanga!
Tiyeni tidutse sabata yamawa!
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Chabwino, patepi ikutuluka apa. Bwerezaninso ndipo nthawi ino ndakumwa. Palibe chisoni, kapena mkwiyo. Koma mkwiyo wokwanira!
Sangatumizenso kuposa lero, ndiziganiza za izi ndikulemba pambuyo sabata ino.
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Ndadutsa masiku 90. Pomwe cholinga changa choyambirira. Ndabwerezabwereza katatu panthawiyi. Mmodzi wamkulu pomwe ndimadzimangirira. Zinali masabata awiri apitawa.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti muyenera kuyambiranso. Zomwe mukukumana nazo komanso mwayi wodziwa chifukwa chake mumayambiranso ndizofunikira kuti mudzachite bwino kwanthawi yayitali. Ndaphunzira zambiri kuchokera kubwereranso. Ndaphunzira zambiri kuchokera kubwereranso kwanga. Makamaka omaliza.
Ndiye ndachiritsidwa? Ayi, kapena sindichita tsopano popeza sindinagonanepo. Marnie akupitilizabe kuthamangitsa mipira yanga kuti apeze yomwe angakumane nayo. Ndipo akunena zoona, koma ndakhala ndikupereka zifukwa. Wina chonde hule undimenye, ndiyenera!
Chifukwa chake sindichiritsidwa. Koma ndine wokondwa, ndimawona akazi, inemwini komanso dziko mosiyana. Zosintha zanga zabwerera ndipo abwerera nthawi yayikulu. Mpaka pomwe a Johnsson amangokhalira kutuluka pena paliponse masiku onse. Zodabwitsa !!
Zowonjezera zili pakati pa 90 - 98% mphamvu ndipo zimatha. Ndizopambana!
Kwenikweni ndikunena kuti ndikukhulupirira kuti uyu wakhala wosintha moyo wanga ndipo chinthu chokha ndikuti ndikudandaula ndikuti ndataya zaka zambiri mu PMO-fog.
Kotero ndikusunga ichi nofap / no pm (o) chinthu chikupita.
Ndikumva bwino!
Zopatsa chidwi! Masiku a 100, osawerengera kubwerera kwanga komwe ndiko. 🙂
Chikhumbo chachikulu cha pmo dzulo. Ndinayang'ana P dzulo. Ndinachita M dzulo. Koma kwakanthawi kochepa chabe. Ndinakwiya ndekha ndipo ndinasiya. Ndimanyadira ndekha lero kuti ndinali ndi mphamvu zosiya. Chifukwa dzulo pomwe zoyipa, zoyipa kwambiri. Sindikuganiza kuti ndakhala ndikulakalaka kwambiri masiku 100 awa. Adakhala ndi vuto loyipitsitsa la mipira yabuluu pambuyo pake ....
Mapeto a sabata akhoza kukhala vuto kwa ine. Dzulo pomwe pali chitsanzo chabwino. Anzanga onse komwe kunja kwa tawuni ndipo ine ndidatsala ndekha. Popeza mvula ikutsanuliranso, kumenya tawuni komwe sikungakhaleko kwenikweni. Chifukwa chake ndidadziphatika ndekha mnyumba mwanga… lingaliro loipa…. koma ndinakwanitsa kukhala wolimba mwanjira ina.
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Sindinatumize pafupifupi miyezi itatu. Sindinamve kusowa kapena kumva kuti ndili ndi chidziwitso choti ndigawe.
Ndinayambanso kuyambiranso ntchito nditangotumiza mauthenga. Ndikukumbukira ndikumva mtundu winawake wabuluu komanso wosayanjananso ndi kuyambiranso.
Ndiye zikuyenda bwanji? Kupatula kuti "ndasiyana" ndi bwenzi langa lapamtima (Chifukwa cha mabodza, kudzipusitsa komanso kudziwononga komwe kumakhudza anzanga onse), ndikuchita bwino kwambiri. Libido alipo motsimikiza, kupatula pomwe ndimalota usiku. Ndikuwona kuchepa kwa kugonana koyendetsa masiku oyamba nditangolota. Ndimazindikiranso kuti kutulutsa kwanga usiku kumabwera awiriawiri, nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi maloto ena achiwiri usiku wotsatira nditatulutsa koyamba.
Ndakhala ndikugonana bwino. Onse anali okwiya komanso osaganiza bwino kangapo.
Ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito yodzidalira, yomwe mwina ndiyomwe yandipangira.
Ndili pachibwenzi (Hell eya !!) mtsikana yemwe ndimamukonda kwambiri. Amakhala wabwino, ngakhale ali "msungwana wabwino", kutanthauza kuti wophunzira, wanzeru komanso wapamwamba, ndikukumana ndi mavuto ena ine osapitilira za izo monga ndimakonda kuchitira. Mwanjira ina, ndikumwa ndikudya msungwana uyu, m'malo mongomutenga msungwanayu monga ndimachita. Zala zadutsa…
Pofotokoza mwachidule izi mpaka pano:
* Miyezi itatu yoyambirira ndipo makamaka masiku oyamba a 30-60 pomwe hellish
* Ndikhulupirira kuti iyi ndi njira yochitira izi
* Maulendo obwereza ali bwino, mungovomera ndi kuvomereza zomwe ali (Superman amangopezeka muzosewerera)
* Ndili ndi nkhuni zammawa pafupifupi m'mawa uliwonse
* Ndikhulupilira kuti mavuto anga ndi / pomwe onse pmo ndi kusadzikayikira
* Ayi sindichiritsidwa, ngakhale ndili ndi thanzi labwino kuyambira ndili mwana
* Ndikumva bwino kwambiri
Malawi!
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[Pomaliza anapita patsogolo ndi] mtsikanayo. Ndemanga yake yokhayo pomwe adati: "Pomaliza! Yesu ukudekha. ” (Ngakhale adavomereza kuti amandichedwetsa mwadala chifukwa amafuna kundiyesa.)
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