Chifukwa chake ndakhala ndikubisalira magawo awa kwakanthawi ndipo ndidaganiza kuti lero ndi gawo labwino kwambiri kuti nditumize. Patha masabata a 8 mpaka tsikulo kuchokera pomwe ndinamaliza maliseche, nthawi yayitali kwambiri pamoyo wanga kuyambira pomwe ndinatha msinkhu zaka 20 zapitazo.
Ndinachita chidwi ndi NoFap nditawona nkhani ya TED miyezi ingapo mmbuyo ndikuyamba kuwerenga momwe kukula kumalumikizirana. Kanemayo "Zikomo chifukwa chogawana" nawonso anali olimbikitsa mwanjira ina ndipo ndimalimbikitsa iwo kwa omwe atha kuthana ndi vuto lina.
Nditawona kufanana pakati pa kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo ndi zizolowezi zosiyanasiyana zogonana, nthawi yomweyo sindinkafuna kuchita zambiri ndipo posakhalitsa ndinayamba kudekha. Ndikuganiza kuti izi zachitika makamaka chifukwa chokana kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo ndipo ndazisankhanso mgulu lomwelo. Ndizosadabwitsa ngakhale kuti ndadzilola kuti ndizolowere kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala ena ambiri, osagwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo, zinthu monga masewera apakanema, wailesi yakanema, kugwiritsa ntchito ndalama mokakamiza ndipo mwachidziwikire zimangodzipangira zokha. Ndikulimbana ndi ziwandazi mosiyanasiyana mosiyanasiyana pakadali pano koma ine ndikupatuka.
Ponena za zisonyezo zina, sindinakhalepo ndi vuto lalikulu ndi ED, ngakhale komwe nthawi zingapo ndi bwenzi langa lomwe mwina linali lofanana. Zokonda zanga zolaula sizinasunthire kwambiri ndipo ndinali nditasiya zinthu zachiwawa zakale kwambiri. Ndinkadutsanso nthawi zopanda zolaula, ndimangogwiritsa ntchito zolaula zam'maganizo ndikumawerenga erotica, chifukwa chake ndikuganiza kuti ndikudzibweza ndekha pang'ono.
Zonsezi zakhala zabwino. Ndinawona kuwonjezeka koyambirira kuti anthu ambiri amafotokoza limodzi ndi mawu otsetsereka pambuyo pake. Ndikuwoneka kuti ndikutuluka nthawi yayitali tsopano chifukwa mitengo yanga yam'mawa imakonda kudzandilonjeranso. Ndaona kuwonjezeka kwa kuthekera kwanga kucheza, popeza kukumana ndi anthu m'maso kumawoneka kosavuta ndipo ndikulolera kuyanjana ndi anthu mwamwayi. Sindinganene motsimikiza pa izi, chifukwa ndichinthu chomwe ndimayang'ana kwambiri pakukonzanso.
Ndazindikiranso chidwi chatsopano m'moyo wonse ndipo ndakhala ndikuyang'ana mwakhama kuti ndikakumanenso ndi akazi, mwina kudzera pa intaneti. Sindinatchulepo nkhawa zanga zokhudzana ndi chikhalidwe cha anthu kuti ndithetse manyazi komanso manyazi. Kuti ndisapite patsogolo, ndinayambanso kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi pafupipafupi, kudya bwino ndikugona kwambiri, kotero ndikudziwa kuti zonsezi zathandizanso.
Malinga ndi zoyipa zomwe zimachitika, nkhani yokhayo yomwe yakhalapo ndi yankho lamtundu uliwonse lomwe limayambitsa kutuluka kwa semina ndi chisokonezo chomwe chimayambitsa. Kupanda kutero, zina "zoyipa" ndimaganizira zabwino. Izi zikuphatikiza kuthana ndi kusungulumwa nditasiyana ndi makolo ndikukhala osakwatira kwa miyezi 18, ndikukumana ndi mavuto anga ndi nkhawa zamagulu, ndikukumana ndi zizolowezi zina zomwe ndimazitengera kuti ndizibisala.
Ndikutha kunena moona mtima kuti ndikuganiza kuti kuchepa tsopano kwatha kalekale kwa ine, chifukwa chimango chatsopano chomwe ndili nacho chimapangitsa kukhala chosafunikira kwenikweni. Limenelo lingakhale langizo langa labwino kwambiri kwa aliyense amene akuvutika kuti akhale pa ngoloyo. Ingopeza njira yothetsera chinthu china chomwe sichingathe kwa inu. Izi zati, mufunika kusamala pano, chifukwa mutha kuyenda m'malo amdima osankha chimango cholakwika.
Lingaliro lomaliza apa ndikuti mu njirayi ndibwino kuyesa ndikukonza ndikudzikonza nokha popanda kuweruza. Ndife tonse anthu ndipo kudzipanga tokha kumakhala kovuta popanda wotsutsa wamkati nthawi zonse kumakunyozani, choncho khalani omasuka kuyika tepi pakamwa pa buluyo 
Izi zati, kumbukirani kuti cholinga ndikutsogola, choncho osadzidalira.
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