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Ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula posachedwa, zomwe zimayamwa. Nazi malingaliro ofunikira omwe andithandiza kuwonjezera nthawi pakati pa nthawi yogwiritsa ntchito zolaula.
1) Ine mwina ndi lifer.
Zithunzi zolaula zinakhala njira yofunikira kwambiri yodzipangitsira kuti ndimve nthawi yomweyo "chabwino." Kuzindikira izi panthawi yogwira kwandithandiza kuti ndisachite mantha, kundibwezera kudzipatula kwathunthu ku zolaula zomwe, ngati mutazichita nthawi yayitali, zimakhala zachilendo.
2) Zomwe mumakonda zolaula zamtundu uliwonse ndizochepa pa nthawi yayitali.
Chilichonse chomwe "kink" yanu ilibe kanthu, kupatula kuti pachiyambi ndichinthu chowonekera kwambiri chomwe mumawona ndipo kwa ambiri zomwe mumakonda zolaula ndizomwe zimapangitsa manyazi opundula omwe amatsutsana ndikudzidalira komanso kumathandizira kudziletsa ndi kulimbana. Ngati ndikuganiza kuti ili ngati vuto lalitali lomwe ndikugwirapo ndikudzipereka moona mtima kuti ndisinthe ndidzakhala pamsewu wopita kukachita izi kuti ndidzipulumutse. Osadzimenyanso ndekha ndi nthawi yoti ndiphunzire momwe ndingachepetsere kugunda kwamantha! (Ndinawerenga za nkhaniyi pa Ubongo Wanu pa Zithunzi.)
3) Kupitilira kwa chizolowezi kumatha kumangidwa ndipo sikungapewere.
Ndikamayang'ana zolaula, ndinayamba kuda nkhawa kwambiri ndi zinthu zomwe sindinachitepo m'moyo weniweni. Nditakula ndidayamba kuyesa kutsanzira zomwe ndidawona m'mavidiyo ndipo ndidazindikira kuti ndayamba kugwiritsa ntchito ndalama zolaula, makalabu azovala pafupipafupi ndikuphunzira momwe ndingakumanirane ndi azimayi omwe amagwiritsa ntchito masamba azibwenzi. Kuledzera kwanga kudakulirakulira ndipo zinthu zikuchitika zomwe zinali zosayembekezereka komanso zovulaza zofuna zanga monga zovuta zaumoyo (STD's ndi ED) ndimavuto amgwirizano (zaka zomwe zidayikidwa muubwenzi kuti zithe kusweka mtima.) Kwa nthawi yayitali, chikhulupiriro changa yalephera kuzindikira mbendera zofiira zomwe ngati zikanawonedwa mwa ena ndikadazindikira mosavuta chizolowezi.
4) Kunyalanyaza ndi kusayang'ana kumbali ya mkhalidwewo ndi chizindikiro cha kuzolowera konse.
Sindingathe kudzipangitsa kukhulupirira kuti mavutowa adachokera ku zolaula zonse zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito ndikuti ngati ndingazichite ndikusiya * kuseweretsa maliseche * ndikugonana kwakanthawi zomwe ndanena pamwambazi zitha kuchepetsedwa kapena kupewa. Uwu ndiye mtundu wakukula kwa inu omwe mwangodziwa kumene akhoza * kupewa * ngati mupitiliza kubwera kuno ndikugawana ndi ena, osataya mtima, ndipo * ngati kuli kotheka, * kufunafuna chithandizo chaukadaulo
5) Makhalidwe achinsinsi ndi mdani wamphamvu wa zolaula.
Mtsutso wamphamvu wotsutsana ndi zolaula ukhoza kukhala wopindulitsa pakumvetsetsa izi komanso kuti chikhalidwe chamakhalidwe chimatha kukhazikika ndi mphamvu yayikulu pa malingaliro andzeru osakhazikitsidwa pakupembedza milungu, zopatulika kapena zikhulupiriro zachikhalidwe. Nthawi yomweyo malingaliro abwinobwino oterewa akhoza kuphatikizidwa ndikuyesetsa kugwira ntchito ndi iwo omwe asiya (movomerezeka) kutengera zikhulupiriro zawo zachipembedzo ndi malingaliro achipembedzo chawo omwe ali mkhalidwe wogwirizana kwathunthu ndi lingaliro kuti zolaula zimabweretsa mavuto padziko lapansi, osati zomwe takumana nazo patokha.
Sikuti zinthu zachilengedwe zimachitika muubongo wanga pomwe ndimapitiliza kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula, monga momwe kutsutsa kwakanthawi kochepa kwachilengedwe kungatsimikizire, ngakhalenso zizolowezi zanga zolaula sizinachitike chifukwa cha "tchimo loyambirira." Koposa china chilichonse chinali chifukwa chakukhulupirira kwanga kuti kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndi "kwachibadwa" chifukwa chake sikuyenera kusamalidwa, monganso zinthu zomwe ndimawona pa zolaula zidayamba kukayikira. Chofunika kwambiri chomwe ndidatenga m'makanemawa ndi malingaliro omwe adandiphunzitsa kusalemekeza azimayi m'moyo wanga omwe amagonana nawo kwakanthawi kochepa kapena omwe atha kukhala okwatirana nawo kwakanthawi.
June
Patha masiku 11 kuchokera nthawi yomaliza pomwe ndimayang'ana zolaula. Ndine wokondwa nazo chifukwa ndikudziwa kuti nditha kupita nthawi yayitali. Sindikudzipatsanso zifukwa ndipo ndakhazikitsa zolaula kuti zikhale zovuta kwambiri. Tsoka ilo ndili tsiku limodzi la M / O koma ndadutsa masiku 8 posachedwa kenako nkugwa. Ndikudziwa kuti ndikhoza kuchita bwino mtsogolo.
July 9
Zopatsa chidwi! Pano ndili patsiku 10 ndipo ndikumva kukoma kwa (mphamvu yamwamuna yachinyamata). Nthawi zonse zakhala zokongola kwambiri chifukwa ndimathamangira kukonzanso ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ubalewu udathandizira kupitiliza izi. Ndikukonzekera kupitiriza kukulitsa "mphamvu" ndikubwezeretsanso bwino kuzinthu zanga zakuda.
July 25
Kubwezeretsanso ("Ubongo wanga umayambiranso monga momwe kompyuta imagwirira ntchito") sizikufotokozera kwenikweni kuchoka kwa PMO molondola, ngakhale ubongo kuyambiranso ndikofunika chifukwa ungapereke chiyembekezo kwa omwe akuvutika kapena "akusowa" anali kubisala ndikupitilizabe kukhala ndi "zokonza".
Mosasamala kanthu kuti imagwiritsidwa ntchito moyenera, gawo lina lomwe fanizoli silikugwirizana ndi momwe limatanthawuzira kuti monga kompyuta padzakhala njira yofananira momwe ubongo wathu "umayambiranso" ngati tingathe kusiya zizolowezi. Inde zilidi choncho, mpaka mutafika pa tsiku la 28 ndipo mukukumana ndiukali kwa maola 12, gwadirani kumbuyo kwanu mukupuma kutentha kuti mutuluke, nthawi yonseyi ndikubwereza kuti "Musaganize!"
Ndikawerenga zolemba za mazana a anthu omwe akukumana ndi "kuyambiranso" kodzaza ndi mitundu yonse ya zowawa tsiku ndi tsiku ndimangofuna kukonzanso zokambiranazo. Nthawi zina imayamwa ndipo imayenera kuyamwa. Mnyamata wina adati mipira yake idayaka ngati masiku 4! Mulungu, ndikumverani chisoni "Masiku 4 Akulira Mpira." Ndingakonde mipira yabuluu kuposa iyo chifukwa osachepera ndikudziwa * kuti * imatha mukaleka kuziganizira kwambiri ndikuchita bwino. Ndiyeneranso kutchulanso kuti sindikukumana ndi vuto lililonse lodziletsa momwe ndingathere. Izi zikutanthauza kuti zinthu sizikundiyamwa makamaka pano.
July 28
Ndidzadzifufuza ndekha kwachiwiri kuno…
Popeza sindinapitepo milungu yopitilira itatu popanda MO ndakhala ndikudzichotsa kwamuyaya. Gawo laubwenzi ndilofunikanso kuti achite bwino, china chomwe ndilibe.
tsiku 7
Inde chikhulupiriro cholimba chochitikira.
Ndinazichita kale kuti ndikhozenso. Ndili pa tsiku 7 kachiwiri. Zabwino kwambiri kuposa masiku 3 ndi 4 IMO.
tsiku 15
Ndiye patha pafupifupi miyezi iwiri kuchokera pomwe ndinayamba kufotokozera wachilendo nkhaniyi.
Posachedwa ndakhala ndikuyenda masamba azibwenzi. Ine sindine wokonzeka kupanga ma pulogalamuwa kuti akhale achangu ngakhale. Ndilibe mphamvu yoti ndikhale ndi masiku, pano. Ndine wokhutira kuti ndiwoneka. M'mbuyomu kuyenda mawebusayiti akanatha kuwatsogolera (ndikuwatsogolera) kuwonera zolaula komanso maliseche. Izi sizinachitike kwakanthawi ndipo ndimamva ngati ndapita patsogolo. Komabe sindinabwerere m'mbuyo nditayang'ana tsamba loperekeza komanso tsamba la anthu omwe akufuna kuchita nawo zinthu. Ndikulingalira kuti ndinali nditatopa ndi kuwerenga zomwezo mobwerezabwereza ndikuyembekeza kuti zikadakhala zosiyana mwanjira ina.
Komabe sindinalembetse chilichonse. Kungoyang'ana ndipo ndidatsekanso tsamba loperekeza chifukwa sindikusowa ubongo wanga kuti ndikhale ndi malingaliro azabwino. Kupatula lero ndi tsiku 21 kwa ine ndipo ndiye motalika kwambiri komwe ndakhalako kwakanthawi. Ndinganene moona mtima kuti ndikuyembekeza kupitanso sabata lina ndipo sindikufuna kuwona zolaula. Izi zikupita patsogolo kwa ine ndipo zikugwirizana ndi kuti pamene ndinali pachibwenzi ndi chiyembekezo chogonana, ndiye kuti chiyembekezo chimenecho sichinakwaniritsidwe, ndinadzipatsa chilolezo choyamba kuseweretsa maliseche pafupipafupi kenako ndikayambiranso zolaula. Izi zidachitika mpaka pomwe tidalekana. Sindinayang'ane zolaula kuyambira sabata lomwelo lomwe tidasiyana. Mwanjira ina yake kuthekera kwakugonana kwenikweni kwanditsogolera kuti ndikufunireni ... kenako kubwereranso.
tsiku 22
Chifukwa chake ndamaliza nthawi yayitali kwambiri kuyambira pomwe ndalowa nawo tsambali ndipo sizingayime posachedwa, ngakhale nditakhala kuti ndingapeze chibwenzi chogonana mosavuta. Izi sizomwe ndimayang'ana palokha ngakhale zili choncho kuyambira pomwe ndidalumikizananso ndikuwerenga CPA. Zikomo kwambiri kwa aliyense amene wanena chilichonse chomuthandiza m'miyezi yapitayi. Mawu amtundu uliwonse alandiridwa ndipo uphungu uliwonse wawerengedwa ndi chidwi.
Pamene ndinalowa pano ndinali ndimalo ena amisala ndipo ndinali wokonzeka kupita kukapeza bwenzi nthawi yomweyo chifukwa ndinali ndisanakhale ndi bwenzi kapena bwenzi kwa zaka ziwiri pomwe ndinasintha zina ndi zina pamoyo wanga: kadyedwe kanga, ntchito yanga ndi malo okhala. Ndiye kuti ndinakhala wosadyeratu zanyama, ndinayamba kutsatira nyimbo ngati ntchito ndipo ndinachoka pakhomo kuti ndikakhale pafupi ndi NYC. Kusintha moyo wanga wogonana kwatenga nthawi yayitali koma zambiri zasintha apa nanenso ndimapereka ulemu kwa anthu pamsonkhanowu, ndikuthokoza kuti muli pano.
Zikuwoneka kuti sindigonana posachedwa, zomwe zili bwino ndi ine (osachepera pompano!) Ndipo izi zikutanthauza kuti mwina ndipita motalikirapo. Ndikufuna kuti nditenge masiku 60 pansi pa lamba wanga. Chingwe ichi ndichongofuna kulemba nthawi ndikuthokoza nonsenu. Nthawi yotsiriza yomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito zolaula inali miyezi ingapo yapitayo koma imamverera kutali kwambiri kuposa pamenepo. Monga anthu ambiri ogwiritsa ntchito zolaula nthawi yayitali ndimakhala ndi zododometsa ndikuyerekeza m'maganizo koma sizimakhumudwitsanso mkatikati mwanga. Uku ndikusintha kwakukulu komwe ndikufuna kupitiriza kudyetsa ndikudzipereka kwatsopano ku zakudya zopatsa thanzi, zamasamba komanso pulogalamu yothamanga.
Zabwino zonse kwa aliyense amene akukumana ndi mavuto osaneneka, kukhumudwa komanso kukwera ndi kuyambiranso kwina ndi ntchito yovuta kwambiri yopeza wina kunja komwe yemwe angakhale wabwino kusankha (wokwanira yekha) alinso wina wofunitsitsa izi Karezza zapita.
Malawi!
tsiku 30
Ndikulingalira patatha mwezi umodzi osagonana konse komwe ndimazindikira sikunali kokwanira ndipo ndinali ndi maloto onyowa. Chokhacho chomwe chimayamwa ndikuti ndinali mtulo tofa nato kotero kuti sindimakumbukira malotowo. Andibera achifwamba! Kenako ndimakhala ndi lingaliro lodziwika kuti ndiyenera kukhala ndi "chidziwitso" tsopano popeza zachitika kale. Iyi ndi njira yolakwika chifukwa m'mbuyomu zomwe zandipangitsa kuti ndiyambe kuchita ziwonetsero.. Chifukwa chake ndiyenera kupitiliza monga momwe ndiriri mpaka pano.
Ndikudabwitsidwa kuti ndadutsa masiku 30 * osakhala ndi imodzi ... Ndikuganiza kuti ndachita izi mokwanira chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti ikubwera posachedwa. Izi zati, ndimakhalabe ndi "chizolowezi" koma sizofanana ndi ngati ndinali ndi maliseche. Ndimangodziwa "zakugonana kapena maliseche lero koma nthawi zambiri pakadutsa milungu iwiri kapena itatu yopanda PMO zinthu zimakhala zochulukirapo ndipo ndizosavuta kupewa zopeka. Sindikutsutsidwa!
Tiyeni tiwone kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula komaliza: pafupifupi miyezi iwiri ndi sabata ... ndikosavuta kukhala kutali ndi izi.
Ndikulemba izi chifukwa sindinapite patali choncho tsiku lililonse ndimakhala ndikupita kokacheza ndi anzanga.
tsiku 32
Ndikhoza kunena molimba mtima kuti ndaphunzira kena kake ndikayambiranso chifukwa ndakhala nazo zambiri. Ngakhale tili ndi chiyembekezo chogwiritsa ntchito zolaula pang'ono zomwe zikupitilizabe kukhala ndi gawo lalikulu m'mbali zina za moyo wathu, mwina chifukwa chogwiritsa ntchito mosalekeza. Izi zikutanthauza kuti aliyense amene amawona zolaula ngati vuto kwa iwo sangathe kusankha zolaula. Ngati wina agwiritsa ntchito - pafupifupi zikuwoneka ngati zosafunikira - ayenera kuvomereza kuti zaka zambiri zomwe timakonda kuchita, makamaka kwa maola kapena masiku ambiri munthawi yogwiritsira ntchito kwambiri, zitha kungokhala gawo lathu "chisankho" chathu.
Chifukwa chake kwa anthu omwe angopeza vuto ili kwa inu nokha kapena omwe akhala akuvutika kwanthawi yayitali ndikupitilizabe kubwereranso - nazi zopaka. Palibe amene adzafike pazenera ndikukulepheretsani kugwiritsa ntchito ngati mukufuna kugwiritsa ntchito. Tiyenera kuphunzira limodzi momwe tingadzichitire tokha mwa kusinthiratu chizolowezicho ndi zinthu zathanzi, zosangalatsa komanso zotsimikizira moyo zomwe zimapangitsa masiku akale kukhala ngati loto loipa, m'malo mongomva ngati tikusowa "nthawi yabwino. ” Tiyenera kukhala ndi malingaliro akuti, "Ndichita Chilichonse Chimafunika" monga chisonyezo chakulekana kwathu bwino ndi zolaula. Izi zikugwiranso ntchito pamavuto ena (makamaka kwa iwo omwe samamvetsetsa zolaula) asankhe kusiya maliseche kwakanthawi kwa milungu ingapo ya 8.
tsiku 37
Ndakhala ndikubwereranso mobwerezabwereza monga mutu wotsatira kotero ndimamva ngati nthawi zina kubwereranso kwambiri kumatha kutidzutsa pang'ono kuti tidziwe komwe tikufuna kupita kuti tisiye zolaula ndi maliseche kumbuyo. Ndabweranso pamasabata a 5 tsopano, ndili ndi masiku oyipa, pali masiku ochulukirapo koma sindiganiza zogonana kapena maliseche ndipo ndili ndi kuthekera kochepetsera malingaliro osafunikira omwe amatsogolera kuti ayambirenso .
tsiku 38
Porn ndi mbuye wansanje. Timakonda kukhala ndi chidwi chathu chonse… mwamwayi nthawi imeneyi yasweka
tsiku 40
Sindinazindikire momwe ndinakhalira ndikudzipatula. Komanso lero ndinalota lachiwiri lonyowa m'masiku a 8 ndipo zomwe zandipatsa ine zoyipa zoyipa kuposa zoyambilira masiku 30! Lolemba, ndikakwanitsa, likhala tsiku la 42. Ndikadali ngati mpanda usikuuno koma ndimakonda kusungabe cholinga changa ndikadzakwanitsa.
Ndimasilira omwe apita miyezi iwiri. Popeza ili ndilo lalitali kwambiri lomwe ndakhalapo ngati sindikufuna kuyambiranso, ndipo kupatula apo sindimakonda kuseweretsa maliseche, makamaka ndimaganiza bwino.
tsiku 41
Ndikudziwa kuti ndimatha kupewa zolaula koma sindinapite patali popanda mb'ing.
tsiku 50
Ndaphunzira kuti kukhala ndi maloto onyowa ndi gawo limodzi lokonzanso monga mipira yabuluu kapena zizindikiritso zina zobwerera. Maloto akunyowa ndiosapeweka ndipo ndi zomwe mumachita nawo ndi momwe mumakonzekerera ndikukwaniritsa zomwe zingakuthandizeni kuti mupambane. Ndine wokondwa kuti posachedwa papita masiku 60 chifukwa zimandikumbutsa kuti ngakhale izi sizili zophweka, mukangoyenda pang'ono masiku ndi masabata zikuwoneka kuti zikudutsa mwachangu kwambiri. Ndikufuna kukhala chizolowezi changa chatsopano.
Kodi ndikuganiza kuti ndabwereranso? Osati kwenikweni. Pali zinthu zina zobisala pansi zomwe zitha kubwereranso munthawi yomweyo ngati ndizilola. Mbali ina ya ubongo wanga wa buluzi ndiwofunitsitsa kuti ndibwererenso, popeza sindinaphunzitse kuti izi "zinali zabwinobwino." Sindikuseweretsa maliseche kapena kuseweretsa maliseche pafupipafupi. Ndikwanira kuti ndilimbe mtima kuti kusintha kwamphamvu kwachitika. Chitani chilichonse chomwe chingafunike, amzanga! Mudzawona zotsatira m'moyo wanu.
tsiku 57
Ndili ndi zinthu zina zabwino zomwe zikuchitika, monga momwe ndimakhalira wolimbikira kuposa nthawi ina iliyonse m'moyo wanga ndipo zakhala zikugwirizana miyezi iwiri ndipo ndawona zotsatira zochepa.
tsiku 59
Zolaula kwa ine "zayamba kuchepa" nanenso. Kwa nthawi yoyamba nditha kulingalira za tsogolo lino pomwe sindimangoyang'ana kapena kuligwiritsa ntchito koma zinthu zomwe zidalembedwa kwa ine zili kutali kwambiri ndipo sizothandiza.
tsiku 64
Chifukwa chake pano patsiku la 64 loyambiranso (sindinaganize kuti ndingakwanitse) Ndimasangalala ndi chodabwitsa cha mbolo "yopanda moyo" kapena "yakufa". Kwenikweni uku ndikumvetsetsa kopanda tanthauzo, mbolo yanga komanso zogonana ndizabwino kwambiri kuposa kale. Kusiyanitsa ndikuti tsopano nditha kuyang'ana pazinthu zina komanso mphamvu zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito pa PMO zikuyesera kuchita bwino kusukulu, kupeza wokwatirana naye woyenera yemwe ndingayesere naye Karezza ndikuwonetsetsa zolinga zanga. Uku ndi kubwereketsa kwatsopano m'moyo mwanjira ina chifukwa ndimamasuka ku chiwerewere chomwe chimandizunza nditapanga chisankho zaka zapitazo kuti ndibwino kuti ndisiye zolaula. Ndimadabwa kuti ndizosavuta bwanji tsopano kuchotsa zomwe ndikulakalaka ndikusintha malingaliro anga osagwiritsa ntchito zolaula kapena maliseche. Ameneyo si mbolo yakufa, ndiwo ubongo womwe umadzuka kuzinthu zina osati mbolo.
Ndicho chomwe kwa ine ndikutanthauza tanthauzo lalikulu lomwe lingakhalepo ndikusiya zolaula ndi maliseche m'mbuyo, simumaziphonya kwambiri ndi zinthu zina (zinthu zomwe ndakhala ndikuzisiya) tsopano ndizofunika ndikuti patsogolo zomwe zimayenera kukhala nthawi yonseyi. Ganizirani za moyo wanu pakati pa mbalame ndi diso. Kodi mumaika patsogolo zinthu zomwe zimakupatsani mwayi wokumana ndi anyamata kapena atsikana omwe ali ndi chidwi chofanana mdera lina?
Kwa iwo omwe akuyambiranso nthawi yakwana kuti avomereze zomwe mukuganiza kuti "zakufa"! Si munthu wakufa. Mukungophunzira momwe mungazimitsire moto m'manja mwanu kamodzi kamene mwagwiritsidwa ntchito - osati ndi manja anu okha koma ndi mapangidwe a ena omwe akufuna kupindula ndi ukapolo wanu kuzilakolako zanu zogonana. Tsopano mukuyendetsa zinthu ndikukhala ndi udindo wonse ndipo palibe chowopsa kuposa kukhala munthu wogonana kwanthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanu komanso munthawi yodziwika bwino …… ndikukuthokozani inu nonse omwe mukuyesera izi ndipo ndikulemba ndikutsimikiza kuti * ipambana, ngakhale panali zopinga zonse, zolephera kwakanthawi, zochitika zowopsa kapena zina zothetsa. Chitani chilichonse chomwe chingafunike! Chitani izi ndikukumbukira kuti pali zina zambiri m'moyo kuposa tambala wanu!
OMG TSIKU 72… .tsiku lomwe ndimakonda kuwona ena akulemba ndipo ndimaganiza kuti sangakhale ine!
tsiku 72
Ndine wokondwa kuti ndili pa Tsiku 72 ndipo ndipita momwe ndingathere. Kungoyang'ana ndi aliyense ndipo ndabwera kuti ndikuuzeni anyamata omwe akuvutikanso kuti izi ndizotheka * ndipo mwina mungapitirirebe ndikukhala ndi chidwi chakuchira. Pitilizani kuwunika zomwe zikukulepheretsani. Kodi mukufuna kumenya izi motani? Chitani chilichonse chomwe chingafune anzanga. Mukadali komweko pitani kumeneko ndikuyamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi!
tiwone… Sindikumvanso maliseche ...
Kukhazikitsidwanso patsogolo pazolinga komanso kuthekera kozimitsa malingaliro asadayambiretu kutsika. Ndilo gawo labwino kwambiri. Ndikudziwa kuti ndimatha kukhala wopanda zolaula ndipo ndikufuna kuti ndizikhala choncho kwa nthawi yayitali, ngakhale nditayambitsanso (pang'onopang'ono) maliseche. Ndiyenera kuwerenga ndekha payekha Karezza kuti ndiwone zomwe ndingachite.
tsiku 85
Sindikuganiza kuti ndi nthawi yoti ndiyambe kuseweretsa maliseche panobe. Chifukwa chiyani ndiyenera kumaliza njira yanga yayitali kwambiri? Chinthu chomwe ndikufuna kupewa ndikulakalaka mkazi ndiyeno nkugonana ndi wina yemwe sindimafunanso kukhala naye pachibwenzi. Sindikufuna kubwereza zochitika zakale m'derali.
tsiku 86
Ngati ndilibe chiyembekezo ndizosavuta kupewa kuseweretsa maliseche .. .kuti kuthekera koti kugonana kwenikweni kuwonekere kumakhala kovuta kwa ine.
tsiku 87
Ndikudziwa (masiku 85) zimamveka ngati zochulukirapo koma ndikutsika kwa chidebe poyerekeza ndi zaka zopanda malire za PMO. Ndine wokondwa kuti ndafika pano. Tidzawona ngati ndipanga 100 kapena ayi ndisanapeze mnzanga wokhala ndi mwayi wotalika.
osataya mtima, ziribe kanthu zomwe mungachite izi.
tsiku 88
Ndimakhala mokhazikika nthawi zonse. Zili ngati kuti mungafune kuti sewero lanu lakanema likonzenso kuchuluka kwanu mukamenya bwana? Osati pa moyo wanu. Sindikufuna kuyiwala momwe zimamvera chisoni kubwerera m'manja mwa zolaula zokoma. Ndikungowononga nthawi ndi mphamvu zambiri koma ndatha kukhala kutali kuyambira Juni ndipo sizimamveka kalekale.
Sat, 2011-10-22 20:30
Kuchotsa zinthu ndi zinthu zakale, ndimakondabe maloto, maloto ndi zochitika zenizeni zomwe ndimafunikira kuti ndipewe.
Zimakhala zosavuta patatha milungu iwiri kapena itatu.
tsiku 99
Ndidayamba kuyambiranso ndipo ndine wokondwa ndi zotsatirazo koma ndidziwa bwanji kuti ndapita nthawi yayitali? Anzanga samamvetsetsa ndipo sindimayembekezera kuti atero. Kumbali ina ndikaganiza zakugonana ndimakhalabe ndi malingaliro azolaula. Zomwe zimayamwa koma ndikuganiza kuti sindimayembekezera kuti "ndingachiritsidwe" ndi njira yayitali. Ndikufuna kudziwa zomwe ena achita kapena akuganiza munthawi imeneyi. Ponseponse, ndikubwerera m'mbuyo kuyambira chaka chatha mpaka chaka chino ndi "vuto" labwino kwambiri. Sindinaganizepo kuti ndingakwanitse masiku 99 kapena 100.
Ndikuganiza kuti bwenzi langa lakale lija litachoka m'moyo wanga china chake chidadina mkati mwadzidzidzi zinali zosavuta kuti pamapeto pake ndichoke pa zolaula. China chokhudza kuphatikiza kwakusowa kwenikweni kwa zolimbikitsa zakugonana, kusowa kwa ziyembekezo zakugonana komanso kuwawa kwamalingaliro opatukana zinali zokwanira kuzipangitsa kukhala zophweka mwanjira ina, patatha miyezi ndi miyezi yobwereranso ndikubweranso ndikupita milungu ingapo. Sindikulimbikitsa njira ina iliyonse kwa wina aliyense, kungoti kukhala ndekha kunapangitsa izi kutheka, ngakhale ndakhala ndimasiku ochepa ndikulimbikitsidwa kuti zikhale zosavuta kuzithetsa mwachangu osachita maliseche kapena kubwereranso.
tsiku 100
Tsiku 100 limasangalala ... Ndakhala otanganidwa kwambiri ndi masewera olimbitsa thupi komanso makalasi. Ndinayambanso kulembera pepala la sukulu. Kungotsala kanthawi kuti ndikumane ndi munthu amene ali woyenera osati kungokhala pachibwenzi koma kwanthawi yayitali.
Mulole, chaka chotsatira
Chifukwa chake ndidadzuka pambuyo pa tsiku lopanikizika (ndinali ndimasangalalabe, koma popanda masiku, ngakhale zosangalatsa zitha kukhala zopsinjika) kuzungulira 1 am ndipo ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri.
Ndidadzimva ngati "Ndikhala ndi maloto osakhalabe choncho bwanji osapewa zovuta zosintha ma droo anga." Chifukwa chake ndimasewera. Ndiyenera kukuwuzani kuti palibe chomwe chasintha ndipo ndikufuna kuti pakhale milungu iwiri kapena kupitilirapo kuti zinthu ngati izi zichitikenso (mwina zikhala zazitali kwambiri.) Chizindikiro chilichonse chokhudzika ngati "chizolowezi chochepetsera nkhawa" nthawi zonse chimatha kuyambitsa mavuto ndipo ine Sindikukhala ndi zilakolako zambiri lero kotero ndikuganiza kuti ndi cinch. Tivomerezane, ndangomaliza kumene miyezi 2 isanakwatirane, sindikudziwa kuti ndi masiku angati. Palibe zolaula, maliseche kapena maliseche komanso munthawi yovuta kwambiri, chifukwa izi sizoyipa kwambiri ndipo zikuwoneka kuti sizikhala ndi zotsatirapo monga momwe ndimachitira masiku onse a 9 kapena 3. Palinso chikhumbo ndi kuthekera, ndikungokhala ndi mphamvu zowongolera zonsezo.
Chokhumudwitsa changa ndimakhalabe ndi malingaliro azolaula omwe amapezeka. Sindikuganiza kuti rewire ndi yathunthu koma ndikudziwanso kuti ndili bwino m'maganizo / mwakuthupi kuposa kale ndipo ndikulondola chilakolako cha moyo wanga ndi chidwi kotero kuti moyo wanga wasintha bwino.
Ndiyambanso kukumana ndi amayi ambiri tsopano ndipo zitha kukhala zofunikira komanso kusintha kwa nyengo. Ndikuwoneka bwino ndikumva bwino ndipo ndikuganiza azimayi amazindikira izi. Ndimasewera ma gig ambiri ndipo izi zimandipangitsa kuzindikira. Ndili ndi masiku opitilira 90 opanda mowa kapena mphika ndipo ndimamva bwino. Zonsezi ndi zabwino, ngakhale nditatopa ndikukhalabe ndi homuweki chifukwa sabata yotsatira ndi theka. Zichitika kenako ndikhoza kupumula.
[Poyankha funso - sabata yotsatira] ED wanga anali wofatsa komanso wolumikizana mwachindunji ndi zolaula.
Sindikumva ED pomwe sindimayang'ana zolaula kapena kuseweretsa maliseche. Ndikhoza kukhala ndi malingaliro ndi malingaliro chabe koma pamene malingaliro anga akuyendayenda kumbali imeneyo ndimasankha kuzipewa kuti ndisadzipangire kufuna kuseweretsa maliseche. Izi sizinena chilichonse chokhudzidwa kwanga ngakhale. Popeza ndidabwera sabata kapena yapitayo ndakhala ndikulota maloto awiri osiyana. Ndikunena kuti izi zimapangitsa kupsinjika komabe.
Ngati ndiwonetsedwa ndikugonana sindikukayika za "magwiridwe antchito" koma sindimaganiza zonga momwe ndingagwiritsire ntchito ndipo ndikufuna kuyang'ana kwambiri pamakhalidwe olumikizana m'malo mothamangira kukagonana. Vuto lomwe ndidzakumana nalo mosavomerezeka, nditakhala nthawi yayitali kuchokera pachibwenzi ndi mkazi ndikutaya msanga msanga, osati ED.
Libido yanga panthawiyi yakhala ikukwera komanso kutsika, ikuwonjezeka panthawi yamavuto. Ndikuganiza kuti malingaliro anga ndi thupi langa zimadziwa kuti ndimva bwino ndikangoseweretsa maliseche koma sindinachite. Nditangonyalanyaza chilakolakocho, chinachoka ndipo sindinathenso kuchita mantha. Ndinali ndi malingaliro omveka bwino kuposa kale.
Chidaliro, mphamvu ndi kulimba mtima, nthawi zina kupsa mtima kumakhalapo m'mipando. Ndidakhala wokonda kugwira ntchito semester iyi ndipo ndidakhala ndi maudindo ambiri m'magawo osiyanasiyana. Kuphatikiza kusewera ndi magulu awiri, kugwira ntchito ziwiri, kukhala wotsutsa komanso nthawi yonseyi akugwira ntchito ndikukhala ndi makalasi anthawi zonse omaliza maphunziro kusukulu. Ndili kumapeto kwa kuthamanga kumeneku ndipo sindikuvomereza. Ndinafunika kusunga nthawi kuti ndidyetse moyo wanga. Kwa ine yomwe ndi misonkhano yambiri ya AA ndipo ndimayang'ana kusinkhasinkha ndi yoga pa semester / chilimwe chotsatira.
Sindikuganiza kuti ndidakumana ndi mawonekedwe apadera chifukwa chopewa. M'malo mwake mikhalidwe yanga yapaderadera yomwe idalipo nthawi yonseyi inali ndi mwayi wokulirapo mwanjira zachilengedwe. Pomwe ndimapitiliza kugwira ntchito zolimbitsa thupi ndidaona kuti kusintha kwa thupi langa kukukulirakulira ndipo izi zidakulitsa chidaliro changa ndikundipatsa chidwi chochuluka kuchokera kwa azimayi. Kupita patsogolo kwakukulu kumachitika pamenepo ndimaganizo anga ndi malingaliro anga pa akazi.
Kutalika kwa miyezi kunalibe kanthu. Ndinali ndi chokumana nacho chofanana miyezi itatu miyezi isanu ndi umodzi momwe libido yanga inali chinthu chomwe chimakhalapo nthawi zonse koma chinali kumbuyo kwenikweni, ngati kuti zinali zosavuta kuti musazindikire. Ndimayang'anabe ndipo ndimakopeka ndi azimayi koma sindinakhale ndi nkhawa zomwe zinali pafupi nawo zomwe ndimakonda ndimafuna kulankhula nawo ndipo sindinatero, zinali ngati zabwino, tsopano zomwe zili pamndandanda wanga tsopano.
Ndabwereranso panjira yomwe ndiyenera kunena kuti ndiyosavuta tsopano kuposa kale pomwe ndimachita maliseche kangapo pamlungu, nthawi zina kangapo patsiku… kwa moyo wanga wonse.
June
Patha zaka ziwiri kuchokera pomwe ndinapeza tsamba losadziwika la webusayiti kumene kuli bwino kulankhula za zolaula komanso komwe kuli njira ina yothetsera vutoli. Nditaipeza, zimawoneka ngati zosatheka kwa ine kuti ndikadakhala komwe ndili koma zimamvekanso ngati sizinali kalekale kuti ndimakhala pano pafupifupi tsiku lililonse ndikulemba mwatsatanetsatane za kubwereranso kwanga, kuyesa kuchita zibwenzi, miyambo yakuseweretsa maliseche kapena maloto onyowa. Zinthu zomwe ndizopeka kuti anthu azikambirana pagulu kwenikweni.
Ndine wokondwa kuti tsamba lino lili pano ndipo likuchita bwino momwe liliri. Malowa adandipatsa chiyembekezo pomwe ndimaganiza kuti zinthu zilibe chiyembekezo. Zinandipatsa boma losavuta kutsatira lomwe lingapangitse njira yothetsera kuda nkhawa / kuganiza zakugonana kapena kugonana ndi munthu wina. Ngakhale sizachilendo kukhala ndi malingaliro azakugonana, chifukwa chogwiritsa ntchito zolaula, sindinakhale ndi malingaliro "abwinobwino" ogonana. Ndinali wotengeka!
Ubongo wanga wonse udachita zolaula mpaka pomwe pano malingaliro anga azakugonana sanasinthe kwambiri. Sakusokoneza kwenikweni pano komabe ndikutha kuyambiranso pazinthu zina zofunika. Nthawi zina, ndimaganiza za zinthu zazing'ono monga kupsompsona kwa nthawi yayitali kapena kupsompsona kapena kulingalira momwe zimakhalira ndikamamva kugonana ndi Karezza. Ndisanabwere patsamba lino ndinali ndisanamvepo zoyambiranso ndipo sindinaganizepo zosiya kuseweretsa maliseche kapena njira zothetsera zolaula. Simungandiuze nthawi imeneyo kuti ndimatha miyezi 9 popanda PMO ndikuchita maliseche kawiri m'miyezi ya 10.
Sindikuganiza kuti maliseche anga aposachedwa abwereranso chifukwa ndinalibe chikhumbo ndipo ndilibe chidwi chowonera zolaula. Nthawi zonsezi zinali pakati pausiku ndipo ndinali nditagwetsa alonda anga. Gawo la izi ndilokhudzana ndi mlangizi yemwe ndikumuwona yemwe anandiuza kuti mwina ndibwino kuseweretsa maliseche. Sindikutsimikiza izi chifukwa ndimakonda malingaliro anga komanso kuthekera kosunga zomwe sizinali zachiwerewere. Zimandipatsa kunyada ndikudzidalira kuti ndimatha kuchita izi.
Ndasankha kuti kuseweretsa maliseche ndichikhalidwe chonyansa chomwe chimasokoneza ubale weniweni ndi mkazi. Sindikufuna kuchita maliseche nthawi zonse chifukwa ndikufuna kukhala ndi mphamvu zogwirira ntchito zanga koma koposa zonse ndikufuna kugawana nawo mphamvu. Sindikudandaula kwambiri pakukakamiza msonkhano ndi munthu woyenera. Ndimakhudzidwa ndikukhala moyo womwe ndikufuna kukhala mogwirizana ndi zikhulupiriro zanga ndikutsegulira mpata kuti munthu ameneyo adzakhale moyo wanga chifukwa cha zochitika zanga zambiri.
Sabata ino ndidakhala ndi phunziro langa loyamba ndi mphunzitsi wanga ndipo ndine wokondwa kugwira naye ntchito chifukwa amadziwa zomwe akuchita. Ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito mosalekeza kwa miyezi 10 ndipo ichi ndi choyamba kwa ine. Ndachepetsa thupi, ndimalira kulira ndipo ndikupeza mphamvu ndi chidaliro chomwe sindimadziwa kuti ndingathe. Ndimakhalabe wamantha pakati pa akazi omwe ndimawakonda ndipo posachedwapa ndakumana ndi munthu wina kuti ndiwathamangitse poyesetsa kuchita zambiri pachiyambi, osalola kuti zinthu ziziyenda mwachilengedwe, koma ndikutsatira izi posankha kwanga kuti ndisakhale pachibwenzi kwakanthawi komwe kwatsala ine dzimbiri pang'ono. Sindingadzachitenso cholakwacho ndipo kupatula kuti anali wamng'ono kwambiri.
Tsopano ndili ndi miyezi yopitilira 4 osasuta poto kapena kumwa komanso moona mtima zomwe zakhala zosangalatsa kwa ine. Malingaliro anga ndiwomveka bwino komanso olunjika kwambiri pokwaniritsa kuthekera kwanga m'moyo. Sindikusowa ndodo ngati momwe ndimafunira PMO. Ndikutsatira zomwe ndikufuna ndipo sindisokonezedwa ndi zinthu monga matsire ndi masiku "kudzuka ndi kuphika" omwe amawononga nthawi ndikuchepetsa moyo wanga. Chifukwa chosiya ndidayenera kuphunzira njira zatsopano zochitira zinthu, kukumana ndi anthu atsopano omwe samamwa kapena kusuta komanso kuyeretsa m'nyumba komwe kuli gawo la pulogalamu ya 12 yomwe ndili.
Ndinkadana ndi masitepe ndi zinthu zonse za mulungu ndipo sindikhulupirira Mulungu, komabe mfundo ndiyakuti ndisinthe, ndizigwira ntchito ndekha, kuyesera kuchita bwino ndi anthu ndikuyang'ana mbali zija za umunthu wanga kapena khalidwe langa zomwe zingatenge nthawi kuti musinthe kukhala abwinoko. Ndili ndi mikhalidwe yambiri yabwino yomwe sindinazizindikire mwa ine ndekha ndikuganiza mowa, mphika ndi PMO anali gawo la kusazindikira zinthu zabwinozo ndikuyang'ana kwambiri pazinthu zomwe ndalakwitsa. Ndine wokondwa kuti nditha kuvomereza magawo anga omwe siangwiro ndipo ndimayesetsabe kuzigwiritsa ntchito zikafalikira, kaya ndi mantha opunduka azimayi okongola omwe ndikufuna kuyankhula nawo (omwe angafune kuyankhula kwa ine!) kapena nthawi zosiyanasiyana patsiku ndimakwiya ndipo ndikufuna kuti zondipweteketsa ine kapena munthu wina.
Mosakayikira izi zimafunikira kuchita zambiri, monga kuyambiranso. Ndizabwino kwambiri Ndiloleni ndikuthokozaninso kuti muyanjanenso komanso kwa Gary ndi Marnia ndi aliyense amene adandipatsa mawu anzeru. Ndiyesetsa kuti ndibwezere momwe ndingathere. Ndakumanapo ndi mnyamata m'moyo weniweni yemwe akuti amalimbana ndi chizolowezi chogonana (ndikupita ku AA ndipo amapita ku AA ndi SAA.) Tidzawona ngati ndingathe kumuthandiza pomuuza nkhani yanga ndikumulola Dziwani za tsambali komanso momwe zilili zosaweruza komanso zosagwirizana ndi sayansi.
Kwa onse omwe akuvutika ndikubwerera m'mbuyo komanso omwe angoyamba kumene kuyambiranso ndikukhala ndi zovuta: Osadandaula kwambiri koma MUYESETSE kuyesetsa kwanu kuti mupewe kuyambiranso isanayambike. Ndi inu nokha amene mungadziimbe mlandu. Chitani chilichonse chomwe chingafunike! Muli ndi mphamvu mkati mwanu yomwe ikuyembekezera kutulutsidwa ndipo izi zichitika munthawi ngati mutha kuyika nthawi palimodzi ndikuchira, chifukwa chake musayerekeze wabodza mkati kukuuzani kuti kubwerera kamodzi sikungakupwetekeni. Mukabwereranso, musadzimenyetse koma muzigwiritse ntchito ngati kudzichepetsa ndikuzigwiritsa ntchito ngati kudzuka kuti muchite china china nthawi ina kuti muteteze. Imani panjira zake ndikukana kupereka PMO ndipo pamapeto pake simudzavutikanso ndi malingaliro amenewo, osatinso zolaula. Amangofooka mpaka kufooka mpaka kukhala tinthu tating'onoting'ono komanso tosaoneka bwino kumbuyo kwa malingaliro omwe * amatumizidwa mosavuta ndikuyika m'malo mwake, ngati zingachitike kuti mufike poganiza mozama. Sizimandichitira masiku ano.
Ndimakondabe zolaula. Ndizolakwika kwambiri ndipo ndi gawo limodzi mwazomwe capitalism yamasiku ano yapangitsa akapolo kukhala akapolo. Izi zati, sindikuwona kuti ndiyenera kuyang'ana pazinthu zomwe sindingathe kuzisintha nthawi yomweyo koma ndimangoyang'ana pazomwe ndingazichitire ndekha zomwe zingatheke komanso zenizeni. Izi zikuphatikizanso kukhala mbali ya gulu logwirizana lakusintha lomwe lithandizira kuwononga mikhalidwe yowola iyi ndikuthandizira kubweretsa dziko labwino.
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