Choyamba ndinena kuti nthawi zonse ndimakonda zolaula za "amateur" kuposa chilichonse. Sindinayambe ndawonapo zolaula "zodziwika bwino" ndi zolaula zodziwika bwino kapena akatswiri opanga. Nthawi zonse kunyumba kumakhala ndi akazi abwinobwino / owoneka mwachilengedwe. Kotero mwanjira ina, kupatulapo kuti zinali zolaula, nthawi zonse zinali "zowona" kuposa zinthu za "wamba".
Ngakhale zinali choncho, mphamvu zanga zonse zogonana zinkaloza mkati. Muyenera kudzifunsa nokha zomwe zikuchitika ngati simukusowa wina aliyense. Moyo wanu wachikhalidwe ndiwachinyengo komanso wapaintaneti, pamenepo pakadina batani ndikupita mukadwala. Kugonana, ngakhale, ndikodzikonda. Mukafuna kutsika, mumatsika. Dinani Dinani Dinani, mwachita. Chifukwa, pankhaniyi, mungayesetse kuchita zachitukuko kapena kuphunzira momwe mungachitire khalani okongola mwanjira iliyonse, ngati simufunikiradi mkazi?
Iyi inali nkhani ya banja langa. Mkazi wanga adandikalipira chifukwa chazoyenera. Sindinadziyeretse ndekha. Nthawi zambiri ndinkadandaula akamandipempha kuti ndichite nawo zinthu zosavuta. Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala wotsutsana ndi anthu komanso ochita zachiwerewere.
Ukwati udatha bwino. Ndinakakamizidwa kuyang'ana pa moyo wanga ndikuzindikira kuti ndinali, wongodzikonda, pafupifupi chilichonse m'moyo wanga. Ndipo ndidawona zolaula pafupi ndi izi: chimodzi mwazofunikira zanga zaumunthu - chosowa chomwe chidayenera kundibweretsa pafupi ndi mkazi wanga, motero kukhala wachifundo, wachikondi, komanso wosadzikonda - ndidakhutitsidwa ndi ine ndekha.
Chifukwa chake ndichinthu chachikulu kwa ine tsopano, ndipo chitha kukhala chamalingaliro kuposa thupi. Kugonana tsopano kumandibweretsa pafupi ndi munthu weniweni. Zotsatira za izi ndizolumikizana kwambiri, zomwe zimandipangitsa Nthawi zambiri zimakhala zabwino kwa munthu ameneyo. Sindingathe kudzisangalatsa ndekha, ndikusangalatsanso wina. Ndizogwirizana. Kugonana tsopano kumandipangitsa kukhala wosadzikonda kuposa kudzikonda.
Ndiye pali zinthu zina zomwe mwina ndizothupi / zamankhwala kuposa zamaganizidwe. Ndimakopeka kwambiri ndi mnzanga ndikasiya zolaula, mwina chifukwa choti sindimadzaza mutu wanga ndi azimayi ena amaliseche tsiku lonse. Ngati ndadzichotsa ndekha zithunzi zamaliseche ndikudzilimbitsa, kuwona kwa mnzanga ndikafika kunyumba kumapeto kwa tsiku, kumanditembenukiradi… zikadatheka bwanji?
Komanso, ndikadzipha ndikudula chiwalo changa kwakanthawi, ndimawona kuti ndimayankha kwambiri pazomwe mnzanga amandipatsa. Ndikakhala pa zolaula, zimakhala zovuta kugonana kuti ndipite, kunditembenuza, chifukwa ndimakonda kuchita zomwe ndimadziwa kuti ndimakonda, pomwe ndimakonda. Koma ndikasiya zonsezi, ndikudalira wokondedwa wanga, zomwe amachita, zimagwira ntchito.
Ndiye pali theka lake, mwamaganizidwe. Samatsutsa zolaula konse ndipo mwina angakhale bwino ndi ine kuyang'ana zolaula nthawi zina. Amamvetsetsa kuti anyamata nthawi zambiri amakhala ndi zoyendetsa zogonana ndipo amafunika kutsika kuposa akazi. Hell, adati amagwiritsanso ntchito zolaula nthawi zina.
Koma akuwona kusiyana, momwe ndimagwirira ntchito komanso magwiridwe anga, ndikakhala zolaula. Amawona zotsatira za zinthu zomwe ndangotchulazi ndipo amazikonda. Kuphatikiza apo, chifukwa chazovuta zanga zolimbana ndi zolaula komanso zolaula, wayamba kundiona ngati "mwamuna weniweni" mkatikati mwa nyanja yamanyazi omwe amapanga amuna onse akumadzulo. Amandilemekeza kwambiri, amandipeza "wotentha" tsopano ndikamachita izi.
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