Ndapanga, inunso mutha kutero! Nayi nkhani yanga. Ndinali nditalumikizidwa ndi P kwazaka zopitilira 20, ndipo moyo wanga wogonana udasokonekera. Ndinali ndi PIED ndikuvutika ndi HOCD ya amuna okhaokha, ndinachitapo kanthu, ndipo ndinali wosokonezeka. Sindinayese chibwenzi ndi mtsikana kwa zaka zambiri. Ndimamva zakale (Ndine 37), ndikuti zinali mochedwa kuti ndisinthe.
Pakadali pano, ndikukutsimikizirani kuti mavutowa atha. Ndikulimbikitsidwabe (koma ofooka kwambiri, ndipo nthawi ndi nthawi, ndipo ndimatha kuwalamulira popanda mavuto; akucheperachepera, ndikulingalira kuti adzafota posachedwa), zomwe ndimasankha ndizabwino kwambiri m'moyo wanga , ndipo ndagonjetsa gay HOCD (sindili wolunjika).
Sabata ino ndikumana ndi msungwana wongofuna kumwa khofi. Tiyeni tiwone ngati zikugwira ntchito. Chofunikira ndikubwerera mumasewera, ndikumva kukhala wamphamvu kuposa kale. Ndinayambanso kulamulira moyo wanga.
Sindinadziwe kuti Porn zitha kukhala zowopsa. Chaka chapitacho ndinazindikira kuti ndinali ndi vuto nalo. Zinandilamulira, makamaka kukambirana zogonana. Ndinayesa kusiya ndekha, ndikuyesetsa mwamphamvu. Ndinawona zochotsedwazo, ndipo ndinadziwa kuti vuto langa linali lalikulu. Ndinali ngati chidakwa.
Ndidawerenga mabuku atatu omwe adathandiza kwambiri: "Breaking the Cycle", lolembedwa ndi George N. Collins, "The Trap Trap", lolembedwa ndi Wendy Maltz ndi Larry Maltz, ndi "Your Brain on Porn", lolembedwa ndi Gary Wilson. Ndikupangira zonsezi. Palibe zochulukira, ndipo muphunzira zambiri. Mukudwala, tsopano mukuyenera kuchiritsidwa.
Nkhaniyi yathandiza kwambiri: http://healthysex.com/self-help-articles/the-maltz-hierarchy-of-sexual-interaction/. Ndi Wendi Maltz, ndipo imakuwuzani zomwe muyenera kuyang'ana mukamagonana. Kugonana kuyenera kukhala chinthu chauzimu, chomwe chimakupangitsani inu kukhala bwino, osati mokakamizidwa.
Seputembala watha ndidalowa kuno. Sindingathe kuzichita ndekha, koma ndimaganiza kuti kutumiza pano kungandipangitse kuthana ndi vutoli mozama. Ndinapitilizabe kuyesa zinthu, mpaka nditapeza zomwe zidandigwirira ntchito. Koma chofunikira kwambiri ndikadatsimikiza mtima kuti ndimenyetse izi, zivute zitani.
Ndili ndi P-blocker (Qustodio), Ndili ndi AP, ndinalipira ndalama mwezi uliwonse kuti ndikhale kuno (zinandikakamiza kuti ndizimvetsetse kwambiri, chifukwa nditakhala nthawi yayitali, ndizolipira zambiri). Zinthuzi zikakanika, ndiyesa NoFap Academy (https://www.nofapacademy.com/), kenako, Compulsion Solutions (http://compulsionsolutions.com/sex-and-porn-addicts/). Koma sindinkafunika awiriwa.
Ndidazindikira kuti sindingathe kuthana ndi zovuta zonsezi, choncho ndidawagawa ndikuthana nawo imodzi. Ndinkafunika kufika tsiku la 90 la P, ndipo ngati ndibwereranso ndi kugonana, zinalibe kanthu. Ndinafika tsiku lomwelo, ndipo ndinayankhula zogonana. Limenelo linali vuto langa lenileni. Sindinayang'ane P iliyonse yoposa mwezi wa 5, ndipo sindiphonya. Tsiku 90 ndi lokambirana zachiwerewere (zogwiritsidwa ntchito pafupifupi zaka 15).
Sindinathe kuthana ndi zofuna zawo, motero ndimagwiritsa ntchito hypnosis. Ndine wokonda kwambiri kutsirikidwa. Ndinkakonda https://hypnosis.wendi.com/collecti…-porn-addiction-hypnosis-mp3-by-wendi-friesen ndi http://www.hypnosisdownloads.com/hypnosis-packs/sex-obsession. Amathandizanso kuti zomwe akukakamizazi zitheke.
Ndidapeza maphunziro othandiza pa Spotify: The Mindful Habit System.
Kuti ndimenye malingaliro olakwika, ndikachita maliseche (kamodzi pa sabata kapena apo), ndikugona pabedi, ndimaganiza za mtsikana yemwe ndimakumana naye sabata ino, ndikumukonda. Ngati china chilichonse chofanana ndi P chimawoneka m'malingaliro mwanga, ndimalola lingaliro lija, ndikuyambiranso.
Vutoli ndi lovuta kwambiri. Pachiyambi kunali HELO. Zomwe ndimakonda NoFap, osazitenga ngati malo ochezera, koma malo omwe amakukakamizani kuti mupange.
Kuti muchite bwino, anyamata! Pitilizani kuyesayesa, osataya mtima, ndipo mudzakhala mukuwauza mbiri yanu yabwino posachedwa.
LINK - Ndidakwanitsa! Tsiku 90 lafika!
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