Ndili wokonzeka kunena kuti ndafika mgawo la masiku 90 kuti ndimalize ulendo wanga wodziletsa zolaula zomwe zidatha zaka 25 + m'moyo wanga.
Zolaula ndikujambulidwa zimayenderana ndi ine. Palibe popanda wina. Im 39 wazaka, wokwatiwa zaka 12 mawa, ana a 3, osatinso ED! Kodi mwalandira gawo limenelo?
Ndayitanitsa kuyesedwa kwanga kwamasiku 90 chifukwa ngati ndingathe kukhala wopanda zolaula / wopanda pake masiku 90, ndimatha kuchita masiku anga onsewa ... Bola ndi zolaula… nthawi zina fap… mwina… mulimonse. Izi zimandibweretsa ku gawo lamasulidwe anga. Zolaula sizoyipa kwa ena ndipo zili bwino ndi ine. Nditazindikira kuti zolaula zamtundu uliwonse zinali zoyipa kwambiri kwa ine, ndidasiya. Ndinali ndi zoyesayesa zanga zoyambiranso kulephera m'mbuyomu momwe sindinali membala wa nofap kotero ndidabwera kuno. Chitha kukhala chida chofunikira kwambiri pakukonzanso kwa ine. Muyenera kukhala ndi chidwi chosiya zolaula kapena izi sizigwira ntchito bwino.
Tonse ndife osiyana, koma ngati muli pano mukudziwa kale kuti muli ndi vuto. Ndi zolaula… palibe bodza ... kuseweretsa maliseche sikowopsa, koma zolaula ndiz. Yang'anani kumbali yakuda yamakampani. Nthawi zonse pamakhala malipoti osintha amomwe mdima ulili pazinthu zomwe ndimapembedza kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 14. Woyera moly. Palibe kukongola, manyazi ochuluka ngakhale. Osati okondeka, osati achigololo,… osangalatsa.
Mukudziwa zomwe zili zosangalatsa? Wamng'ono wa msana wa mkazi. Kukoma kwa khosi lake. Kusangalala kwake kwenikweni chifukwa cha chisangalalo chifukwa cha…. Kumakumenyani ngati matalala. Kwa inu achichepere omwe simunakhudzepo mayi musanachite zolaula… ngati mukuwerenga izi, ndikufuna kuti mudziwe kuti mudzatero.
Vutoli lisakhale la chilichonse chokhudzana ndi kugonana. Izi ndiye lingaliro, koma ndikukhulupirira kuti izi zikuyenera kusintha nokha ndi cholinga chanu. Ena aife tili ndi CHOONSE ndipo ena alibe, chifukwa chake zolimbikitsa ndi zolinga zimasiyanasiyana. Muzu wamavuto amembala ambiri ndi zolaula. Kuthana ndi vuto la muzu kumatsegula zitseko zodzipangira tokha.
Kuda nkhawa, kukhumudwa, kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo, uchidakwa, ndi zina zotero. Nthawi yonseyi ndimakhala ndi zolaula pambali panga. Ngati zikuwoneka kwanthawizonse, zitha kukhala choncho. Epiphanies akhoza kukhala odabwitsa. Chinsinsi chimodzi cha kuchita bwino ndikutha kudula ubale wanu ndi zolaula. Kuti muzitha kuganiza "musiye kukonda zolaula". Ndinachita izi nditatha masiku 90 apitawa ku zolaula. Wotchuka zolaula nyenyezi. Achikulire… Kay Parker .. Zilibe kanthu zomwe ndimayang'ana, ndidamaliza ndikumaliza nazo .. ..kosatha.
Pali zoyipa zambiri zoti muchite pamoyo kuti muwononge chilichonse. Achinyamata achichepere… chonde lembani mawu awa kuchokera kwa munthu wokonda zolaula pafupifupi zaka ziwiri msinkhu wanu .... Musakhale mnyamata yemwe ali ndi mkazi wokongola yemwe ali wokonzeka kugona nanu ndipo dick wanu ndi biscuit yopanda pake. Zinandichitikira nthawi zambiri zomwe… .zikuthandizani kuti mudzipezere mankhwala ena kuti muthane ndi kulephera kwanu KUKHALA mayi weniweni. Simungamvetse chifukwa chake.
Nkhani yabwino ndiyakuti kumasula chibwenzi chanu ndi zolaula kumasula zitseko zakutali ndikulephera kuchipinda chogona. Pepani miseche, koma lero ndikofunika kwa ine. Ndikufuna kuthandiza mamembala aliwonse omwe akufunika thandizo. Achichepere ndi achikulire. Malo ano ndi chipulumutso changa cha mtundu wina. Zinandithandizadi kusintha moyo wanga kuti ukhale wabwino. Ndimangokhalira kumangokhalira kuonera zolaula ndipo anyamata omwe ali ndi ine amadzinamiza ngati wd saganiza zosiyana. Izi zokha ndiye chifukwa chake sindimayambiranso zolaula. KUMASULIRA.
Kwa okalamba ena okwatirana, osudzulidwa, muubwenzi ogonana nawo…. Zoyera zoyipa izi zimachita zodabwitsa. Ndikungofuna kunena kwa mbadwo wanga omwe amachitira nkhanza zolaula kuti ndi moyo watsopano. Banja langa likuyenda bwino chifukwa chokhala otanganidwa kwambiri ndi mkazi wanga koyamba mzaka 12. Zodabwitsa. Ndikumukondanso. Ndidamupweteka kwambiri sindimayenera kupatsidwa mwayi wachiwiri. Ndidasiya zolaula ndipo ... .. Dick wanga amakhala wolimba ngati thanthwe akandigwira ... ndili ndi zaka 40 ndipo ndimamva zaka 20. Palibenso ED !! .
Ndataya mapaundi a 25 ndikumva goooood weniweni. Zikomo chifukwa cha kuthamanga. Kuleka zolaula ndikukula nthawi zonse ndichimodzi mwazinthu zabwino kwambiri zomwe ndakwaniritsa. Anali ma fallas oyipa ndipo ndimayikankha .. Chonde ma brothas anga onse achichepere pano ... zolaula zothamanga kwambiri ndi crack cocaine ndi heroin ku ma ballsac anu ... .ndipo ubongo wanu… .imitsani zochitikazo ndikuyembekeza kukhala olimba mtima, amuna ogwira ntchito mokwanira. Ngati ndinu okalamba ndipo mukuvutika… .izi zimagwira anzanga. Ndinachita izi ndipo moyo wopanda zolaula wayamba mwalamulo. Tili ndi ngongole kwa ife eni komanso kwa aliyense amene tili naye kapena amene tingakhudze. Zikomo nonse!
KULUMIKIZANA - 90 nthawi yayesedwa yatha. Njira zatsopano zolaula zolaula zimayamba. Uthenga kwa akulu okalamba ndi upangiri wabwino kwa achinyamata.
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