Ndiyamba ndi mbiri yakale yachizolowezi changa. Izi zitha kuwoneka ngati zazitali, koma ndikhulupirireni, uwu ndiye mtundu wamalemba. Zaka 34 ndipo ndimatha kulemba buku la freakin '. Apa pali: Ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi zisanu ndi zitatu pamene ndidadziwitsidwa kwa akazi amaliseche komanso zolaula m'magazini. Zinthu zofewa, mumadziwa zovuta "pafupifupi". Ndinalumikizidwa. Amakonda kuwononga stash ya abambo anga.
Kenako stash ya abambo anzanga. Wagwidwa. Sanandiyimitse. Ndinali ndi zaka khumi ndi zisanu ndi chimodzi nditawona kanema yanga yoyamba zolaula. Apanso, stash ya abambo. Ngakhale sindinapeze kwenikweni zomwe zinali kuchitika, ndinali wokondweretsedwa komanso wolumikizidwa. Zithunzi ndi makanema amapitilira, mwina kangapo sabata.
Kenako utatha, maliseche adapezeka ndipo kusuta kwayamba. Mwinanso ndikugonana 1-3 tsiku kwa nthawi yayitali, zolaula kapena ayi. Kugonana pomwe ndinali 15, koma zinali zokumana nazo komanso zamavuto. Pambuyo pa ubale wachidule, ndinakhala kutali ndi akazi komanso kugonana mpaka nditakhala 21. Nthawi yonseyi PMO idakhala chidwi.
Kubwerera kudziko lenileni, nkhawa zanga pagulu komanso zovuta zinali zazikulu. PMO idapitilira zaka makumi awiri ndi zibwenzi zingapo. Zithunzi zolaula zinali "ubale" wanga waukulu - ndimakonda kukhala ndi munthu wina, ndikuyembekezera nthawi yomwe ndikafika kunyumba, kusuta mphika, kuwotcha VCR (kale timer, eh?) Ndikukhala ndi nthawi "yabwino". Ndinali kubisalira aliyense. Sindinkafuna kuti ndizichita chilungamo pandekha. Zinali bwino kudziwononga.
Ndili ndi zaka makumi awiri (1990) ma intaneti anali gwero lalikulu la zolaula. Anali malo ogulitsira m'sitolo yogulitsa maswiti kuti atenge shuga, wotseguka 24-7. Ubale wanga unasokonekera. Ndinali ndekha. Anzathu ochepa okha ndi ena mwa abale anga anali komweko ndi ine. Maganizo anga pantchito komanso pantchito anali osakhazikika. Thanzi langa silinali bwino. Ndipo zinapitirira. Ndinayamba kukhala ndi chizolowezi "chogwira ntchito" - ndimatha masiku angapo kapena sabata popanda PMO. Ndiye perekani. Ndikatsitsimulidwa, ndimayambiranso. Nthawi zina ndimayesetsa kusiya, ndikunena kuti "Ino ndi nthawi yotsiriza" ndikufufuta mafayilo anga onse. Ndiye zipsinjo zimakula ndikubwerera.
Ndili ndi zaka makumi atatu ndinali pachibwenzi ndipo ndidachita chibwenzi. Adazindikira zakugonana kwanga ndipo chibwenzicho chidayamba kutha. Pambuyo pake adandisiya. Pambuyo paubwenzi womalizawu, mwina ndinali wofunitsitsa kuyesa kudzitukula ndikukula mwauzimu. Komabe, nthawi yonseyi ndimasungabe chizolowezi changa "chogwira ntchito": chifukwa ndimatha kudzitsimikizira kuti silinali vuto - ndimatha sabata limodzi kapena mwezi umodzi wopanda PMO, ndikupereka kwa bender (maola 5-10 molunjika ), ndimadzimva kuti ndine wolakwa komanso "kusiya", ndikubwereza sabata limodzi mpaka mwezi umodzi pambuyo pake. Ndikulungamitsa njirayi podziuza ndekha kuti "sindimachita kawirikawiri".
Koma pansi pake, gawo lina la ine lidadziwa kuti mavuto omwe ndidali nawo ndi azimayi, kulephera kwanga pachibwenzi, zomwe zidachitika chifukwa chochita nawo zongoyerekeza osati zenizeni. Heck, ndinali wazaka zanga 30 ndipo ndinali ndisanakwatirane. Nditatsala pang'ono kukwanitsa zaka 30, ndinayesa zolimba kuti ndisiye.
Chida chimodzi chomwe chinathandiza chinali kuyamba kulekanitsa zolaula ndi maliseche. Ndimayang'ana zolaula, koma osachita maliseche mpaka nditatha kuonera. Izi zitha kumveka zachilendo, koma zomwe ndinganene ndi kuti zingwe zolowerera muubongo wanga zinali zamphamvu kwambiri kotero kuti ndiyenera kupanga masinthidwe obisika kuti ndithe kuthana ndi zochitika ziwirizi. Sindikulimbikitsa izi kwa aliyense, koma kwa ine chinali chofunikira kwambiri - kukulitsa chifuniro changa mozungulira chizolowezi changa, pomwe sindimadziletsa. Izi zidapangitsa kuti asiye kuonera zolaula kwa chaka chimodzi ndi theka. Ndikadali ndi maliseche. Panthawi yovuta kugwa komaliza, ndinayambiranso zolaula. Ndinasiya kachiwiri ndipo tsopano miyezi itatu ndikuyesera komaliza, ndinapeza gulu la ybop ndi gulu la nofap. Tsopano ndili ndi miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yopanda zolaula ndipo miyezi itatu palibe PMO.
Izi zikuwoneka ngati positi yayitali, koma ndikhulupirireni kuti ndasiya zoyipa zambiri. Zaka makumi atatu ndi zinayi. Sindingathe kukulunga mutu wanga mozungulira. Ndine makumi anayi. Ndiwo moyo wanga wonse. Ndimachita chifundo komanso kukhululuka, koma ndizovuta kuganizira zomwe ndasiya PMO. Ndili ndi chisoni mkati mwanga. Ndimasweka ndikuganiza za kupsinjika ndi mikangano yomwe ndidapangira iwo omwe amandisamalira / kundisamala. Ndikufuna koposa chilichonse kukhala ndi banja langa. Ndikumva kukhala ndi chiyembekezo tsopano, komanso chisoni ichi ndikudzikana ndekha banja.
Chimodzi mwazinthu zomwe ndimakonda za gulu la nofap ndi malo omwe amuna amalankhula zachikondi ndi mgwirizano ndi anthu omwe akukumana nawo. Iwe, zolemba izi ndizabwino. Ndikuyenera kunena, ndimayamika (ndikudabwitsidwa) chifukwa cha kulimba mtima ndi mphamvu zomwe ndapeza pakugawana nonse.
Kotero masiku 90. Ndikulakalaka ndikadakhala ndi lipoti lowala, lothamanga. Inde, ndapeza zabwino zonse, zopambana. Koma amaphuka ndikuchepera. Ndizosangalatsa kukhala ndi mphamvu, chilakolako, utsogoleri, kukongola, ndi zina zotero… Kuphatikiza pa izi, ndimavutika kugona, kusamalira malingaliro azakugonana komanso mphamvu, komanso kupsinjika komwe kusintha kumabweretsa. Pokhala ndi mphamvu zachimuna ndimaonanso kuti nthawi zina ndimadzikuza.
Ndipo ndili ndi chiyembekezo. Ndimagwirizana ndi anthu kwambiri. Kutenga nawo mbali m'moyo. Chikondi ndi kulumikizana chinthu. Ntchito yanga ikupita patsogolo - kukhala ntchito yomwe ndimasangalala nayo ndi anzanga ogwira nawo ntchito.
Pakhala masiku ambiri pomwe ndimayenera kukumbukira chifukwa chomwe ndikuchitira izi. Mayankho abwera powerenga zolemba zanu. Zikomo nonse chifukwa chogawana nawo kuwona mtima. Kuyambira pomwe ndinabwereranso mpaka kupambana, ndimatha kufotokoza zambiri. Kenako sindimva kuti ndili ndekha ndipo ndipitirizabe. Kudzipereka kwanga sikungakhalenso zolaula komanso miyezi 6 popanda PMO ndikuyambiranso ndikamaliza.
Mtendere ndi madalitso. Ngati muli ndi mafunso, ponyani…
LINK- Lipoti la tsiku la 90 pazovuta za 34 za chaka
by rivermystic1
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LINK - Chaka chimodzi zolaula
Ndachita zovuta za nofap chaka chatha, koma zolaula zidayamba pa Ogasiti 25th ya 2013. Patatha zaka makumi atatu ndikuonera zolaula, ndikusiya kangapo, ndikubwereranso kangapo, tsopano ndikukondwerera chaka chimodzi chosowa zolaula.
Whew. Ndizopambana. Ndizovuta. Kusintha kwathunthu pamoyo. Monga ndidanenera, ndakhala ndikuseweretsa zolaula kwazaka zopitilira makumi atatu. Pamaso pa intaneti. Intaneti ikatuluka inali ngati malo ogulitsira zinthu. Maulumikizidwe othamanga atatuluka zinali ngati malo ogulitsira osweka. Ndataya moyo wambiri ndikudzipatula ndikukhala mdziko langa lamalingaliro lotengeka.
Ndiyenera kunena kuti nofap idasinthiratu kusiyana ndi kudzipatula ndikukhala nawo pamoyo. Kupewa zolaula ndikwabwino, koma china chake chokhudza nofap chayamba kundiyendetsa kuti ndikhale ndi moyo. Ndimakhala pachibwenzi pafupipafupi. Khalani ndi okwatirana. Gulu lamatchalitchi. Ogwira nawo ntchito, abwenzi, ndi abale. Ubale wabanja wakhala wovuta. Ndikasintha ndimapanga mafunde komanso mikangano. Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi zikhala bwino kwakanthawi.
Izo siziri zangwiro. Ndipo ndiye golidi wodabwitsa. Kukhala m'mutu mwanga kunapanga dziko lapansi pomwe ndimayerekezera zongoganizira za omwe ena ayenera kukhala padziko lapansi. Ambuye akudziwa kuti izi zidachokera pachikhulupiriro cholimba kuti sindinali bwino - NDIDZAKHALA wosiyana, osati wopotoza wina, wotayika wosungulumwa, osati wina amene adawononga moyo wake ndikuzikweza ndi mapikiselo.
Popanda chiweruzo, ndimayamba kudziwona kuti ndine ndani. Ndiyenera kuwona omwe akazi ali. Zowonadi zilipo. Kukweza chophimba, chophimba cha mantha - kuwona chikondi chawo, kukongola, mphamvu. Ndipo yambani kuchitira umboni kulimba mtima kwanga, mphamvu, ndi chikondi. Ndimazindikira kuti kukhala pachibwenzi ndizomwe ndimafuna ndipo zimapangitsa moyo kukhala wabwino kwambiri.
Ndili pa masiku 135 a nofap ndipo ndikulengeza kuti ndipita chaka chimodzi, masiku 365 a nofap. Ndikukwera sitimayi kumapeto kwa njanji ndipo ndikatsika ndilunjika kuphiri lobiriwira, lokhala ndi banja langa.
by rivermystic1
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Miyezi ya 7 ndikusankha kutha NoFap pano
Oo. Kukwera kotani. Zambiri zopindulitsa ine, kulimba mtima, maubwenzi. Zoyenera kuchita pakulamulira.
Ndipitiliza nazo zolaula. Ndidayamba NoFap bwino nditasankha kale kuthetsa chibwenzi changa. Tsopano ndili miyezi ya 14 mu moyo wanga wa zolaula.
Ndikuganiza zodziseweretsa maliseche chifukwa ndikuganiza kuti pakhoza kukhala kudziwongolera kambiri komwe kukuchitika m'moyo pompano. Kuchuluka kwambiri kulikonse kumatha kubweretsa kupsinjika ndi kusalinganika. Ndiphatikizanso maliseche m'moyo ndikuyesa zotsatira. Ngati ikugwira ntchito bwino ndi zomwe ndapeza, ndizabwino. Ngati sizitero, ndikumaliza kundisunthira njira yopanda mphamvu - ndibwerera.
Tithokoze chifukwa chokhala gulu la othandizira. Ndine wokondwa kuti ndayenda nanu amuna.
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