Zotsatira Ndipita kumiyendo ndikunena kuti ndapulumuka Ndikuthokoza kwambiri kuti ndapeza tsamba ili ndi gulu lalikulu la anthu omwe apachikidwa pano. Moyo wanga wasinthidwa ndi zomwe zimafalitsidwa pano. Ngakhale kuti zolaula zinandichititsa kuti ndichepetse kugonana ndinayamba kukhulupirira kuti kwa ine, chifukwa choti ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche ndili wamng'ono kwambiri ndipo kwa zaka zambiri ndakhala ndikulankhula pafupipafupi, vuto langa lalikulu linali kutopa kwa endocrine ndikuthawa malingaliro . Izi kuphatikiza kuphatikizira kumwa kwambiri mpaka "kudzipangira mankhwala" pamapeto pake zidafika pachimake ngati ED. Ndili wokondwa kunena kuti sikuti ndingangopeza zovuta kwambiri m'moyo wanga komanso kuti ndapeza chodabwitsa chatsopano (kwa ine ndi mkazi wanga) kutha kwakanthawi kofunikira.
Nayi mndandanda wachidule wazinthu zazikuluzikulu zomwe ndapeza paulendo wopita ku thanzi….
1. Mverani malangizo omwe aperekedwa pano. Ndikanatha kuchiritsidwa mwamsanga ngati ndangoyamba kumene kubwezeretsa kuyambira pachiyambi m'malo mwa theka.
2. Yesetsani kunamizira kuti mulibe mbolo. Kukhudza kumabweretsa kusewera ndikusewera kumabweretsa O.
[Nkhani Yanga] Ndine bambo wazaka 42 yemwe ndakhala wokwatira zaka 12. Moyo wanga wogonana ngakhale sunakhale "wolimba" pang'onopang'ono udakulirakulira mpaka kusakhalako m'miyezi yaposachedwa ya 4-6. Kwa zaka zambiri ndakhala ndikukumana ndi mavuto ndi dongosolo langa la endocrine kotero kuti nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti ndikusowa kwa zoyendetsa komanso zovuta kuti ndikhale wokonzeka kutero.
Zaka za 2 zapitazo ndidabwereranso kwa endocrinologist ndikudandaula kuti ndatopa kwambiri. Zinapezeka kuti chifukwa cha mavuto azachilengedwe zaka zambiri m'mbuyomu mayeso anga anali atagwiranso ntchito ndipo ndikufunikira testosterone. Ndidakondwera kwambiri ndi izi chifukwa kuchuluka kwa testosterone yanga sikunali kwachibwana moyo wanga wonse ndipo ndimaganiza kuti mwina ndikawafikitsa komwe angafunikire kuti moyo wanga wogonana ukhale wabwino. Zaka za 2 zoyeserera ndi kusintha kwa mankhwalawa pambuyo pake milingo yanga ya testosterone inali yapakati pang'ono ndipo zochitika zanga zogonana zinali zoyipa kuposa kale.
Mosakayikira ndinakhumudwa kwambiri chifukwa chosowa kusintha. Mkazi wanga ndi mzanga wapamtima ndipo ndimamupezabe wokongola koma thupi langa silinapeze uthengawo.
Ndidasintha njira zambiri m'moyo monga zakudya, masewera olimbitsa thupi, zowonjezera zina, ndipo sindinataye mtima kufunafuna mayankho pa intaneti. Masiku 15 apitawo ndidakumana ndi YBOP. Babu yoyatsa idadina ndipo ndidadziwa nthawi yomweyo kuti vuto ndapeza. Nthawi yomweyo ndinasiya zolaula ndi maliseche. Ngakhale sindinali munthu amene ndimakhala ndikumadzuka mphindi iliyonse pakompyuta yanga ndimachita maliseche pa intaneti kamodzi pamlungu ndikuchita maliseche ndikuganiza m'mawa uliwonse. Izi mwachiwonekere "zidakhala" moyo wanga wogonana ndipo zidandichititsa chidwi kwa mkazi wanga.
Patsiku 9 la PMO ine ndi mkazi wanga tinkagonana bwino kwambiri m'mawa mwake. Madzulo amenewo komabe tinayesanso osapambana, ndinali nditagunda "khoma". Ndikuganiza kuti ndimadziwa kuti sindinachite izi tisanayese. Kuyankhula kwakale kwakale ndi kukayika kudayamba m'mutu mwanga ndipo zidali choncho. Nkhani yabwino ndiyakuti zokumana nazo zabwino ziwiri zapitazo (patatha miyezi 4-6 osagonana) zidatiphunzitsa kuti chinthuchi chimatha kusintha. Tidangochithamangitsa ndipo potero pang'ono pang'ono "bweretsani" kuyambiranso "titero. Tsopano ndadzipereka masiku osachepera 30 kuti ndiyambirenso ndisanayesenso ndi mkazi wanga. Ngati zizindikirazo palibe patatha masiku 30 sindingakukakamizeni, ngati zingatenge 60 kapena 90 zikhale chomwecho. Tili ndi moyo wathu wonse kuti tisangalale ndi moyo wabwino wogonana, palibe zinthu zothamanga. Ndikadakonda kuchira 100%.
[Tsiku 16] Zotsatira za epiphany kupeza YBOP chifukwa cha ine ndidayamba kupanga kulingalira kwa malingaliro. Ndinazindikira machitidwe ena a 2 omwe mwina sangakhale nawo omwe amachititsa kuti ndikhale ndi vuto logonana koma osalimbikitsa moyo wanga. Ndakhala moyo wanga wonse ndakhala ndikuganiza molakwitsa, moyo woipa ukadayamba kukhala wobwereranso m'malingaliro mwanga. Ndinali nditapanga dziko lapansi mwatsatanetsatane. Zikuwoneka ngati kuti zolaula zomwe sizimagonana zitha kulowa m'maganizo. Komanso ndimamwa kwambiri zomwe zawonongedwa ndipo pamakhala zosokoneza zambiri pazomwe zimayenderana ndi izi.
Kulimbikitsidwa ndikupeza njira yothetsera mavuto anga azakugonana ndidaganiza zothetsa zonse nthawi imodzi. Ndikudziwa kuti ndiyamwa koma ndine mnyamata kapena wopanda kanthu ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ndikwanitsa kuthana ndi vutoli. Lero ndi tsiku 16 palibe PMO (wopanda mkazi wanga) kapena kulota masana ndi tsiku 10 osamwa.
[Tsiku 37] Pepani kwa nthawi yayitali osatumiza koma ndinalibe zambiri zomwe zinali zosangalatsa kunena. Tsopano ndili masana 37 wopanda zolaula komanso osaganizira ena ndimatha kusintha. Ndimayang'ana kwambiri ndipo sindimakwiya nthawi zonse. Mphamvu zanga zawonjezeka ndipo ndili ndi chidziwitso chodzidalira chomwe sindimamva kwanthawi yayitali. Ndakhala ndikugonana ndi mkazi sabata iliyonse kapena ziwiri zomwe zakhala zikuyambitsa zochepa koma osati zolaula. Mmawa nditatha kugonana kangapo ndakhala ndikuchita maliseche (makina okha, osakhala ndi zolaula). Koma mwa zonse ndimanyadira ndi zomwe ndakwanitsa mpaka pano. Mwathupi sindinataye nthawi yozizira usiku koma sindimadzipangitsa kuti ndikhale ndi erection. Ndimazitenga ngati chizindikiro chabwino kuti kucheza ndi mkazi wanga kumandipatsa erection. Zachidziwikire kuti pamafunika nthawi yochulukirapo chisanachitike chidwi chonse. Ndikudziwa kuti msewu womwe ndikudutsa utenga nthawi yayitali kuposa ndikadangoyambitsa "kuyambiranso koyera" koma kupangitsa kuti mkazi azisangalala panjira ndiyofunika nthawi yowonjezera yomwe ndikudziwa kuti izi zitenga.
[Tsiku 39, Kuyambiranso ndi mnzake] Kulingalira mwachangu kwa iwo omwe akufuna kudziwa zambiri zakubwezeretsanso ndi mnzake. Patangotha masiku awiri nditatumizidwa komaliza ndili wokondwa kunena kuti ndagonanapo kawiri m'masiku a 2 ndipo awa ndi malingaliro anga. Kumayambiriro koyambiranso (makamaka kwa ine) ndikuganiza kuti kugonana ndi mkazi kumabwezeretsa patsogolo pang'ono. Komabe ndimamva kuti panthawi ina yoyambiranso (munthu aliyense amene ndikutsimikiza) sanasinthe kukakamizidwa kugonana ndi mnzanu kumakhala kopindulitsa. Zikuwoneka kuti kwa ine kugonana kumathandiza kukonzanso njira yathanzi, yabwinobwino komanso yachilengedwe yomwe idanditayika. Nthawi zambiri ndimakwanitsa ndikukwaniritsa cholimba mwa kungopapasa ndikumugwira mkazi wanga yemwe akumva mawu okayikira kumbuyo kwa mutu wanga komanso momwe thupi langa likuyankhira mwachangu komanso mwachangu.
Tonse tonse titha kufunafuna kulowerera karezza koma sindimamva kufikira nditakhala ndi thupi langa modzidzimutsa nthawi 100%. Ndikuganiza kuti kuyesa chinthu chatsopano komanso chosazolowereka kumabweretsa zokambirana m'mutu mwanga.
Timachita zambiri zogwira mtima, zolimbikitsa komanso zowonetsera chikondi masiku athu ano. Takhazikikanso mikhalidwe yosamalirana kwambiri mchipinda mosasamala kanthu kuti tikufuna kapena titha kugonana.
Monga cholemba cham'mbali ndikufuna kutchulanso zomwe ndawonanso. Monga mukudziwa ndakhala ndikuyesetsa kuti ndisiye kumwa kwanga. Mkazi wanga ndi ine tadzichepetsera masiku athu ochepa (zomwe kwa ife ndikusintha kwakukulu). Ndazindikira komabe kuti m'masiku oyamba kubwerera osamwa ndimakhala ndimayendetsa kwambiri maliseche. Ndikuganiza kuti ngakhale ali mavuto awiri osiyana opititsa patsogolo dopamine ndi chinthu chimodzi / chizolowezi ndiye kuti kuchotserako kumatha kuyambitsa mavuto ena azikhalidwe. Ndikadakhala kuti ndikadakhala bwino ndikadayambiranso kumwa kwinakwake koma zonse "zikuyang'aniridwa" chifukwa chake ndingokhalabe panjirayo ndikukhala wabwino pamapeto pake.
[Tsiku 43 kuzindikira kwina] Hei nonse, ndapeza choyambitsa china cha MI ndimaganiza kuti ndichenjeza gululi. Dzulo dzulo ndidagwira kachilombo ndipo ndimadwala chimfine usiku umodzi. Tsiku lotsatira ndinali nditatopa, ndikumva zowawa komanso ndili ndi nkhawa. Chinthu chomwe chinandigunda chinali chakuti ndimakhala ndikulakalaka kuseweretsa maliseche. Sindikudziwa ngati uku ndikuyesera kuti ubongo wanga uzitonthoze kapena ngati ndichimodzi mwazomwe zasintha zomwe zimandipangitsa kuti ndipatse majini anga chifukwa ndikudwala (ndipo mwina sindingathe). Ndimangoganiza kuti ndizosamvetseka komanso zosangalatsa ndiye ndikungopitilira.
[Tsiku 49] Mbali yanga ya "A" ikutha kuleza mtima ndi kupita patsogolo kwanga. Ndasankha kuluma chipolopolo ndikudula kugonana (ndi O ndi M) mpaka Thanksgiving ndikuwona zomwe zimachitika. Ndikungodumpha potengera kupita patsogolo komwe ndapanga komanso masiku a 49 kale pansi pa lamba kuti masabata ena 4-5 atha kupanga kusiyana kwakukulu ndikangochita ndikusachita. Nthawi imeneyo "ndidzayesa" ndi mkaziyo ndikuwona ngati ndiyenera kusiya mpaka Khrisimasi kapena ikhala nyengo yokwatirana inde
Komanso posintha mbali ndadula Lithium mpaka 15mg tsiku lililonse. Lithium orotate ndi mchere ndipo ndikuganiza kuti mwina akunditaya madzi. Ngakhale ndimasefukira bwanji madzi anga sanasinthe ndipo ndinali ndi ludzu. Chiyambireni kusintha ndidabwerera mwakale. Zitha kungokhala zondichitikira koma ndikuzigawana ndizofunikira.
Chizindikiro china cham'mbali… Kuletsa kwanga mowa kudasintha bwino sabata yatha sabata yatha ndidamwa mausiku atatu zomwe ndikadadya 3 kamodzi kale. Sindingachitire mwina koma kudabwa ngati kuyambiranso kungathandize mavuto anga omwa mowa. Mwina kukonza vuto limodzi ndi dopamine kumathandizira linalo?
[Masiku a 54 ali panjira, masiku a 8 palibe Orgasm] Masiku ake a 54 kuyambira pomwe ndidapeza YBOP ndikusiya zolaula. Ndinagonana ndi mkazi wanga nthawi zonse (ndisanatchule zolaula zinali 90 kapena masiku angapo kuchokera pomwe tidagonana) ndikuchita maliseche (makina osangoganizira chabe komanso zolaula) kangapo pomwe zotsatira zogonana Ndimenyeni. Patsiku 46 ndidaganiza kuti ndibwino kuyambiranso ndikupitiliza kugonana ndi mkaziyu koyambirira. Chifukwa chake ndadutsa sabata la 1 osalemba O. Kumbali ina ndizokhumudwitsa kuti ndatha masiku 54 theka theka ndikubwezeretsa ndipo pakadakhala sabata kuti ndichite bwino. Kumbali ina ndakhala ndikuwerenga ndikulemba ndikuphunzira ndipo NDAKHALA NDIKUYANG'ANIRA PORN KAPENA KUKHALA KUKHALA KOSANGALALA m'masiku 54.
Ndakhala ndikusintha kwenikweni momwe ndimamvera kuti ubongo wanga wakwera, ndimamva kulumikizana kwambiri ndi mkazi wanga ndi banja langa. Ndimasangalala kwambiri kumvetsera ndikulankhula ndi ana aamuna ndikuwathamangitsa m'nyumba m'malo mokhumba kuti andisiya ndekha kuti ndibwerere ku TV. Ndimasankha kuwona nthawi yanga isanakwane kudziletsa ndikukonzekera chochitika chachikulu. Ndikumva ngati tsopano ndikuwongolera zonse. Ndaphunzira zoyambitsa zanga komanso momwe ndithane nazo.
Ngakhale mkazi wanga anatha kundidzutsa m'masiku 48 oyambilira ndipo ndimapitilirabe usiku komanso nkhuni zam'mawa sindimadzutsidwa konse ndi msungwana wokongola kapena sindingathe kudzilimbitsa, izi ndiye zolinga zanga. Ndidzadziwa kuti ndakhazikika pomwe ndimatha kudzilimbitsa movutikira ndikumangokhalira kulakalaka zolaula kapena ndikayamba kukumana ndi erection mwadzidzidzi kapena mkazi amatha kundivutitsa ndikundipsompsona kapena kuwonera etc.
Ndiye mukuganiza kuti zigawenga? Kodi izi zikuwoneka ngati mayeso oyenera oti "muchiritsidwe"?
[Tsiku 56- Palibe chaser ndipo mwina titha kukhalanso ndi zomverera] Ndi tsiku lachizindikiro pazolemba pamabulogu zanga. Monga ndanenera kale ndidagonana usiku watha (ndi m'mawa uno). Lero ndine wokondwa kunena kuti 0, palibe, nada, zip chaser effect kapena kusinthasintha kwamaganizidwe kapena zoyipa zina zilizonse. Zomwe ndikuzindikira ndikuwonjezeka kwa mbolo yanga yomwe sindinakhalepo nayo nditagonana m'masiku 56 apitawa. Zimamveka ngati mwina zochitika usiku watha mwanjira inayake zidayambitsanso kulumikizana ndi ulalo wa ubongo / mbolo. Mbolo yanga imamvekera bwino ndikaigwira m'malo mongofa. Chifukwa chakuchulukirachulukira kwakumva ndinali ndi nthawi imodzi yomwe kungoti dick wanga akusunthira buluku langa ndikuthira zovala zamkati momwe ndimayendera adandipatsa kanyama kakang'ono komanso kansalu kotsimikizika. Ndinamvanso "kulira" kangapo. Mwinanso zosankha zokha sizinachokere m'makhadi anga tsiku lina.
Tsopano sindikukankhira zinthu ndikuyembekeza kuti kugonana kochuluka kudzabweretsa zotsatira zina. Ndaphunzira kuchepa kwa sabata ndipo makamaka pakati pa kugonana (ndizosangalatsa) ndikofunikira kuti ndilipire. Ndizosangalatsa kuganiza kuti mwina nthawi iliyonse ndikagonana pang'ono machiritso adzachitikanso.
[Upangiri woyambiranso ndi mnzanu] Ndine bambo wokwatiwa wazaka 42 ndipo ndakhala ndikugonana nthawi zina ndikubwezeretsanso. Ndisanapeze tsambali ndikusiya zolaula sindinachite kugonana kwa miyezi 3. Kwa chaka chatha pomwe tidayesera sizinali zolimbikitsa kawirikawiri, chozizwitsa chowonongedwa ndikadatha kuchipeza. Lero masiku 58 ndikuchita zogonana NDI mkazi wanga ndikumva thupi ndi malingaliro ngati munthu watsopano. Ndikukhulupirira kuti chinthu chofunikira ndikutulutsa zolaula komanso maliseche ndikudzipatsa nthawi kuti "mukhazikitsenso". Kwa ine nthawi yowonjezera pakati pa kugonana ili pafupi masiku aliwonse a 7-10. Muyenera kusamala kuti kugonana kumatha kuyambitsa zovuta zomwe zingakupangitseni kuseweretsa maliseche (makamaka koyambirira). Pepani kumva mkazi wanu sakumvetsetsa, mnzake wothandizirayo atha kufulumizitsa kuchira kwa IMO. Ndimakondana ndi machitidwe monga Marnia akuwonetsa kuti ndichite bwino. Kukumbatirana, kukumbatirana ndi kukhudzika tsiku lonse kumalimbikitsa kukhulupirirana komanso kuyambiranso kukondana.
Sindikunena kuti muyenera kuyembekezera zotsatira zanga. Ndimadziyesa ndekha wodala kuti ndakhala ndikufulumira monga momwe ndakhalira. Zomwe ndikukuuzani ndizotheka.
[Oposa masiku 90 - gawo latsopano] Tsopano patha masiku 90 ndikumva ngati ndili mgulu lina lakuchira. Ngakhale ndikadali ndi chilimbikitso chodziseweretsa maliseche ndimawawona momwe alili ndikusankha kupewa, ndikusankha kukhala ndi mkazi wanga. Ndimakhala ndimitengo yausiku / yam'mawa yosasinthasintha ndipo ndimatha kudzidzimutsa ndikukhudza pang'ono (ngakhale ndimayesetsa kuti ndisadziyese). Ndayamba kukhala ndi matabwa ofooka masana chifukwa chobwezeretsa chidwi. Ndikupitirizabe kuganizira za kudya ndi kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Pakutha chaka choyamba mkazi ndi ine timakumana ndi vuto lina… Mowa. Ndikulemberani nonse.
[Patapita miyezi ingapo]
1.6 Zinthu zakugonana ndizofanana koma ndimayembekezera kusintha pomwe malingaliro ndi thupi langa zizolowera kusakonza mowa wonse. Mowa umapondereza pafupifupi machitidwe onse mthupi mwanjira ina. Ndizoseketsa koma mkazi wanga (ngakhale amamwa pang'ono kwambiri kuposa ine) ali ndi zizindikilo zofananira zomwe ndidakhala nazo nditasiya PMO. Kwa ine ndikungokhala kuda nkhawa, kuwuma komanso kumva kuti sindimadziwa choti ndichite ndi ine nthawi zomwe ndimamwa.
1.10 Uwu ndi umboni winanso kwa ine kuti zosokoneza bongo zonse ndizolumikizana kuti ine ndi mkazi wanga tsopano tili mu "flatline" pakadali pano chifukwa chake ndimaganiza zakuchepa kwa dongosolo la dopamine. Zodabwitsa ndizosiyana ndi zomwe ndimayembekezera kuti chakudya sichimakomanso. Ndimaganiza kuti mwina tikhala ndi chilakolako chowonjezeka pomwe ubongo umafunafuna zowonjezerapo koma ndikuganiza kuti chakudya sichingakulimbikitseni.
Tikubwereranso ku ntchito za zomangamanga za oxytocin (snuggling) ndikuyembekeza kuti ifupikitsa nthawi yaulemu.
1.12 Chiyambireni chomaliza ine ndi mkazi wanga timakhala bwino. Ndinkachita masewera andewu dzulo usiku ndipo ndiyenera kunena kuti kupendekera ndi abwenzi (kunja kwanyumba) ndikupeza kupopa magazi kumawoneka kuti kwandipindulira.
2.10 Libido akadalibe. Sindilinso ndi phokoso usiku koma sinditha kuwuka. Ngakhale tidamwa kangapo kuyambira pa 1st ya chaka tidula waaaaaaaaaay kubwerera.
3.7 Kusintha mwachangu. Pamapeto pake ndidaluma chipolopolo ndipo ndidaganiza zodzakhala moyo wabwino. Ndili masabata atatu osamwa ndipo ndikudzipereka kwambiri kutero. Sindikufunanso zinthuzo. Ndikumva bwino m'maganizo ndi m'thupi. Ndinayambiranso kudzipereka kwanga kuti ndisachite maliseche (sindinakhalepo ndi zolaula kuyambira chaka chatha) Tsoka ilo moyo wokhudzana ndi kugonana sunasinthe mpaka pano. Ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri zamaganizidwe kuyambira pomwe ndidasiya kumwa ndipo ndimawona kuti gawo limodzi lamavuto sindimatseka malingaliro anga kuti ndigonane.
Ndinawerenga kuti anthu azolowera kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo nthawi zambiri amanganso gawo labwino la zotayika za Dopamine pambuyo pa masiku a 90 (kinda ngati kuyambiranso masiku a 90). The quaring mowa ndikusintha kwamuyaya mosasamala kanthu koma ndikukhulupirira kuti ndimve ndikuwona kusintha mu masabata omwe akubwera pamene ma receptors amangidwanso.
4.4 Palibe chilichonse padziko lapansi chomwe chimagwedezeka pantchito yogonana kuti mufotokozere. Ndilibe kumwalira ndi shrunken kumverera ngati mu flatline koma ngakhale ntchito ya kulumikiza makhalidwe sindimakhala “mokwanira” kudzutsidwa. Ndikulingalira kuti ma dopamine receptors akadalibe ochulukirapo kuti atumize chizindikiro champhamvu. Nthawi zochepa zomwe ndimakhala wolimba kuti ndilowemo ndidakhala pazomwe zimawoneka ngati masekondi a 2.
Pazabwino komabe ndikupita miyezi iwiri osamwa ndipo nditha kunena moona mtima kuti gawo la moyo wanga lili kumapeto. Ndili ndi mphamvu zanga zamaganizidwe ndikubwerera mwachangu, ndipo cardio yanga yasintha usiku ndi usana. Ndili ndi gulu la zakumwa zina za N / A zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito nthawi zocheza ndipo zinali zabwino kudziwa zonse zomwe zidachitika usiku watha. Tsopano ngati ndinena china chake kuphwando chomwe chimakwiyitsa winawake sindiyenera kuyimbiranso tsiku lotsatira ndikupepesa CHIFUKWA CHIMENE NDIKUFUNA KUNENA (ha ha) !!!
4.13 Mkazi wanga sakonda kukhudza mosagonana. Posakhalitsa adazindikira kuti ali ndi vuto lalitali ndikukhala ndi chidwi ndi chilengedwe chake (kununkhiza, kuwala, kukhudza ndi mawu). Snuggling amamutenga kenako amakhala wokhumudwa ngati sindingathe kuchita zomwe sizitichitira zabwino. Ndili ndi lingaliro loti titha kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi m'mawa, tidayamba lero. Ndili ndi chikho chake kubuula kwanga ndi dzanja lake pang'onopang'ono ndikutsitsa mtondo wanga ku nsonga yina kupita ku nipple ina ndikubwerera kutsitsi (bwerezani ndikutsuka ha ha). Ndimazipeza zosangalatsa komanso zosangalatsa. Chiyembekezo changa ndikuti zindithandiza kulimbikitsa chidaliro ndi chitonthozo ndikugwirizananso ubongo wanga ndi zomwe mkazi wanga amalimbikitsa.
Kwa kankhani kakang'ono kakumbuyo komwe sindinachitireko zoyenera. Ndidasiya tsiku la P ndi M nditapeza tsambali ndipo patapita nthawi yochepa ndidawona kuti moyo wanga wogonana usintha (sunakhale wangwiro koma wabwino koposa). Ndinasiyiratu kumwa ndipo ndikupitanso kugahena. Ngati izi sizigwira ntchito monga momwe tikuyembekezera kuti gawo lotsatira ndikubwezeretsanso masiku 90.
4.17 Tinali ndi m'mawa wabwino dzulo. Ndinali wolimba. Adandidzutsa, ndiye kuti, "sindinadzuke ndi nkhuni". Ndinakhala ndi nthawi yolemekezeka (ndinamaliza ntchitoyo). Taphunzira kuti tisathamange zinthu izi kuti tisakakamize mwayi wathu ndikuyesanso mpaka nthawi ikadzakwana. Zachidziwikire kuti mphamvu yakukhudza ikugwira ntchito matsenga ake !!
4-24 Ndikuganiza kuti ndadutsa nthawi yosinthira. Monga ndinakuwuzirani ine ndi mkazi wanga tinagonana bwino Lamlungu latha. Chabwino… Lamlungu lino ndi Lolemba tidachitanso. Nthawi ino sindinapeze zovuta kapena chikhumbo chofunafuna yemwe ndidachita nthawi yayitali. Ndikuganiza kuti ubongo wanga wayamba kulinganiza bwino. Sindingathe kuyika chala changa koma ndimamva mosiyanasiyana sabata ino, ndili chete komanso ndikusangalala. Thupi langa limamvanso chimodzimodzi. Sindikukankhira zinthu, ingololani zinthu kuti zichitike mwachilengedwe, koma ndiyenera kunena kuti ndine wokondwa.
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