tsiku 7
Nkhani yanga ndi iyi. Ndili ndi zaka 47 ndipo ndakhala ndikuvutika ndi ED moyo wanga wonse. Mwatsoka kwa ine ndinapeza zolaula kale kwambiri ndisanagone koyamba. Kuyambira nthawi yoyamba nditaiyang'ana ndinayamba kukonda kwambiri (mchimwene wanga anasiya buku la Penthouse pabedi pake) chifukwa panali chinthu chodabwitsa kwambiri. Kenako, ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi 15, ndinkaba magazini olaula m'sitolo yanga yapafupi. Pamene ndinakwanitsa zaka 18, zinthu zinayamba kuipa kwambiri chifukwa tsopano ndinkatha kulowa mu Pussycat Theatre. Mtundu wanga womwe ndimakonda kwambiri unali wa akazi awiri ogonana okhaokha. Tsopano ndikuona momwe kuonera zolaula kuli kutali kwambiri ndi kuonera zolaula zachikhalidwe monga momwe munthu angachitire.
Pomwe ndimagonana koyamba ku 21 ndimakhala ndikuchita maliseche pazaka zopitilira 6. Monga momwe mungaganizire kuti sindinathe kuyimilira kapena ngati ndikanatha kupita pang'onopang'ono panthawi yolowera.
Mwamwayi kwa ine inalinso nthawi ngati yomweyi pomwe ndidasamuka kunyumba kwa makolo anga ndikukhala m'nyumba yomwe ndimakhala ndi awiri omwe ndimakhala nawo. Iyi inali nthawi yomwe sindinathe kuyang'anitsitsa ndikuchita maliseche zolaula momasuka - komanso nthawi yomwe ndimatha kulowa bwino popanda ED. Ndinawona kuti ndimakumana ndikugonana ndi akazi ambiri (mwina 15 pazaka ziwiri) kuti sindinakhalenso ndi chidwi chodziseweretsa zolaula. Nditangopeza malo anga ndekha pamene ndinabwereranso ku chizolowezi changa ndipo ED adabwerera. Nditha kupita kumalo ogulitsira makanema ndikubwereka kenako ndikuchita maliseche kwa makanema onse azolaula omwe ndimafuna ndipo palibe amene angadziwe.
Munthawi imeneyi ndinali ndi abwenzi angapo atsikana ndipo nthawi yoyambira kusakwanitsa kunyamuka ndimatha kukhala bwino ndikumacheza nawo popanda kutaya mpangidwe wanga. Tsopano ndikhulupirira izi mwina chifukwa sindinali kuchita zolaula zolaula nthawi zomwe tinali pachibwenzi. Tsopano poti ndimayang'ana kumbuyo gawo lomvetsa chisoni kwambiri lomwe ndidali nalo ndikuti ndidasinthana ndi chibwenzi chimodzi chomwe ndidagona naye ndipo ndimagonana naye pang'ono chifukwa ndimafuna kubwereranso kudziseweretsa maliseche a zolaula osachita zachiwerewere osadziimba mlandu.
Izi zinali pafupi zaka 13 zapitazo ndipo mpaka posachedwapa sindinayambe ndagonanapo kuyambira pamenepo. China chake chokhudza kuseweretsa maliseche (makamaka tsopano popeza chili pa intaneti komanso chosavuta kupeza) chomwe chimapha kuyendetsa kukumana ndi azimayi. Ndinali ndi mwayi koma nthawi zonse ndinkadziuza kuti "sindimamva".
Miyezi ingapo yapitayo ndidakumana ndi munthu wina ndikuyamba kugonana naye. Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinali naye ndimayembekezera ED yoyamba koma izi zinali zoyipa kuposa chilichonse chomwe ndidakumana nacho chifukwa sindinathe kupanga erection iliyonse. Ndidayesa Viagra ndi Cialis ndipo ngakhale izi poyambilira zidapanga erection zidachoka nditangolowa. Ndikakhala mkati mwake zimakhala ngati nyini yake imamasuka kwambiri kuyerekeza ndi kulimba komwe ndimazolowera ndi dzanja langa.
Zinthu zasintha posachedwa popeza ndikutha kuzisunga pang'ono koma ndikuganiza kuti mwina akutaya chidwi (sindinganene kuti ndimamuimba mlandu). Zomwe ndingachite ndikungokhala zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche kwaulere. Ndawerenga apa kuti zimatenga masiku 30 mpaka 60 kuti ayambirenso ubongo ku zolaula kotero ndidakali ndiulendo wawutali.
tsiku 57
Ulendo uwu womwe udakhala nawo.Pamene ndidaganiza zosiya PMO koyambirira kwa chaka chino ndapita kwa masiku a 6 kawiri, masiku a 12 kamodzi, masiku a 28 kamodzi ndipo tsopano ndili patsiku la 57 la kukhala PMO kwaulere.
Ndinganene kuti zakhala zoyenera kwathunthu kusadandaula kuti afike pamenepa. Ndapeza zambiri ngati sizobera zonse kumbuyo kwa mbolo yanga. Zinkakhala ngati kuti kusinthaku kunabweranso kumapeto kwa mitsempha yanga pambuyo poti ndachotsedwa zaka zanga zonse za nkhanza kwa PMO. Ndinazindikira koyamba kusintha kwa 52 tsiku lomwe ndimasokonekera ndi chibwenzi changa ndipo ndimamva ngati ndikadatha kuthina tikadapitilirabe (sinali nthawi kapena malo oti mudziwe). Sindinakhalepo ndi wina aliyense koma kugona mokhazikika ndi iye chifukwa choti sindimamva chilichonse mkati mwake mwina kuyambira zaka zanga zonse ndikugwiritsa ntchito njira yomenya ndekha.
Tsopano ndikhoza kukwanitsa kukonzekera pafupifupi zolaula popanda zolaula kapena zolaula ndisanayime ndikugwira dzanja langa. Chomwe chiri chabwino kwambiri ndikuti ndimatha kukhalabe olimba ndikudziletsa ndekha osatulutsa umuna. Sindinakumanepo ndi izi kuyambira ndili wachinyamata. Ichi ndi chinthu chomwe sindinathe kuchichita ndisanayambirenso ndipo mwina sindingathe kudzichotsa popanda zolaula. Ngakhale nditatero ndimakhala wolimba theka. Tsopano ndikutha kuwona momwe PMO angasokonezere ubongo wanu makamaka mukamachita kwa zaka ndi zaka.
Ndikungofuna kulimbikitsa wina aliyense kunja uko yemwe akulimbana ndi vuto ili kuti asataye mtima. Ndikofunika kwambiri kuti ndikhalepobe. Ndimamva ngati munthu watsopano!