Zaka 50 - Mwamuna, zolaula nthawi zonse

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Ndine wokondwa kwambiri ndipo ndadabwitsidwa nditapezeka pano. Ndakhala ndikuledzera zaka 40 kuphatikiza kwa PMO. Ndakhala moyo wachiphamaso, ndikumayesa kuti chizolowezi changa "chachinsinsi" sichinali vuto lalikulu, anthu ena onse atamwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo, mowa etc.

Ndinalowa m'matumbo okalamba ndili mwana wokongola, osati kwambiri kuchokera kwa abambo anga okha, omwe amamwa kwambiri. Dziko longopeka ndi moyo wanga wongopeka zinayambitsa pang'ono pothawa zenizeni, sindinasangalale nazo, monga wachinyamata. Ndinkakhala wotanganidwa ndi ntchito yakusukulu komanso masewera makamaka adrenalin masewera, ndimakonda adrenalin, ndikuganiza kuti ndapeza zambiri zodalirika zamtundu wa dopamine kuchokera panjanji, rugby ya mpira ndi mpikisano ndipo izi zinali zabwino. Koma, mtundu wanga wachinsinsi womwe unkapachikika mozungulira, ngakhale ukwati wanga ndi mkazi wabwino. Bizinesi yanga yapakati pa moyo wanga idayamba pomwe tidagwira ntchito pa intaneti komanso vuto langa lomwe linali litapitilira.

Ndinazindikira kuti ndimafuna zaka za 2 zapitazo, Ndipo izi zimanditengera zaka 2 kuti zindifikire pomwe zimayenera kuchitikira. Kuyesera kukonzanso malingaliro oyenera. Otsutsa kotheratu ndi mabodza a ng'ombe a **S ** t. Kusankha kwanga kuchita zolaula, chinali chisankho changa kutaya nthawi ndikubodza, koma tsopano ndikusankha kwanga kuti ndikomoke.

Pafupifupi zaka 2 zapitazo ndinali ndi mphindi yodabwitsa, mawu ang'onoang'ono adandidzera m'mawa osagona ndikuti "zili bwino, mutha kuzisiya". Monga nthawi zambiri ndimagwiritsa ntchito PMO ndisanagone usiku womwewo. Kugwiritsa ntchito kwanga kwa PMO kunali kumangomanga ndikuyambitsa nkhawa komanso kukhumudwa. Linali liwu lofatsa (ndikudziwa limamveka lodabwitsa) ndipo linali lolimbikitsa.

Ndinataya kanema wamkulu, zolaula zonse za hetero. Ndinavomerezanso kwa mkazi wanga wazaka 29 kuti ndinali wosuta. Sindinaganizepo kuti ndingathe kuuza mzimu wina kotero kuvomereza kwanga kunali kodabwitsa kwa ine ndekha. Pambuyo pake ndinauza mnzanga wapamtima, komanso dokotala wanga. Ndinadutsa pachiwopsezo chachikulu kwa milungu ingapo ndipo ndinayambiranso pang'ono. Ndimamva bwino koma ndimaweruziratu zakumbuyo zanga komanso nthawi yonse yomwe ndawononga. Tili kumadera akumidzi ndipo pamapeto pake tidakhala ndi intaneti yothamanga kwambiri. Zoipa kwambiri chifukwa cha chizolowezi changa. Ndinayamba kuyang'ana zithunzi za jpeg ndikuwonera makanema patsamba "laulere". Chifukwa chake, miyezi 2-3 ya zolaula idatha ndipo zinthu zidakulirakulira.

Zomwe zimandibweretsa ku tsopano. Masiku 18 osawonera zolaula. Kusasangalala kwakukulu ndi ine ndekha chifukwa chofooka kwambiri ndikudzipereka kwathunthu kuti ndidutse izi. Kufufuza thandizo lina panthawiyi kwandibweretsa ku "yourbrainonporn". Ndizosangalatsa kuwona kuti ena akuchita izi ndipo ambiri akumenya. Zolemba zolimbikitsa kwambiri. Omwe adabwereranso nthawi zambiri amafotokoza nkhani zothandiza kwambiri. Sitiyenera kuchita mantha kulephera, makamaka tikudziwa ndikuyesera.

Ndinali ndi epiphany 2 zaka zapitazo ndikuyesera kusiya zolaula, ndinalibe thandizo la akatswiri, kapena zokumana nazo ndikudandaula kwambiri. Miyezi ingapo "yopanda zolaula" (idatulutsa kanema wambiri) Tili ndi intaneti yothamanga koyamba, yabwino pantchito koma yoyipa chifukwa chogwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo ndidapeza masamba amakanema olaula ndipo ndidabwerako. Ndidasuntha kompyuta yoyamba kulowa pagulu la anthu, koma ndidapeza kuti ndingodikira mpaka banja langa litagona kuti ndikonzeke.

Ndili ndi mkazi wokonda kwambiri komanso mwana wamwamuna wazaka khumi ndi zitatu. Ndakhala ndikumva manyazi ndikunyansidwa ndi "moyo wanga wapaŵiri" Maganizo awa anditsogolera ku nkhawa komanso kukhumudwa.

"Ndasiya" masiku 17 apitawa. Ndidali wokhumudwa kwambiri ndipo ndidawona adotolo anzanga adandipatsa mankhwala ochepetsa 5mg cipralex. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala wotsutsana, sindimamwa kapena kusuta, abambo anga anali chidakwa. Ndikuyesa med ndikuganiza ikuthandiza.

Ndakhala ndi zokumana nazo ziwiri za MO (ndikusamba) koma pakadali pano palibe zolaula masiku a 17. Ndakhala ndikugonana ndi ma 2 orgasms ndikugonana ndi mkazi wanga nthawi yayitali motero ma 4 orgasms okwanira m'masiku a 17. Ndimamva kuti sindikufuna kuonera zolaula koma ndikuzindikira kuti zitha kuzembera munthu. Ndikuganiza zopita kukakonzanso buti ya O ayi yamtundu uliwonse. Zikuwoneka zopindulitsa kwa ambiri pano patsamba lino.

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Ndiyamba kudzikhululuka ndekha chifukwa cha zomwe ndakhala ndikuchita kwa zaka zambiri koma ndimamvabe manyazi komanso kudziimba mlandu. Mkazi wanga wandikhululuka ndipo ndalankhula ndi mtumiki wanga, yemwe adanditsimikiziranso kuti ndikupanga mayendedwe akuluakulu ndipo sindiyenera kudziimba mlandu, zakale zapita. Ndimakhala ndi nthawi yomwe ndimakhululuka ndekha koma kenako ndikubweza.

Tadye chakudya chamadzulo ndi mkazi wanga komanso mwana wake dzulo usiku ngati alendo a bwenzi lakale, akumva zowawa kuchokera ku chisudzulo pambuyo paukwati wa 30 wazaka zambiri, ndimamumvera chisoni, ali ndi chikondi pa mnzake ziyenera kuchitika. Ndikadakhala wokoma mtima kale koma osati pamlingo womwe ndikumva tsopano. Ndikuwona zowawa zambiri ndipo zimandigunda.

Sindingathe kuwonera nkhani, ndi yaiwisi kwambiri, pakadali pano malingaliro anga amathawa ndikawonera nkhani kapena mtundu wina uliwonse wa TV. Mwinanso ndimasintha m'thupi? SEKANI. Ndikuganiza kuti kupeŵa msampha wa nkhani, zoipa sizingavulaze kwakanthawi, kufunafuna mphamvu.

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Kugona kwabwino usiku watulo ndikugona ndi 11: 00 ndipo ndidadzuka pafupifupi 6: 30, ndinali ndi O ndi mkazi wanga kotero ndikuyang'anira momwe ndikumvera lero ndi masiku angapo otsatira, koma pakali pano zabwino. Ndidapeza titakondana ndidakhala nthawi yayitali ndikulumikizana naye. M'malo mwake ndimangolakalaka ndikungogwirana manja ndikukumbatirana ndipo kulumikizana kulikonse ndi mkazi wanga ndikodabwitsa.

Ngati ndimvetsetsa molondola zomwe ndakhala ndikuwerenga apa kulumikizana kwapafupi, kukumbatirana kumatulutsa oxytocin yomwe imathandiza kuthana ndi maubongo omwe amalira za kugunda kwakukulu kwa dopamine? Kulumikizana ndikwapadera kwambiri. Zinangonditengera zaka 29 kuti ndizindikire izi ... wandiweyani kapena chiyani?

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Kukhala ngati ndikugona, kugona pang'ono usiku watha ndipo abale anga onse ali kunja lero, iyi ndiye mayeso akulu. Ndili ndekha kwa maola pafupifupi 6 ndikugwiritsa ntchito kompyuta. Ngakhale ndapita masiku 24 osawonera P, uwu ndi mtundu womwe ukadapangitsa kuti ndigwiritse ntchito kale.

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Zosadandaula za dzulo zidatha komanso masana / madzulo anali bwino kuposa vuto lomwe ndinalimva m'maŵa. Tikuthokoza nonse inu pano omwe mwandithandizadi kupyola m'mavuto osavomerezeka. Ndikuganiza kuti kugona kosweka ku 3: 00am idandikhudzadi. Ndikudandaula kwambiri kuti ndimakumana ndi chaser kuyambira nthawi yabwino ndi mkazi wanga wokongola Lamlungu usiku.

Ndalankhula ndi MrsFCJL8 za zomwe zili pano komanso pa YBOP pazomwe zimayambitsa. Ndiyenera kusiya kukhala ndi O ndi a Mai kwakanthawi kuti ndingowona momwe ndikumvera. Zachidziwikire kuti gawo lalikulu loti ndisiyire PM patatha zaka zonsezi ndiloti ndikufuna kukonza ubale wanga ndi mkazi wanga, ndimayamikira zaka 29 zonse zomwe takhala m'banja (wokwatira kwambiri) ndimamukonda kwambiri, kuposa pamene tinali achichepere. Ndimakonda kwambiri kungogona pabedi pafupi ndi iye, mawu ake, kugwira kwake, kulumikizana. Ndinkakonda kucheza kwambiri 1 kapena 2 yolumikizana naye. Ndikuganiza kuti ndikugwiritsa ntchito PM ndimasowa magawo angapo m'moyo wanga?

Kuyenda wapansi / kuthamanga… kuyenda kwambiri kuposa kuthamanga kunena zowona… SEKANI. Tikuyembekeza kukankhira (mikono ikugundika) ndikukhala limodzi ndi mwana wanga pambuyo pake, kukhala kwatatu kumakhala pang'ono pang'onopang'ono komanso zopweteka, zowawa zabwino!

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Masiku abwino 28 kuyambira kusiya PM, kuzizira. Halowini ikhala masiku 30, sindikukhulupirira kuti yakhala mwachangu kwambiri. Nditayamba izi ndinalibe cholinga / masiku angapo, sindinaganizepo zazitali bwanji? Pafupifupi masiku 6 ndapeza tsamba ili ndi gulu labwino la anthu. Zikomo nonse.

Dzulo (tsiku 27) 5:00 am adadzuka ndimatabwa achikale, achikale. anaseka pamenepo, nagona tulo. Ichi chinali chokumana nacho chatsopano, palibe maloto, zopanda pake, palibe P, mwina malingaliro osakanikirana? Ndikuganiza choncho… ambiri a inu mwatumiza zochitika zofananira pafupifupi masiku 20-30 poyambiranso.

Kusangalala kukhala ndi pafupi ndi mkazi wanga kuposa momwe ndimakumbukira. Tadutsa pamalo oimikapo magalimoto kumsika titagwirana manja masanawa, sindikukumbukira nthawi yomaliza yomwe tidayenda titagwirana manja. Aliyense amati "aawwww". SEKANI . Sangalalani ndi kukhudza kwake, kununkhiza komanso mawu ake omwe amandigwira pambali panga pabedi usiku ndizodabwitsa, ndipo uwu ndi ukwati wa zaka 29. M'malo mwake ndikusangalala ndi anthu ena onse. Ndikugonanabe ma O aliwonse ndi mkazi wanga wokondeka, kuyambira Lamlungu latha pafupifupi masiku 7 apitawo. Sindinakhale ndi zotsatira zoyipa monga momwe ndimafunira PM, koma ndimangomva za 2-3 patatha masiku osungulumwa, achisoni.

Ndikumva kuposa kale kuti PM ali m'mbuyomu, sadzakhalanso gawo la moyo wanga. Ndimaseka zina mwamawonedwe a Prime Minister pa TV, zomwe zimakonda kutengeka kwambiri ndikuseka "chikhalidwe" chazikhalidwe zanga zoyipa, chinsinsi changa.

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Sizinakhale zophweka, zizindikiritso zonse zakudzipatula, ena afotokoza pano ndamva ndikumakhalabe koma pang'ono pang'ono. Ndiyenera kukuthokozani nonse omwe "ndadalira" zinthu zikavuta. Sindinakhalepo ndi masiku 30 omwe ndinali ndi chidwi chofufuza zolaula kapena kuziwona. Sindinakhazikitse pulogalamu ya blocker. Zanga zakhala zikukhazikitsanso mtima ndikukhalanso ndi malingaliro kuposa kufunitsitsa kwa P.

Ndikufuna kuuza ena zokumana nazo zabwino:

Chidaliro changa chawonekera kwambiri, ndikuyankhula ndi anthu, ndikudziwonetsa ndekha m'malo ochezera. Ndayamba kuyimba bwino komanso mokweza kutchalitchi, ndimangolira mawu ofooka. Ndidadzipeza ndekha ndikuvina ndi mkazi wanga usiku watha nyimbo zina zomwe mwana wanga wamwamuna adabweretsa pa PC. Sindimavina, nthawi zonse ndimadzidalira, zinali zabwino. Ndimutenga posachedwa. Kuyambira kumva bwino pantchito yanga. Kuchokera pamawonekedwe mmawa uno inali gawo langa lachiwiri lokonzekera m'mawa m'mawa 4 omaliza. Nthawi iliyonse ndikadzuka ndikuwona izi ndimakhala ngati ndimaseka pang'ono ndikupitiliza kugona. Kumverera bwino. Ndikudziwa bwino kudzisamalira ndekha komanso ndimavala bwino ndikamapita kokayenda. Sindinali slob kale koma nthawi zambiri sindinkawoneka bwino. Ndimadzikonda ndekha pagalasi, ngakhale sindine Brad Pitt kapena George Clooney. O, ndimakonda kukumbatira anthu popatsana moni ndi anzanga, sindinazolowere kupatula mkazi wanga ndi mwana wanga.

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Ndili m'masiku a 32 osawonera P kapena M. Iyi ndi nthawi yayitali kwambiri yomwe ndingakumbukire kuti ndimasulidwa zolaula. Komanso palibe zongolakwika zomwe ndimaloledwa ndimagwiritsa ntchito RedX pomwe aliyense ayamba kumene.

Ndingakhale ndikunama ngati nditanena kuti zonse zikuyenda bwino. Ngakhale, ndadzipereka kotheratu kuti sindidzayang'ananso P, ndipo sindidzatero, kusintha kwanga kumakhala kosokoneza nthawi zina. Ndazindikira zabwino zambiri, ndafotokozera ambiri a iwo munthawi yanga ya 30 post, koma mawonekedwe okhumudwa nawonso amasinthasintha, osati bwino.

Ndidadzuka ku loto loipa Lolemba usiku, zidakhala zowonera mwachidule zamwadzidzidzi, zolaula za porno, sindimachita nawo zowonera mwachangu. Ndidasokonezeka kwambiri ndi izi ndikupangitsa kuti ziime nthawi yomweyo. Ndili ndi mapangidwe ake zidapita mwachangu. Adayesera kuti agone. Izi sizinachitikepo m'mbuyomu panthawi yomwe akukonzanso, sanazikonde. Chifukwa chiyani izi zidachitika, ndili ndi chiyembekezo chodzimana PM?

Anali wotsimikiza kwambiri patsiku la 30 osati labwino kwambiri tsopano. Ndinali ndi O ndi mkazi wanga Sat usiku ndikudabwa ngati zonsezi ndizokhudzana ndi izo. Ndidakhala masiku 7 opanda O ndikuganiza kuti tiyenera kusiya O kwa nthawi yayitali?

Zasokonezeka kwambiri m'mawa uno. Ndimaganiza kuti ndinali kuyenda movutikira, koma mwina ndikungodzipusitsa. Palibe amene ananena kuti izi zinali zophweka.

A O omaliza omaliza omwe ndidakhala nawo ndi mkazi wanga adatulutsa mtundu wosokonekera wamavuto. Kusangalala kwambiri tsiku lotsatira ndikutsatiridwa ndi masiku 2-3 otsika. Ndimaona kuti ndimakonda kukumbatirana, kugwirana manja, kutchera mitundu. Zinthu anapiye kukumba.

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Ndikukumana bwino ndi mkazi wanga musanadye chakudya cham'mawa! Kuthamangira koyambirira mozungulira m'malo mwa mkazi wanga ndikufika pamsika wa mlimi mu umodzi mwamatawuni otsatirawa. Wow..madontho atsopano a DimSum abwino komanso otentha… simukuyembekezera kuti omwe ali kumsika wadziko lonse ku hicksville.

Kugwira ntchito zingapo zamatabwa zamatabwa masana ano mozungulira nyumba. Zabwino kukhala otanganidwa. Zabwino kwambiri kukhala otanganidwa, ndikulimbikitsani kutanganidwa! Tsopano popanda PM kwa masiku 36 kutsogolo, chinali chiyani chopusa chomwe ndimakonda kufunafuna ndikumakhala nthawi yayitali ndikuwonerera… eya… zopusa zopanda pake !!!

Erection yayikulu m'mawa uliwonse tsopano! Ndachita chidwi kwambiri. Pali ma horniness abwino kwambiri nthawi zina masana. Kuyamba kuyang'ana azimayi okongola koma mochenjera, osati ngati zinthu zogonana. Sindikusamala momwe zimakhalira ndikumawongolera, sizingadzetse chilichonse pokhapokha nditasankha. Libido yanga siyikundiyendetsa, malingaliro anga olakalaka a dopamine amangodikirira mpaka nditanena kuti zili bwino ndipo izi zidzakhala zabwino zambiri zakuthupi ndi mkazi wanga wokondeka.

Kutenga nkhuni zammawa m'mawa uliwonse tsopano! Ndili ndi zaka 50, ndipo ndimaganiza kuti ndilibe ED, matabwa ammawa awa anali atayima zaka zapitazo sindinazindikire. Palibe maulendo angapo oti mukayese usiku mwina, kugona kukukhala bwino.

Kupitabe patsogolo pa O ndi mkazi wanga. Kukonda kukhudza, kukumbatirana, kupsompsona, kugwirana manja, kupopera kosalakwa, zonse zomwe zili "mushy". Zabwino kwambiri kuti ndakhala ndikunyamula kanyumba kokongola kwazaka 29!

Kulankhula ndi anthu momasuka ndikapita kwina, ochezeka kwambiri, osati mtundu wanga wakale wolimba mtima.

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Nthawi ina ndinapita ku Montreal ndi mkazi wanga ndi mlongo wake paulendo wokagula Khrisimasi. Tidagawana chipinda chogona cha 2. Izi zinali pafupifupi zaka 16 zapitazo, mwana wanga asanabadwe. Patatha pafupifupi mausiku awiri, ndinali pabedi ndi mkazi wanga apongozi anga pabedi lina, tinawonera TV, atsikanawo adagona. Ndidadikirira ndikuyika kanema wakanema wowonera ndipo… mukudziwa. Ndinathamangira kudesiki m'mawa mwake kuti "ndikatenge pepalali" kuti ndilipireko kanema kuti isawoneke pa hotelo. Amuna, sindinathe kudikirira masiku angapo kuti ndifike kunyumba. Ndipo tsopano, masabata a 2 alibe zolaula. Sindinaganizepo za ulendowu kwa zaka zambiri koma mitundu yonse ya "ndachita chiyani ... !!!!" zokumbukira zamtundu zikukula. Osatsimikiza kuti chilichonse cha izi chikutanthauza chiyani koma sindikufunanso kuti ndizilamuliridwa ndi, pafupifupi chikomokere, kukakamizanso. Zinali zoseketsa ngakhale… tsopano. Kapena zomvetsa chisoni… kapena zoseketsa zomvetsa chisoni ???

Chivomerezo changa. Ndidayamba ulendowu kuti ndikhale wopanda PM ndi chitsogozo ndi chithandizo cha Mulungu. Mulungu wayima kumbali yanga pomwe ndikupita patsogolo masiku 37 apitawa. Ndikudziwa kuti izi sizingakhale bwino ndi anthu ena pano, koma ndikufuna kunena zowona. Sindikuganiza kuti izi zikuyenera kukhala kapena kukhala gawo la moyo wa munthu aliyense kapena zolimbikitsa zake, koma zandithandiza. Mnzanga pano, wandichenjeza, mwina kuti ndisapitilize izi. Osadandaula kuti sindilalikira kwa anthu, sindicho chinthu changa. Ndimangofuna kunena kuti ndikudaliranso Chikhulupiriro changa kuti chithandizire kupanga chisankho posintha moyo uno. Chakhala chisankho changa chaulere kusiya PM Ndangopempha Mulungu kuti andithandize. Mulungu sanandikakamize kuchita izi.

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Masiku 39 nditachira kuchokera pafupifupi "moyo" wonse wa PM ndikuphunzirabe tsiku lililonse.

Ndinali ndi gawo labwino kwambiri Loweruka lapitali madzulo ndi mkazi wanga. Ndinapewa ma O aliwonse masiku 9, popeza ndimayesa zovuta zamtundu uliwonse wa "chaser / hangover".

Sindimangoyang'ana pa ziphuphu kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga, ndimakonda kukumbatirana, komanso kulumikizana komwe ndikusangalala ndi mkazi wanga. Chifukwa chiyani sindinayamikire izi mpaka pomwe ndidayamba izi? Wopusa. Nthawi zina ndimapita masabata a 3-4 osakumbatira dona wanga wokongola. Malingaliro omwe ndimakonda Loweruka amawoneka ngati woyamba kusatulutsa zoipa pambuyo pazotsatira. Sindinakhale ndi nkhawa zambiri, kutaya chiyembekezo kapena kulakalaka. Sindinakhale "wolakalaka" zolaula kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba izi, mwina ndili ndi mwayi, kapena kupindula ndikutsimikiza kwanga kwakukulu kuti ndimenye izi.

Ndikupitilirabe m'mawa, m'mawa kwambiri. Izi ndi zaka 50, kotero chimenecho ndi chizindikiro chabwino.

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Sangalalani ndi "zosakonzekera"karezza”Gawo ndi mkazi wanga m'mawa uno adasangalala ndi O, ngakhale ndidakhala wolimba, tidayimitsidwa (mwana adadzuka) ndipo sindinasamale kuti sindinakhale ndi O. Zinali zosangalatsa kumverera. M'mbuyomu, ndikadakhala wokwiya komanso wofunafuna zolaula nthawi yoyamba.

Ndizoseketsa, kumeneko tinali Loweruka m'mawa, ine ndi mkazi wanga, timapanga chikondi chochedwa, malo abwino osinthana ndikukumbatirana. Mkazi wanga ankasangalala ndi O chifukwa cholowa bwino komanso kupukutira m'mabuku, ndikusangalala ndikumangirira. Ndipo… mwana wathu wamwamuna adadzuka ndikuthamangira m'chipindacho kupita kuchimbudzi. Tinali chete.

M'mbuyomu ndikadakhala wokhumudwa kwambiri, posakhala ndi "chiwonetsero changa". Ndikadakhala ndikupeza mwayi kwa PM tsiku lonse. Ndipo ndikadayembekezera "nthawi yanga" Loweruka usiku ngakhale ndikadakhala ndi PM masana.

Izi, zinali zodabwitsa. Ndinkadziona kuti ndine wonyada komanso wolimba komanso wosasangalatsa komanso kukonda chibwenzi chilichonse ndipo sindinkada nkhawa ndi zocheperako pang'ono. Zachidziwikire kuti ndikadakondwera chimodzi koma sichinali cholinga chokhacho chokhala nthawi yathu limodzi. Ndipo POPANDA CHITSITSO / HANGOVER, ngakhale ndinalibe O kapena wanga womaliza.

Ndapitilizabe kuganizira izi ndipo ndimadabwitsidwa momwe sindinaganizirepo zopanga zangati popanda katswiri wazinzake zitha kukhala zosatheka konse!

Tsiku lililonse lomwe limadutsa wopanda zolaula m'moyo wanga ndi mphatso yabwino kwambiri. Sindikudzimenya ndekha mpaka nthawi yonse yomwe zinatengera kuti ndithetse vutoli. Ndine wokondwa kukhala pano tsopano, ndikupulumuka pazaka zambiri ndikuchita zomwe ndidanyoza.

Zimakhala zosavuta chifukwa umayamba kudziwa zambiri zomwe zimayambitsa ngakhale zazing'ono. Ndiyenera kuti ndimadziwa nthawi zonse zomwe zimandithamangitsa ku PM sindimangofuna kukhala ndi chidziwitso ndikuchigwiritsa ntchito.

Zolakwika zikuchulukirachulukira. Tsimikizani kukhalabe opanda zolaula kwa moyo kumakhala kwamphamvu tsiku lililonse. Maganizo a chilichonse ndi aliyense bwino kuposa momwe ine ndimakumbukirira.

Kuyang'ana kusintha zina zambiri pamoyo wanga momwe chizolowezi changa chonyansa chimazirala, ndizikhala tcheru kuthana ndi zomwe zimayambitsa (ziyeso). Kuyamba kukhala womasuka kwambiri ndi zogonana zomwe zimawonetsedwa pama TV komanso makanema pa TV. Komabe ndimapewa nkhani, momwe ndingathere ndipo izi zikundipangitsa kumva bwino.

Ngakhale, kuthana ndi zitsenderezo za tsiku ndi tsiku ndi zovuta bwino.

Kukonda kulumikizana / kulumikizana ndi mkazi wanga koposa.

Mukuyembekezera kumenya masiku a 60 kenako nambala zitatu.

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Kodi ndingakonde kuwona makanema olaula. Ayi, ngakhale pang'ono. Zinthu zabwino zambiri zikuchitika m'moyo weniweni. Kusangalala ndi nthawi ndi mkazi wanga ndi mwana wanga, osati kuti sindinali nawo, koma gawo langa nthawi zonse limalakalaka kapena kulingalira za nthawi ina ndikakonzekera PM wanga. Makamaka ngati akupsinjika kapena kukwiya. Anali mankhwala anga osankhika. Ndikudziwa anthu omwe amasuta fodya kuti adekhe, amamwa zakumwa, amasuta fodya, zilizonse… ndinali ndi mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Zinkawoneka ngati zachilengedwe komanso zopanda vuto koma ndimadziwa kuti limenelo ndi bodza. Tonsefe timakhala ndi ufulu weniweni tikapeza mphamvu komanso kulimba mtima kuti tichite zomwe tikudziwa kuti tiyenera kuchita.

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Tsiku langa 58 lopanda zolaula kapena maliseche. Palibe chikhumbo chowonera zolaula, ma randy nthawi zina, ine ndi mkazi wanga sitinakhalepo ndi zokumana nazo pafupifupi 10days ndipo timakhala tikuyembekezera kwambiri chiyembekezo china chosangalatsa ngati chakazza kapena ayi.

Ndinalengeza kuti ndachiritsidwa kwathunthu, koma ndimangokhalabe ndikudandaula za izi. Ngakhale sindidzaonanso zolaula, ndikudabwa za chithunzi changa chonse chogonana. Sindimakhala "wolumikizana" nthawi zonse ndi mkazi wanga wabwino, ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimadzutsidwa kapena kuchita mantha nthawi zina zomwe sizimamugwira. Nthawi ina, kodi izi zikutanthauza kuti ndikufuna kuchita maliseche kuti ndikhale mpumulo? Kodi kuseweretsa maliseche kosavuta, komwe kumapangitsa munthu kukhala ndi malingaliro olakwika kenako nkuyamba kulakalaka zolaula? Sindidzayang'ana zolaula, nthawi zonse. Ndiye kodi izi zingobweretsa kukhumudwa?

Ichi ndichifukwa chake ndikuyesera kusuntha mphamvu zanga zakugonana kupita kwina. Sindikudziwa ngati izi zitheka? Zolaula sizidzakhalanso mbali ya moyo wanga koma zogonana zogonana, ndizotheka chiyani kwa anthu ambiri?

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Wokondwa kunena kuti palibe amene akuthamangitsana ndi mkazi wanga dzulo m'mawa! Ndikhala tcheru kuti ndithamangitse aliyense koma sindikuyembekezera. Tinagona bwino usiku watha ndikumva tcheru komanso zabwino. Ndipo mu Chikondi, kuyesera kuyang'ana pa mawu Chikondi.

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Dzulo m'mawa malingaliro abwino, odzazidwa ndi chikondi, sanakhalepo. Pofika masana ndinali wosungulumwa komanso wokhumudwa kwambiri, osati chifukwa cha kuchira kwanga, ndikuganiza. Kungopeza kupsinjika kwakanthawi, ndipo osati kumalimbana nayo nthawi zonse.

Zokhumudwitsa zanga komanso malingaliro anga opanda pake anali atamangidwa pomwe zolaula zanga zolaula zikutha mphamvu pachilimwe. Ndimamva bwino kwambiri kukhala kutali ndi chizolowezi changa chakuonera zolaula komabe ndimakhala ndi nkhawa komanso nkhawa.

Pendulum imasinthika ndipo zikhale choncho. Ndikuganiza kuti anthu ambiri omwe ndimawadziwa amapeza izi ngakhale iwo amene sanadyeredwe.

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Kudzuka m'mawa dzulo wabwino 10 min. kukumbatirana maliseche ndikumva gawo limodzi ndi mkazi wanga, tinalibe nthawi yina iliyonse, palibe vuto. Ndili mumzinda waukulu ku malo odyera ndinawona akazi okongola kwambiri, koma ndimangoyamika kukongola kwawo, kulibe "kukhumbira" monga momwe ndinkachitiradi moona mtima. Ichi ndi chimodzi mwazinthu zabwino kwambiri zakuchira kwanga. Ndimasangalala ndi akazi koma ndimawona munthu wabwino kwambiri. Nthawi zonse ndimalemekeza azimayi komabe ndimaganiza ... o eya angawoneke bwino______adzaza zopanda pake.

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Ndasangalala ndi ma O awiri ndi mkazi wanga m'masiku awiri apitawa, Lamlungu limodzi madzulo ndi m'modzi dzulo m'mawa. Izi zimapangitsa ma 2 O m'masiku 3 apitawa ndi mkazi wanga, inde. Izi zinali zabwino kwambiri ndipo ndinali wovuta kwambiri pambuyo pa iliyonse ndipo ndikadatha kangapo, kuchuluka kwakukulu kwa ejaculate nthawi iliyonse. Sizinandivute kuti ndiyime kaye O nthawi iliyonse. Kudziletsa kwabwino.

Ndikhale tcheru kuyang'anira chaser / hangover ndi momwe zimakhudzira chisangalalo changa. Ndikudziwa kuti sizimandipatsa chilimbikitso chowonera zolaula, zimachitika! Koma, ndiyenera kuyang'anira kusinthasintha / kukhumudwa / nkhawa.

Ndikufuna kukhala ndi zokumana nazo za karezza koma tiribe zomwe zikuchitika pano, kupatula 1 kapena 2 kuyesera. Zomwe zinali zabwino kwambiri kwa ine, mkazi wanga adachita O. Satsimikiza za karezza.

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Komabe sindikuyenda mopita kumayendedwe apakamwa ochepa omwe ndimakhala nawo mwina ndi zinthu zakale. Palibe zizindikiro wamba komanso zabwino komanso zotanganidwa komanso zopindulitsa. Zolakwika zikuwoneka bwino komanso ndakhala ndikulankhulana kwakutali ndi abwenzi omwe anali ozama kwambiri.

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Zoseketsa, tangodziwa kuti ndimakondana kwambiri ndi mkazi wanga tsopano kuposa nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwambiri! Gee, ndikudabwa bwanji?

Cholinga changa chachikulu ndikutha kuthandiza ena omwe ali ndi mavuto azokonda. Ngakhale kudzera m'mawu olimbikitsa ndi kugwiritsa ntchito zomwe ndili nazo. Ndangophunzira za banja laling'ono m'tawuni yaying'ono. Mkaziyo wakhumudwitsika kwenikweni pomwe amapita ku Mexico kwa milungu iwiri, adayang'ana ndikugunda pagombe yekha ndipo mwamuna wake adakhala mchipindacho, mumdima ndikuwona zolaula kwa milungu iwiri, zikuwoneka kuti ndizo zonse zomwe akuchita tsopano. Sindilalikira kwa aliyense kapena kusokoneza, koma ngati mwayi wokuthandizani wina andifunsa, ndigawana zomwe ndikudziwa.

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