Choyamba, ndikafika pano ndikusunthira kutali ndi maliseche. Ndinasiya kusuta ndudu zaka makumi awiri ndi zisanu zapitazo, ndinaganiza posakhalitsa kuti kusuta udzu ndikumwa sizinakhalenso kwa ine. Kutchova juga kunali kovuta komabe. Zakhala ndi ine kwazaka zambiri. Pomaliza ndikupeza chapamwamba pa icho. Makamaka lottery. Ndikuziwona momwe zilili. Chakudya chinali chizolowezi chachikulu. Nthawi ina kulemera kwanga kunali kukankhira mapaundi 230 pa chimango cha 5'8. Masiku ano ndimakonda kwambiri Bikram Yoga komanso zakudya zopanda mafuta ambiri. Sindingathe kuzitcha zosokoneza, ndizo zizolowezi zabwino zomwe zandibweretsa pafupi mapaundi a 160 akumva ndikuwoneka bwino. Ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi zizolowezi zingapo / zizolowezi zina ndikubwera mwanzeru ndatsikira pazomwe zimawoneka ngati mafupa omaliza, maliseche.
Maliseche akhala chizolowezi chamoyo wonse. Kaya muli pachibwenzi kapena ayi kwakhala kuli mankhwala omwe amapezeka nthawi zonse kuti alimbikitsidwe mwachangu kapena chitonthozo. Nditathetsa mavuto anga kutchova juga ndikuvomereza kuti ngati zikhala kwa ine ndatsala ndikudzifunsa, "bwanji ngati munga winawu utachotsedwa?" Ndakhala ndikudziletsa maliseche kwakanthawi pafupifupi mwezi, koma osati ndi tanthauzo lomwe tsambali limalimbikitsa. Ndapita 4, 5, mwina masiku asanu ndi limodzi panthawi ndikubwereranso kuma chubu kuti ndiwonetsetse kuti zonse zikuyenda bwino. Chilichonse chimawoneka kuti chikugwira ntchito bwino koma ndimachita chidwi ndi chiyembekezo chobwezeretsanso kwathunthu.
Patha zaka pafupifupi zisanu chilekaniro ndi chisudzulo. Ndakhala ndi zibwenzi zingapo koma makamaka sindimachita chidwi. Ndikufuna chibwenzi koma sindikuchita zambiri. Pali mbali zina m'moyo wanga zomwe zitha kugwiritsa ntchito kusintha. Ndani akudziwa zovuta zakutenga ola limodzi kapena awiri kapena atatu kuti musangalatse? Zitha kukhala ngati tsiku lomwe ndidasankha kusiya kumwa Diet Coke. Ndani angaganize kuti Diet Coke ikhoza kukhala yonyansa komanso madzi omveka bwino? Osanenapo za maubwino onse omwe adadza ndikuyamba njira yobwereranso kunyanja. Sindingadabwe izi zikasintha moyo wanga. M'malo mwake, ndimayembekezera.
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Tsiku 105: kuthana ndi zovuta zazikulu pamoyo wanga.
Ndadutsa m'chigwa cha zizolowezi zoyipa kwambiri komanso zomata kwambiri m'moyo: mowa, fodya, chamba, kutchova juga ndi zakudya zopanda thanzi. Kwa ena kutchova juga ndi uchidakwa ndi zosangulutsa chabe. Za ine anali akudya. Kuchoka kwanga pazinthu zitatu zoyambirira zomwe zidalembedwa zinali pafupifupi zaka makumi awiri ndi zisanu zapitazo. Chizolowezi china, chizolowezi chomwa mowa mwauchidakwa, chomwe ndakhala nacho kuyambira ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi khumi ndi chimodzi.
Masiku zana ndi asanu apitawo ndidasankha kusiya zolaula komanso maliseche kwathunthu. Chifukwa chodzipereka komanso thandizo lomwe ndalandira kuchokera pagululi ndatsimikiza kudzipereka kumeneku. Kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga sindikhala ndi zolaula komanso maliseche.
Chinthu choyamba chomwe ndidachita nditafika pamsonkhanowu chinali kuwerenga zaubwino wokhala wopanda PM. Ndimo momwe ndagonjetsera chizolowezi chilichonse choyipa chomwe ndidakhala nacho. Ndimaganizira za zovuta zomwe ndikukumana nazo chifukwa cha chizolowezi choipa, ndimayang'ana kwambiri phindu lomwe ndipindule ndikasiya chizolowezi choipa kenako ndikupanga chisankho cholowera komwe ndikupitilirabe. Kodi ndizosavuta chonchi? Osati nthawi zonse. Nthawi zina, nthawi zambiri, pamakhala mawu ochepa omwe amandikumbutsa za chisangalalo kapena mphotho yomwe chizolowezi choyipa chimapereka. Panali nthawi yomwe idasinthiratu kusintha kwanga komwe ndimakhala ndikutuluka ndi PM. Chisankho chotsimikizika ndi tsambali zidandithandizira kusintha.
Tsopano popeza ndidapitilira ndikuzindikira kuti chidutswa chimodzi chitha kufafaniza zonse zomwe ndakwanitsa. Ndakumanapo ndi chizolowezi chilichonse choyipa kapena chizolowezi chomwe ndagonjetsa ndipo ndatsimikiza mtima kuti sindingalole kuti izi zichitike ndi chizolowezi ichi, kapena chilichonse chomwe ndidakonda m'mbuyomu. Palibe chinthu chonga kamodzi kokha. Ndine wazaka makumi asanu ndi zisanu ndipo kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga osazindikira amachotsedwa.
Sikuti ndangokhala womasuka kuzinthu izi, ndili ndi thanzi labwino monga momwe ndakhalira kale. Ndimachita yoga tsiku lililonse. Ndimadya chakudya chomera. Ndikukhala moyo pandekha. Zikomo kwa onse omwe andithandiza. Kwa iwo omwe akumva kupanda pake komwe kungayambitsidwe ndi chizolowezi ichi, zindikirani kuti mutha kupanga chisankho cholimba ndikusiya izi ngati mungoyang'ana phindu lomwe mudzapeze pogwira chizolowezichi, yang'anani zotsatira zomwe mumabweretsa polola kupitiliza, ndikuyimira! Zowawa zolakalaka chizolowezi chanu zimachitika munthawiyo. Zindikirani kuti ndi mphindi yokha, ndipo tulukani munthawiyo. Chitani kena kake, musakhale munthawi imeneyi. Kupweteka kwanu kudzasungunuka, mudzapezeka kuti mukuchita zina ndipo mphindiyo idutsa. Nthawi iliyonse mukadutsa nthawiyo, zimakhala zosavuta ndipo nthawi zimayamba kuchepa kufikira mukafika poti zonse zimasungunuka.
Ululu wauchidakwa ukasungunuka umatsala ndi malingaliro owoneka bwino. Inu mukuzindikira kuti chithunzi si mkazi. Mumasiya kupereka malingaliro pazomwe anthu amaganiza. Mukuganiza chiyani? Ndizofunika. Mukuzindikira akazi okongola ali paliponse ndipo ndi anthu chabe. Ndayamba kubwebweta nthawi yakwana yoti ndisunthire. Zambiri zasintha m'masiku zana ndi asanu kotero sindingathe kufotokoza momwe zinthu ziliri zosiyana. Tengani. Mudzayamba kumva bwino nthawi yomweyo ndipo zimapitilirabe bwino. Zowawa zomwe ndalongosola zimadutsa mwachangu mudzadzikankha nokha chifukwa chokhala ndi chizolowezi choipa. Koma bwanji. Chizolowezi chatha ndipo muli mfulu. Zingakhale zabwinoko?
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