Mosiyana ndi chisangalalo chomwe ena ambiri amamva akafika masiku 90, malingaliro anga asintha. Mbiri ina: Ndine wazaka 54, ndiye kumapeto kwenikweni kwa msinkhu kuno; Ndinayamba kufalikira wazaka 12, pomwe Playboy ndi Penthouse sanawonetse ngakhale tsitsi lakumaso; molawirira ndidaphunzira momwe ndingapezere zolaula pa intaneti ndipo ndimakhala kawiri kawiri patsiku kuyambira pamenepo; Ndakhala wokwatiwa kawiri; Sindinakhale pachibwenzi zaka zopitilira ziwiri.
Zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndiyambe ulendo wa NoFap anali ED. Ndakhala ndikuvutika ndi izi kwa zaka zingapo. Kwa nthawi yayitali kwambiri ndimaganiza kuti ndizokhudza magwiridwe antchito komanso zotengera m'maganizo kuchokera kumaubwenzi oyipa, koma nditapeza tsambali, ndidaganiza kuti mwina ndi zolaula. Njira yokhayo yodziwira izi ndikuyesa, choncho ndidapita.
Sindinakhalepo ndi zovuta ndi vutoli. Zambiri mwa izi mwina chifukwa cha kuchuluka kwa testosterone. Ndidayenda pansi pomwepo ndipo ndakhala ndikukhalamo kuyambira nthawi imeneyo. Sindinkafuna kuyang'ana zolaula, sindinakhale ndi vuto lopewa zithunzi zoyambira, ndipo ndakhala wopanda chiyembekezo nthawi yonseyi (yomwe imayamwa kwathunthu). Ndili wolimbikitsidwa ndi zolemba zambiri pano za omwe akutenga nawo mbali pazowonjezera, chifukwa chake sindimakhudzidwa kwambiri. Ndimayembekezerabe kuti tsiku lina m'mawa ndidzadzuka ndikudzipanikiza.
Pambuyo pake, izi zakhala zosangalatsa kwambiri. Ndalandira zida zina zowonjezera zomwe ena atenga nawo mbali, monga kusinkhasinkha (kwa masiku pafupifupi 40 pakati) ndi mvula yozizira (yomwe ndimadziwa kuti imasangalala kuposa mvula yotentha), komanso kuyendera tsamba lino pafupipafupi kuti ndikalimbikitse. M'masiku oyambilira, ndimamvadi kuti ndili ndi mphamvu zowonjezera zomwe zimandilola kuyang'ana kwambiri pazinthu zomwe ndimafuna kuchita. Sindinganene ngati ndalamazo zatha kapena ndangozizolowera. Ndazindikira nkhawa yaying'ono yocheperako (Ndine wamanyazi kwambiri ndi akazi.), Koma palibe chomwe chachitika. Sabata yapitayi kapena apo, ndakhala ndikulakalaka kupanga china chake, koma sindikudziwa momwe ndingachitire.
Sindikudziwa zomwe zimachitika tsopano popeza ndatha masiku 90. Sindikulakalaka kujambula kapena kuyang'ana zolaula, koma nthawi yomweyo, ndimamva kuti ndikutsutsana ndi izi kukhala zotseguka.
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